Disclaimer: Harry Potter does not belong to me. It belongs to J.K Rowling, unfortunately.
Title: Remembering You Eternally
Summery: Remus's thoughts on Sirius after he died and how he coped after. Bad Summery, good fic. One-Shot, Slash RLSB, Angsty. Read And Review please!
Warning: Slash, Death Theme.
Remus's P.O.V
It was about a week after you'd gone.
A week since you fought with Bellatrix, a week since you fell into the Veil in the Department Of Mysterious.
A week since you died.
A week since you left me all alone.
A week since you've gone.
I miss you so much. I know some of the members of the Order miss you, but none can compare to me.
I know what they're all thinking, why is Remus so down? We know Sirius died, we know they were friends, but he should be over it by now.
But they don't know. They don't know anything!
They don't about the nights we spent together, just you and me. How we'd sneak into each others room, sleeping in the same bed, love making sometimes.
They don't know! They don't know anything!
They don't know about the special bond we both shared, about the love between us.
They don't remember the times in Hogwarts, when we'd both sneak under James's Invisibility Cloak to the Room of Requirement for the night, nearly every night.
They don't remember seeing your face smiling, whether it was a mischievous smile, a mysterious smile, or the smile you gave only to me, the one that spoke wonders, which made your eyes shine, the one that made you think was the most beautiful smile in the world.
They don't remember any of this. They can go on in life, but I can't.
I need you Sirius.
Without you there's no me.
You're half of my soul, if you're gone, then how I can live on?
I have to end this; I can't carry on living my life because without you, my life is meaningless.
Once I die, I'll be able to join you in heaven, then we spend all eternity together.
I walk to the cabinet where I know there is some poison.
Funny isn't it? A few years ago, you were about to drink this very same poison, you wanted to end your life, and if it wasn't for me stopping you, you would have gone through with it.
Roles have reversed this time. Except there won't be any Sirius coming to stop me.
I drank the poison, all of it to ensure I couldn't survive, and I felt an immense burning down my throat and in my stomach. The pain got so much that I fell, white spots dancing in front of me.
And then I saw you, dressed in white, looking so beautiful, so ethereal.
You smiled at me, a heart warming smile, and held out your hand, which I gently took.
Together we floated upwards, stopping only at the Golden Gates to Heaven.
We looked at each other and slowly we moved towards each other and our lips met, and it was the most magical, beautiful thing ever.
We parted and smiled at each other, you grasping my hand, and together we walked through the gates and into Heaven.
And once again, I felt complete, because my Heaven is you Sirius.
TBC
First Harry Potter fic, hope you enjoyed reading this!
It was meant to be all angsty, but it turned into a happy ending.
This is the results of listening to Sum 41, Pieces repeatedly. It's an awesome track, listen to it:D
Sorry for any spelling or grammar mistakes!
I'd be ever so thankful if you'd review!
!Aki!