I'm happy you guys are supportive of my change. I am pleased with how this story is going, although it will probably be all soap opera-ish =^^()= Ah...it's drama, so there's really nothing I can do hehe. Thank you all so, soooo much for the reviews! =^_^= And I haven't gotten one flame yet! YAY! Guess those will have to wait until I start writing yaoi =@_@()= For some reason those fics seem to attract overly religious, homophobes *shrugs*
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Kenji couldn't believe what he had just heard. Pan, liked, Bra. Pan...LIKED...Bra. PAN LIKED BRA!? She wasn't serious, was she?
"Heh...real funny, Pan. Now seriously, what's the real answer?" Kenji received no response from Pan. "Oh, you weren't joking. Pan, I'm sorry...it's just that-"
"That girls aren't supposed to like other girls, is that it?" Pan stopped crying and looked sternly at her friend.
"Hey now!" Kenji held his hands out in front of him and waved them about. "I don't see anything wrong with it! You can like whomever you want! I just didn't think the rumors were true, that's all."
Pan drew her eyebrows together in confusion. "What rumors?"
Kenji chewed his lip and looked around before speaking, "You know...the ones about you being a dyke..."
Pan had no answer. She just replied with a shrug of her shoulders. She always denied those rumors. Pan had even gotten in fights about them. But now...now she wasn't sure. Right now it seemed they were true, but what if Bra was just an exception. Or maybe she was just confused. Maybe she didn't really like Bra.
"But you know I'm totally ok with you being a dyke and all, Pan. You don't-"
"I'm not a dyke, Kenji! And please, get some goddamn tact! They're called lesbians, not dykes!"
"Whoa! Hey, I'm sorry. I..."
"No, Kenji, I'm the one who should be sorry. I shouldn't have blown up at you like that. It's just that...I don't know." Pan sighed and looked up at the ceiling. This was getting difficult.
"You don't know what?" Kenji asked his friend.
"Anything! I don't know anything. I'm so confused about my feelings, about Bra, about...everything! It's so frustrating."
The bell sounded, meaning it was time for first period to start. Kenji took one last look at Pan. He had never seen her look so helpless and confused before, it worried him.
"Listen, I've got to get to class, but if you really need to talk about this, you know where to find me." Kenji gave his friend one last hug before heading out the door.
"Thanks, Kenji." Pan picked up her things and left for her first period class.
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Bra turned down the hallway, not really paying attention to where she was going. All she could think about were her dreams, her friends' reactions to them and Pan. She was so caught up in her thoughts, she bumped right into someone and sent their books flying.
"Oh kami! I'm so sor-" Bra looked down at the person she had bumped into. It was Pan.
"Whatever, Bra." Pan lifted herself off the ground and grabbed her things. She quickly dusted herself off and retreated into the classroom without looking at Bra once.
Bra watched Pan disappear into the classroom. She almost forgot they were in the same first period class. Bra scurried inside at the sound of the late bell and looked for a place to sit. She always sat next to Pan, but it seemed as though Pan wasn't interested in sitting with Bra today. Not that Bra really minded because she needed to keep her thoughts off of Pan and her dreams, but she was bothered by how strange Pan was acting. Or maybe she was the one acting strange.
Bra shrugged to herself and took the first seat she found. She was near the front of the classroom as opposed to Pan, who chose to sit all the way in the back. At least she wouldn't have to look at Pan. Maybe that would help Bra to keep her mind off Pan.
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Pan glared at Bra's back. "First, she doesn't speak to me at all on the way to school. Then she bumps into me and stops apologizing when she noticed it was me and now she won't even SIT by me! Ugh! What's wrong with Bra!? Could her friends have really gotten to her?"
Pan rubbed her temples. She didn't know whether to be angry, sad or disappointed. Right now, she was feeling all of them at once and it was giving her a real headache. She leaned back in her chair and wished she could figure out exactly how she was feeling. All this confusion was just too much to handle.
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Bra let out a sigh of relief as she sat down at her lunch table. After first period she hadn't seen Pan at all. That used to be a bad thing, but now it seemed sort of...good. Bra felt badly for thinking like that, but it was necessary to do so. If she kept seeing Pan, she'd keep thinking of her and dreaming of her.
"Hey Braaaaa..." Bra's head snapped up at the sound of Suzume's voice. How long as she been standing there?
"Oh hey Suzume."
"Dreaming about Pan again?" Suzume teased.
"What!? No! I'm not a lesbian! I don't like Pan! I told you and Aki it was a joke!"
"Hey, chill out! I was just kidding. No need to get bent out of shape about it." Suzume pushed a piece of red hair out of her face before sitting down next to Bra. "If it was a joke, why are you flipping out about it?" Suzume asked, arching an eyebrow at her friend.
"Because I don't like being called a lesbian when I'm not one, ok!?"
"Are you sure you're not one?"
Bra turned around in her seat to find Aki standing behind her. "Yes, I'm sure, Aki. So shut up about it."
"I don't know. What do you think, Suzume?" Aki turned to the redheaded one.
"She is being awfully defensive. If it was a joke, wouldn't you laugh and kid around about it too?"
"I'm not a lesbian!" Bra screamed at her friends. Why wouldn't they listen to her?
"Whatever you say, lesbo." Aki smirked and sat down.
"Ugh!" Bra threw her hands up in the air. "Do you guys know how to shut up!?" Bra slammed her hands down on the table and stood up, knocking her chair over in the process. "I told you I'm not a lesbian, so stop calling me one!" Bra whipped around and shot out of the cafeteria.
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Pan sat at her lunch table, picking at the "food" she was given. It almost resembled food, but it definitely didn't smell like food.
"Hey Pan?"
Pan looked up to find her friend, Ami, staring at her. "What's up, Ami?"
"Didn't you just see Bra run out of the room? She looked upset, aren't you going to see if she's ok?"
"So, she ran out of the room looking upset, why should I care?" Pan replied, apathetically.
Ami blinked at Pan, utterly confused. "B-but, um...aren't you guys best friends? You're inseparable and it's been like that for as long as I can remember. You guys are always looking out for each other. What's going on?"
"People change, that's what's going on, Ami. Besides, Bra's old enough to take care of herself. I can't be there for her forever, especially if she doesn't want me there." Pan mumbled the last part, but Ami heard it quite clearly.
"Are you guys having a fight?"
"I suppose you could call it that. I honestly don't want to talk about it, if that's all right." Pan went back to picking at her food, but she suddenly didn't feel hungry and pushed her plate away.
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Bra wasn't sure where to run to, so she turned into the first open door, which happened to be the girl's bathroom. After checking to see if anyone was there, Bra leaned against the wall and slid to the ground.
"Why wouldn't they just shut up?" Bra pulled her knees up to her chest and began to cry. She really wasn't sure why she was crying. She wasn't really sure of anything anymore. "I'm not a lesbian, I don't like Pan! Why don't they believe me...why don't I believe me?"
Bra had absolutely no idea what to do, but she did know one thing. She couldn't be around Pan anymore. She needed these dreams to stop, she needed her friends to stop thinking she was a lesbian. Bra was ready to do anything, even if it meant ruining her friendship with Pan. Besides, it seemed that it was ruined already. Pan ignored her today and she had to have seen Bra run out of the lunchroom. If Pan really cared, she would have been in the bathroom by now.
Bra stood up and grabbed a paper towel to wipe her face. She pulled out her makeup bag and began to apply makeup to hide any evidence of her crying. Once Bra was satisfied with how she looked, she left the bathroom.
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Pan opened up her locker, quickly listing all the books she needed in her head. She shoved her things in her backpack and glanced down the hallway for Bra, wondering if they'd still walk home together. When they were younger and had stupid little fights, they'd always walked home with each other. It was a must, no matter what happened.
Pan decided to wait a little longer when she spotted Bra with an older guy, who appeared to be offering her a ride home, at the front door. She watched Bra giggle and nod her head, then leave with the guy.
She couldn't believe it. Pan clenched her fists so tightly, her nails dug into her skin and drew blood. She wanted to scream, she wanted to cry. Pan turned to her locker and kicked the door as hard as she could, nearly breaking it, then stormed out of the school to walk home alone. Now she had no trouble sorting out her feelings. She knew exactly how she felt and she felt nothing but anger.
***
Bra flopped down on her bed. The ride home was awesome and it really kept her mind off of...what's her face. Bra giggled at her inability to remember the name of the girl who's been on her mind constantly. It all seemed so difficult to do before, but now it was a piece of cake.
Bra picked herself off the bed enough to grab the phone that was now ringing. "Hello?"
"We need to talk right now, Bra."
Bra blinked. "We do?" It was Pan. The name flowed back into her brain along with the dreams.
"Yes, yes we do."
Bra sat up completely wondering what Pan wanted to talk about. She sounded really, really pissed off. "About what?"
"Everything, Bra. About you not wanting to be my friend and being a coward about it by not telling me flat out."
"What!?"
"Don't act like you have no idea! You didn't speak one word to me this morning on the way to school, once you saw it was me who you bumped into, you stopped apologizing, you didn't sit by me in first period..."
"You didn't want to sit by me in first period! You seemed pissed off at me!"
"Well I wasn't until now! You left school without me!"
Bra closed her mouth. That was true, she did leave school without Pan. She did it because she didn't want her friends to see them together. How exactly was she supposed to explain that to Pan?
"Have nothing to say? Good because I have a lot of things to say! I know why you don't want to hang around me."
"You do?" Bra swallowed hard. Could Pan possible know the real reason?
"It's because you let your stupid friends influence you!"
"What are you talking about, Pan!?"
Pan growled through the phone. "You know damn well what I'm talking about! They all hate me! I'm sorry I'm not popular like you are, Bra! I thought you were different and didn't care about that, but obviously you do! You can't be seen with someone who's 'beneath' you!"
"Listen, Pan, that's not it at all!"
"No! You listen to me! All you care about is what people think about you! You have this reputation that you need to uphold and you'll do anything to do so! You could care less what happens to our friendship!"
Bra listened to Pan, who seemed to be echoing back her thoughts. She really did care too much about what people thought, that was just the way she was. But Pan had it all wrong. She didn't want to be thought badly of for hanging out with not so popular people, she didn't want to be thought of as a lesbian. There was no way Bra was going to be able to explain this to Pan, especially since she really did want to break up their friendship. She was ready to do it before, but now it seemed like a bad idea.
"You're just a selfish bitch!"
Bra nearly choked. "Did you just call me a selfish bitch!?"
"That's right, I did!"
"Kami, Pan, it's so obvious you're jealous of me!" God! What was she saying?
"Me? Jealous of you? What do you have that I need to be jealous of?" Pan asked with a bitter tone.
"I'm popular, you're not. I can get any guy I want, you can't."
"Excuse me!? What makes you think I care about being popular?"
"Pan, all the losers say that and all it does is show how much they wish they were popular. Who doesn't care about being popular?"
"I don't and you know that! Popularity means nothing!"
"Right. Keep thinking that. Plus I have more friends than you." Bra really wanted to slap herself across the face. Why was she letting her anger get the best of her? She was making this situation worse!
"Oh yeah. Quality over quantity, Bra."
"And just what is that supposed to mean?"
"Do you honestly think your friends befriended you because they like you? They're friends with you because you have money and guys throw themselves at you. It makes them look good to be friends with you!"
"That's so not true! They're my true friends and they're better friends than you ever were!" Why did she just say that? That was the most dishonest thing Bra's ever said. If they were her true friends, they wouldn't have teased her about her dreams. Of course Bra wasn't going to let Pan know about that.
"All of my friends are better friends than you! I don't even know why we were friends in the first place! You really are just a bitch!" Pan slammed down the phone as did Bra.
Bra threw herself back onto her bed. "Ugh...what did I just do!?" Bra buried her face in the sheets on her bed. For some reason her heart hurt, almost like she had just gotten dumped.
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Anyway...ON TO THE FIC!
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Kenji couldn't believe what he had just heard. Pan, liked, Bra. Pan...LIKED...Bra. PAN LIKED BRA!? She wasn't serious, was she?
"Heh...real funny, Pan. Now seriously, what's the real answer?" Kenji received no response from Pan. "Oh, you weren't joking. Pan, I'm sorry...it's just that-"
"That girls aren't supposed to like other girls, is that it?" Pan stopped crying and looked sternly at her friend.
"Hey now!" Kenji held his hands out in front of him and waved them about. "I don't see anything wrong with it! You can like whomever you want! I just didn't think the rumors were true, that's all."
Pan drew her eyebrows together in confusion. "What rumors?"
Kenji chewed his lip and looked around before speaking, "You know...the ones about you being a dyke..."
Pan had no answer. She just replied with a shrug of her shoulders. She always denied those rumors. Pan had even gotten in fights about them. But now...now she wasn't sure. Right now it seemed they were true, but what if Bra was just an exception. Or maybe she was just confused. Maybe she didn't really like Bra.
"But you know I'm totally ok with you being a dyke and all, Pan. You don't-"
"I'm not a dyke, Kenji! And please, get some goddamn tact! They're called lesbians, not dykes!"
"Whoa! Hey, I'm sorry. I..."
"No, Kenji, I'm the one who should be sorry. I shouldn't have blown up at you like that. It's just that...I don't know." Pan sighed and looked up at the ceiling. This was getting difficult.
"You don't know what?" Kenji asked his friend.
"Anything! I don't know anything. I'm so confused about my feelings, about Bra, about...everything! It's so frustrating."
The bell sounded, meaning it was time for first period to start. Kenji took one last look at Pan. He had never seen her look so helpless and confused before, it worried him.
"Listen, I've got to get to class, but if you really need to talk about this, you know where to find me." Kenji gave his friend one last hug before heading out the door.
"Thanks, Kenji." Pan picked up her things and left for her first period class.
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Bra turned down the hallway, not really paying attention to where she was going. All she could think about were her dreams, her friends' reactions to them and Pan. She was so caught up in her thoughts, she bumped right into someone and sent their books flying.
"Oh kami! I'm so sor-" Bra looked down at the person she had bumped into. It was Pan.
"Whatever, Bra." Pan lifted herself off the ground and grabbed her things. She quickly dusted herself off and retreated into the classroom without looking at Bra once.
Bra watched Pan disappear into the classroom. She almost forgot they were in the same first period class. Bra scurried inside at the sound of the late bell and looked for a place to sit. She always sat next to Pan, but it seemed as though Pan wasn't interested in sitting with Bra today. Not that Bra really minded because she needed to keep her thoughts off of Pan and her dreams, but she was bothered by how strange Pan was acting. Or maybe she was the one acting strange.
Bra shrugged to herself and took the first seat she found. She was near the front of the classroom as opposed to Pan, who chose to sit all the way in the back. At least she wouldn't have to look at Pan. Maybe that would help Bra to keep her mind off Pan.
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Pan glared at Bra's back. "First, she doesn't speak to me at all on the way to school. Then she bumps into me and stops apologizing when she noticed it was me and now she won't even SIT by me! Ugh! What's wrong with Bra!? Could her friends have really gotten to her?"
Pan rubbed her temples. She didn't know whether to be angry, sad or disappointed. Right now, she was feeling all of them at once and it was giving her a real headache. She leaned back in her chair and wished she could figure out exactly how she was feeling. All this confusion was just too much to handle.
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Bra let out a sigh of relief as she sat down at her lunch table. After first period she hadn't seen Pan at all. That used to be a bad thing, but now it seemed sort of...good. Bra felt badly for thinking like that, but it was necessary to do so. If she kept seeing Pan, she'd keep thinking of her and dreaming of her.
"Hey Braaaaa..." Bra's head snapped up at the sound of Suzume's voice. How long as she been standing there?
"Oh hey Suzume."
"Dreaming about Pan again?" Suzume teased.
"What!? No! I'm not a lesbian! I don't like Pan! I told you and Aki it was a joke!"
"Hey, chill out! I was just kidding. No need to get bent out of shape about it." Suzume pushed a piece of red hair out of her face before sitting down next to Bra. "If it was a joke, why are you flipping out about it?" Suzume asked, arching an eyebrow at her friend.
"Because I don't like being called a lesbian when I'm not one, ok!?"
"Are you sure you're not one?"
Bra turned around in her seat to find Aki standing behind her. "Yes, I'm sure, Aki. So shut up about it."
"I don't know. What do you think, Suzume?" Aki turned to the redheaded one.
"She is being awfully defensive. If it was a joke, wouldn't you laugh and kid around about it too?"
"I'm not a lesbian!" Bra screamed at her friends. Why wouldn't they listen to her?
"Whatever you say, lesbo." Aki smirked and sat down.
"Ugh!" Bra threw her hands up in the air. "Do you guys know how to shut up!?" Bra slammed her hands down on the table and stood up, knocking her chair over in the process. "I told you I'm not a lesbian, so stop calling me one!" Bra whipped around and shot out of the cafeteria.
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Pan sat at her lunch table, picking at the "food" she was given. It almost resembled food, but it definitely didn't smell like food.
"Hey Pan?"
Pan looked up to find her friend, Ami, staring at her. "What's up, Ami?"
"Didn't you just see Bra run out of the room? She looked upset, aren't you going to see if she's ok?"
"So, she ran out of the room looking upset, why should I care?" Pan replied, apathetically.
Ami blinked at Pan, utterly confused. "B-but, um...aren't you guys best friends? You're inseparable and it's been like that for as long as I can remember. You guys are always looking out for each other. What's going on?"
"People change, that's what's going on, Ami. Besides, Bra's old enough to take care of herself. I can't be there for her forever, especially if she doesn't want me there." Pan mumbled the last part, but Ami heard it quite clearly.
"Are you guys having a fight?"
"I suppose you could call it that. I honestly don't want to talk about it, if that's all right." Pan went back to picking at her food, but she suddenly didn't feel hungry and pushed her plate away.
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Bra wasn't sure where to run to, so she turned into the first open door, which happened to be the girl's bathroom. After checking to see if anyone was there, Bra leaned against the wall and slid to the ground.
"Why wouldn't they just shut up?" Bra pulled her knees up to her chest and began to cry. She really wasn't sure why she was crying. She wasn't really sure of anything anymore. "I'm not a lesbian, I don't like Pan! Why don't they believe me...why don't I believe me?"
Bra had absolutely no idea what to do, but she did know one thing. She couldn't be around Pan anymore. She needed these dreams to stop, she needed her friends to stop thinking she was a lesbian. Bra was ready to do anything, even if it meant ruining her friendship with Pan. Besides, it seemed that it was ruined already. Pan ignored her today and she had to have seen Bra run out of the lunchroom. If Pan really cared, she would have been in the bathroom by now.
Bra stood up and grabbed a paper towel to wipe her face. She pulled out her makeup bag and began to apply makeup to hide any evidence of her crying. Once Bra was satisfied with how she looked, she left the bathroom.
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Pan opened up her locker, quickly listing all the books she needed in her head. She shoved her things in her backpack and glanced down the hallway for Bra, wondering if they'd still walk home together. When they were younger and had stupid little fights, they'd always walked home with each other. It was a must, no matter what happened.
Pan decided to wait a little longer when she spotted Bra with an older guy, who appeared to be offering her a ride home, at the front door. She watched Bra giggle and nod her head, then leave with the guy.
She couldn't believe it. Pan clenched her fists so tightly, her nails dug into her skin and drew blood. She wanted to scream, she wanted to cry. Pan turned to her locker and kicked the door as hard as she could, nearly breaking it, then stormed out of the school to walk home alone. Now she had no trouble sorting out her feelings. She knew exactly how she felt and she felt nothing but anger.
***
Bra flopped down on her bed. The ride home was awesome and it really kept her mind off of...what's her face. Bra giggled at her inability to remember the name of the girl who's been on her mind constantly. It all seemed so difficult to do before, but now it was a piece of cake.
Bra picked herself off the bed enough to grab the phone that was now ringing. "Hello?"
"We need to talk right now, Bra."
Bra blinked. "We do?" It was Pan. The name flowed back into her brain along with the dreams.
"Yes, yes we do."
Bra sat up completely wondering what Pan wanted to talk about. She sounded really, really pissed off. "About what?"
"Everything, Bra. About you not wanting to be my friend and being a coward about it by not telling me flat out."
"What!?"
"Don't act like you have no idea! You didn't speak one word to me this morning on the way to school, once you saw it was me who you bumped into, you stopped apologizing, you didn't sit by me in first period..."
"You didn't want to sit by me in first period! You seemed pissed off at me!"
"Well I wasn't until now! You left school without me!"
Bra closed her mouth. That was true, she did leave school without Pan. She did it because she didn't want her friends to see them together. How exactly was she supposed to explain that to Pan?
"Have nothing to say? Good because I have a lot of things to say! I know why you don't want to hang around me."
"You do?" Bra swallowed hard. Could Pan possible know the real reason?
"It's because you let your stupid friends influence you!"
"What are you talking about, Pan!?"
Pan growled through the phone. "You know damn well what I'm talking about! They all hate me! I'm sorry I'm not popular like you are, Bra! I thought you were different and didn't care about that, but obviously you do! You can't be seen with someone who's 'beneath' you!"
"Listen, Pan, that's not it at all!"
"No! You listen to me! All you care about is what people think about you! You have this reputation that you need to uphold and you'll do anything to do so! You could care less what happens to our friendship!"
Bra listened to Pan, who seemed to be echoing back her thoughts. She really did care too much about what people thought, that was just the way she was. But Pan had it all wrong. She didn't want to be thought badly of for hanging out with not so popular people, she didn't want to be thought of as a lesbian. There was no way Bra was going to be able to explain this to Pan, especially since she really did want to break up their friendship. She was ready to do it before, but now it seemed like a bad idea.
"You're just a selfish bitch!"
Bra nearly choked. "Did you just call me a selfish bitch!?"
"That's right, I did!"
"Kami, Pan, it's so obvious you're jealous of me!" God! What was she saying?
"Me? Jealous of you? What do you have that I need to be jealous of?" Pan asked with a bitter tone.
"I'm popular, you're not. I can get any guy I want, you can't."
"Excuse me!? What makes you think I care about being popular?"
"Pan, all the losers say that and all it does is show how much they wish they were popular. Who doesn't care about being popular?"
"I don't and you know that! Popularity means nothing!"
"Right. Keep thinking that. Plus I have more friends than you." Bra really wanted to slap herself across the face. Why was she letting her anger get the best of her? She was making this situation worse!
"Oh yeah. Quality over quantity, Bra."
"And just what is that supposed to mean?"
"Do you honestly think your friends befriended you because they like you? They're friends with you because you have money and guys throw themselves at you. It makes them look good to be friends with you!"
"That's so not true! They're my true friends and they're better friends than you ever were!" Why did she just say that? That was the most dishonest thing Bra's ever said. If they were her true friends, they wouldn't have teased her about her dreams. Of course Bra wasn't going to let Pan know about that.
"All of my friends are better friends than you! I don't even know why we were friends in the first place! You really are just a bitch!" Pan slammed down the phone as did Bra.
Bra threw herself back onto her bed. "Ugh...what did I just do!?" Bra buried her face in the sheets on her bed. For some reason her heart hurt, almost like she had just gotten dumped.
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