These heart wrenching pains I feel, could they be the pains of longing? It has been so long since you have been near me. My body goes through withdrawal from your drug like essence. I miss every breath we would share in the moments of pleasure.
This is new to me, this longing for companionship. For so long I was alone, lost in my sorrow, my heart festering in misery. I could only feel pain and was only wanting of more. Tomorrow always felt so far away, and today seemed to never stay.
Sweet tears of nothing start to trickle elegantly down my soft featureless cheeks, pale in the shimmering moonlight. I have never felt this alone. Come back to me my love.
"Please come back to me"
My voice catches in my throat as sobs well up out of the darkest depths in my heart. I can only just catch my self and stop before I cry out into the night, my despair trapped as I was. I try to hold it all in, my body shaking from the powerful emotions. Screaming to be let lose, more tears flow down my cheeks.
"WHY!"
I can no longer contain my sorrow. Let the night hear me! I am in anguish; my body can longer hold this in. How long have I had to wait for him to return to me? How many cycles of this strange dual moon have passed with no sign of his brilliance?
If only I could understand these feelings. They come so foreign to me.
"It has been three months so far Shiva, and already you have shown signs of fatigue. Could it be that you are losing your powers?"
Folken, the ever-observant Folken, never misses a beat. He caught on to my rouse immediately. I could not hide from him the fact that I was become weaker.
"This may pose a problem one day, but for now you still appear to everyone else frighteningly powerful. I would be extremely careful around Dilandau though, for if and when he catches on to your waning powers he will utilize that weakness to attack you, maybe even kill you."
And he says this all with a miniscule smile, what a creep. Here I am losing will, and fire on a strange planet and I for some reason have decided to do it while I am stuck on some stupid ship. I can't get off now, I can't run away, and I certainly can't fight as many men as I used to be able to. I am losing my power and strength rapidly. I am, to be blunt, scared out of my mind.
"For now Folken, I am still the biggest threat you have on this planet. Before the day comes that I succumb to that pig Dilandau, I will most likely have taken my own life. For the sake of my dignity, and your life, don't mention this again to me. I am perfectly capable of dealing with my sudden rejection of your atmosphere. My body seems to react adversely with this climate."
Good, lie your fucking ass off and threaten his life if he questions you. Always worked before, playing tough, don't know if it will now but can't hurt to try.
"Well then, Shiva, what in your opinion is your current condition?"
I am seriously screwed; he could kill me now if he tried hard enough.
"I am not sufficiently weaker to be of any inconvenience to you. I will simply catch up on some training and force my body to accept this environment. No more than a few weeks at most, I should be back in shape. Is this all you had to discuss with me?"
He looked doubtful, if stone could have an expression. His eyes always gave it away. Though some where inside of himself he wanted to believe me.
"Very well, that's all I wanted to discuss, for now. Start your training now; I'll tell Dilandau that you are indisposed for awhile. That should do for a day or so. You can leave now, thank you."
I swiftly bowed and turned, striding somewhat hurriedly for the door. His chair creaked as he turned it around to face the window behind his desk. I didn't turn to look, I just kept moving.
"What is happening to you Shiva?"
Folken sighed as he tipped back in his chair to stare at the ceiling. His office was full of the sounds of computers, gadgets and experiments. A steadier sound muddled the poetic hum of electricity. Solid footsteps resounded through the room, moving towards Folken's desk. Folken sighed and opened his eyes to peer at a tall ghostly figure.
"When can I see her Folken? Why must I play these pitiful games of yours?"
His voice was rich, throbbing with power and knowledge.
"If she doesn't kill the Winged Goddess soon, then you will both die."
The other figure twitched in irritation. Clearly he was not used to doing what others told him.
"Do you not hear her at night? She cries silently, alone on that rooftop. She begs the spirits to return her beloved, and cries of the agony she feels. How can you allow her to suffer so much for your pointless gain?"
Rage was boiling in his voice, threatening to spill out and consume Folken.
Folken banged his metal fist on the table and shouted,
"Pointless gain? Do you think that this is pointless, to try to fight for your life? If she does not kill the Winged Goddess then we will never achieve our goals of peace on this planet. And if the Winged Goddess lives, she will kill you and Shiva. Her powers are that from another world."
"Folken, don't be such an idiot. I can just grab Shiva and leave this planet with her. She does not need to fulfill your wants. And I would if it weren't for your filthy trap."
"It's not a trap, it's an insurance policy."
The other man grabbed Folken roughly by the collar of his cloak and lifted him into the air with ease.
"Putting some sort of, as you said, chip into her brain is not an insurance policy. You can kill her at any moment, triggering it to disable her brain, basically hemorrhaging the cortex. That is what I call a filthy trick. It is the only reason you are still alive."
He placed Folken back down in his chair and walked to the window. Still facing the window he spoke in such a tone that Folken knew not to argue.
"Tonight I will see her Folken, tonight we will be together again. And as I see it, you need her much more than you let on. In fact, you need her to save your life, and without her, you are dead. Am I right?"
He turned slightly to see Folken's face turn a paler hue of white. Folken in return managed to spit out a few words.
"As you wish, It can't hurt to see her, maybe you can figure out why she is losing strength. But remember I still own you, Sesshoumaru. As long as the chip remains in her brain, you can not leave here."