Of True Love and True Lust

Chapter Two: What's Up With Harry?

Draco went up to his room, where he found Pansy, waiting for him.

"What are you doing in my dormitory Pansy? Aren't you supposed to be in the girl's?" Draco said annoyed already.

"Well, I came to check up on my sweetie. Is there anything wrong with that?" Pansy asked, batting her eyelashes at him. He almost threw up at that site.

"Get off my bed, and go to your own room, wench. I'm not your sweetie, and stop bugging me. I have nothing to do with you." Draco fluffed a pillow and pushed her off his bed when she wouldn't move. She fell to the floor, and got back up to glare at him.

"What has gotten into you Draco? What ever happened to us? What's wrong?"

"Nothing's wrong, there's never been any us, and nothing's gotten into me. I'm actually happy for the first time in a long time, and you're spoiling it. Now go already. And turn off the lights on your way out, or I'll get rid of your eyebrows or something in the morning." Draco was really pissed off now, and shot Pansy a deadly glare.

"What are you talking about, no us? What do you mean? You haven't been seeing anyone else have you?" Pansy looked like she was going to cry, but her eyes were so lifeless, you couldn't tell unless you saw her expression.

"I'm not seeing you anymore and I haven't been for a while now, so it's not possible for me to be seeing anyone else besides you, which I'm not. But I do have a girlfriend if that's what you mean. And it's definitely no one you know, she's much less annoying, and she's much prettier. And, if I dare say, she's much better at snogging than you." Draco said this so sternly and coldly that she backed up against the door. Her eyes started to well up, and she ran out the door after turning off the light and slamming the door on her way out. Draco laughed and thought how funny her expression was. He thought about Ginny for a while and went into a restless sleep, anxious to see Ginny the next day.

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Ginny got up and looked out the window. It was still very dark. She wasn't sleeping well, so she decided to get up for a walk. She went down into the common room and was surprised to see Harry there, and it looked like he was… Crying?

"Harry? What's wrong? Why are you crying?" Ginny went over to him and sat cross-legged. Harry stared at her, his face streaked with tears.

"Have you ever considered that maybe Malfoy's not the only one who likes you? No, I don't think so. Not anymore anyway. You used to swarm all over me. I never wanted to admit that I liked it. I never wanted to tell anyone that I've had strange feelings for you since I saved your life in your first year. You probably liked me. I didn't know for sure. I thought you were just into me for the fact that I saved you. Not that you really cared for me. You're a beautiful person Ginny. I love you. I have for a long time. I don't know why you find Malfoy to be so attractive. Why Ginny? WHY?" Harry let everything flow out of him. He couldn't stand it anymore. He had to tell her. Ginny gave him a shocked look.

"Why didn't you say so back then? Why didn't you ever tell me?" Ginny's eyes were welling up. This wasn't what she expected at all.

"I don't know. I just… I had to keep quiet or Ron would have been looking for my blood. You know how he is with anyone who likes you! He's too overprotective. It's just, I love you Ginny. I want you. But now you're with Malfoy, and it looks like he won't let anyone near you. I heard his promise. I was about to go out and follow you again and I heard his promise. Why," Ginny cut him off by placing her hand on his. He froze, his mouth still open.

"Harry, I used to love you. You know that. But you never noticed me and I got tired of it. Ever since then, I started noticing Malfoy. He's liked me since my first year here…I didn't know you liked me. But, you say you love me. He says he loves me. I love both of you in different ways. I think it's because I love Draco now and I loved you then. I just can't get either of you out of my head though. But I can say one thing: He's definitely told me how he feels. I still don't see why you didn't. Ron wouldn't get mad at you. He'd make you tell me. You're his best friend." Ginny stopped. Harry had another tear roll down his cheek.

"You said you love him." It was all Harry could say before he broke out into another crying episode. He took his hand away from her and faced the fireplace again, bringing his knees up and lowering his head to rest on them. "You told him you love him. But I love you. Tell me, do you think he m-means it when he says those th-three special words to you?" Harry snapped at her.

"Of course I believe him. How can I n-" Harry cut her off by lashing around so he could now hold her in his arms.

"Ginny, all I've wanted to do is hold you in my arms and say 'I love you'. And have you to be mine. Always mine no one else's. I'll always love you Ginny. No matter what. I want you to know that." He stopped crying as he felt her shaking in his arms. He looked at her, and noticed she was crying.

"You sodding bloody git, Harry! You should've told me earlier when I did love you! Now you had to tell me. Why now? Now I'm not sure at all if I'm happy! I was happy until you told me all of this! Draco cares about me. He loves me. He told me before you did, and if you had told me first, I'd probably be happy right now with you holding me! But I'm not! You're too late Harry, you're too l-" Harry made her shut up by kissing her. She tried to push him away, but he was too strong. She tried to pull away from his lips, but he had his hand in her hair and pressed her face into his. She made a muffled screaming noise in her throat, but no one heard. It was just her trying to get away from Harry, and him kissing her. He wouldn't let go. He couldn't.

Harry was leaning her down, onto the carpet. She had calmed down a bit and was actually kissing him back now. She tried to stop, but she couldn't. She didn't have the will. And if she tried getting away, he'd just overpower her anyway. She lay on the carpet now, crying. Harry broke the kiss and stared at her. His eyes needy, his expression full of lust. Ginny couldn't keep her eyes open. She shut them tight and tried to scream, but instead he pulled out his wand and muttered "Inaudibus", preventing her from saying anything. She was scared. What was he going to do to her? Harry started to look a little scared himself. Was he going to make her do something? He didn't know.

"Don't worry Ginny. I won't hurt you. I just want you. I need you. I can't stand it that you and Malfoy have a pure love. I want your love. I need your love. I need you Ginny." Harry made her open her eyes and she saw the lust again. He leaned on her, disabling her from getting up, and he pinned her arms down, making her unable to hit him. He kissed her again, greedily. He started to think a little and pulled out his wand again, muttering something she couldn't hear. It sounded a lot like 'Petrficus Totalus'… Which it turned out to be. She couldn't move. Now she was really scared.

"Now, where was I?" Harry looked like he was in a trance. He went back down on her and started kissing her again. He started tracing his finger around her stomach and unbuttoning her blouse. She shut her eyes again and started crying again. He got to the part where he could see her bra. He was about to reach under when he noticed she was crying. He looked shocked as hell. He got up, buttoned her up, undid the spells, and ran a shaky hand through his hair. He was bewildered at the scene of seeing her on the floor, crying and him on top of her. He surprised her by saying, "What were you doing on the floor, Ginny? Why'd you have those spells on you? Why was I on you? What happened? Ginny?" She looked at him with disbelieving eyes. He really didn't know?

"Well first off, you claimed your undying love for me. Then you kissed me, set those spells on me, and started to what seemed like almost raping me! You were ready to sexually harass me! In the common room! What's wrong with you Harry?" Ginny was shouting, but not loud enough for anyone to hear.

"What? I remember telling you I love you, that I would never stop loving you. And then I do remember kissing you. But then I remember I couldn't stop. Then I thought I blacked out! I didn't know what was going on! I swear! Ginny, forgive me! Please! I couldn't live if you hated me!" Harry was starting to cry. Ginny turned around and stomped up the stairs, leaving him to cry. Before she left though, she whispered back to him, "I love Draco Malfoy." He broke into a fit and tried to run after her, but she started to run up the stairs and locked the door behind her, causing the door to make a loud 'slam!' It was enough to wake up her three best friends, which she shared the dorm with.

"Ginny? Why were you out of bed?" asked Nana, sleep smothering her voice.

"Gin, why'd you slam the door?" Joey had the same sleepy voice as Nana.

"Quiet down, all of you!" Came the loud, irritated voice of Sarah.

"I'm sorry...it's just that Harry tried to RAPE ME!" Ginny nearly screamed her head off and had all of their attention instantly.

"What do you mean by that, Ginny?" Nana had her eyes fixed on her, wide and scared.

"I mean that Harry Potter tried to rape me downstairs! In the common room!" They all looked at her, eyes wide and curious.

"Tell tell! You hafta tell us now, Ginny!" Sarah looked at her with concerning, wide, curious eyes, a slight glint in them.

"Well, I couldn't sleep so I decided I would go for a walk. I saw Harry down by the fireplace, crying. I went over to see what was wrong and all of a sudden, he's telling me how much he's loved me since he saved me in the Chamber of Secrets! Then, I tell him stuff about how much I love Draco, and how much he loves me, and that I used to love Harry." She stopped when they gasped and she realized she hadn't told them about Draco yet. She continued after shaking her head. "So, anyway… He held me in his arms and told me how long he'd waited to hold me and how he wanted to call me his own and I started yelling at him and crying and he kissed me!" Another few gasps came and went when Ginny paused. "And he just wouldn't let me go! He put a binding spell on me and muted me with another spell. He started lying on top of me and unbuttoned my blouse. He was about to…you know… grab me… and sexually harass me, when he suddenly stopped, buttoned up my shirt, undid the spells, and asked why he was on top of me, why I had the spells cast on me, and why my shirt was undone! He didn't even realize it! I told him what happened, he started crying and told me what he remembered and told me he thought he blacked out. I left him there to cry when he asked me to forgive him. I told him something before I left though. I said, "I love Draco Malfoy." And he started after me again. So I ran up the stairs, slammed the door behind me and locked it. Help me! Please!" Ginny said the last part very fast, but the girls understood. They'd help her. They wouldn't let him near her anymore.

End of Chappie 2!

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