Addiction
Chapter 4
By: Rachel
Rated: R
Genre: Drama/Suspense/Addiction/Romance
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His eyes rolled back and he smiled nodding his head. Licking his lips Spike pushed his hair out of his face as he lay back on the cool hard wood floor in the kitchen of Max's place. Max stumbled into the room a beer in his hand. "God, you act like you've never done the shit before."
"I haven't." Spike blinked.
Max's smiled faded. "You what?" he snapped.
"I haven't…in a while man." Spike reached up and dragged himself to his feet.
Max nodded he had given Spike a harder hit than his own. After all, if Spike was going to take the plunge he might as well go all the way. "Whatever, just don't you go and overdose on me, okay?"
Spike stared at the ceiling and smiled nodding his head as he fell back onto the floor, chuckling to himself. The warmest, most relaxing feeling was washing over him. It wasn't painful; it was a dizzying pleasure that was making his heart race.
He was forgetting everything, everything was a blur. His world was spinning on overdrive, and he was falling hard, and fast. He loved it.
Memories were a fading dream. "What have I done to myself?"
…Present Time…
Spike leaned against the back of his door in his dark room. Sighing, he took the towel and ruffled his hair with it to gather the moisture out. Spike shivered. The medicine he was taking was helping him, he'd give that crap for a medication, that much at least. What was it again, Naltrexone? He sighed, a name he could barely spell, and a pill he had to take once a day to help control his craving. It wasn't helping…much.
Stepping forward he smiled in the darkness, as he stared at the mattress he had longed to see once more. "I missed you." Spike sighed and fell forward. The mattress squeaked loudly and Spike smiled content with the noise. "I'm home."
"Spike," Faye called from the hall, "can I come in?" She asked.
"If I said no, would it stop you?" Spike lulled.
"Yes." Faye sighed shutting her eyes.
Spike sat up as she started to turn the handle. "They're leaving in a few minutes, as are we."
"So, what do you want me to do about it?" Spike yawned and made sure the towel was still wrapped around his waist.
Faye muttered something and turned on the light to Spike's room. He hissed loudly as if the light would melt him. "Okay Dracula, I want you to say goodbye to the little girl in the other room who has been asking me everyday since you left," Faye clasped her hands together, "where's Spi-Spi?" She stated in a chipper hyper voice.
Spike held a sad smile on his face. "I see." He nodded. Sitting up in bed he watched as Faye stepped dangerously close. Licking his lips he stared up at Faye as she stared back. The eerie silence lasted for what felt like a lifetime before Spike let out s scuff. "Can you go so I can get dressed, or are you trying to sneak another peek?" His grin was wicked as he watched her face turn five different shades of red.
"I'll be in the kitchen." Faye quickly made an about-face and darted out of the room. She made sure to hit the light switch, and shut the door quickly behind her.
"You sure will be Faye." Spike smiled as he rolled his lips in and raised his eyebrows as he buried his face into his hands. What had he done, what had happened to him? Where was Spike?
…One Month Ago…
"Baby, you've got scabs over you arms." The girl pouted and tried to lift Spike's arm.
He pulled back harshly. "Yes. I know that." He sighed. "So…?" He arched an eyebrow and she laughed nodding her head.
"You really are in need of a fix, aren't you?" She cooed, as she wrapped her arms around Spike's neck.
He nodded slowly. "You could guess that just by looking at me?"
She nodded. "You arm's shaking, you're a mess. Although, you are cute, so I'll help you out if you stay the night."
Spike stared at her long and hard. "Enough money for more than one fix?"
She laughed nodded. "Enough for a whole day worth of fixes…"
…Present Time…
Spike pulled his shirt over his head and shook his head as he felt his arm twitching. "I should have gotten her number." Favoring his left arm he shakily reached for the door handle.
Shutting his brown eyes Spike took a long deep breath before trying again. He was still shaking. "Damn it!" Spike pounded on the door and let out a growl.
He opened the door and pushed forward. Walking into the living room and looked around. "Spi-Spi!" Ed cried out a smile on her face. "Does Spi-Spi feel better?"
Faye crept out of the shadows, with a look of death on her face. "Yes, much better. I'm great." Spike chewed on his lower lip.
"Ed made this for you Spi-Spi!" She laughed as she pulled a large piece of construction paper folded into a card. "Read it when Ed and Jet-person are bye-bye!"
Spike smirked and nodded. "Will do Ed, thanks." She beamed a joyous grin before lunging forward and clinging to Spike's waist, her face buried into his stomach.
"Ed missed Spi-Spi." Spike's eyes darkened as Faye's eyes grew cold as he stared at her from across the room.
"Sorry Ed. I missed you too though." He bent down and smiled looking into her tear filled eyes.
"We all missed Spi-Spi," Ed sniffled, "but, Faye-Faye missed you the most…" Ed whispered into Spike's right ear. "Spi-Spi made Faye-Faye cry. You should tell her sorry Spi-Spi."
Spike smiled as he looked at the fire haired girl. "I'll be sure to do that, Edward."
"Edward, come on, it's time to go." Spike looked up and smiled as Jet nodded towards him. "It's good to see you back Spike." He stepped down the steps and placed a hand on Ed's shoulder. "Ed, go get Ein and put him in the hammerhead, okay?"
"Okie-doki!" She buzzed. "Ein!" She called and bounced down the hallway in search for the missing Welsh Corgi.
"Spike, take care of yourself, and Faye, okay?" He eyed Spike. "You crushed her, hard. Not just Edward, do you understand me?"
Spike nodded. "I understand."
"What she'll tell you will be hard to grasp, but she's here to help you." Spike nodded as Jet patted his back. "See you soon."
Hard to tell him, what was wrong? Was there something else wrong with him other than the drug addiction? Had something happened to Faye while he was gone? Spike eyed Faye as Ed skipped back into the room holding Ein in her arms, her tomato laptop strapped to her back in a small carrying case. "Time to say bye-bye Ein!" Ed gleamed. She moved his paw so it waved towards Spike, and then turned so that Ein was waving at Faye. "Bye-bye!" She squeaked in a chipper tone, before bouncing up the staircase.
"Bye, Edward." Faye sighed, nodding towards Jet as she stepped down the stairs to join Spike at his side. "I want to talk to you." Faye spoke through clenched teeth as she smiled as waved at Ed again before the sliding door slid shut.
Spike eyed her. "Yes, Jet said that already." Spike pulled his pack of cigarettes from his back pocket and tapped one out and pressed it between his lips. "You want one?" He asked her through closed lips.
Faye nodded. "I need one, I don't want one." Faye snatched the packet from his hands and grabbed the last sick from the box and lazily tossed it on the ground. Spike lit his up and then tossed Faye, his Zippo.
"Trying to quit?" Spike muttered, raising an eyebrow.
Faye shrugged her shoulders. "I'm cutting back, or at least trying to. I wouldn't call it quitting just yet."
He nodded. "I see." Spike groaned and took a long drag before lying back on the couch.
Faye look a long, deep breath as she watched the ashes on her cigarette burn, drop and float haphazardly to the floor. "Spike," Faye swallowed," things happened." She shook her head. "Jet was told by his friend, that ex-police officer. "Something happened. Something bad—"
"So, you remembered your past." Spike cut her off. "That's good. I'm glad." He smiled warmly. "I don't want to hear it." He took another puff before standing.
"Vicious and Julia are dead." Spike's eyes widened and he turned sharply locking eyes with her.
"That's not funny Faye. Don't try and get me distracted with this, thinking that it'll help me get off the drugs. It won't. Shut up, don't lie to me…" Spike's left arm was shaking noticeably now.
"I wouldn't lie to you, even if you lied to me. I can't." Faye smiled. "Don't think that I couldn't though. It's just that," Faye smiled, holding back tears, "well, the book I was reading, it says not to lie. After all, wouldn't you rather hear the truth from someone you trust?"
Spike moved his lower jaw to the right and shook his head looking at the rusted bolt on the floor next to Faye's left foot. "Who said I ever trusted you?" He looked back with the coldest eyes he could muster before he started to walk away.
"Will you stop?" Faye shouted. She threw her arms into the air and swung them down into her lap. She winced; physical pain was more bearable that the emotional pain Spike was tossing at her.
Spike stopped. He took a staggered breath and shuddered. Faye looked down at her hands. They were shaking. Spike turned his head to the side. "Are you going to speak, or can I leave."
"It's just." Faye stopped and bit at her thumb nail as she glanced at the tattered pillow that was at the end of the couch. "Never mind," she muttered, "You can go."
"Really," Spike scuffed, "can I?" He sneered and walked off without another word.
Faye leaned forward and let out a whimper as she molded her hands over her face. It was harder than she thought it would be. She jumped at the sound of Spike's bedroom door slamming shut. Pulling at the roots of her hair, Faye screamed as loud as she could before running over to the tattered pillow and hurling it across the room and into the bookshelf by the hall.
…One Month Ago – The Next Morning…
Spike woke up to a light flashing in his eyes. "Uh," Spike snarled. "What the hell, let me sleep."
"Is that the way you talk to all your women Spike?" Spike eyes opened wide. The man grinned. "Yes, she left already. Don't worry the money's on the table."
Spike help back a yawn and took in a sharp inhale of breath before rubbing his face and scratching his left arm. "What are you doing here?"
Max rolled his eyes. "You can be a real bore sometimes Spike, did you know that?" He pulled out a picture and tossed it at Spike. "You never said you were part of those syndicate bastards."
Spike sat up and took hold of the photograph. It was a picture of Julia, Vicious and himself at the bar next to the Red Dragon hideout.
Spike groaned. "It was a long, long time ago." Spike let the picture fall to the floor next to him.
"It was four years ago." Max snarled. "Are you hiding something?"
Spike smirked. "Yeah, I still love the girl, but I don't dare touch her, or anyone connected to that damned place. Ever, I'm never going back there."
Max frowned. "I see," he said. "Was she yours, or his?"
"Vicious had her first. I didn't know." Spike narrowed his eyes. Why was he telling this lowlife about his past? "It was just once that we spent the night together. Vicious and I went to the bar the next night. He told me that he wanted to introduce me to his girlfriend." Spike arched an eyebrow. She acted as if we never met. I just stared at her, gawking for the longest time."
"Ouch." Max nodded.
"Just once, and I was in love with her. She told me that he threatened her, faked a hit at her a couple of times. She couldn't stand him, yet she loved him. She wanted to get away, and then she had doubts too. She told me she wanted to be with me, yet she was still with Vicious." Spike clenched his teeth. "We kept our relationship a secret for about six months. We were making plans to get away. I had saved up some money, I bought her a ring, and I got some flowers. I went to her apartment to tell her…" Spike grabbed his shaking arm. "I found her on the floor crying, Vicious by her side, with a gun to her head."
"Damn man, you don't have to tell me—" Max was cut off.
"I ran in and in seconds the gun was pointed at me. I stared at the man I once called my best friends. The anger in his eyes sliced at Spike's flesh tearing him into bits and pieces. He could feel his blood boiling already. "Julia was screaming for Vicious to stop. He walked up to me and grinned. "She's mine, not yours. Leave now or she'll die." Spike quoted. "I did as he said and left, my eyes never left hers as I watched the tears falling down her cheeks and onto the white carpeted floor."
"Hmm…" Max nodded. "Was that, that then?"
Spike smirked. "I snuck back that evening. I told her to meet me at a graveyard, I handed her the address on a piece of paper and told her everything that we'd be able to do once we ran from the syndicate." Spike cupped his hands over his mouth. "I watched from the end of the street as the torn bits of that piece of paper fell from her bedroom window. She was gone, just like that. I faked my death, and soon found myself nearly dead on the streets with a heroine needle in my arm. Jet, my—" Spike winced as he said this, and stopped. "Well, in the end, I was clean, but now. I'm okay. I like this, I don't care weather I've still got my addiction, or not. It makes me forget the past, so I'm glad to be involved in this."
Max nodded slowly. "Life's sure been ruff on you. Dude, why the hell are you sleeping with whores for money, I can get you hits, and after all you're one of us. We can pay for your supplies." Spike shuddered and bowed his head. What was he doing? It was as if he was actually befriending the enemy. He wasn't, he wouldn't.
"Thanks," he muttered.
…Present Time…
They weren't dead. They couldn't be dead. No, nothing was wrong, nothing was different. He wasn't holding his left arm, he wasn't aching for a needle to be in her arm, and he wasn't about to—
"I have to get out of here." Spike felt the ship shudder, and the engine start up. "No, not yet, we're not leaving yet!" Spike howled as he tore out of his room, his feet barely touching the ground.
Jumping the four steps in one leap, he shoved the open and let it crack against the wall. Faye let out a cry of surprise, not expecting to see green hair for another couple of hours. "Is something wrong?"
"Take us back down. Take us down, now." Spike ordered, pointing at the floor with his right hand.
Faye closed her eyes. "I put it in auto emergency only mode for the next four months." Spike's eyes blazed like a wildfire as he checked Faye to the floor and looked at the screen franticly. "I'm sorry, but you need help."
"I need to get out of here!" Spike shouted. His eyes narrowed and he fell down in front of her and pinned Faye against the desk. His right hand gripped around her neck. "I'll start squeezing if you don't take us down in the next five seconds.
Faye shut her eyes and smiled. "Go ahead, kill me. See what good that does you. It'll be one more death you'll have to deal with—" Spike grinned and started squeezing.
"You think I won't do it?" Spike started laughing. "You give me too much credit. I'm not that nice of a guy. You don't know me Faye, not really." He squeezed harder and she gagged and started to claw at his right hand.
"Stop!" Faye screeched.
"Stop, stop!" Spike mocked her in a high pitched tone before his eyes darkened and he continued to laugh. "Faye darling, don't make me angry." He let go and she screamed, coughing violently and rolling onto her left side.
Spike stood up and sighed rubbing his shoulders and cracking his neck. "Damn, look what you've gone a done. I'm all tense." He pouted. "I won't mourn over you Faye."
"You bastard!" Faye screamed out. She brought her hands to her face and wiped the tears, smearing them over her face as she continued to cough.
"That's a girl, hate me, loathe me…" He walked out of the room, his anger slammed in her face loudly as the door cracked shut echoing throughout the halls of the Bebop.
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