Tonight's The Night we're Gonna Get Leo Plastered
The rain poured down hard from the sky over New York's Jersey District. People ran carrying umbrella's , news papers, or any other protection they might have available. Old men turned their collars up, shrugging off the rains bitter cold , and hailing their taxi's all the faster.
Yet their was one in all of the city that seemed unaffected by the rain.
Raphael sat unmoving on the top if the large abandoned building, letting the rain drench him, soak him... freeze him right through to the bone.
// Why did I do it..? // he kept asking himself. // why..? //
It hurt all the more when he couldn't come up with any reasonable answer, certainly not one that justified the course of actions he and his brothers had taken.
// No me..my fault..//
It had been his idea, it had been his fault, Mikey, and Donnie wouldn't have come to this means on their own. It had been him.
// But why..?"..//
He had been mad . Had he wanted Leo to be hurt..?
//yes..//
But not this bad
//...not like this..........not like this....// he covered his face and let his tears fall. He was alone, cold , empty, lifeless. The one person who would be out searching for him, who always managed to find him when he got like this wasn't going to be coming for him tonight ...if ever again.
Raph stood looking over the edge of the building, teetering on the edge.
He was alone, now and forever...
//perhaps this is how it should be then...//
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"Hmmmm" Don looked up from his place by Leo's side as he heard a noise at the door.
Raphael, unceremoniously stumbled into the lair dripping from head to toe, before crumbling to the ground with a thud.
"Raphael !!" Don cried, jumping up and pulling his younger brother over to the couch.
"Raph !!" He yanked the soaking trench coat from his shoulders.
"Donnn..." he mumbled.
"Raphael, what in god's name are you doing...!!" running to his room he grabbed a blanket from his bed and wrapped his shivering brother tightly in it, trying to warm him.
"Going out and getting pneumonia isn't going to help any of us Raph !!" Don shouted in near tears. "Don't you ever think about anybody but yourself !! Thank god Mikey is asleep.. After all the shit we went through...an.." Don stopped, as Raph began to cry, the younger turtle looked into his eyes. "..I'm sorry....I couldn't do it.....I tried....I couldn't do it.." he sobbed.
"Raph,...couldn't do what..?" Don held his little brother close.
"I couldn't jump Donnie ...... but I shoulda .you....you'd all be better without me..."
"Raphael, don't start talking like that !!" Don pleaded.
"It's true..true ...nnnn...nnn...m...mmy fault..." he leaned his head into Don's shoulder.
Don swallowed his own sadness, his brother was so distraught, he'd attempted suicide.
"Raph...please stop crying...we all played a part in this...it was all our fault..."
"No...no Don.." Raph shook his head.
"Raph ," Don said firmly. "WE need to help Leo ....I need your help I can't do it alone. Help me OK...?"
"Raph nodded, before coughing violently.
Don sighed. His brother looked absolutely pitiful. "I'm gonna make you some soup. I want you to stay here and keep warm.
"I need to see Leo," Raph begged "please Don, I gotta see him..."
Against his better judgment Don gave in helping his brother up and leading him into Leo's room.
"Ok Raph, now stay put until I get back.."
Raph nodded as he tucked the blankets around them both, and went out the door.
Slowly he raised his eyes until he was looking into his brothers face.
"Leo..?" He whispered, biting his lip when he got no response. He watched his brothers eyes flicker back and forth under the lids. Almost as though he was waging some internal battle within himself. Raph swallowed.
// He looks so pale...what if...//
"Leo ." his voice was rough as he spoke. "Leo...please you gotta come back..."
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"Come back .... come back..."
Leo turned " there's that voice again... Raphael !! Donatello !!...why don't they answer me?"
"They don't love you..." the dark, eerie voice whispered creeping into his mind once more.
"No..." Leo replied wearily.
"Come back to the light Leo, find out how relaxed you can be heh heh heh heh hehe !!
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Raph gently stroked the clammy forehead that lay next to him, trying to convince himself that it would be all right. That he was going to wake up any moment to find it had all been some horrible dream.
But it wasn't. And he knew it.
Leaning close he whispered in his brothers ear.
"Leo,.....I hope you can hear me... Look Leo..I know I .....I can be a real bone head sometimes....heck we both know that. But.....but this time...I went too far...I'm....I'm sorry.
Leo..." he gave a sob "It's not some stupid trick anymore....it's a fatal one....an.....and....oh god Leo !!! You just gotta be ok...please...please....please.......I don't care about nothing else. You can...hate me....and punish me all you want...I deserve it............but.....but please....j.....just come back to me ...please...come back.........come back...."
Raph wrapped his arms around Leo, coving his brother with his body. And holding him tightly, fearing that to let him go would be to loose him. He closed his eyes his face pressed against Leo's chest listening to the steady beating of his brothers heart.
"Come back........come back..."
To be Continued......