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Summary: Pacey needs to get away from Joey but the repercussions will leave Joey in a horrible depression that will make people come to terms with their greatest fears and regrets.
Chapter 1- Messy breakup
Pacey had just left Joey's life for good. She didn't know how to deal with her pain and sorrow. She tried so hard to hang on but was turned down again and again.
"Why Pacey! Why!" She couldn't hold back her tears anymore.
"I don't know Jo! I don't know anything right now." His last sentence turned into a whisper.
"But Pace! I would do ANYTHING for you. You know… I would give up college, stay here with you, ANYTHING! PLEASE PACEY! I can't live without you. I just can't." She couldn't finish her sentence; it was too painful for words.
Pacey could see the sorrow in her eyes and it killed him to hurt her so bad.
"Did you ever love me? Were you just in it for sex?" There was a pause but she didn't let him answer.
"How could you do this to me!"
"Of course I loved you. How could you even think that it was about sex! You know that I had more feelings for you than that!"
"'H…had'?" Joey was hanging on for dear life at this point.
"Yes Jo 'had' as in no longer there."
"But how can you just… ju…" she couldn't even finish her sentence; she was too choked up. What was she without him? Nothing. That's all she was… nothing. But she knew that she was fighting a lost battle that would never see the light of day without bloodshed.
"I'm sorry Jo. You have to believe me when I say that I never wanted to hurt you." He said it with so much sincerity and sadness.
"I know, I do Pace, I do, but it still hurts just the same. I love you with my whole being and have never doubted my love for a second. It doesn't matter if you meant not to hurt me Pace, it will always hurt."
"Believe me, I know." Hurting Joey was breaking his heart but he had no choice, there was nothing left for them. They both knew that they couldn't handle a long distance relationship and the temptation for other relationships would tear them apart anyway.
"I'm so, so sorr—"
"Pace, it's okay, it is, I understand where you're coming from but I need to be honest with you hear. I have nothing without you. My life has no meaning to me without you. I-I can't live without you Pace!" The tears were coming at full force at this point.
"Jo…"
"No Pacey. You've stepped on my heart long enough. I don't think I can take much more of this. I mean, hearing you say it's over again and again and say sorry is just too gut wrenching. If you say sorry one more time I will just die right here and now and never bother you again. Is that what you want Pace? I'm serious here, do you want me to leave your life so you don't have to deal with me anymore?"
"Of course not! I just thought…"
"Please don't explain. I don't want to hear it. But could you just do one thing for me before we part ways for good?"
"F…for good?" Pacey didn't want to never speak or see Jo again. He just wanted to end the relationship. He treasured their friendship. Ever since he had soiled things with Dawson, Joey was his only best friend.
"Yes Pace, for good. Maybe in two years you can get over the fact that we used to be lovers but when we see each other I can't. Even if I'm dating or married or getting over someone else, my love for you will always be there, always be strong in me. So what I'm asking you is for my last memory of us to be a kiss. Not a peck but not a make-out, a kiss that would sum up everything we've been through, good and bad, big and small. Please Pace, that's all I ask and I'll be out of your life for good I swear."
Pacey really couldn't object to her request. The hard part would be letting her go though. Just the thought of never getting to see her smile, or look at him, or hold him or kiss him was unbearable. He didn't want it to end for good.
"Of course I would do that for you Jo." He whispered in a futile attempt to keep his tears away.
They leaned in one final time. Each kiss became more deep and passionate. It was bitter sweet. It was the most meaningful kiss of their relationship and it certainly felt that way. After a minute or so they finally pulled away. They peered into eachothers eyes before Joey leaned in again to his ear and whispered, almost not wanting him to hear.
"I love you Pace; forever and for always. You will always have me."
"Why do you have to make this so hard Potter?" Her last sentence made him rethink everything in a second but he couldn't back down now. It was over and there was nothing left to say.
"It's a special talent of mine, I thought you of all people would be accustomed to it by now." They chuckled and hugged each other one last time.
"Goodbye Pacey."
"'Bye Potter."
They each went their separate ways and that was the end of a major chapter in their lives.
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