Dream a Little Dream
By Siren
Yes, I realize it's been forever since I updated. A lot has been going on and I'm swamped with homework. Anyway, here's the next chapter. I don't own 'Kiss Me Fool' or 'Bye Bye Boyfriend' by Fefe Dobson. Enjoy! *promptly faints*
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"You were safe with me. But you're never going to be with me ever again. Now get out and don't come near me."
Do you know how it feels to cut yourself off from the one you love?
It hurts quite a bit.
I hoped and prayed that last night was just a dream and that when I woke up, I'd be fine. But like always, I woke up in a torrent of heartache. I open my eyes and quickly shut them because of the sun. My eyes are sore and puffy from all of that crying I did last night. Speaking of which…I look to my side and see Astaider and Hodoer curled up next to me. My two closest friends…
I close my eyes and curl up under the blankets, snuggling against them. At least I know that I have some friends I can depend on. My mind quickly goes over last night's events, trying to sort it out and make sense of it all. I just don't understand it. I don't understand how he could betray me. I love him, and he loves me. Or at least I thought he did. I was so sure… Damn you Olos. Damn you for making me doubt everything that I was once so sure of. I may have embarrassed him and gotten him kicked out of Gondor, but this is more than enough to qualify as revenge.
"Tell me who I should be to make you love me…"
I jump at the sound of my radio blaring, as do the two she-elves. "What in Middle Earth is that?" I get out of the bed and walk into my room to see Avarier looking at my radio with wide, frightened eyes. "I just pushed a button," he says apologetically. 'Fuck your apologies,' I think to myself. I go over to turn off the radio and silence Fefe Dobson's melodious voice.
"Tell me, what does it mean to be alone?"
Oh, if she only knew. I feel Avarier's eyes on me as I turn the radio off and silence fills the room once again. And what an uncomfortable silence it is. The tension is so thick, I feel like I'm suffocating. "What was that?" Hodoer asks, breaking the silence. I turn away from the radio and Avarier. "That would be my radio. It plays music." Astaider blinks and rushes over to it, touching it lightly. "Are there people inside? I heard singing." I frown and look at the machine. "No. It's just a machine." Astaider continues poking and prodding at the machine until she accidentally turns on one of my favorite radio stations. Orgy blares through the speakers, causing them to wince.
"Cause fucking you is strange, and adored by me throughout."
"Oh! Stitches! I love this song!" I shout and grin. I see them glaring at the machine and I turn it off with a pout. "What a vulgar song," Legolas says from the corner, roused from sleep. I nod. "I know, hence the reason that I love it so much." Hodoer chuckles and ruffles my hair. "My vulgar little mortal," she says with a smile. I return the smile and see Avarier looking at me from the corner of my eye. I turn slightly and lock my gaze with his. In an instant I see all of the remorse he's feeling, and feel my anger waver slightly. It's as though I can hear him apologizing to me, begging for forgiveness. Oh God, I feel my resolve begin to crack.
'You're safe with me.'
He made me feel guilty two nights ago, when he was the one who betrayed me. He betrayed me. He helped Olos. Reminding myself of this, I quickly feel my resolve build up, along with the walls now surrounding my heart. Avarier must notice the change in me, because he opens his mouth to say something but Legolas cuts him off. "We're going searching for Olos today. Avarier, you'll stay here with Astaider and Hodoer. Siren, you can come with me." I grin and clap my hands. "Yay! Hunting for bad guys!" Legolas shakes his head. "Wrong. You're just going to be the bait. I'll do the fighting." I pout and cross my arms, but don't argue. At least it'll get me away from Avarier for a little while.
"Fine, fine. You win. Just let me get changed. I'll meet you outside." Legolas nods and I notice the look of jealousy that Avarier gives the elf. Oh well, it's his own fault. I walk back into my bedroom and grab a pair of jeans and a long-sleeved, red shirt. I turn around and find myself face-to-face with Avarier. "I don't want you to go," he says, his eyes boring into mine. The intensity in them is astounding, and for a moment I'm at a loss of what to say. "It's dangerous out there and you're still wounded. You should stay here. I'll go with Legolas." I frown and snap out of my stupor. "We did that, remember? You ended up helping Olos and betraying me, thereby ending our relationship." Avarier flinches and looks away. "Siren, I swear to Eru, I'm so---" I brush past him, not listening to him. "Save it, Avarier. An apology isn't going to change what you did."
I leave the room and walk into the bathroom. I quickly get changed, brush my hair and put on my sneakers. I grab a jacket and lean over the railing. "Mom! I'm taking a nap!" I shout downstairs. "Okay, honey! I'll check on you in a little bit, okay?" I go back to my room, finding Legolas waiting by my window. A gust of wind blows through the room and I can't help but shiver. Hodoer and Astaider both smile encouragingly, and I smile back faintly. "We'll be back in a little bit," I assure them. Legolas starts to crawl out of the window.
"Siren, wait."
I turn around and see Avarier approach me. He holds out his hand. In it is the dagger that I had taken from Olos. "Legolas is the best weapon you can hope for, but I'd feel better knowing that you were armed." I take the weapon, feeling it's heavy weight in my hand. Clutching it tightly, I feel as though I'm suddenly back in the woods, trapped beneath Olos as he held this very dagger. It was raised above his head, poised and ready to be buried in my flesh. Feeling a shudder roll down my spine, I shake myself out of my reverie. I meet Avarier's eyes and nod. "Thanks." Holding the dagger, I turn to the window and take Legolas's hand. He wraps an arm around my waist and jumps to the ground. He lands gracefully enough, despite the extra weight he's carrying.
"Let's go," Legolas says and makes his way to the woods. I nod and follow. Glancing back at my bedroom window, I see Avarier looking down at me worriedly. Feeling my heart tug painfully, I look away and jog to catch up with Legolas. Avarier brought this upon himself. I have no reason to feel guilty.
As Legolas and I walk through the woods towards Olos's camping spot, I can't help but be a little distracted. Why won't my heart let me concentrate? "Siren?" I look up at Legolas sheepishly. "Yeah?" The elf stares at me for a second before continuing. "You still feel something for Avarier, do you not?" Damn, is it that obvious? "Well, yes. I can't just make those feelings disappear." Legolas's eyes narrow. "But he betrayed you. He could have gotten you killed." I feel something churn inside of me and look away. "I know that, I do. But I love him, Legolas. I spent a year without him and it was hell. And now that I have him back…I can't just make these feelings go away." I hear him sigh, and wonder if it's because he's disappointed with me.
"Forgive me, mellon-nin. I have never been in love and so I do not understand what you are going through. I imagine that it must be difficult for you." He has no idea. "Being taken away from him was difficult. Leaving him is going to be brutal, but I'll survive. I always do." I see Legolas holding out his hand to me and I take it. He squeezes it reassuringly, and we continue our hunt.
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"Legolas, we've been searching for hours! Let's face it, Olos is gone."
I trudge after the elf, feeling more than a little bit cranky. We found his campsite, and it was deserted. He must have known that we were coming. Either that or he's having fun toying with us. "We'll search for another hour and then we'll go back." I glare at him and follow. "Fine. But I think that we'd have found him by now if we had taken Fancy." Legolas stops walking and turns back to me. "Your steed?" I nod. "Yes, caption dumbass. The barn is half an hour away from here. I can have her tacked up and ready to go in less than ten minutes." Legolas walks over to me. "Why didn't you tell me this before?" I shrug. "You didn't ask." He closes his eyes, containing his anger. "We'll go to the stables, tack up your horse and search for Olos." I grin and clap my hands. "Goodie!"
I turn and begin to lead the way to the stables, feeling quite happy. Seeing my horse always did raise my spirits. As we walk towards our destination, I feel a shiver run down my spine. "Legolas, do you hear anything?" I ask. "No. Why?" I shake my head. "No reason." We appear in front of the stables, and I see my horse in the front pasture. I can't help the smile that spreads across my face at the sight of her. "Fancy!" My horse's ears perk up and she looks over at us. She turns and begins walking towards the gate, her eyes bright. "There's my girl!" I say and hear Legolas chuckle behind me. Just as I reach the gate, I hear Legolas shout and pull me away. "What the fu---"
I hear a whizzing sound and watch in horror as an arrow embeds itself in Fancy's withers. "FANCY!" She rears and bucks a bit, twisting her neck in a desperate attempt to escape the arrow. "NO!" I scream and struggle against Legolas. I feel my heart break as my horse collapses. I break free of Legolas's hold and run to her, yanking the gate open. I run to her side and fall to my knees, assessing the damage. The arrow hasn't gone deep, thank God. But she's losing blood and can't afford to stay on her side for long. I stroke her cheek and see her brown eyes looking up at me. "It's okay, baby-girl. It's okay," I babble.
"My, my. What a touching scene."
I look up and see Olos leaning against the barn doors. His bow is slung over his shoulder, along with a quiver of arrows. My blood burns with a rage I've never felt before, and I grip the dagger tightly. Olos smirks and looks over at my horse. He puts a hand over his mouth, feigning shock. "Oh goodness! That poor beast is going to die without attention!" He looks to me and grins coldly. "Poor Siren. How many friends are you going to lose?"
"Olos! That is enough!"
Olos looks over at Legolas, nonplussed. "Oh be quiet, Thranduilion. It's not your time yet." I ignore their banter and look to my horse. She's fading quickly and it's all my fault. Feeling my heart pound, I turn my eyes to the one who did this. All rational thought is swept from my mind as I rise to my feet. Olos takes notice of me and lifts an eyebrow. "And what do you think you're doing? Shouldn't you be helping your precious mare?" My horse will be fine, I'll see to that. But I can't say the same for him. He must pay. My revenge must be satisfied. Olos must be punished.
Die. Die. Die.
Never taking my eyes off of him, I let the rest of the world fade away. All that exists is the unbridled rage I feel.
"Oh, I see I've made you angry. And what are you going to do about it?"
He must die.
I run through the gate and towards him. I forget that elves have speed that surpass my own. I forget about his strength and heightened senses. All that matters to me is revenge. Olos steps away from me, but seems to have forgotten about my weapon. I let out a scream and slash at him. I feel a burst of satisfaction when he cries out. "Siren!" I stare at the dagger. It's embedded in Olos's hip, all the way to the hilt. Olos's eyes follow mine to his wound, and his eyes widen in shock. "You…" He looks to me and his eyes quickly fill with anger. "Bitch!" he hisses and lashes out at me. His hand wraps around my throat and squeezes, choking me. But my grip on the dagger doesn't lessen. He must pay. He must die.
"Siren!"
Legolas runs over to us and in the blink of an eye he strikes Olos, sending him sprawling on the ground. Olos begins to sit up, but Legolas put his foot on his chest and holds him down. I stare at the dark elf as he writhes in a mixture of fury and pain. I walk over to him and get down on one knee. I grip the hilt of the dagger and tug. Olos shouts in pain as the dagger is pulled from him. I stare at the wound and the blood that quickly escapes it. As I stare at the blood in sick fascination, I feel another burst of satisfaction. I hope the wound is fatal.
I hear a soft nicker and quickly rush back to Fancy's side. "Legolas!" I shout for help as I watch my horse begin to fade. Legolas appears by my side and assesses the situation. "We must get her to her feet. She needs a healer." I nod and run back to the gate. I grab her halter and lead rope and slip it onto her. "I'll pull. Legolas, push her from the other side, but please be gentle." Legolas positions himself on the opposite side of me and slides his hands under her withers. Stroking Fancy's cheek, I smile slightly. "You're gonna be okay." Looking back to Legolas, I nod. I stand up and begin to pull while he pushes. Fancy struggles to stand, sometimes letting out what sounds like a shriek of pain. Panting and pulling, I feel the tears begin to build behind my eyes. "Please," I choke out.
Fancy begins to stand, but falters, falling back down. I let out a cry of frustration and continue to pull. "Fancy, please!" I take a breath and pull as hard as I can. I hear Legolas grunt as he pushes. To my relief, Fancy finally stands, though she's shaking a bit. I let out a choked sob and throw my arms around her neck. She's breathing heavily and shaking a little, but at least she's still alive. I feel Legolas's hand on my shoulder and quickly pull him into a hug. "Thank you, thank you, thank you," I repeat. He hugs me back, then pulls away and points. I look over to the gate and see Olos bound with rope. He's watching us with fury in his eyes, and I smile slightly. "Told you so," I say, and stroke Fancy's neck.
"Legolas, take Olos back to my house. Put him somewhere, and do not leave his side. Not until we figure out how to get him back to Middle Earth. I'll get a healer for Fancy." Legolas nods and walks over to Olos. He picks him up roughly and drags him back towards the woods. Once they disappear from my sight, I lead Fancy over to the barn and open the door. I close the doors behind me and toss the lead rope over her neck, knowing she won't run away. I quickly walk over to the phone and call the vet, saying that some dumbass hunter accidentally shot my horse. Once the vet told me that she'd be over in a few minutes, I hung up and turned to my horse. She appears a bit more stable now and nickers softly.
I walk over to her and hold out my hand. She takes a step forward and nuzzles it, her hot breath tickling my palm. "I don't know what I would've done if I lost you," I whisper. Fancy takes another step forward and begins to nibble on my shoulder. "I'll make sure that you'll get all better. You'll be rolling in the dirt again in no time," I promise her as I stroke her cheek.
After the vet arrived and treated Fancy for her injury, I went home. I snuck into the house and went up to my room. Avarier and the others sprung to his feet the second they saw me. "By the Valar, are you all right?" I look down at my clothes, walk into my bedroom and grab a pair of pajamas. I walk over to the door and feel Avarier's hand on my arm. "Siren, are you all right?" It's his fault that Fancy's hurt. His and Olos's. Feeling a spark of anger, I pull my arm away and slap him. "Go to hell," I growl and leave. I walk to the bathroom and lock the door behind me. I turn on the shower and remove my clothes. They're covered in dirt and Fancy's blood. My poor Fancy…
I step into the shower, shuddering at the sensation of the hot water against my skin. I look down and watch the blood and dirt disappear down the drain. Closing my eyes, I lean against the wall and begin to cry.
I've been lying
To keep you from this pain
Now you're crying
And to know that I'm to blame
And I'll miss you
But it's over now
"You may love Siren, but part of you wants to punish her for what she did." Olos's words echo in my mind as I cry. If Avarier wanted to punish me, than he has succeeded. I almost lost my horse today. My precious friend. It's Avarier fault that Fancy's hurt. Olos may have fired the arrow, but Avarier let him. Damn them both!
I'm so sorry
That it had to be this way
Please don't hate me
But there's nothing you can say
To change my mind
I've got to go away
Once I'm clean, I get dressed and go back to my room. I walk over to my bedroom and dump the soiled clothes in the hamper. "Siren, what happened? Are you hurt?" I pick something up from the hamper and turn around. I hold it up so that Avarier can see it. "This is the arrow that nearly killed my horse," I say in a hollow, cold, voice. Avarier's beautiful eyes widen in shock. "Oh Eru, Siren---" "Olos shot my horse. He shot Fancy and she could have died. But Legolas and I caught him and we're going to find a way to send him back to Middle Earth. And God willing, you'll go with him." Avarier pales and his eyes flood with regret. I regret ever knowing the son of a bitch.
"I'm going to tell everyone about how you betrayed me. And hopefully, they'll banish you from Gondor." Smiling bitterly, I continue. "I may love you, Avarier, but part of me wants to punish you for what you did." I feel a bit of satisfaction at the look of recognition on his face. "Siren, I am responsible for much of your pain, I know this. But please don't think that I don't love you." I throw the arrow at his feet. "I want you out of my sight before I kill you with that," I say venomously.
The guy that I fell for
He wanted more and more
"Siren, please! Let's at least talk! I can explain everything!" I tense and feel anger consume me. "Explain?" I turn around and glare at the man I once loved with such hatred that even I'm shocked. "Explain to me how you wanted to punish me! Explain to me how you let Olos escape so that he could nearly kill my horse! Explain to me what I did to invoke your betrayal! Explain to me just why you're such a sadistic bastard! Yes, explain everything to me, Avarier!" I feel hatred begin to push away any love I felt for Avarier.
Bye bye boyfriend
It's time that I'd be on my way
Bye bye boyfriend
I used to like the way you said
Baby back it up
Lay down and work
"I'm sorry," he says with such gentle sincerity that I'm silent for a moment. And then I laugh. I laugh until there are tears in my eyes and my friends are looking at me worriedly. "He's sorry," I say, putting a hand to my stomach. "He's sorry!" I lean against the wall, the idiotic smile still plastered on my face. "Well sorry isn't good enough for what you've put me through!" I shout angrily. Avarier flinches, but I don't care. "He could have killed me today! He could have killed my family! There isn't an apology in the world that's good enough for what you've done to me!" I see Avarier look away, his heart breaking. I hope it splits in two!
You never put the effort into the things that really counted
A word here, a kiss there
Could change the way it's turning out
You work so hard at all the things I never really cared about
How hands work and fingers moving, eyes wide shut
And baby I'm lonely
Though you're right in front of me
You controlled me
That was the girl I used to be
I'm not myself
Well it's over now
"Siren…you're right. Nothing I can say can make up for what I did. And I am sorry. But please don't hate me. Don't tell me that you don't love me, because I don't think I'd survive that," he whispers brokenly. Oh no he won't. He won't turn this around and make me feel pity for him! "Than I guess you're going to have to die, because I do hate you, Avarier. Right now, I hate you as much as I hate Olos, if not more. I never loved Olos. I never let him get close to me. But you were. You were closer to me than anyone ever was. And you hurt me." I see the tears welling in his eyes, and I walk over to him.
Bye bye boyfriend
It's time that I'd be on my way
Bye bye boyfriend
I used to like the way you said
Baby back it up
Lay down and work
"Avarier." I trace his cheek and rest my head against his chest. I hear his pulse quicken and sense the hope that's flaring inside of him. His arms wrap around me shakily, but I don't really notice or care. "That crack inside your fuckin' heart is me," I whisper and shove him away from me. He looks at me in shock and I walk over to the door. Astaider and Hodoer stare at me in utter shock, and I leave the room, closing the door behind me. Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned.
It was fun but it couldn't last forever
Bye bye pretty boy
It's time to pack it up
Baby 'cause it's over now
2 Be Continued
By Siren
Yes, I realize it's been forever since I updated. A lot has been going on and I'm swamped with homework. Anyway, here's the next chapter. I don't own 'Kiss Me Fool' or 'Bye Bye Boyfriend' by Fefe Dobson. Enjoy! *promptly faints*
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"You were safe with me. But you're never going to be with me ever again. Now get out and don't come near me."
Do you know how it feels to cut yourself off from the one you love?
It hurts quite a bit.
I hoped and prayed that last night was just a dream and that when I woke up, I'd be fine. But like always, I woke up in a torrent of heartache. I open my eyes and quickly shut them because of the sun. My eyes are sore and puffy from all of that crying I did last night. Speaking of which…I look to my side and see Astaider and Hodoer curled up next to me. My two closest friends…
I close my eyes and curl up under the blankets, snuggling against them. At least I know that I have some friends I can depend on. My mind quickly goes over last night's events, trying to sort it out and make sense of it all. I just don't understand it. I don't understand how he could betray me. I love him, and he loves me. Or at least I thought he did. I was so sure… Damn you Olos. Damn you for making me doubt everything that I was once so sure of. I may have embarrassed him and gotten him kicked out of Gondor, but this is more than enough to qualify as revenge.
"Tell me who I should be to make you love me…"
I jump at the sound of my radio blaring, as do the two she-elves. "What in Middle Earth is that?" I get out of the bed and walk into my room to see Avarier looking at my radio with wide, frightened eyes. "I just pushed a button," he says apologetically. 'Fuck your apologies,' I think to myself. I go over to turn off the radio and silence Fefe Dobson's melodious voice.
"Tell me, what does it mean to be alone?"
Oh, if she only knew. I feel Avarier's eyes on me as I turn the radio off and silence fills the room once again. And what an uncomfortable silence it is. The tension is so thick, I feel like I'm suffocating. "What was that?" Hodoer asks, breaking the silence. I turn away from the radio and Avarier. "That would be my radio. It plays music." Astaider blinks and rushes over to it, touching it lightly. "Are there people inside? I heard singing." I frown and look at the machine. "No. It's just a machine." Astaider continues poking and prodding at the machine until she accidentally turns on one of my favorite radio stations. Orgy blares through the speakers, causing them to wince.
"Cause fucking you is strange, and adored by me throughout."
"Oh! Stitches! I love this song!" I shout and grin. I see them glaring at the machine and I turn it off with a pout. "What a vulgar song," Legolas says from the corner, roused from sleep. I nod. "I know, hence the reason that I love it so much." Hodoer chuckles and ruffles my hair. "My vulgar little mortal," she says with a smile. I return the smile and see Avarier looking at me from the corner of my eye. I turn slightly and lock my gaze with his. In an instant I see all of the remorse he's feeling, and feel my anger waver slightly. It's as though I can hear him apologizing to me, begging for forgiveness. Oh God, I feel my resolve begin to crack.
'You're safe with me.'
He made me feel guilty two nights ago, when he was the one who betrayed me. He betrayed me. He helped Olos. Reminding myself of this, I quickly feel my resolve build up, along with the walls now surrounding my heart. Avarier must notice the change in me, because he opens his mouth to say something but Legolas cuts him off. "We're going searching for Olos today. Avarier, you'll stay here with Astaider and Hodoer. Siren, you can come with me." I grin and clap my hands. "Yay! Hunting for bad guys!" Legolas shakes his head. "Wrong. You're just going to be the bait. I'll do the fighting." I pout and cross my arms, but don't argue. At least it'll get me away from Avarier for a little while.
"Fine, fine. You win. Just let me get changed. I'll meet you outside." Legolas nods and I notice the look of jealousy that Avarier gives the elf. Oh well, it's his own fault. I walk back into my bedroom and grab a pair of jeans and a long-sleeved, red shirt. I turn around and find myself face-to-face with Avarier. "I don't want you to go," he says, his eyes boring into mine. The intensity in them is astounding, and for a moment I'm at a loss of what to say. "It's dangerous out there and you're still wounded. You should stay here. I'll go with Legolas." I frown and snap out of my stupor. "We did that, remember? You ended up helping Olos and betraying me, thereby ending our relationship." Avarier flinches and looks away. "Siren, I swear to Eru, I'm so---" I brush past him, not listening to him. "Save it, Avarier. An apology isn't going to change what you did."
I leave the room and walk into the bathroom. I quickly get changed, brush my hair and put on my sneakers. I grab a jacket and lean over the railing. "Mom! I'm taking a nap!" I shout downstairs. "Okay, honey! I'll check on you in a little bit, okay?" I go back to my room, finding Legolas waiting by my window. A gust of wind blows through the room and I can't help but shiver. Hodoer and Astaider both smile encouragingly, and I smile back faintly. "We'll be back in a little bit," I assure them. Legolas starts to crawl out of the window.
"Siren, wait."
I turn around and see Avarier approach me. He holds out his hand. In it is the dagger that I had taken from Olos. "Legolas is the best weapon you can hope for, but I'd feel better knowing that you were armed." I take the weapon, feeling it's heavy weight in my hand. Clutching it tightly, I feel as though I'm suddenly back in the woods, trapped beneath Olos as he held this very dagger. It was raised above his head, poised and ready to be buried in my flesh. Feeling a shudder roll down my spine, I shake myself out of my reverie. I meet Avarier's eyes and nod. "Thanks." Holding the dagger, I turn to the window and take Legolas's hand. He wraps an arm around my waist and jumps to the ground. He lands gracefully enough, despite the extra weight he's carrying.
"Let's go," Legolas says and makes his way to the woods. I nod and follow. Glancing back at my bedroom window, I see Avarier looking down at me worriedly. Feeling my heart tug painfully, I look away and jog to catch up with Legolas. Avarier brought this upon himself. I have no reason to feel guilty.
As Legolas and I walk through the woods towards Olos's camping spot, I can't help but be a little distracted. Why won't my heart let me concentrate? "Siren?" I look up at Legolas sheepishly. "Yeah?" The elf stares at me for a second before continuing. "You still feel something for Avarier, do you not?" Damn, is it that obvious? "Well, yes. I can't just make those feelings disappear." Legolas's eyes narrow. "But he betrayed you. He could have gotten you killed." I feel something churn inside of me and look away. "I know that, I do. But I love him, Legolas. I spent a year without him and it was hell. And now that I have him back…I can't just make these feelings go away." I hear him sigh, and wonder if it's because he's disappointed with me.
"Forgive me, mellon-nin. I have never been in love and so I do not understand what you are going through. I imagine that it must be difficult for you." He has no idea. "Being taken away from him was difficult. Leaving him is going to be brutal, but I'll survive. I always do." I see Legolas holding out his hand to me and I take it. He squeezes it reassuringly, and we continue our hunt.
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"Legolas, we've been searching for hours! Let's face it, Olos is gone."
I trudge after the elf, feeling more than a little bit cranky. We found his campsite, and it was deserted. He must have known that we were coming. Either that or he's having fun toying with us. "We'll search for another hour and then we'll go back." I glare at him and follow. "Fine. But I think that we'd have found him by now if we had taken Fancy." Legolas stops walking and turns back to me. "Your steed?" I nod. "Yes, caption dumbass. The barn is half an hour away from here. I can have her tacked up and ready to go in less than ten minutes." Legolas walks over to me. "Why didn't you tell me this before?" I shrug. "You didn't ask." He closes his eyes, containing his anger. "We'll go to the stables, tack up your horse and search for Olos." I grin and clap my hands. "Goodie!"
I turn and begin to lead the way to the stables, feeling quite happy. Seeing my horse always did raise my spirits. As we walk towards our destination, I feel a shiver run down my spine. "Legolas, do you hear anything?" I ask. "No. Why?" I shake my head. "No reason." We appear in front of the stables, and I see my horse in the front pasture. I can't help the smile that spreads across my face at the sight of her. "Fancy!" My horse's ears perk up and she looks over at us. She turns and begins walking towards the gate, her eyes bright. "There's my girl!" I say and hear Legolas chuckle behind me. Just as I reach the gate, I hear Legolas shout and pull me away. "What the fu---"
I hear a whizzing sound and watch in horror as an arrow embeds itself in Fancy's withers. "FANCY!" She rears and bucks a bit, twisting her neck in a desperate attempt to escape the arrow. "NO!" I scream and struggle against Legolas. I feel my heart break as my horse collapses. I break free of Legolas's hold and run to her, yanking the gate open. I run to her side and fall to my knees, assessing the damage. The arrow hasn't gone deep, thank God. But she's losing blood and can't afford to stay on her side for long. I stroke her cheek and see her brown eyes looking up at me. "It's okay, baby-girl. It's okay," I babble.
"My, my. What a touching scene."
I look up and see Olos leaning against the barn doors. His bow is slung over his shoulder, along with a quiver of arrows. My blood burns with a rage I've never felt before, and I grip the dagger tightly. Olos smirks and looks over at my horse. He puts a hand over his mouth, feigning shock. "Oh goodness! That poor beast is going to die without attention!" He looks to me and grins coldly. "Poor Siren. How many friends are you going to lose?"
"Olos! That is enough!"
Olos looks over at Legolas, nonplussed. "Oh be quiet, Thranduilion. It's not your time yet." I ignore their banter and look to my horse. She's fading quickly and it's all my fault. Feeling my heart pound, I turn my eyes to the one who did this. All rational thought is swept from my mind as I rise to my feet. Olos takes notice of me and lifts an eyebrow. "And what do you think you're doing? Shouldn't you be helping your precious mare?" My horse will be fine, I'll see to that. But I can't say the same for him. He must pay. My revenge must be satisfied. Olos must be punished.
Die. Die. Die.
Never taking my eyes off of him, I let the rest of the world fade away. All that exists is the unbridled rage I feel.
"Oh, I see I've made you angry. And what are you going to do about it?"
He must die.
I run through the gate and towards him. I forget that elves have speed that surpass my own. I forget about his strength and heightened senses. All that matters to me is revenge. Olos steps away from me, but seems to have forgotten about my weapon. I let out a scream and slash at him. I feel a burst of satisfaction when he cries out. "Siren!" I stare at the dagger. It's embedded in Olos's hip, all the way to the hilt. Olos's eyes follow mine to his wound, and his eyes widen in shock. "You…" He looks to me and his eyes quickly fill with anger. "Bitch!" he hisses and lashes out at me. His hand wraps around my throat and squeezes, choking me. But my grip on the dagger doesn't lessen. He must pay. He must die.
"Siren!"
Legolas runs over to us and in the blink of an eye he strikes Olos, sending him sprawling on the ground. Olos begins to sit up, but Legolas put his foot on his chest and holds him down. I stare at the dark elf as he writhes in a mixture of fury and pain. I walk over to him and get down on one knee. I grip the hilt of the dagger and tug. Olos shouts in pain as the dagger is pulled from him. I stare at the wound and the blood that quickly escapes it. As I stare at the blood in sick fascination, I feel another burst of satisfaction. I hope the wound is fatal.
I hear a soft nicker and quickly rush back to Fancy's side. "Legolas!" I shout for help as I watch my horse begin to fade. Legolas appears by my side and assesses the situation. "We must get her to her feet. She needs a healer." I nod and run back to the gate. I grab her halter and lead rope and slip it onto her. "I'll pull. Legolas, push her from the other side, but please be gentle." Legolas positions himself on the opposite side of me and slides his hands under her withers. Stroking Fancy's cheek, I smile slightly. "You're gonna be okay." Looking back to Legolas, I nod. I stand up and begin to pull while he pushes. Fancy struggles to stand, sometimes letting out what sounds like a shriek of pain. Panting and pulling, I feel the tears begin to build behind my eyes. "Please," I choke out.
Fancy begins to stand, but falters, falling back down. I let out a cry of frustration and continue to pull. "Fancy, please!" I take a breath and pull as hard as I can. I hear Legolas grunt as he pushes. To my relief, Fancy finally stands, though she's shaking a bit. I let out a choked sob and throw my arms around her neck. She's breathing heavily and shaking a little, but at least she's still alive. I feel Legolas's hand on my shoulder and quickly pull him into a hug. "Thank you, thank you, thank you," I repeat. He hugs me back, then pulls away and points. I look over to the gate and see Olos bound with rope. He's watching us with fury in his eyes, and I smile slightly. "Told you so," I say, and stroke Fancy's neck.
"Legolas, take Olos back to my house. Put him somewhere, and do not leave his side. Not until we figure out how to get him back to Middle Earth. I'll get a healer for Fancy." Legolas nods and walks over to Olos. He picks him up roughly and drags him back towards the woods. Once they disappear from my sight, I lead Fancy over to the barn and open the door. I close the doors behind me and toss the lead rope over her neck, knowing she won't run away. I quickly walk over to the phone and call the vet, saying that some dumbass hunter accidentally shot my horse. Once the vet told me that she'd be over in a few minutes, I hung up and turned to my horse. She appears a bit more stable now and nickers softly.
I walk over to her and hold out my hand. She takes a step forward and nuzzles it, her hot breath tickling my palm. "I don't know what I would've done if I lost you," I whisper. Fancy takes another step forward and begins to nibble on my shoulder. "I'll make sure that you'll get all better. You'll be rolling in the dirt again in no time," I promise her as I stroke her cheek.
After the vet arrived and treated Fancy for her injury, I went home. I snuck into the house and went up to my room. Avarier and the others sprung to his feet the second they saw me. "By the Valar, are you all right?" I look down at my clothes, walk into my bedroom and grab a pair of pajamas. I walk over to the door and feel Avarier's hand on my arm. "Siren, are you all right?" It's his fault that Fancy's hurt. His and Olos's. Feeling a spark of anger, I pull my arm away and slap him. "Go to hell," I growl and leave. I walk to the bathroom and lock the door behind me. I turn on the shower and remove my clothes. They're covered in dirt and Fancy's blood. My poor Fancy…
I step into the shower, shuddering at the sensation of the hot water against my skin. I look down and watch the blood and dirt disappear down the drain. Closing my eyes, I lean against the wall and begin to cry.
I've been lying
To keep you from this pain
Now you're crying
And to know that I'm to blame
And I'll miss you
But it's over now
"You may love Siren, but part of you wants to punish her for what she did." Olos's words echo in my mind as I cry. If Avarier wanted to punish me, than he has succeeded. I almost lost my horse today. My precious friend. It's Avarier fault that Fancy's hurt. Olos may have fired the arrow, but Avarier let him. Damn them both!
I'm so sorry
That it had to be this way
Please don't hate me
But there's nothing you can say
To change my mind
I've got to go away
Once I'm clean, I get dressed and go back to my room. I walk over to my bedroom and dump the soiled clothes in the hamper. "Siren, what happened? Are you hurt?" I pick something up from the hamper and turn around. I hold it up so that Avarier can see it. "This is the arrow that nearly killed my horse," I say in a hollow, cold, voice. Avarier's beautiful eyes widen in shock. "Oh Eru, Siren---" "Olos shot my horse. He shot Fancy and she could have died. But Legolas and I caught him and we're going to find a way to send him back to Middle Earth. And God willing, you'll go with him." Avarier pales and his eyes flood with regret. I regret ever knowing the son of a bitch.
"I'm going to tell everyone about how you betrayed me. And hopefully, they'll banish you from Gondor." Smiling bitterly, I continue. "I may love you, Avarier, but part of me wants to punish you for what you did." I feel a bit of satisfaction at the look of recognition on his face. "Siren, I am responsible for much of your pain, I know this. But please don't think that I don't love you." I throw the arrow at his feet. "I want you out of my sight before I kill you with that," I say venomously.
The guy that I fell for
He wanted more and more
"Siren, please! Let's at least talk! I can explain everything!" I tense and feel anger consume me. "Explain?" I turn around and glare at the man I once loved with such hatred that even I'm shocked. "Explain to me how you wanted to punish me! Explain to me how you let Olos escape so that he could nearly kill my horse! Explain to me what I did to invoke your betrayal! Explain to me just why you're such a sadistic bastard! Yes, explain everything to me, Avarier!" I feel hatred begin to push away any love I felt for Avarier.
Bye bye boyfriend
It's time that I'd be on my way
Bye bye boyfriend
I used to like the way you said
Baby back it up
Lay down and work
"I'm sorry," he says with such gentle sincerity that I'm silent for a moment. And then I laugh. I laugh until there are tears in my eyes and my friends are looking at me worriedly. "He's sorry," I say, putting a hand to my stomach. "He's sorry!" I lean against the wall, the idiotic smile still plastered on my face. "Well sorry isn't good enough for what you've put me through!" I shout angrily. Avarier flinches, but I don't care. "He could have killed me today! He could have killed my family! There isn't an apology in the world that's good enough for what you've done to me!" I see Avarier look away, his heart breaking. I hope it splits in two!
You never put the effort into the things that really counted
A word here, a kiss there
Could change the way it's turning out
You work so hard at all the things I never really cared about
How hands work and fingers moving, eyes wide shut
And baby I'm lonely
Though you're right in front of me
You controlled me
That was the girl I used to be
I'm not myself
Well it's over now
"Siren…you're right. Nothing I can say can make up for what I did. And I am sorry. But please don't hate me. Don't tell me that you don't love me, because I don't think I'd survive that," he whispers brokenly. Oh no he won't. He won't turn this around and make me feel pity for him! "Than I guess you're going to have to die, because I do hate you, Avarier. Right now, I hate you as much as I hate Olos, if not more. I never loved Olos. I never let him get close to me. But you were. You were closer to me than anyone ever was. And you hurt me." I see the tears welling in his eyes, and I walk over to him.
Bye bye boyfriend
It's time that I'd be on my way
Bye bye boyfriend
I used to like the way you said
Baby back it up
Lay down and work
"Avarier." I trace his cheek and rest my head against his chest. I hear his pulse quicken and sense the hope that's flaring inside of him. His arms wrap around me shakily, but I don't really notice or care. "That crack inside your fuckin' heart is me," I whisper and shove him away from me. He looks at me in shock and I walk over to the door. Astaider and Hodoer stare at me in utter shock, and I leave the room, closing the door behind me. Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned.
It was fun but it couldn't last forever
Bye bye pretty boy
It's time to pack it up
Baby 'cause it's over now
2 Be Continued