Chapter 7: Repentance
"Repent your ways, and let the darkness take you to her. Only then can you go to your love."
My eyes popped open at those last words that echoed through my mind while I slept. I did not know where they came from, nor did I want to. All I knew is that they were true, Alicia would not want me this way... I had to change, for her. I would do as the words commanded, I would repent my ways, then after that I would end it all.
I walked slowly to the mirror, blood stained tears ran down my face, I was covered in a cold sweat, and my eyes were red. I had killed so many... for what? I had always thought I did it because it was revenge for Alicia, but if that were true the only person to kill would've been me. No, the truth was, I had killed so many in my own selfishness... I put my pain on to others...
I thought back on who I had killed... The sheriff, all the police, everyone in the Fordman's store, random people on the street, and Lana. Lana's death pained me the most, she was innocent and was only guilty of being loved by Clark. This had to stop, now.
I left the house and walked towards the Fordman's shop... I passed by a few people, but instead I moved out of their way. I could see the confusion in their eyes as I did this. I just kept walking my head down, until I reached the ashes of the store. I stared at them, and noticed people just looking at me while I did this. I could hear their voices, "freak" was the most commonly used term, and I knew it to be true. I was about to leave when a hand grabbed my shoulder roughly and spun me about.
"Come back for more!" It was Clark he was furious, but his eyes softened when he saw me. I was crying, the tears ran from my eyes like rivers, and for the first time they were not bloody.
"I... I'm sorry..." I turned and walked away. I walked towards the graveyard where Lana's grave was. When I got there, I dropped to me knees and cried uncontrollably.
"I'm so sorry..." I stayed there for hours just apologizing to everyone I had hurt, the tears running from my eyes constantly.
I finally got up and left, and headed to Alicia's grave. I stood there crying for hours, wondering the whys and what ifs... if I could I would give my life for hers... but it was not possible. I touched her tombstone... "I love you... and I always will..." I spun around, "I'm sorry..." I headed towards the Kent farm.
When I arrived I headed straight for the barn. I knew exactly what I was after, so I grabbed it and headed out towards Shuster's Gorge.
I stood looking over the cliff, the tears still falling from my eyes to fall all the way down the cliff. It was my turn... I pulled out the lead box I had taken from the Kent farm, and opened it slowly. The wave of pain and sickness that washed over me, I accepted like it was my payment. I grabbed the chunk of kryptonite and turned around.
"I'm sorry..." I whispered before leaning backwards and sped off to the bottom of the gorge. The pain the kryptonite caused would soon be over, rolled over to see my fate, and there it was, the rocky bottom of the gorge, fast coming up. I smiled knowing it would be over, and shut my eyes.
"I'm coming... Alicia..." Then there was only blackness, it was finally over.