Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter our any of the Harry Potter characters (shocker I know)
A/N: I was inspired to right this one shot fic after my camp counsler Bethany told my cabin about her fight with purging and self-hatred. So this is for you Bethany I'm glade you're still her. Please review.
Down The Rabbit Hole
"I'm sorry Gin it's just got to be this way ya know." Said Harry.
Harry and Ginny were outside the Great hall everyone else was inside enjoying the
Christmas feast. They had been an inseparable couple for a year know. Then Harry had
started leaving Dinner early without explanation. Tonight Harry had confirmed Ginny's
worst fear Harry had been cheating on her with Hermione.
Ginny looked at the ground, kicking a melting clump of snow with her foot. Her
tattered, oversized red and gold scarf wiped around her. Harry cleared his throut in an
irritated tone before lifting Ginny's chin with his gloved hand. "Look if you wanted to
you could come home with me and mione for Christmas it would be……..great." His
voice was as if he were trying to compromise with a four year old. "Oh just like that like
every things just fine then." Said Ginny pushing away his hand. "This is exactly why I
broke up with you, your so unwilling to compromise." He hissed, trying to contain his anger.
Ginny gave the handsome emerald eyed boy a last look before dashing towards the girls
Dormitories. She threw of her snow soaked scarf and shoes and threw herself onto her
bed. She cried and cried. This is how it had all started simply crying when she knew
what had been happening with Harry and Hermione. But soon it wasn't enough. Harry
wouldn't just do this to her because he wasn't satisfied it had to be her. She had stared in
her body-length mirror the day of that realization, pinching up a round of fat on her
tummy and thinking ew. That's when the perching had begun first every other day
then after every meal. After she was done she would think of how Harry would love her
again when she was thin. Then he would love her again. He had to.
Ginny looked up with red, swollen eyes across towards the lavatory with a final
sob. She got on hands and knees and crawled towards the rusty stall. She kneeled on the
floor and closed the door, making sure nobody was in the other one. Her own sick
routine. Leaning towards the bowl she whimpered, jamming her hand into her mouth
when she heard the Dorm door slam. Red shoes clomped across the tile floor towards the
adjacent stall. Ginny held her breath and eased onto the top of the bowl. Finally a flush
and the horrid shoes clomped out of the dorm. Ginny breathed and kneeled on the
floor once more.
She watched as the last of the acid slipped down the drain.
"Good" She whispered. This was her life she was among the living dead, down the twisted rabbit hole.
It was just her life down the rabbit hole.
Ginny fumbled to grasp the stall handle as it began to spin. It took a monsters form
before all went black.
After the feast Hermione walked into the dorm cheery at the thought of many
years to come with Harry. She walked into the lavatory to wash her face when she saw a
foot sticking out from the stall. She pulled open the door and gasped. Ginny lay on the
tile, a satisfied smile across her now blue-white lips.
-1fan