Take a Bow

Chapter Four

Wish you well, I cannot stay,

You deserve an award for the role that you played,

Role that you played.

No more masquerade, you're one lonely star.

One lonely star and you don't know who you are.

Ed got used to walking within the next week. He liked watching Roy sitting on the couch working on his paperwork as he read a book. The books were mostly on alchemy and he felt as if he read them countless times before. Like it was just a review. He thanked Riza for the books she brought him, and she'd just smile at him sadly. Then his nightly dreams turned more into horrible nightmares. He slept more often with Roy, sneaking into his bed at night to get rid of the images of the horrible nightmares. During one of his doctor visits he asked if his memories could invade his dreams. The doctor asked if he had memory like dreams and he replied "More like nightmares."

His brother visited him daily and talked to him. They talked about Alchemy. Al would mention advanced alchemy and it all seemed familiar to Edward. Then slowly over each visit Ed remember an array or complicating arrays that his brother didn't even know about. What both Al or Roy didn't know was in Ed's dreams he was remembering about the "Truth". It haunted him during the nights and ate away at his happiness that he felt. Feelings of guilt came to him and he didn't understand why.

When he looked at Alphonse he felt sad, like he didn't accomplish a plan, goal, or maybe a promise of some sort? Sometimes at night, when the "Truth" didn't bother him, he dreamed of Al and him performing a difficult type of alchemy for a purpose he couldn't remember... he could hear Alphonse screaming, his body disappearing in front of him, he reached out to his brother as his left leg... disappeared. Then he was saying something he couldn't make out, and his right arm started disappearing and the armor near him where he put an array on glowed to life. Then darkness.

Tonight, he dreamt of a little girl with brown hair and innocent blue eyes. She smiled happily at him and a dog that looked bigger than him clobbered him and licked him in the face. The dog was white and fluffy. It wasn't a mean dog, but just puppy like and loving. He read books that a man named Tucker provided. The girl named Nina asked him constantly to play. Al, in a giant suit of armor, went to play with the little girl as Edward read countless books on Alchemy. He was studying for some sort of test. Then he woke up, curled next to Roy, sun shining in the window. He sighed as he sat up. He was beginning to remember after three whole months of being in the dark.

He didn't tell Roy about his dreams that much, nor did he tell him how much he remembered. He still didn't remember that much about Roy or the unit. He wasn't at that part of his memories, but he could feel that he was getting closer. He remembered a lot about Al. How his soul was trapped in a suit of armor, how they were as kids, and the women he saw in his dreams (who he guessed to be his mother) that loved them both terrible, but died, He remembered a teacher that taught him self-defense and Alchemy, then he remembered the Tuckers, but that was as far as he'd gotten. But he knew That Roy was the one to convince him to get the automail and to become a State Alchemist, that's what the test was for, right?

Roy turned in his sleep, disrupting Ed from his thoughts. He smiled down at the dark-haired man's face. I've been asleep for 4 years. I think you were 26 when I was 15, your 30 now, and now I'm turning 20, you'll be turning 31 in a few months. Ed thought as he looked at the military man. He looked at the clock near the bed. 8:59 am. He got up and went to his room to get dressed. Just as he got on his black jacket, the alarm went off and the phone rang.

Ed went and answered the phone as Roy sat up in his bed and glared at the alarm clock. "Hello." He said. "Hello Ed-kun, how are you?" It was Riza. "Very Good, Riza-Chan" He heard several gunshots being fired at Havoc. He knew it was Havoc cause Riza yelled at him for being loud while she was on the phone. "Is the Colonel awake?" She asked. "Yes, well right now he's glaring at the clock." He heard her sigh and he smiled. "Do you want him?" She sighed a yes. "Roy! Phone!" He yelled and then went down to the kitchen. He could hear Roy grumbling on the phone as Riza talked to him. He made breakfast today and the coffee. He only made toast, but that was also all that Roy ate in the morning, besides two cups of coffee.

After they ate and cleaned up, Roy drove them to the base. Everyone was happy to see Edward there after so long. He felt like he belonged there. He helped Roy with his paperwork and read on the black leather couch. He talked to Havoc, Fury, Brenda, and Falman; he also made sure he didn't get on Riza's bad side. Then he fell asleep on the leather couch as Roy signed away, paper after paper.

He was standing in front of a desk; behind the desk was Roy, the Flame Alchemist. Roy handed him a document. The document was from the Furher and it congratulated him and gave him the second name of "The Fullmetal Alchemist." He felt happy, but at the same time miserable. This meant he'd be dedicating his whole life to the military as a dog, doing all the dirty work for the state.

Now he was standing in an alley, he was crying as he looked at the blood-spattered wall. There on the wall was Nina and the white dog called Alexander. Her own father, who was in custody of the state, combined them.

Each memory hit him harder then it had as he slept at home with Roy. The memories were vivid and he didn't want to remember most of them. He could feel his lungs lose air as he yelled at someone for calling him short. He could feel all the times he felt guilty as he looked at Alphonse. Then all the sad memories stopped.

He was standing in the park that was near Central. It was a beautiful park, he sat at the fountain as he looked up at the darken sky. Tons of stars sparkled and shined at him, feeling his loneliness. He heard footsteps coming from behind him. He smiled, knowing who it was. "What do you want, Bastard Colonel?" Edward said as he continued to look at the stars, not wanting to look him straight in the eye.

"Your brother's worried about you. He called me and told me that you went and disappeared this morning." Roy sat down next to him, looking up at the shining white stars too. "But here you are looking at the stars. Is something wrong, Fullmetal?" Edward smiled and looked at him. "What would you do if I told you, I love you?" Roy blinked in surprise and smiled at Edward, "I would kiss you, like this..." Roy took Ed's lips with his own gently...

"Ed...Edward... Wake up, it's time to go." Roy's voice invaded his beautiful dream. Edward sat up and yawned. Roy took his hand and smiled. "Come on, let's go home. " Edward nodded. There are so many things I want to ask you. Edward walked to the car with Roy. He noticed that Al didn't come around at all that day. I have all these memories now, but I still down remember if you really love me, or if it was all just a damned dream... He sighed as he looked out the window. "I told you I loved you on a night like this." Edward finally said after ten minutes into the ride. Roy looked to him with hopeful eyes. "I just don't remember what happened after I said 'What would you do if I told you, I love you?' I don't remember how you reacted and...I...I really want to know, do you love me?"

Roy smiled and knew that Ed was always straight to the point. This proved how much of his memories were back and how the younger male didn't tell Roy anything he remembered. "I told you that 'I would kiss you,' and I did. I love you so much, Edward. I love you as much as I did then. Knowing that I couldn't protect you and how much I love you kept me from dating again after two years you were in coma." Roy said as he stopped the car in front of the house. Edward smiled and looked to Roy. "I love you Roy." He felt Roy lightly kiss him. "I love you, too and I always will. " Edward smiled and kissed Roy back. "I still don't remember the accident, but I'm me again. I have tons of questions to ask both you and Al."

Roy smiled at the blonde and pulled him out of the car. Roy led the boy back into the house. They ate dinner, talking, teasing each other, and Roy laughed as Edward playfully fumed as Roy made a short comment. Then they went to bed and made love.

I've always been in love with you,

Always with you.

I guess you've always known it was true.

You know it's true.

You took my love for granted, why? Oh why?

The show is over say good-bye.

Say good-bye, bye bye,

Say good-bye.

Disclaimer: Own FMA? HAHAHAHEHEHEHEHEHHOHOOHOHO! Oh god no!

Shi: lmao Marii, The author of Full Metal Alchemist won't let me have them because she's afraid I'd lock them in my closet forever. heh. The next chapter will be the last. Know what, I had all five of these chapters done when I started posting, but they weren't edited right away. So thank Marii for Editing this story super fast!