Buffy felt a little guilty that she had been lying to everyone but Willow for months now. Months of seeing Spike had caused her to become reckless and uncaring, the way that Faith had once become. It wasn't the lure of evil that was affecting her; it was the lure of love and power. She felt so many times like telling Giles or Xander, but she knew that they hadn't understood Angel and they defiantly wouldn't understand Spike. So she sat in Giles's apartment, holding the guilt and the secrets inside. "You don't think it is just a random vampire?" Buffy asked Giles hopefully.

"No. I think these are planned killings, I am quite sure of it."

"Well I do some patrolling tonight to see what I can find."

"Yes that would be quite helpful."

"You shouldn't go alone." Willow said fast. Buffy shot Willow a look but she held her ground. If someone didn't go with Buffy she would just go see Spike. Since Buffy first told Willow about Spike, Willow had grown concerned. Buffy wasn't messing with a vampire with a soul like Angel; she was with an evil vampire. She was with a vampire that still killed and fed. Spike could be using her till he could kill her.

"I will be fine."

"I'll go with you." She insisted to the blonde. Buffy nodded in agreement and the two left the house. Buffy turned to face Willow.

"Go home Willow."

"No."

"What?"

"If you don't find what is doing this then the world might end. You know one of those lovely apocalypses and stuff that you use to prevent."

"What do you mean use to? I still fight evil."

"No you don't. You spend all your time with Spike. Xander and I have been patrolling and staking vamps so that Sunnydale doesn't turn into an all you can eat town."

"No one asked you to do that." Buffy said coldly, walking away.

"What is wrong with you Buffy? Does Spike have this much influence on you, cause you are starting to remind me of Faith after she killed that guy." Buffy spun around and looked Willow right in the eye.

"It is none of your business." She told the girl and stalked off to see Spike.

Giles's House-

Willow turned and reentered Giles's house after Buffy was out of site. She couldn't stop Buffy without help. Thoughts swirled in Willow's head as she thought about the rouge slayer Faith, whose bad girl image turned out to be much more then that. Giles, Xander and Anya all looked at her strangely. "I thought you were helping Buffy tonight." Giles said to her. Willow looked at him.

"I need to talk to you." She said quietly. He nodded and they retreated upstairs to talk. Willow sat down and took a deep breath.

"What is it Willow?"

"It's Buffy." She said, finally feeling the weight of the burden go away. Giles looked at her.

"What's wrong with Buffy?" Willow breath out and then sat down.

"She had been seeing someone since Angel left and I think it is effecting her."

"Who has she been seeing?" Giles asked, taking her glasses off and cleaning them with a handkerchief.

"Spike." Willow said under her breath. Silence suddenly took over the room and then the sound of Giles' glasses hitting the floor.

"Spike." He said to himself. When Angel first came into the picture as Buffy's love interest, Giles felt a sense of being a bad watcher. Especially after Angelus killed Ginny. But at the end of it all Angel did have a soul when she fell in love with him. And he had helped them in several tough times. But Spike, although he had helped Buffy once, had no soul.

"Does she love him like she did Angel?" Xander stood at the door.

"I think so." Willow said. She wasn't really sure. "She doesn't really talk to me anymore. She's..."

"Distant?" Anya said. Willow nodded. "I've seen it before. The lure of love. Become what you think your lover wants you to be."

"What would Buffy think Spike would want her to be?" Xander asked.

"A vampire." Willow said. They all looked scared.

The Graveyard-

The graveyard was quiet. It had been for quiet some time. Word underground was that the slayer had taken up with a vampire. And not the one with a soul, but a real evil vampire. So every vampire in Sunnydale sat in wait for Spike to sire the slayer, giving them free range on the towns people of Sunnydale. But nothing had happened yet. Although that slayer hadn't been hunting as much as she use to, she was still killing vampires. Or her lackeys where. Marina was pissed. She had had a brief relationship with Spike before he left with Drucilla. She figured that he would come back to her, only to find him fucking a slayer. She walked freely into the crypt that Spike had taken over. He turned around to look her in the eye, thinking or hoping that it was Buffy. "What do you want Marina?" He said to her coldly.

"I want to know what a vampire like you is doing fucking a slayer."

"Well I guess I rather fancy her." He said, smiling at something that Marina didn't get.

"What's so funny?" She asked. He just smiled as the stake plunged through her heart and she dusted.

"Now I really should be upset that ya dusted one of my own." He said to her, smiling still.

"Yes well I guess I should be upset that you still feed off humans." Buffy said, walking over to him. He grabbed her by the waist.

"Only a little. I drink that nasty pig's blood..."

"And only feed on humans when you get the urge. And I only stake a vampire if one seeks me out."

"Compromise. The beauty to this relationship." He said, falling down on the bed and taking her with him.

"God to think that I am dating a vampire."

"You dated Peaches right?"

"Different. I don't fear him." Spike's eyes got wide. He flipped the slayer over.

"One, no one fears Peaches. Two, ya fear me?"

"Evil, soulless vampire remember."

"That hurts love." He said, getting off her and sulking over to a chair where he sat and flipped the television on.

"Oh come on." She said, grabbing a beer from the fridge and falling down on his couch. "It's not like your aren't proud of it."

"Well now that you mention it..." He smiled. "Naw it doesn't bother me. I'm not all evil, like what happens to Peaches when he shags someone. I still have enough soul to love you. Don't know why I do."

"And you think I know why I love you." Both stopped what they were doing. It was the first time that they had ever said that. "You love me?"

"Ya love me?" He said in response.

"Fuck. How did that happen?"

"I don't know slayer, but it's your fault."

"My fault. I think you have me under a spell Spike."

"I never told ya to kiss me back. I came there to kill ya."

"Well I was upset. You took advantage of..." Spike had move and kissed her to quiet her.

"Do we care? Do you honestly find me so repulsive that ya couldn't love me."

"I should ask you that same thing."

"I can love ya if you can love me."

"All right. Then I guess I can love you." She smiled and brought Spike closer for another kiss.

The Car-

Angel came back to Sunnydale as fast as he could. Despite everything that he had done to Giles, despite leaving Buffy and being the most probable cause for her problem, Giles had called him when he didn't know what else to do. So Angel, Cordelia and Wesley all took the trip down to Sunnydale. Angel filled them in on what was going on and the car ride down was more torture than his soul. "So you mean that Buffy's fucking Spike. Evil Spike."

Angel looked at her. "Could you please not say that?"

"Well this is quite a upsetting turn." Wesley said. "After the lose of Faith..." He chocked up a little at the memory of his failed attempts to be her watcher. "We seem to be well on our way to losing the other. The council will not be pleased."

"She isn't lost." Angel said.

"At least not yet." Cordy said. Angel shot both of them a look to shut up. Cordelia felt trapped in the small quiet car and was grateful that she had reached the house. She ran out and hugged Xander, without so much as a thought about the past. She broke away fast and smiled weakly as Anya made her way over to Xander, placing her arm around his waist.

"Are we to late?" Angel asked Giles.

"We don't know." He replied honestly. "Her mother is inside. She hasn't seen her in days." Angel looked at the man, his eyes filled with pain.

"Don't blame yourself." He told him. He walked inside to find Joyce on the couch. He grabbed a stake and headed out without another word.

The Crypt-

Angel busted into the crypt. He found himself enraged to see her in bed with Spike, screaming his name. After the wave of her orgasm ended she looked over and suddenly got really embarrassed. "Spike." She said. He got off her and looked at Angel.

"Why hello there Peaches. Been a long time."

"To long." He said, lunging at Spike with the stake.

"NO!" Buffy screamed, sending a kick to Angel's stomach making him miss his target. Angel hit the floor. Once he sat up a little, Buffy finally spoke. "What the hell is wrong with you? Do you just barge in on people whenever you want?" She said as she put Spike's shirt over her and as Spike put his leather pants on.

"Since when is he a person?"

"Since when were you?" Buffy asked sarcastically. "I am still a person and I still have rights. So barging in when someone's in bed, not something that you should do."

"Since when do you screw vampires?"

"I screwed you didn't I?" Buffy said coldly. Spike let out a laugh.

"She's got ya there Peaches." Angel shot him an angry look. "Oh I am scared. Peaches here is going to give me angry looks till I die of looking at his face." Buffy laughed.

"What are you doing here Buffy?" Angel asked.

"Well until you came I was screwing my boyfriend."

"You are aware that he has no soul?"

"Yea. Don't bother me."

"That's right Peaches. So move along, nothing to see here." Angel lunged at Spike again. Buffy tackled Angel, and grabbed the stake from his hands. She placed it above his heart.

"Buffy think about what you are doing."

"Will you leave?"

"Never." She move the stake and impaled him, barely missing his heart.

"Now will you leave?"

"No!" Angel said.

"Then let Peaches stay love." Spike said taking Buffy's hand and pulling her up off Angel. He wrapped his arms around her waist. "I don't care. Got to say thought love, bloody hot as hell watching ya stake him..." He looked at Angel pulling the stake out. "Even if ya did miss." He kissed her ravenously and she returned the kiss. Angel felt disgusted, as something had crawled inside him and was eating him from the inside. Buffy pulled away from Spike and smiled at him. "Love ya slayer."

"Love you to." She told him. Angel almost laughed, instead he coughed.

"He can't love you, he has no soul." Angel said. Spike walked over to him, punched him in the face and held the stake at the level of Angel's heart.

"Love her more then you ever will."

"Don't make any bets on that Spike. We all know how you hate to lose. Especially to me."

"Better stop Angelus."

"I could get her back if I wanted, just give her time. Like Drucilla, she will forget all about me leaving and come back to me, leaving you to your own self." Spike took his free hand and smacked Angel. Then he held the stake and got ready to thrust it into Angel's heart.

"Say goodbye to her on last time Peaches. You'll never get another chance." Angel looked at Buffy. She knew that it was time to save him. Although she would much rather let Spike stake him. "Whatcha lookin' at? Ya think she's gonna save ya." He laughed. "Oh ya do." He turned and motioned Buffy to him. "So what's it gonna be slayer. You wanna save him or let me make everything right after the bastard left ya." Buffy looked between the two men.

"If you stake him, it will not be for me." Buffy said. "Don't make that mistake. You are still evil Spike and all this caring and love that we have between us could just be passion. And passion is a flame that dies out. You don't care that he left me, you just care that he seems to be able to drive your girls away from you. So if you stake him now it's for you, not for me." Spike looked at Buffy.

"No." He said. "If I stake him it is because I am sick of seeing him hurt people that I care about. If I stake him it will be defendin' you. Because he left ya, made ya cry and drove you to take up with the likes of me." Spike said and Angel could see in his eyes and hear in his voice, there was sadness and a genuine care for Buffy. Spike dropped the stake. "Take what ya came for, if she'll go with ya that is." Angel let himself lose of Spike and walked over to the crypt door. He turned to look at Buffy, expecting her to go with him.

"I'm not coming with you Angel. It's not cause of Spike either. It's cause you think that you can keep saving me, like some goddamn knight-in-shining-armor. But you can't save me anymore. You left me and now I want you to stay away." Angel looked at her one last time before leaving. Spike grabbed his jacket and headed towards the door. "Where are you going?"

"Bar."

"I'm not done talking to you. Why is it you all say what you want to say and then leave, not giving me a chance to talk?"

"What's goin' to be slayer? Gonna tell me that Peaches was right, that I'm just a monster? Cause I gotta say, I knew that one. Ya gonna tell me that it's finally over? Trust me love I've been waitin' since this all started for ya to tell me that one. To wake up and realize that I am a monster. Didn't think it'd hurt this much, kinda thought I'd kill ya when ya told me. Instead I feel this need to drink." Buffy just kind of stared at him. "Not in the blood sense of course." He turned to leave.

"Spike."

"Don't do this slayer." He said, turning again to face her. "Don't try to tell me that I'm not the monster that Peaches says I am. He made me what I am. He taught me all there was to learn. So don't tell me I'm not a monster, cause I am. And what's worse is I really do love ya slayer. That doesn't make me less of a monster, it just makes me a danger to ya."

"Did you ever think that I what that danger in my life?" She was crying now, knowing that he was going to walk away from her. Her heart felt like someone was squeezing it, the same way it had felt months ago when Angel left her. "Did you ever stop to consider what I wanted? No. You are just like him Spike, just ready to get up and leave me without thinking about what I want. I am not a damn little girl anymore and I can fucking make up my mind without you doing it for me." All of what she had said sunk in. But he was running towards her before she finished. He slammed her up against the wall and vamped out.

"I'm not like him." His anger was building and she could feel it.

"Then why are you leaving me like he did."

"I'm not leaving ya slayer. I can't do that." He let her go and walked away. He would turn around though. "But you can leave me. Ya can get a right good guy, not some monster."

"Why do you say that?"

"That's what I am." He said, turning around and looking at her. He was still vamped out.

"No." She said coming up close to him. She took her finger and traced the bumps on his face, then brought it down and traced his lips. "You stopped killing mostly. You protected me and loved me." She kissed him. "You love me, more then Angel ever did."

"I don't deserve ya slayer." He said with sadness, his normal face returning. "Ya been hurt to many times, I don't want to be the cause of ya crying."

"You think me leaving is going to be better. I couldn't feel when you told me to leave you. I could never do that Spike. For some odd strange reason I did fall in love with you. I can't change that anymore then you can."

"You'll get hurt."

"I can live. Slayer strength makes me heal fast."

"Your watcher and those bloody slayerettes ya have, even your good ol' mum, isn't gonna approve."

"Since when do I care?" Buffy said.

"And ya got to stop this whole being bad act. Ya got to start caring about this world, fighting that big bads and all."

"All right." She said. He leaned down and kissed her.

"You go tell Peaches whatever lie ya want, but don't ya lie to the others. They have to know."

"Got it." Spike turned and walked towards the door. "Where are you going?"

"I got to get me somethin'. Might take a while since it's a long way away." She came over to him and kissed him ravenously. He returned her kiss and then pulled away. "I'll be back slayer."

"Be careful Spike." He put his jacket on and walked out the door. Buffy walked to opposite way and ran right into Angel.

A/N:

Sup people? Well this is the second installment in my Buffy/Spike story here. Bet some of you were hoping that I made Spike stake Angel. I almost did it too. Anyways this is kind of like the end of the season where they are all in love and everything(but its season 4), but it's going to have some surprise twists in it and a very unexpected person added into the mix. Hope you enjoy.