Just Wanting

Disclaimer: I own Harry Potter..only in my dreams. 

Author's Note: No song fic this time! It's my first Draco/Ginny fic, so be nice on reviews. Or you can be honest and tell me what you like and don't like:D

Spoilers: Books 1-5

Rating: R (sexual situations, language)

It was yet another boring day in the common room. Everyone was off doing their own thing, expect for Ginny. She sat alone on the couch near the fireplace, waiting for someone to arrive. Time seemed to pass like years until he finally came crawling out of the hole. She smiled brightly and ran over to hug him.

"Not to hard Gin. Quidditch was a disaster."

"Sorry Harry."

She let go, still beaming. Harry smiled weakly and kissed her lightly on the cheek. Oddly, Ginny felt his kiss was different, as in weak and unwanted. She looked at him, he looked bothered so she decided to kiss him on the lips hoping it would help somewhat. While kissing him, she opened her eyes and she saw him looking at someone out of the corner of his eyes. Ginny stopped kissing him and turned around to see him staring at Hermione, who was talking to Ron. She looked back at Harry, who was still glancing at Hermione and decided to set things right.

"Harry, we need to talk."

Harry looked back at Ginny.

"Ok, about what?"

Ginny held his hands and took a deep, painful breath.

"I think we should stop seeing each other."

At first Harry looked hurt, then he quickly regained himself to what Ginny has said afterwards.

"You should be with Hermione, not me."

Harry's jaw dropped.

"Hermione? Love? I-"

Ginny held her hand over his mouth.

"It's so obvious! Don't act like it's not. You're constantly staring at her and you find every excuse possible to leave me and be with her! So if you want her that bad, I must be here standing in your way. Today, that ends because as I see it, you want her more than you'll ever want me."

Harry thought to himself and realized in a slight painful way, she was right. With that, he gave her one of his random bone-crushing hugs.

"Thank you Ginny. You're a true friend. There will always be a place for you in my heart."

With that, Ginny hugged him back, fighting the rising tears in her eyes. He let go and kissed her one last time. Ginny felt his passionate lips and wished things didn't have to be this way. Then, he walked over to Hermione. Ginny watched as Harry took Hermione out of the common room. She smiled and walked over to Ron.

"Gin? What just happened?"

"Well, I ended it for me and Harry."

"What? Why?"

"Because, I just wasn't right for him. Someone else was."

With that, she left the common room leaving a very confused Ron behind. She didn't know where to go from here. She had no luck with relationships that was obvious. Harry had been the only true boyfriend that she ever had. Dean was alright, but he wasn't what she wanted. She wanted the famous, handsome boy-who-lived to swift her off her feet and away from the world. She laughed to herself and before she knew it she was drowning in her tears. She wiped her eyes several times and continued to sob while walking. She had no idea where she was, nor did she care. She walked, wanting to pretend Harry was there with her every step of the way. She cried slightly louder, hoping he'll find her and say how sorry he was and that he'll take Hermione out of the picture. Ginny envied Hermione, for being the one to win the heroes heart. But she knew she couldn't hate her best friend just because she got Harry. After all, she was the one who worried constantly about him and she was always there for him when others weren't. It was also about time when Hermione realized Harry meant more to her than a friend. Ginny looked down at her watch, it was 6pm and she was running late for the feast. she ran to the Great hall, pulling out her wand and performing a spell that fixed up her face. she arrived and to no amazement, saw a cuddling Harry and Hermione. Ron of course, was red and trying to avoid them. Everyone else was just watching the lovebirds and she decided to help ease the stares. She walked over and sat next to Hermione. Hermione let go of Harry and hugged Ginny rather forcefully. Ginny tried her best not to cry, but as usual she was losing. She quickly patted Hermione's back and mumbled congrats and walked away to sit with Ron.

"CAN YOU BLOODY BELIEVE IT? HARRY AND HERMIONE TOGETHER! WHAT ABOUT ME! HARRY KNEW HOW I FELT ABOUT HER!"

After all the looks he was getting, including the glares from Harry and Hermione themselves, Ron lowered his voice and leaned towards Ginny.

"Not like it was possible to just easily those kind of feelings away."

Ginny gave him a comforting hug.

"It's alright. Some things were just meant to be. Besides, you guys are still the famous trio! It's just now two of them are madly in love. They still love you too Ron, as the true friend you are."

Ron looked utterly unconvinced.

"Yeah well, as long as they don't snog when I'm around it will make it easier for me to think this is all just a bloody dream!"

Ron then jumped out of his seat and left the hall. Ginny frowned and turned to Harry and Hermione.

"He's still mad?" Harry asked.

"Yup, but don't worry. he'll get over it." Ginny assured.

Hermione didn't speak, but she rather became teary eyed and tried to smile.

"I hope he doesn't hate forever for this."

Harry hugged her and to Ginny's surprise, he cupped Hermione's face and planted tender kisses on her lips and cheeks. Ginny sat there, forming fists underneath the table. Without knowing, she was glowing redder than ever, and she abruptly got up and ran out the hall. Without looking back she ran, tears pouring out of her eyes. her red hair was a mess and kept sticking to her face. Behind her she could hear gasps and laughs. Laughs? She suddenly stopped and turned on her heel. She looked at the Slytherin table and found pansy, Crabbe and Goyle laughing hysterically. She then glanced at Malfoy who wasn't laughing at all, but rather snickering.

"O shut the hell up! Like you'll find love the way they did!"

Ginny cried out, pointing directly at Harry and Hermione. She then turned back around, this time leaving the hall. Ginny had no idea where to run to. She thought the safest place and the place where you can't be bothered would be the restricted girl's bathroom. She ran there, not once looking at those who tried calming her down. She finally reached her destination and took a seat against the sink wall. She buried her head in her hands and sobbed loudly. her jealously, hate and despair were torn and completely out of control. She pulled at her hair, hoping to relieve some pain. After what seemed like hours, she stopped crying and found herself thinking of the memories this place held. She recalled this place, the diary and the day she was brought her and into the Chamber of Secrets.

"Thinking about going back Weasley?"

Ginny nearly jumped out of her skin as she stood up and gave a look of shock. He just stood there smiling, with those ice cold grey eyes glaring in her puffy, yet soft brown ones.

"Why would you care Malfoy?"

she fixed herself by straightening her skirt and pulling at her shirt.

"You know you shouldn't be down here. Since I'm a prefect I can write you up."

He took a step closer towards her. She was about to run when she decided to play this ferret at his own little game. She too took a small step towards him.

"Ok you twitchy little ferret, do something then."

Because of that, Malfoy became furious and before she knew it, he was on top of her against the wall.

"How dare you bring that up you filthy-"

She pushed but he held on tightly.

"Filthy what? I'm not a mudblood you git therefore you can't call me that!"

"Please, there's more than that I can say."

he had her pinned against the walls, hands up on either side of her head. He stared coldly into her eyes. She stared back, squinting with signs of anger.

"Let go of me you disgusting git."

But he didn't let go, he just tightened his hands that were around her tiny wrists.

"Why should I?"

Ginny didn't know what to say next, but the idea of using her wand at him came to mind.

"Because in about 5 seconds, the ferret you once were you're going to become again."

Malfoy smirked.

"Try me Weasley."

Ginny didn't know if he was aware of his consequences nor did she care. he had crossed the line by grabbing her.

"1….2………3…………4….."

She stopped counting and found him hardly moving a muscle. She glared, hoping he would just go away.

"Where's the last number?" he smiled.

She smiled back and without thinking twice she elbowed him in the mouth, and pushed him off her. She reached for her wand and pointed it at him.

"5."

She quickly yelled 'Avada Kaboom!' and a spark of red light shot out of her wand. Malfoy cried like a girl and balled himself up on the floor. Ginny started laughing at how she made him cry over some words she just randomly put together. She put away her wand and saw him whimpering with blood running out of his mouth. Ginny, suddenly feeling sorry for him, knelt down next to him.

"Hurts to be betrayed don't it?"

"What are you talking about?" he spat at her.

"Now you know what its like, to cry and hurt over something someone did to you."

She stood up and turned away. she was about to take her first step when a cold hand grabbed at her leg. She turned to him, tears coming out of her eyes.

"A little help?"

She sighed, and grabbed his hand to stand him up. She took her wand and performed a spell that fixed him up instantly. Now that he was looking better and rather handsome, he smiled.

"Wow, I didn't think you'd do such a thing. Not very lady like for a Weasley."

He laughed lightly, tugging at his neck. Ginny gave a devilish look.

"Well, there's more to me than what you see."

"I can tell. You'd do well in Slytherin."

Ginny found herself inches away from his lips. She licked her lips and brushed away hair that was blocking her eyes.

"Let's find out shall we?"

With that, she grabbed his tie and closed the space between them. She kissed him roughly, pouring what was right and wrong right out the window. She found herself lost in the state that she was in. He at first was tense, but eventually his arms snaked around to her waist and he was pushing her against him. She was the first to lick his bottom lip to accept permission. when he refused, she knew he needed more convincing. Therefore, she pulled back slightly and printed kisses along his jaw line and nipping at his earlobes. She then returned to his lips, licking and biting. he smiled, she smiled and he let her in. for the first time in all of Hogwarts years, the tongues of enemies collided and twined. To regain air, they pulled apart slightly. Ginny looked at Draco who no longer glared with icy eyes. instead, he stared hazily into her warm brown eyes.

"What are we doing?" he asked with a voice barely above a whisper.

"I don't know. But whatever it is, it feels so wrong, yet right at the same time."

She sighed and closed her eyes as Draco pulled her back in and he was now planting pleasurable kisses up and down her neck, and along her jaw line. She moaned lightly every now and then, throwing her head back, hands still wrapped around his neck. Her mood of desire felt met and her conscious was all out of whack. He had kissed her again and she could do no more but give in. His kiss was like ecstasy, she wanted more and couldn't live without it. He finally stopped pulling away hands and all. He seemed distraught, as if being caught killing someone.

"We can't do this. You're a Gryffindor and I'm a Slytherin. People wouldn't accept us Ginny."

She didn't want to hear that, nor did she care about what other's thought of her.

"I don't care Draco! I can't live without you! Who cares if I'm a Gryffindor, obviously I don't!"

She stomped her foot, feeling angrier every second. Draco simply stared at her with awe.

"Why are we even doing this? We act like we are desperately in love with each other!"

Ginny opened her mouth, but nothing came out. Did she love him? How though? It's not like she fancied him all this time, or did she? Was she blinded by it because of Harry? All of a sudden, it hit her like a ton of bricks. The looks, the remarks, the smirks at each other. It was all a game, of flirting? That could explain all the nights he caught her late at night. They would sit and talk, like friends.

"Do you love me Ginny?"

Ginny didn't know what to say. She wanted to say yes, but remembered Harry telling her love's a special thing. Don't say it unless you truly mean it.

"I don't know Draco. I think my actions tonight were because I just want to be loved by someone."

Ginny fell to her knees, hands cradling her head. She started crying foolishly thinking someone like Draco could possibly love her in anyway. She was crying so loud she couldn't hear the sound of him walking towards her. Without knowing, he knelt down and reached for her face. She became aware of this and tried pushing away. But she was too weak to put up a huge fit. She found his hand gently gripping her chin.

"Ginny, are you trying to say you just want someone to love you? As in to find the real you?"

She looked back at him, her mind in a dazed and her hand running smoothly along his cheek.

"I just want someone to realize I'm here. I just want someone to love me for me..to make me special."

They both shared a small smile and laugh.

"Well, I guess that's why I'm still here."

She stared with shock; this was coming out of the mouth of Draco Malfoy? Is this really meant to be? Two enemies to awkwardly fall in love?

"O Draco, thank you."

She climbed on him and passionately kissed him. They both didn't care if this was all wrong or that to the whole world they were enemies. Ginny thought this could change everything. She knew it would to her friends and family. while kissing, she wondered how Ron would react to this. And Draco's father! She pulled away midst their kiss.

"Draco! What if you're father found out about all this?"

He sighed and looked away. Suddenly for the first time in all her life, she saw him cry. Not as an act (or so she hoped), but real tears. She hugged him. He tugged and whispered.

"For once, I really don't give a damn. He expects so much of me, most things I couldn't even try to do! I try to compare myself to him but when I do, my mother comes in to bring me down. She tells me I'll never be like my father and today that's just fine with me."

With sorrow and regret, he pulled her in for a more passionate kiss. They tugged at each other's clothes and before she knew it, Ginny was thinking the unbelievable.

"Draco?" she said against his lips.

"Yes Ginny?" he replied back.

She took a deep breath, threw everything she believed in out the window and demanded something that would change everything.

"Make love to me."