A/N: I'm back for more, though I am a little P.O.ed, that not many people reviewed my last chapter.
Elizabeth Turner –Thank you for reviewing, I'm very glad you stopped. Oh and this is just a random fact but, Elizabeth is my middle name.
Skyla Gerdes-Sorry I confused you. The reason Sirius cut because of Snape's comment will be clarified in this chapter.
Sirius woke up feeling relieved yet still in pain. The feelings of despair, hatred, and sadness from Snape's comment about his family had gone but the pain of having his friends find out about his cutting made him angry, sad, and somehow betrayed. Sirius laid his head on his knees and grunted angrily because now he was confused. He heard the door crack open and his head snapped up. James and Remus' scents entered his nose and he relaxed slightly. James sat down by the bed and Remus sat on the other side. "Anything you'd like to talk about?" Remus asked somewhat bitterly. Sirius grunted and slammed his head against his knees. "You know every time you do that you loose three brain cells." James said. Sirius looked at him and smiled a small smile. "You'd have figured it out sooner or later Moony. I'm sorry I didn't tell you." Sirius said looking at his hands. "We'll help you stop, won't we Moony?" Remus nodded. "It'll be hard, I've been doing it for a long time." Sirius said looking at his bandaged arm. "What made you do it this time?" Remus asked cautiously not wanting to upset the bigger male.
"I may not have shown it, but Snape's comment hurt, it hurt bad. It made me feel despair because my family doesn't flecking care and rage that they sold me to Voldemort and don't even care when he tries to rape me!" Sirius' voice had grown louder and then he covered his mouth with his hands. "You weren't supposed to know that last part." He said in a muffled tone due to his hands. Sirius bent his head down so that his long dark hair would fall in his face. "Sirius?" James said softly. Sirius put his head against his knees again. "Sirius are you alright?" Remus asked. Sirius' body began to shudder as he broke down. James and Remus put an arm around Sirius. James looked at Remus with eyes that screamed for them to help. Remus' own eyes were gold with anger at Sirius' parents and Voldemort. Sirius' head snapped up and a growl rumbled from the depths of his throat. James backed away, afraid of getting bitten. Remus looked around for the cause of the sudden change. It was Peter, standing in the doorway. Remus looked at Sirius' eyes. They were liquid silver. Obviously in his momentary breakdown the wolf had broken through the barriers constructed to keep it controlled and was now on the prowl. Remus began to whisper soothing words to Padfoot calming the wolf enough for Sirius to gain control. "Sorry 'bout that." Sirius said as the nurse came out. "Ah, good you're awake. Take this and you can go." She pulled out a thick green looking potion. Sirius gagged when he took it.
The boys left and went to the common room. "Okay Sirius, the first way to quit is to get rid of this." Remus said pulling the knife out from under Sirius' bed. "Zerbröckeln klinge." Sirius said pointing to the knife's blade. The blade disintegrated into ash. James and Remus raised an eyebrow. "German crumbling charm. Only know by me, I made it." James and Remus' jaws hit the floor. "You made a spell? You made a spell?" James asked stunned. Sirius nodded. "That's very advance magic." Remus said still a little dumbstruck. "Yeah but I've been working on it for ages." Sirius said offhandedly. "Now when ever you feel like biting yourself, snap this." Remus said putting a rubber band around Sirius' wrist. A flutter invaded Remus' stomach when he touched Sirius' skin and when Sirius smiled at him.