I dun own the lovely movie Alexander or the song "Just Friends" by Gavin Degraw. But GODS does the song fit the movie.Much love!

Ohyes. Alexander x Hephaistion love. It's kinda Roxane x Alexander, but she's merely being used. But of course she'd be abused.

For Pandarosi-sama. She got me to watch the movie in the first place.

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I saw you there last night

I don't think you ever saw me, watching you and him on the balcony.

Standing in the dark

That general of yours. What was his name? Hephaistion, I think it was. I could never understand why you would prefer that man to me, your wife. Why was it that you married me, then, instead of living out your pathetic life with an equally pathetic lover?

You were acting so in love

I still can't really bring myself to call you that, though. You're my husband. My Alexander. Brave, strong, noble, like Achilles and Herakules, myths of old. Just like the hero you aspire to be. And yet, you look at him with such longing. Such lust.

Such… love.

With your hand upon his heart

"There are many ways to love, Roxane." You tell me reassuringly. How can I believe you? He placed a ring on your finger. Is this not matrimony? You pull him close to you, closer than I have ever been. Is this not love?

But you were just friends

You're friends, as you so mildly put it. The tender, deliberate touches and unconditional devotion, meaningful looks from across the room. Friends? Lies. Do you not think that I know? Ah, but even you don't realize it.

Embraces. Loving words. Gazes that seem like an eternity to me as I continue to monitor the continuing affair with your childhood friend, which is seemingly obvious to everyone except to yourself and him.

At least that's what you said

You can read me, from what I know. It's like an apology as you extend your arms to me when you find me, watching again from the stairs. I back away from your advances, warily. Eventually you've caught me on the bed. My breath becomes harsh, and soon my dagger is pressed to your throat. I could never bring myself to kill you, I am that weak… although you later make love to me, I can tell you're even more distant that before. Just more lies.

Now I know better from his fingers in your hair

I wonder what you say to that Hephaistion as you whisper lovingly in his ear. A small smile plays across his face, which is all I need to see as a confirmation to my suspicions. You might think women are stupid, only needed to procure an heir, love. I am much, much more. More than either of you could ever be.

Why weren't you true?
You know I trusted you
When you were just friends

I loved you, so much. I wanted to give myself up to you. When we were wed, it was the happiest moment of my life. Hephaistion watched. I could see something in his eyes, discernable at the time. Now I know. Now I can see through your sweet lies.

You were just friends

You smile back at that man.

At least that's what you said

You hold his arm casually.

Now I know better from his fingers in your hair

He gently pushes back and caresses your hair, and you do the same to him afterwards. The curving of his lips tells me everything. Inside I'm burning with rage, but you continue to touch like lovers. Your eyes meet, and you both stare at each other for so long.

I'll forgive you for what you've done

I intercept you at the bottom of the stairs. Hephaistion has not come down. I assume he will be staying tonight? Indubitably you will tell me to sleep with my handmaidens.

If you say that I'm the one

"Do you love me, Alexander?"

You just turn away. "Roxane, will you sleep in your handmaidens' quarter tonight? I… I want to be alone."

Ha. Alone.

I'll forgive you for what you've done

If you say that I'm the one

Lies.