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Chapter 4 – Never Enough
Pacey and Joey looked into each other's eyes unable to say a word. Joey decided to end the silence with one word…
"Hi."
"Hi."
There was more staring and looking until Joey unwillingly removed herself form Pacey's grasp.
"So…"
Pacey didn't know what to say to her. I mean… she knew that he still loved her… what was she planning to do?
"So…"
Joey didn't know how to end the awkwardness. All she wanted to do was jump into his arms and never escape their grip. But she knew she couldn't do that because he didn't want her anymore. I mean sure he loved her but he didn't want her. And without both all you have is… nothing. Her eyes brimmed with tears as she realized that they could never be together. It stung her in a place that she never knew existed. It was too much for her. She needed him and he didn't and it killed her all the more.
Pacey wanted to end this awkwardness just as much as Joey did. All he wanted to do was take back everything he said to her. He wanted to be with her so badly. But he knew he blew it. He could never get her back. He knew that she would never let him back in. No matter how much he just wanted to take her into his arms and melt there with her… he couldn't. The time to take it all back was long past… but G-d how he needed her. He needed every inch of her. But she would never know… ever.
"Well… I'm gonna go get some blankets for you."
"Okay."
Joey's voice quavered a bit but she didn't want to show her weakness so quickly turned away from his stare. She made her way over to the couch and sat down and began to remember all of the good times they had together. She missed them so much… walking hand-in-hand with him… kissing him… hugging him… snuggling with him… saying 'I love you' back and forth…
She was taken out of her reminiscing as Pacey entered the room. Joey quickly wiped away and tears that may have appeared.
Pacey handed the blankets to Joey and decided to go to his room and avoid all of this uneasiness.
"Pace?"
"Yeah Potter?"
Pacey was nervous. He didn't know what she was going to say.
"I love you. Just… always know that."
Pacey didn't know how to react to that so decided to just say the first thing that came to mind.
"Love you too Potter. I always will."
Joey couldn't stop the threatening tears anymore. This was killing her so much. They both loved each other but couldn't be together. It was a horrible world.
"Well… goodnight Jo. I'll take you home in the morning if you want."
"No… that's okay… I drove my car here and I don't want you to walk back… unless…"
Joey blushed slightly. She really wanted to be with him as much as possible.
"Unless what?"
Pacey was looking at her expectantly.
"Unless… unless you don't mind walking back."
Joey let out a light smile knowing that he would never accept.
"I don't mind Jo."
Joey's face lighted up and she let out one of her classic smiles that broke Pacey's heart all over again. That smile wasn't his anymore… she wasn't his anymore. And she never would be again.
"'Night Pace."
Joey walked over to Pacey and kissed him on the cheek before whispering…
"You'll always have me Pace."
Pacey let a tear slip from his eyes and roll down his cheek until it hit Joey's lips. She quickly kissed the tear away and backed away and smiled before Pacey thought it best he leave before he does something he might regret.
With a sigh
You turn away
With a deepening heart
No more words to say
You will find
That the world has changed forever…
That night was one of the hardest. Pacey had to fight his several urges get out of bed and be with Joey. But he knew he couldn't so he tried to drift off into a pleasant sleep, which had become anything but pleasant…
And the trees are now
Turning form green to gold
And the sun is now fading
I wish I could hold you closer…
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Sorry for the short update again! I'll pbly update in a couple days… but if I don't… don't u worry! I will update!
ALSO! The song is Houses of Healing by Liv Tyler (it's in the extended version of the Lord of The Rings: Return of The King) but unfortunately not on the soundtrack. :(