A/N: Sorry for the wait I had writers block. So here is a nice hopefully long chapter for you. Underlined type like this is the wolf talking to Remus
At the end of term the boys were in their dorm silently waiting for the carriages. Sirius was pacing like an agitated animal in a cage. "Sirius stop it you're making me sick." Peter yelled finally. "Sorry." Sirius sat down and started biting his fingernails. "Don't bite your nails." James learned from his mom that biting your fingernails was gross. "Let's go get a carriage." Remus said finally to distract Sirius. Sirius pulled out his composition book to write something in it. Remus and James stared at it for a moment. Peter raised an eyebrow at them. "What are you writing Sirius?" James asked out of curiosity. "A song, I write all sorts of songs in this." He forced a fake smile. "Can I look?" Peter asked. "No!" Sirius said quickly. "I mean no there's some stuff I don't want others to read." Sirius put on another forced smile.
As Sirius stepped through the door of his house a club struck him in the ribs. "Regulus you dunce you wait till the door is closed first." His mother screeched. Dully he noticed his mother never spoke she always screeched. Sirius knew better than to ask why he was hit and just waited for another blow. "Sirius darling..." His mother started. 'Aw crap.' Sirius thought. When his mother called him darling it always meant something bad. "Yes mother?" He spat the word like poison. "Put you trunk upstairs and come to the den." Sirius drug his trunk to his room and went to the den. In his mother's hand was a Cat Tails 9. His brother was smiling maliciously and his father stood by the couch. As he approached his mother cracked the whip. One of the 9 tails struck his face beside his eye, ripping the skin and causing a torrent of blood to spill. Instinctively he hid his face and turned his back to her.
Eventually he lost count of the whiplashes. His brother whined when his mother let him go without a good clubbing. Once he got to his room he locked the door and went to his bed. The material of his robes was making his lashes sting so he pulled them off. After discarding the robes in the corner Sirius reached under his floorboard and pulled out a knife. He drew it horizontally across his left palm. Sirius watched his blood flow down his palm. If there was one thing he had in common with his brother it was that he liked to see himself bleed. Sadistic...yes, stupid...most definitely. Sirius went over to his trunk and got his composition book out. Turning to the new song he wrote in the carriage Sirius looked at what he called it. Perfect the exact opposite of what he was in his parents' eyes. Angrily he smeared his blood across the page. Rolling up his left sleeve and taking the knife he carved what he was into his flesh; Imperfect. On his wall he wrote, in his own blood, Imperfect. He heard his dad outside his door and began to sing his new song softly but loud enough for his father to hear him.
Hey dad look at me.
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time...
Doing things I wanna do
But it hurts when you disapprove all along.
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that I'm alright
And you can't change me
Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you
But you don't understand
Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
As he finished an owl swooped into his room. He didn't recognize the owl but he did recognize the seal on the back. It was from James. Sirius had to reread the letter to get what it said through his head.
Hey Sirius,
James here. Just wanted to let you know that you're staying the last two weeks for summer. We sent a letter to your parental units too. If your parents approve then send an answer back with Singapore pronto. We'll come and get you or send you a portkey or something. If your parents don't approve send this letter back with Singapore pronto and we'll get you here anyway.
The Fabulous James Henry Potter
JHP
"SIRIUS ORION BLACK GET DOWN HERE THIS INSTANT!" His mother screeched. 'They got the letter then.' Sirius thought franticly. "COMING!" Throwing his robes on and shoving his hand into his pocket Sirius ran down stairs. "What is the meaning of this?" Her voice was deadly calm. "It looks like a letter." He regretted that when, for the second time that day, he was struck across the face. "Do not speak to me in such a manner." She pulled her hand back as if to hit him again. His mother noticed his hand in his pocket. "What is in that?" Sirius muttered 'nothing' but his mom didn't believe him. "Show me." She ordered. Sirius pulled his hand out and showed it to his mother. As she inspected the cut his sleeve fell towards his elbow and exposed part of his cut forearm. "What does this mean?" Was his mother stupid or what? "It means I am imperfect." He said softly. "Your father says you serenaded him with a song. He says you said he was your hero, when was this?" She found out everything and Sirius hated her for it. "When I was five before I was flecking cursed before I got flecking beaten and before I found out how bad your flecking beliefs were." His mouth once again answered before his brain. More than angry with him she coated her fingers in salt and rubbed them on his forearm. He tried to jerk away but it was useless. "You can go to this Potter's house but you won't be fed for two weeks. Now get out of my sight before I beat you again." Sirius ran off to his bedroom.
He pulled out some bandages and disinfectant while silently thanking God the full moon was last week. 'Who ever made disinfectant was either trying to cause pain or was trying to get people to stop getting hurt.' Sirius thought as he wrote to James.
James was half asleep when Singapore dropped an envelope on his head. On the back was a wolf/star seal. 'It must be from Sirius.' He thought before reading the letter.
James,
The parental units say I can come. One thing, the full moon is the week I'm supposed to come, it's on Wednesday. Also don't be surprised if I have bruises when I get there.
Prisoner of Hell
P.S. Who ever made disinfectant was either deliberately trying to cause pain of was trying to convince people to stop getting hurt.
POH, AKA; S.O.B or Sirius Orion Black
'Don't be surprised if I have bruises, that doesn't sound good. What was he disinfecting? S.O.B? OH, son of a beotch, ha ha I get that one now!' Were just some of the thoughts that ran through his mind before the big one hit. 'The full moon is during the week of my arrival it's Wednesday. Crap Sirius is supposed to transform at my house. Maybe Remus could have him over Wednesday till he heals and then both stay the last week at my house? Yeah I'll ask mom.' With that thought in his head he went downstairs. "James, honey, is something wrong? It's midnight." His mother asked after he knocked on the door. "Mom I need to talk to you about a few of my knew friends." James waited for his mom to come out of the room and followed her to the kitchen.
"Well first of all Sirius can stay with us." He started. "That's good." His mother was told about the young Black and generally liked him already. "Second he is a Lycan and would have to transform." His mother's mouth dropped open. "Another of our friends is a werewolf so I was thinking that on the full moon he could stay with our other friend till they heal from their wounds of transformation and then stay the last week with us." James let his mother soak in what he said. It took her a moment but then she smiled good-naturedly. "Of course honey, write your other Lycan friend and ask if it's okay. If it is then write back to Sirius and tell him." She gave James a hug and went back to bed. 'Well that went better than I thought it would.' He went upstairs to write.
Remus woke up and stretched. On his desk was an envelope and in Paris's cage was Singapore. He grabbed the letter and went to breakfast. "Good morning Remy." His mother said to him, using the much-hated pet name. 'I bet if HE called you Remy you wouldn't mind' the wolf said. 'Oh shut up.' He thought back at it. "What's that you've got there dear?" She asked. Remus flipped it over to look at the seal. It was from James. "It's a letter from James. One of my friends from school." Remus broke the seal and read the letter.
Moony,
I got the name from Sirius blame him; I have a question for you. Sirius is staying at my house for the last two weeks of summer. That's when the moon is full. Do you think it would be okay if he stayed with you for the moon and till you both healed? You are welcome at my house for the last week of summer.
The Fabulous James Henry Potter
JHP
Remus reread the letter. "What's it say dear?" His mother was curious to know what his friend wanted to know. "Can Padfoot stay for the moon, he's another werewolf so I can't hurt him. Also for the last week of summer can I stay at James's house?" He asked. "What do you think David?" His mother asked. "I think it'll be fine Molly, as long as we stay in the house the boy's will be fine in the forest." His father said. "Write your friends and tell them. Also I guess you can stay the last week at James' s house." His mother gave him a quill and a couple of pieces of parchment.
Singapore flew in James's window. He dropped a letter before going into his cage for a rest. James stroked the owl's feathers while he read the short note from Remus.
James,
Mom and dad said Padfoot (Sirius's wolf name) could stay with us.
I sent a note to Padfoot with Paris, she needed something to do and Singapore is tired. They also said I could stay with you.
Moony
P.S. Have you noticed we all sign these things differently?
R.J. Lupin
James hadn't noticed that they all signed their notes differently. Sirius received an owl later that day. It was Moony's owl Paris. "Hey Paris." Sirius stroked the owl with a pale hand. The two weeks of starvation were almost up so he could eat soon and regain his color. Sirius took her note and she flew off.
Padfoot,
This is Remus. You are stay with me on the next full moon. I told James already. Mom is dieing to meet you. Why...I have no flecking clue. Dad wants to meet you too. Oh and when you get here don't let Romulus, older brother, get under your skin, he's the worlds biggest prat and the worlds smallest snack. Sorry bout that last quote the wolf thought it and I just wrote it down. Anyway I'll see you soon.
Moony
R.J.Lupin