A/N: sorry it took me a long time to post this... a lot has been going on... read on and please comment.

Disclaimer: i do not own ASoUE or any of its characters, but i wish i did...:P

"Hi Duncan. Are you going somewhere?"

"No not really." Not that you're here now.

"Well Quigley's in the shower. We're going out to a club. You should come." Violet opened a can of coke. I can still remember. She loved vanilla coke.

"Clubbing isn't really me." I didn't want to be with them. Seeing them together, right in front of me. It would make me sick.

"Quigley told me that you're seeing someone. Clarisse?"

"Yeah… kinda. She's great." But not as great as you, Violet. I wanted to say it so bad… I didn't really care for Clarisse. She was sweet and kind but I didn't love here. I loved Violet. Clarisse was just an easy. A distraction. Nothing serious, just a companion. We did things like go to concerts and book fairs. We were more of friends than a couple.

"I'd like to meet her sometime." I can still see her hair when she said that. It was wavy and messy. Like she'd just gotten up from bed.

"Sure." There was a long pause which was filled with my thoughts. Should I ask her? Should I bring it up? I was stupid for doing so. I still regret it to this day.

"Violet… why?"

"Why what?"

"Why did you chose Quigley?"

"Duncan… "

" I mean I felt like we had something. We got along. We had this connection. But then... You chose him…. Why?" I should have stopped there but I went on and on… " I don't know what you see in him. He likes rock and you don't. He draws and you don't. He likes strawberry, you like vanilla."

"It's not about similarities…" she tried to say more but I just kept on going.

"How can you be with someone so unlike yourself. You and I should have been together. I had you first. I hate him."

She touched my hand which was on the counter. "Duncan, I can't answer you. I don't know why I chose him. It's a feeling. I still love you… but it's just different. You know?"

"No I don't know! I can't understand your way of reasoning. It is just not logical."

"Not everything is logical. Not everything has to be understood. Some things are just felt. Experienced."

"But I experienced love with you. You make my heart beat faster every time I'm near you. You make me feel wanted. I laugh with you. I have fun with you. I feel with you."

"No you didn't. You experienced friendship."

I couldn't get it then, but now I understand. It was like Clarisse and me. I liked spending time with her. I liked talking and doing things with her. She loved me, but I thought of her as a friend. Violet thought of me like I thought of Clarisse.

"It's so much more than that."

"Duncan, please… you have to come to your senses. It is nothing. We get along. Don't ruin what you and me have now. Don't ruin what Quigley and I have. We worked so hard Duncan. You and me. We tried to make it work. Now we are friends again. I thought you were comfortable with that."

"Violet, I was never comfortable with seeing my brother next to you. I should be the one giving you chocolates. I should have been there for you when you cried because you left sunny in the park and couldn't find her. Instead it had to be my brother. Don't you understand the pain you have caused? Just breathing next to each other? Do you not realize that I have feelings too? I love you more then he could ever love you. Do you not love me?"

"I'm so sorry. I never meant to hurt you. We never meant to hurt you. It's not like I meant to cause you much pain. I was just trying to be happy. To live. You have to know that it's not that I love him that makes me feel a certain way toward him. It's that he loves me back. I can't explain it. But to have him love me. It means so much. It's like a–"

I had to stop her. There were things that I didn't want to know. "Stop. I can't bear to hear you talk like this about him. Like he's a god. What's so great about him anyway? Violet, If I could offer you the world would you take it? Would you be with me?"

"It's not about that."

"The world and you still wouldn't be with me? What a loser I must be."

"Don't talk like that Duncan. Somewhere there's a girl waiting for you. Who will love you more than I could ever. What about Clarisse? I'm sure she loves you."

"I don't want her. I want you. Violet let me show you that I love you. Let me show you how much."

I was dumb for doing it but I didn't know what else to do. I kissed her. But the worst part about it was not when she did not kiss me back it was what happened after.

"Violet?" it was Quigley. He was calling her. "Could you come in here for a sec?" he was in his room.

"I've got to go." She walked away taking my heart along with her. She left me there. She left me hanging. She left her coke. For Quigley. The lucky bastard.

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