Chapter Three

Please believe me…

Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters… J.K Rowling does!

Pairing: R. Lupin and N. Tonks

Authors note: This story is rated T for some coarse language.

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Lupin was walking along the side walk thinking to him self. Stupid friends of mine, first Sirius, then Molly, who's next? (Sniff) "What the?" he said looking up and seeing a young witch sitting on a bench crying… damn…Tonks… noticing who it was. Lupin was debating on whether to go there and comfort her or to turn around and walk to other way. If he went there and tried to comfort her, it was most likely she would leave and walk away considering what happened before, but if he walked the other way, he wouldn't be able to forgive himself…so the question remains, what if?

Lupin then found himself walking towards her. "Tonks…" he whispered slowly.

Looking up, a teary Tonks was surprised to see who it was. Trying to stand up, Lupin made her sit down.

"Tonks…" began Lupin. He put his arms around her to make her feel better.

Please don't stop hugging me…I'd rather—wait… Tonks was now realizing that she shouldn't be here with him and that she had to get away from him. Standing up and forcing herself away from his arms.

"No Tonks, listen to me!" said Lupin grabbing her arm so that she would stop walking away. "Please…"

Tonks stopped walking and faced Lupin. Why are you making this harder for me? Just let me go and walk away!

"Look, I'm still not sure what happened yesterday but please don't let what we have end this way…please…" said Lupin trying to convince her.

"You know, I don't know what your problem is! I tell you I love you, what's so confusing about that? And what we have? Tell me what do we have? Cause' to me we don't have anything. NOTHING!" said Tonks now raising her voice.

"Tonks…what I meant is our friendship…don't ruin it because of your feelings…for-for me, just because I don't feel the same way doesn't mean we cant be friends right?" he said. I hope one day you'll forgive me…

"Can you be more stupid or what? Obviously it's going to be awkward having you around after I told you what I felt…and its worse cause' every morning I try to convince myself it was all a dream. Do you know I keep crying over you every single day and night? Like, it's clear that I can find someone much better than you and someone who will love me back. But…no you don't know what it's like to be miserable, to love someone who doesn't love you back and I have to suffer through this, and who knows when I'll finally get over you!" she replied. Shit, what did I say that for? Then again it is true!

Oh my fucking gosh… thought Lupin.

"Listen to me! I know what it's like to be miserable! I'M A DAMN WEREWOLF IF YOU HAVEN'T NOTICED YET! I HAVE TO ENDURE DAYS WHERE PEOPLE WILL LOOK AT ME, AND CRITCIZE ME! YOU ONLY HAVE ONE PERSON NOT LOVING YOU BACK! ME? I HAVE THE WHOLE WORLD! BELIEVE ME, I KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE MISERABLE AND TO SUFFER!" shouted Lupin. Calm yourself down you damn wizard! You're going to scare her!

(Slap!) Tonks hand connected with the side of Lupin's face. Tonks covered her mouth in shock then turned and ran away in the other direction. Argh…I'm so stupid…I can't take this anymore! I need a new place, some place where no one will find me! But where…Hazardous Grove? She thought to herself… Hazardous Grove it is… Not the most exciting and nice place, after all it's named after so many murders and the crimes that had been committed there. She then apparated to the new place she would call home.

I-I can't believe she did that…thought Lupin touching the hand-printed mark on his face. If this is what I have to go through then so be it… She has to lose those feelings for me. Even though it will hurt me for the rest of my life…She has to believe me that I don't love her… thought Lupin before walking back to Sirius' house.

Later on during the night……..

"Where's Tonks, Sirius?" asked Mrs. Weasley.

"How should I know? I'm always stuck in this house" he answered.

"I saw Lupin walk out the door in a bit of a hurry this morning, what was that all about?" asked Mr. Weasley.

"Oh…He was rather upset when I brought up Tonks and how he should give her a chance and whatnot…" replied Mrs. Weasley.

"Yeah, even though I'm his best friend he won't even take my advice or listen to me when it comes to women!" said Sirius taking a bite into his steak. "By the way good dinner Molly!"

"Thanks…well I'm getting worried now, I mean Tonks hasn't been acting herself lately ever since the incident between her and Remus. And Remus too, He's been more moody than ever, even the slight mention of Tonks throws him off." said Mrs. Weasley throwing her hands up in the air as if there was no way to help Lupin and Tonks. Just then they heard the closing of the door and looked to see who it was.

"Remus buddy! Come eat dinner now—Oh my god! What happened to your face?" asked Sirius.

"Nothing. Leave me alone!" said Lupin.

"Remus, tell me it wasn't her who did that…?" asked Mrs. Weasley.

'If you must know, all of you…it was her, damn why can't you all accept the fact I don't like her! This was all good when she didn't admit…admit her feelings and shit! And if your going to ask me where she is, forget it cause' I don't know!" screamed Lupin before hurrying his way up the stairs.

"Damn, is Tonks violent or what?" said Sirius.

"Sirius! This is getting worse…we have to find her!" said Mrs. Weasley.

After almost three hours of searching, they found nothing… "I'm sure she will be okay, after all she is a witch and I'm sure she can take care of herself…" assured Mr. Weasley.

"I hope you're right dear…I hope…we better get to sleep, we have a meeting tomorrow…" said Mrs. Weasley before they went off to sleep.

Hazardous Grove

'My new home away from home…At least this is better than having to see that damn wizard everyday' thought Tonks before putting all her stuff into place at her new "house" with the flick of her wand. 'Now what? I suppose I could go and meet my neighbors…but then again, this place really creeps me out. Oh Molly…well I better get off to writing to her…' she then began to write a letter to Mrs. Weasley.

After she finished, she tied it to an post owl and sent it off to 12 Grimmauld Place.

Back at Sirius' house

"MOLLY! There seems to be an owl for you!" shouted Sirius.

"Thank you," (paid the owl) and went up to her room. The letter was from Tonks Surprising…she thought.

Dear Molly,

I'm sorry for not informing you sooner about my leave of absence. The reason is that I can't take it anymore. Having him around is pretty much like hell for me…Having to see him everyday and crying over him really affects me. I really don't know when I'm coming back…I will get over this…I hope…thank for all your help I'll mail you every month or so…

Love always,

Nymphadora Tonks

'Oh dear…this is not looking good at all' thought Mrs. Weasley.

Lupin was up in his room laying on the bed and looking up at the ceiling. He pulled out from under his bed, a picture of his former girlfriend, Cecilia. No one except Sirius and James knew about his tragic story. He remembered that tragic night he lost her to his enemy Fenir Greyback who had murdered her. Ever since the incident six years ago he never wanted to love another witch again. But proving that seemed harder ever since he was developing feelings for Tonks. He looked at the picture, 'what do you want me to do? Please tell me what to do? I don't know if I can keep this up any longer…' he thought to himself while looking at the picture. No, he had to fight his feelings. He didn't want anyone that he loved most to get hurt, even if it means sacrificing the love he had for Tonks. I'll get through this, I know I will…

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