Brian stood up and met her taking the beer from her. She set the pie down on the table and the men sighed with anticipation. "It's just a pie you guys." she said with a smile.
"Oh no, with these guys it's never just a anything." Letty told her with a smile. The smile sort of surprised Rina, but she didn't say anything about it.
She found herself relaxing with the group. They were so easygoing. Leon and Vince taught her how to play their favorite video games, and Jesse and Rina went on line and he showed her the specs that he'd discovered for the new car he was going to be working on. She found him to be a genius, but every once in a while he would become unfocused and that was that. Brian walked her home later that night. It was beautiful outside. At her door he kissed her and Rina knew that this is what she should have had. Before her life had changed this is what it was meant for.
"Rina." he whispered.
"Hmmm." she smiled at him.
"I think I'm falling in love with you." he told her. Rina's eyes flew open and found her gaze held by his. At first she thought he was playing a cruel joke, but then she saw the sincerity in his deep blue eyes.
"Oh, Brian. Don't fall in love with me." she said sadly and looked down.
He tipped her chin up gently with his index finger. "It isn't something I can pick or choose Rina. I'm already half way there."
"I don't know what love is Brian. It terrifies me." Rina saw sadness in his eyes. Without thinking or doubting she stretched up and kissed him. This felt so right, did that make it love? Did thinking about him when she woke up and when she went to sleep make it love? Or was it the ache in her chest when she thought of his kisses? "Brian come inside with me."
"No Rina."
"Brian, I don't know if I can finish whatever we start. I don't know if that will ever be the case no matter what I want or wish, but I do know that I want to try. Whatever this is I feel for you is so strong inside of me. This is what I want." She opened the door and walked in. Brian followed her hesitantly. "I want to talk to you a little before. So you'll understand." He nodded, almost sure of what she would say, and she continued. "I was a virgin until my boyfriend at the time raped me. The only sex I've ever experienced was painful and horrible. That's why I don't know if I'll be able to go through with it. Will you be able to stop?"
"The minute you say so." he said with utter confidence. Rina drew him into her room, and kissed him slowly. Brian took his time kissing her and making her comfortable with their bodies pressed against one another. He removed each article of her clothing as if she was made of spun glass. Rina found herself fascinated with his body. Smooth and tan, and he touched her as if she was precious to him. His hands were rough from working in the garage, but she even found herself enjoying that. When he finally entered her she found herself crying, but it wasn't from pain or fear. She was crying because of the amazing sensations he was making her feel. Rina had never thought she'd feel anything like it, yet Brian had given her all of it.
Rina didn't think about the guns under her pillows, but when she left him for a few minutes to go to the restroom Brian found them. He looked at the two Dan Wesson custom made weapons and a cold chill overtook him. He managed to put the pillow back by the time she got back. As soon as she walked into the room and saw the look on his face she knew. He'd found her guns. Fuck. She leaned back against the wall and they stared at each other.
"What are you planning to do with those?" he asked quietly. He sat on her bed with the sheets around his waist.
"Whatever needs to be done." she answered steadily.
"Are they part of the debt you're collecting from Canton?"
"Yep."
"Can you fire them?"
"Wouldn't have them if I couldn't."
"Are they legal?"
"Yep."
"You have a license for them?"
"Thought you weren't a cop anymore Brian?" she did have a license, but his questioning was making her angry.
"Damnit Rina, that's not fair. You have two custom made guns under your pillow, where we just made love, and I'm not allowed to ask questions?" he said as his voice rose angrily.
"Those two guns are mine, legally, and I have the license to carry them, legally. I will do whatever needs to be done, including firing them upon another human being, if necessary." she snapped. "I told you that I had a job to finish. I will not let you stand in my way. If you have a problem with that, then maybe you got involved with the wrong girl." She turned and left the room. She heard the front door open and close shortly after, and she went to her room and dressed quickly. Rina refused to cry. She would not let tears fall from her eyes. That would have to wait until she was done. After she was done she could think about a broken heart. After she was done she could think about the heart she'd broken.