Disclaimer: Yu Yu hakusho is not mine. I wish it was for I would have lots of fun. Rae-Chan knows what I mean ^_^;

^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ (Hiei's POV}

As soon as I said the words I wished I hadn't. Kurama had been staring at me intently

with hope in his eyes. Hope for what? I watch him pain and despair filling his eyes.

What have I done? I wonder this as Kurama numbly gets up and looks out the window.

He stands there his shoulders sagging and then suddenly his back straightens,

"When are you leaving?" He turns his eyes now cold and uncaring, like when he's in his

youko form. I look down. Now I didn't want to leave. I just didn't want to face him

everyday unable to tell him I love him. It makes me feel like a coward. Maybe I could tell

him and it would be alright, and then I remember he had wanted to tell me something.

"Soon, what did you want to say earlier?"

(Kurama's POV)

Hiei asks me what I had wanted to say, and for a split second I consider telling him. But

then my heart hardens and I think he wants to leave me right? He'll never return my

love, so why tell him?

I stare at him coldly "It doesn't matter now does it?"

My face remains frozen as Hiei looks at me with big pain filled eyes. Earlier I would

Have felt sorry for him, but know I couldn't care less.

"So are you going?"

Hiei seemed taken aback and suddenly his face went back to the emotionless mask it

normally was.

"I am going. Goodbye, for I do not plan to return ever again"

Hiei then vanished as he opened the window and jumped out.

I turn and shut the window, not really realizing what had happened.

I go upstairs and work on my homework then I go make some curry for supper.

I sit at the table and listen to the silence. Usually Hiei might have been here, but now all I

Have is my memories. I get up and leave my meal unfinished and go upstairs to take a

shower. I towel my self dry and then look at myself in the mirror.

I see a young boy with red hair staring at me, his emerald eyes showing

intelligence and cunning. Also hurt. I glare at the mirrior and wialk to my room and get

ready for bed. I turn off my light and stare at the ceiling waiting for Hiei. I left the

window open for him like I normally do. Then I know, he's not coming back. He's gone

forever and I still love him, but now he isn't with me. I lay there then bury my face in the

pillow to smother my sobs as I cry to sleep.

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