Bittersweet
Ch.3- Coping With Lose
If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares
I'm sinking slowly
So hurry hold me
Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone
If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares
Michelle Branch: All You Wanted
Lily ran as fast as she could to the Room of Requirement. "I need to find James… I need to find James… I need to find James…" A polished golden handle appeared. She grabbed it and wrenched it open. She gasped at the sight of an unconscious James with his arm covered in blood and a bloody pocketknife in his other hand. She rushed to him.
"Oh James, don't, don't leave me. Not now!" She exclaimed. First aid supplies appeared in the room. She grabbed them and cleaned his arm off. James's breathing stopped.
Lily gasped. She began something she had seen on muggle television commercials: CPR. She clamped his nose shut and lowered her lips to his mouth, forcing air into his lungs. Once, twice, three times. Then James violently coughed and opened his eyes. He vomited blood on the floor.
"Oh James, I thought I'd lost you forever. Are you okay?" Lily asked in a barely controlled state of panic. "I was so stupid Lily, I've failed you, my parents, Sirius, everyone. I don't deserve to live." James said, still coughing up blood.
" How do you figure that?"
" I knew something was wrong, I knew it, and I didn't do anything about it! I killed my parents, Lily, I KILLED THEM!" James lungs tore in the effort.
He looked around for the knife. He saw it in Lily's hand.
"Give to me." Lily shook her head. "GIVE IT TO ME!"
"James, no one blames you, I don't blame you; Sirius doesn't blame you. It wasn't your fault. You didn't know." Lily said and put the knife away.
" I'm so sorry Lily, I can't do anything; I couldn't help my parents, I couldn't help Sirius with his family, I couldn't protect anyone, and now Voldemort's gunna come after everyone that I care about, including you." James said holding back tears that were screaming to come.
Lily opened her arms to him, and James fell into her, finally opening the floodgates that he had held in for so long. They sat like that in the Room of Requirement for over six hours, holding each other in grief, absorbed in their own thoughts.
After midnight, they broke apart. " We need to clean you up, you look like you got ran over by the Knight Bus," Lily said. She cleaned the blood off of his arm, and wrapped it gingerly while James watched her in awe. "You're really good at that." "Well, yes, I hope so, as I want to be a healer," Lily said.
"I… uhhh… kinda was wondering if youwannagotohogsmeadewithme." James stuttered.
"I'll let you think about it for now, and I'll think about it too, okay. Give me a day or two to think and monitor your behavior. Now let's go back to the common room okay? Remus and Sirius and Peter are probably wondering where you are." Lily said.
James frowned, he didn't want to face his friends, he didn't want to face Griffindor, he didn't want to face Hogwarts, and he didn't want to face the world. He wanted to stay here, where there was no outside world, no judgment, no fear. "But that's not like a Griffindor, is it? I have too face them, whether I like it or not.
Almost as if reading his thoughts, Lily said," Your parents wouldn't want you to hide; they didn't, and you won't either. I'll be beside you the whole time, alright?" She added softly.
As though resigned for the worst, he set his jaw and nodded his head determinedly. At that they got up together, and walked from the room, arm in arm, ready to once again face the world.