Unhappy Anniversary

Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha nor do I own "Unhappy Anniversary" by Vitamin C

Hey peeps, I'm really sorry for the huge blockage I've been having with my other stories: Bra, Happy New Years Not, Crossdresser, Dates – Good Fruit, and others. I promise I'll be writing, because I believe I've found my inspiration – music! So I'll keep listening and I'll keep writing, so please hang in there my loyal fans! And I hope you enjoy this one!

You ask me, how am I?
Well I'm still standing, aren't I?
That's something, that's one thing
That's gone my way

I gasped when I saw him. He stood there, not even looking like he aged a year. I was speechless when he said he just wanted to come by to check on me. I had promised to keep the well open for him, but I never expected for him to actually use it again. So we sat by the sacred tree, neither of us really jumping at the chance to talk. But eventually we started, and I don't even know how it started, but we kept going on.

It's so hard, to go on
Like everything's okay now

I didn't want to bring up the topic of her. He knew I really wouldn't want to talk about it. But in the back of my mind, I knew that she was the only thing on his mind. It really couldn't be helped. Of course, he did promise her. After we had gotten the jewel, I insisted that Inuyasha use it on the wish he wanted. And she was that wish.

When inside, I still cry
For yesterday

It happened so fast, when he left that is. I didn't want to think about it, but just in his presence, I could feel the guilt he still had. It was Wednesday, August 5, 2000, exactly 1 year when he left. A whole year ago, he decided and we split. I didn't think he would remember, but that was for the best.

This is my unhappy anniversary
But I lie saying it's just another day
This is my unhappy anniversary, oh

Surprisingly, he didn't even mention the date. It was okay if he didn't remember. Like I had said, it was probably for the best. I didn't want to cry, I wanted to show him that I was stronger, and that I could take this. But it really was kind of hard. We even laughed a few times, talking about this and that. Miroku and Sango had gotten married, they decided they would travel together, they left about 2 months before Inuyasha left. Shippou wanted to stay with me, but I insisted that he go spend time with his newly found friend, Sakura. She was a pretty sweet girl, and I knew Shippou and her would absolutely love each other eventually. I wonder how they were doing. So I brought that up, Inuyasha told me that they were definitely doing fine and Shippou couldn't be happier. Couldn't be happier? So I guess my leaving was okay with everyone. Either that or Inuyasha was keeping that part to himself.

I know it's so stupid
To still feel broken hearted
I wonder if you know
Just how much I hurt

So later on we went inside and got some food. Of course, he still liked ramen. So I made him it while he continued to talk, doing as much as possible to avoid the subject of her. Not that I cared or anything. But I was still so curious. Why did he leave me? Why did he go off with her? I had promised him and he had promised her. Why didn't I matter as much as she did? Did he...did he know how much that hurt me?

I drink up and think of
A toast to numb the hours

Okay, it was kinda of selfish I guess, just to think of myself. He wanted it, so he did it, not matter what. So I decided to tell him everything. How I loved him. What happened after he left, everything. It turns out, he did actually care. After I showed him the scars all over my arms and stomach, he suddenly fell into guilt. I didn't mean for him to feel guilty. It was just, the only release I could feel. But that was over 7 months ago. And I was sure I was over my "cutting" phase, haven't picked up a knife since. I just use pins and needles every now and then.

To get through, without you
Is so hard today

As we continued to talk, the subject of the date seemed to draw closer, but I didn't want to be the one to say anything. One that day, one year ago, it was like my heart rose into the heavens, but then was shot down by hell's own fire soon after. He had brought me out to the sacred tree, sat me down, and then just…confessed. He confessed everything to me, he didn't even seem scared. I was so nervous, I didn't seem to get my words in before he told me his…other news.

Cause it's my unhappy anniversary
But I lie saying it's just another day
This is my unhappy anniversary, oh

Why did he do that to me?

Wishing you were here
Same time next year

Why didn't he just stay with me?

Wishing you were here
Same time next year

Why? Why her?

And now it's near midnight
A few minutes and I
Return to, get back to
My former life

After we finished eating, I decided that we take a small walk. The shrine was still up and running, but we had expanded over the year, buying a small new piece of land right next to the shrine. My grandfather had fallen ill, so we didn't really have time to get started building. So it was still filled with trees and tall grass. It was only an acre, but it was enough to walk around in. So, beside each other once again, we started to talk again. I stayed strong and to my surprise I didn't even shed a tear. My smile stayed put on my face, I was just happy to see him and to know that he still remembered me.

Pretending our ending
Was not so bad I know that
It's time to escape you
Well until next year

But soon the sun began to set and he said it was time to go. She was waiting for him and he didn't want to keep her waiting. I wanted to just lunge myself at him, but a small hug was all it took. I could have sworn I felt a wet spot on my shoulder when we hugged, but then again, it had just rained yesterday, maybe there was still some left on the leaves above us. When we pulled away, we both smiled to each other. We walked back to the shrine and to the well house. We said our goodbyes and in an instant he was gone. I think that's when it hit me.

When it's my unhappy anniversary
But I lie saying it's just another day
This is my unhappy anniversary
But I smile like it's just another day
It's just my unhappy anniversary
It's just my unhappy anniversary

He didn't remember what today was.

So I would just forget.

Until next year.