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~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ (Hiei POV)
I turned and looked at the kitsune as he slept in his bed. His breathing was steady and even and his face was peaceful. Should I tell him? I often thought this and always came to the same conclusion. Kurama turned over in his sleep and sighed. I smiled and stood looking out the window. The sky was still dark, but dawn was near, I could tell by the smell of the air. I jumped out the window and jumped from tree to tree thinking as I went.
I stopped on an ancient oak tree and sat down in its uppermost branches. Kurama was a friend, I decided, nothing more or less. I wanted more, but why would he ever love me? I was cruel and harsh at time and rarely ever seemed to be friendly, definitely not loving. I scowled and picked at the bark, peeling it away piece by piece. He could never love me I realized harshly, and it hurt me. I was surprised at this, never in my life had I desired friendship, never even a romantic partner. Now I had a friend and wished he would love me in a different way, but I could not make that request of him.
I stood and leapt from tree to tree angry with myself. Why couldn't I be more loving? More caring and less cold and closed off. I landed on the street for now it was light and Kurama would come out any moment to walk to school.
He appeared and close the door and came down to where I was and we started our routine walk to school.
( Kurama POV)
As I stepped out the door I noticed something was wrong with Hiei. I walked sown to the sidewalk and we started our walk to school. I glanced at him and smiled hoping to entice him out of his hell, but he kept walking, silent and tight-lipped.
Finally I couldn't stand it any longer and I stopped. Hiei looked at me and I saw flash of concern flash through his eyes before being replaced by the hurt.
" What wrong fox? Forget something? " He glared up at me.
I stared defiantly at him, " No, but something is wrong with you and I will not move from this spot until you tell."
" Nothing is wrong."
" Then why is there hurt in your eyes?" The moment I said it I wish I hadn't, Hiei looked at me with a pained look and raced away. I sighed feeling confused and wondered what was hurting him so.
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( Hiei POV)
I was shocked the moment Kurama's words left his mouth, how could he see the hurt? I stood there uncertain for a minute then ran away. I ran away, the thought echoed through my head. How could I the mighty Hiei run away?
I grimaced as I sat in a park somewhere. I had left Kurama alone and once more hadn't told my feelings to him. I lay on my back in the grass and wished I were someone else. Never before had I lacked confidence, but now I had no courage to tell Kurama my true feelings.
I remember one time how Kurama had took my hand and said he was always there for me. I hadn't wanted to admit that I needed him for a friend so I had shrugged. I saw the hurt then in Kurama's eyes, but it had faded away.
Had he wanted to be lovers then? Or just best friends? I sighed and sat up burying my head in my arm wishing I could cry and not be ashamed, but I couldn't cry. Not here. Not ever.
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That's it for now, I not sure where they story will go from here, but please review so I feel loved enough to update.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ (Hiei POV)
I turned and looked at the kitsune as he slept in his bed. His breathing was steady and even and his face was peaceful. Should I tell him? I often thought this and always came to the same conclusion. Kurama turned over in his sleep and sighed. I smiled and stood looking out the window. The sky was still dark, but dawn was near, I could tell by the smell of the air. I jumped out the window and jumped from tree to tree thinking as I went.
I stopped on an ancient oak tree and sat down in its uppermost branches. Kurama was a friend, I decided, nothing more or less. I wanted more, but why would he ever love me? I was cruel and harsh at time and rarely ever seemed to be friendly, definitely not loving. I scowled and picked at the bark, peeling it away piece by piece. He could never love me I realized harshly, and it hurt me. I was surprised at this, never in my life had I desired friendship, never even a romantic partner. Now I had a friend and wished he would love me in a different way, but I could not make that request of him.
I stood and leapt from tree to tree angry with myself. Why couldn't I be more loving? More caring and less cold and closed off. I landed on the street for now it was light and Kurama would come out any moment to walk to school.
He appeared and close the door and came down to where I was and we started our routine walk to school.
( Kurama POV)
As I stepped out the door I noticed something was wrong with Hiei. I walked sown to the sidewalk and we started our walk to school. I glanced at him and smiled hoping to entice him out of his hell, but he kept walking, silent and tight-lipped.
Finally I couldn't stand it any longer and I stopped. Hiei looked at me and I saw flash of concern flash through his eyes before being replaced by the hurt.
" What wrong fox? Forget something? " He glared up at me.
I stared defiantly at him, " No, but something is wrong with you and I will not move from this spot until you tell."
" Nothing is wrong."
" Then why is there hurt in your eyes?" The moment I said it I wish I hadn't, Hiei looked at me with a pained look and raced away. I sighed feeling confused and wondered what was hurting him so.
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( Hiei POV)
I was shocked the moment Kurama's words left his mouth, how could he see the hurt? I stood there uncertain for a minute then ran away. I ran away, the thought echoed through my head. How could I the mighty Hiei run away?
I grimaced as I sat in a park somewhere. I had left Kurama alone and once more hadn't told my feelings to him. I lay on my back in the grass and wished I were someone else. Never before had I lacked confidence, but now I had no courage to tell Kurama my true feelings.
I remember one time how Kurama had took my hand and said he was always there for me. I hadn't wanted to admit that I needed him for a friend so I had shrugged. I saw the hurt then in Kurama's eyes, but it had faded away.
Had he wanted to be lovers then? Or just best friends? I sighed and sat up burying my head in my arm wishing I could cry and not be ashamed, but I couldn't cry. Not here. Not ever.
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That's it for now, I not sure where they story will go from here, but please review so I feel loved enough to update.