Darkness Falling
Bohemian babe
Archiving welcome with my permission.
Pg-13
The next day.
Late afternoon
Shalimar stood in front of her full length mirror looking at the dress she was going to wear in just a few days to her birthday party. The four had already decided to go eat at a small, but fancy restaurant on the outskirts of town near what Lexa and Jesse referred to as 'snob hills.' With the party only four days away Shalimar had taken the morning to go shopping for something special to wear. Only a few minutes after walking into the store she had found the perfect dress and immediately bought it.
The dress was a soft silk in a deep burgundy made in a slim cut style. There was a slit on one side that went up to mid thigh and the neck line plunged down low. Thinking carefully as she looked at her reflection Shalimar decided that the dress would look best with the diamond necklace Adam had bought her after she graduated from high school.
She pulled the necklace out of its velvet lined box and carefully fastened the clasp then looked back in the mirror. She smiled at the reflection and decided that she had been right about the necklace. Carefully she took off both the dress and the necklace and put them away safely.
She heard someone knocking on the door and quickly pulled back on her clothes. "Come in."
Lexa opened the door, stepped in the room, and closed the door tightly behind her. "We need to talk."
"Sounds serious." Shalimar sat down on her bed and signaled Lexa to join her. "What's up?"
"I guess its no secret what happened between me and Jess last night after we got back home."
"Not really. You having regrets about it?"
"Not so much about what we did as I am about how we did it."
"How you did it? That isn't making much since to me."
"Well you know its been a long time since he has, and well I'm not on any thing…"
"And he didn't have anything?"
"Exactly. I really thought that we were safe, but I was flipping through a calendar, and well I'm not so sure that we are."
"Well if you need me to I can run the scans so Jesse doesn't have to know."
"Thanks." Lexa was still visibly shaken. "I really cant deal with this, at least not now."
"Its no secret that you don't want to have kids. I guess I should check into the other options you'd have just in case."
"No, don't bother." Lexa pushed a strand of hair back from her face. "If it turns out that I did get pregnant because of my stupidity last night, well I know a good prenatal specialist."
"Prenatal specialist? You'd actually go through with a pregnancy?"
"Not if the father was any other man, but I don't know. I guess I feel like I don't have a right to even tell Jesse that I was getting an abortion if I was pregnant."
"He'd give you your choice. I mean I know he'd want the kid, he feels like he has something to make up for."
"I know he'd give me a choice, but when he looks at you with those eyes, even I have a hard time saying no." Lexa laughed slightly. "So what does he feel he has to make up for?"
"His father. Noah Kilmartin was not what a father should be, and now Jesse feels he needs to make up for that by having a kid of his own."
"This just gets more complicated. I'll talk to you later. I'm supposed to be letting Jesse test a new formula on me."
"We'll find Adam soon then Jesse can stop worrying so much, maybe even be able to spend a little more time with you."
"Yeah, get himself in even more trouble." Lexa walked out of the room.
Two hours later.
Shalimar walked into the lab and found Jesse working at his computer.
"You having any luck?"
"Not really. I guess I'm too tired to think. Didn't sleep all that well last night."
"Oh I know you didn't get much sleep last night. Actually that reminds me of something."
"What does it remind you of?" Jesse gave her a weird look.
"I was just wondering about what would happen with those stabilization formulas you are trying if it was used on a pregnant woman."
"I guess worst case scenario the pregnancy would be terminated. You don't have something you're not telling me do you?"
"I'm not pregnant, I would tell you if I was."
"Good." he shook his head as an idea came to him. "God forbid I be right, but is Lexa?"
"It wouldn't be my place to say if she was."
"Right now I don't care whose place it would be. I don't know what could happen to a pregnant woman, and if she is I really need to know."
"If she was I'd tell you, but as far as I know she isn't."
"She scared because of last night?"
"A little. She is at a disadvantage with this one."
"I'll go talk to her later."
"Just don't tell her I told you anything. Let her think you came up with the idea on your own."
"Right. I'll still be bracing myself for the worst." He looked down at the key board. "Part of the reason I never pushed her for a relationship was because I knew eventually the subject of kids would come up again."
"Because she doesn't want to have kids?"
"Even as much as I love her I couldn't choose between her or having a chance to raise kids of my own."
"So if Alicia came back you'd go with her because she'd probably be willing to have kids?"
"I never said that."
"So what are you saying?"
"That I cant deal with only having one or the other. If I stay with Lexa I can forget the idea of having kids with her, but if I go with having kids I lose Lexa. After all I've done with helping others and saving the world over and over with out any thanks I think I'm entitled to have both."
"You are. Just talk to her Jess, and tell her what you told me."
"Do you want her to yell at me?"
"Just humor me."
"Alright, I'll talk to her."
That night
Lexa stormed into Shalimar's bedroom in full rage. "How could you do that to me!"
"Do what?" Shalimar asked cautiously.
"You told Jesse! I thought I didn't have to spell out that I didn't want him to know!"
"I didn't flat out tell him. I was trying to find out if there was any danger for you to be taking those antidotes if you were pregnant. He pulled more out of the things I left unsaid."
"You know what it doesn't matter. I'm never going to trust you like that again."
Lexa stormed back out of the room leaving Shalimar in shock.