Addiction
Chapter 6
By: Rachel
Rated: M At least follow game ratings! 17+ is M folks
Genre: Drama/Romance
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Sorry took awhile; homework, work, and a life have stalled me. Thank you for the reviews! Be sure to download the anime series Beck! It's AMAZING! I posted links at the bottom of the page! YOU MUST DOWNLOAD IT! Sorry for errors!
I got my PSP on the 24th, it's amazing, and it's dead-pixel free too! NOTE. PSP stands for Portable Play Station. It's a ps2 in your hands folks, with an LCD screen on top of it! It plays games, movies, MP3s, holds photos, as well as mpeg2 files, will later on have cell phone technology, as well as online access! This thing is gorgeous! If you have yet to see one, look it up online, or go to your local Game Stop :cough: STOP BY MY STORE! I already put on a L'Arc-en-Ciel music video as well as the L'Arc-en-Ciel PS1 videogame trailer on it!
Disclaimer: I do not own Cowboy Bebop.
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Sitting against the bay window Spike lit up a cigarette and sighed. He didn't sleep after that dream. No, that wasn't a dream; it was a nightmare that had literally shaken him to the core. Spike tuned and watched as the sun rose in the horizon.
"Here, I made you a cup." Spike's eyes opened fully for a second as he turned to find Faye holding out a mug full of tar.
"I don't drink coffee." He stammered. Go away, she should be leaving! Spike mind shouted as he burned his eyes into the window wishing for her to leave.
"I see. Thanks for warning me." Faye set down the mug and took the cigarette out of Spike's mouth and took a quick drag before handing it back.
"Welcome." He muttered with his lips closed around his cigarette.
Faye stepped closer. "You stopped bandaging it." Faye smiled weakly as she pulled away his cancer stick and took a puff before placing it back in Spike's mouth.
Spike stared at his arm for a brief second before pulled the cigarette from his lips and exhaling. "Would you ever…" Spike bit at the inside of his lower lips as his face tightened. "Never mind…"
"You can't leave me hanging!" Faye hissed. "You shouldn't do that to people." Faye growled and took his cigarette away.
Spike arched an eyebrow. "Do what?"
"Like saying," Faye thought for a moment. "I've got a secret, but I can't tell you." She nodded. "You were about to ask me something and then said…oh, never mind." Faye spoke in a deeper tone, waving her arms about, poorly imitating her comrade.
Spike grinned. "Yeah, well I did it. So there." He tapped his foot to a silent song that was playing like a broken record in his head.
"You can tell me, it's not like I have anyone on the ship to tell." Faye yawned and stretched her arms in the air.
"Would you have done it?" Spike licked his lips as he tossed his cigarette to the ground. "If a guy handed you a syringe and told you to shoot up, would you do it? It was for the money too, not just some random coincidence."
Faye shook her head. Spike bowed his head and nodded as he balled his fist. "Good." He looked up with a smile on his face. His eyes were closed.
Faye smiled and stepped closer. Spike's eyes opened and he narrowed his eyes as his lower lip struggled not to tremble. Spike remembered the song, an old Earth song that was playing that night. It was called, In the Cold, Cold Night, by the White Stripes. A girl's vocals lulled the magic lyrics. Faye cornered the man as her hands, cold as ice, stung each cheek of Spike's Faye as she leaned forward.
Her chilled, bare arms wrapped around his tense frame as her chilled face rested in the crook of his neck. "Why do you ask?"
Spike was cornered, but felt safe with the girl's fragile arms holding him. A surreal comfort, as if the song's mellow words were coming to reality. "A dream made me think otherwise is all."
Faye nodded. "I see." She arched an eyebrow. "Want me to make something?"
"I'll cook, I'm better at it anyway." He pushed Faye aside and the song was over just like that.
Faye smiled brightly despite her displease with Spike's comment about her cooking. "Hungry again are we?"
"No, but I heard your stomach growl. Do you really want to eat that slop?" He grinned wickedly as her face turned read with anger. "It was a joke."
Faye screamed out as she pulled at her hair. "Pancakes or eggs?"
"Pancakes," Faye muttered, "jerk." Faye walked off to her bedroom in a huff.
"I liked your last journal entry by the way!" Spike bit his tongue laughing as he heard her cry out again. "Another joke Faye, but whatever."
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An endless and uneventful month went by. Spike took his medicine regularly and he was starting to forget about things, well, everything except for the dream. That damned dream kept haunting him every night. "She wouldn't do it."
"You're right most likely." Faye yawned walking into the kitchen and stumbling over to the teapot to boil water. "We're out of coffee by the way."
Spike nodded. "You drank it all, remember?" He sighed as he watched her fill the pot with hot water.
"Did I really?" She sighed.
Faye had a hangover. Not that it was something new. Wednesday was her weekly, drink a bottle of sherry night followed by the array of vomit that would be sprawled over the bathroom floor. However you couldn't forget how she would cry to. Oh how she would cry.
Spike stared at her. His dream was more vivid than ever last night. He watched with tear soaked eyes as she injected herself again…Maybe he had just heard her crying from the bathroom. Spike nodded as he rested his face in the palm of his right hand, holding it up with his elbow.
"I don't drink coffee Faye." Spike cracked his neck as he stared at the empty medicine table. He watched as Faye's hands shook as she placed the pot on the burner to boil.
"Faye?" Spike licked his lips as he laced his fingers together.
"What do you want?" Faye groaned, rubbing her face fiercely, in hopes to wake up and have her splitting head, mend itself back together.
"What are all those medications that you're on for?" He eyed her carefully as Faye straightened.
"I've always taken them." Faye forced a smile as turned back to the pot of water as it let out a hiss.
Spike gripped at his hands. "Don't lie." He watched as she held onto the oven handle, her eyes eyeing the teapot with frightened eyes. Who was cornering who now? "You have at least five that I see scattered on your nightstand. Do you think that's safe to be drinking down bottles, and then popping pills?"
"Don't question my antics Spike. You're the drug addict, remember?" Faye turned with a smug grin on her face. She licked her lips as the pot screamed for help.
Spike's eyes darkened in a split second he had Faye pinned against the counter. "Don't Faye. Don't go there." He smiled staring into her eyes. "Do you think it would be hard for me to get my fix?" He laughed. "It's not hard for me to find a bottle, and a needle Faye. I've been good for your sake, not mine."
Faye was quick to move her hands up to her eyes and wipe the threatening tears that were going to fall if he didn't stop. "I…" Her hands trembled. "Well, there are my antidepressants and a few others, but nothing that will kill me Spike." Faye chewed on her lower lip.
Spike nodded. So she could do it. The dream could come true. If he pushed her far enough, if he didn't get better quick enough, she would do it. The needle would pierce the skin, and hearts would stop. The end would come. He would die again.
"Are you on them because of me?" Spike anger disappeared as the realization dawned on him. She would have killed herself if they had not found him. She could in fact, still kill herself.
Faye didn't answer, or even react to his question. "Faye, answer me."
"If I was on them because of you, would you really want to know?" Spike looked at the ground and released his hold on her.
"No, honestly I don't want to." He inhaled. "However, I need to know. Faye's eyes were cold, and silent. Spike sighed in defeat. "Very well, tell me when you're ready."
Spike turned and shut his eyes tightly. Straightening, he walked to the doorway between the kitchen and living room. He waited. He waited until he heard her breathe. Her lips moved. "Spike."
With closed eyes Spike turned and hurried over to catch Faye as she fell to the ground. She cried. She cried as he held her. "I'm sorry." Spike's arms locked tightly around her trembling frame. "Hate me, kill me. Just don't hurt yourself Faye."
Faye continued to cry. "You never kept your promise." She chocked.
"I'm sorry." Spike murmured into the crook of her neck.
"You didn't come back." She whimpered
"I'm sorry." He begged into her ear.
"I thought you were dead." She whispered
"I'm sorry!" He cried out, his voice strained.
"I hate you." No emotion. Her heart had shattered, she was dead. She had died, just as he had so long ago.
Spike's body writhed in Faye's arms as she stabbed him with truth after truth as she cried. "I'm glad."
Faye screamed out and pushed him away. Spike tried to keep himself calm. On all fours he was begging for forgiveness while pleading for her to hate him. "I'm happy that you hate me. After all, that's all I deserve." He stood and held her hand with care. "I don't deserve you Faye. I'm sorry." He bit his lower lips as she watched watched him with tear filled eyes.
Chapter 6…complete. Hmm…what will happen next! Wait and see:evil cackle:
Sorry for the wait. School, work, life…stuff like that. For those who have bitorrent, you MUST go to www . animeyume . org and download the anime series Beck. Not the actual band, but it's based off of a band. I run Japan Culture Club in my High School, and this was one of the biggest hits to date so far. Everyone who saw it, loved it. It's half in English as well!
Ryusuke moved to New York when he was ten, and at the age of 14 became part of a band called Dying Breed. At 15 he and Eddie, his best friend are walking past a parking garage and find a car that's been shot up, and blood is all over the ground. Curious, they pop the trunk and find a guitar with two bullet holes in it. Scared they take it, along with a puppy that walks out of the back seat whimpering. They name the dog Beck. Ryusuke moves back to Japan six weeks late taking the legendary guitar Lucille with him… He's been parts of bands here and there, and after breaking it off with a fourth band he decides to form his own. By now Drying Breed is one of the most popular rock bands in the US and has a fan base world wide. Taking the 14 year old Koyuki under his wing at only the age 16, he himself teaches him the art of playing the guitar. With the men who he stole the guitar from hot on his tracks, and a great band forming, there is bound to be a kick ass ending to this hard rock anime.
Will they go to the Great Fest, one of the largest music gatherings in Japan? Will they go to the US? Will Eddie, and Ruesake live to see that day, or will they get caught?
The animation is WONDERFUL. And the Americans in this anime…ACTUALLY are AMERICAN. No Japanese voice actors trying to speak with accent free voices. Also the animation is done in CG, and their mouths DO GO TO THEIR VOICES. EVERY CHARACTER AND SYLLABLE is pronounced. The animation is a mix between Cowboy Bebop, and FLCL. Also the soundtrack is AMAZING, and the voice actors actually sing. No voice change suddenly while singing! I'm telling you, this is going to be one of your all time favorite anime series! A MUST SEE! It's only 26 episodes long, and the anime already has 25 subbed online for your downloading pleasure! Here is the official site…
www . beck . ne . jp
And as desktop from the manga I made. The manga has a different ending/plot for the second half of the series. This is at the great fest, and that's Koyuki in purple!
http : s05 . imagehost . org / 0958 / beckDestop . jpg - there should be an underscore between beck and Desktop!
Here is a link to view a very short…and god offal trailer for the anime, but you do get to see Koyuki, and some other characters in the show…hmm…also lame flash backs that have nothing to do with the plotline! You'll also adore Maho, who isn't in any of the trailer. It's Ruesake's little sister, who is the same age as Koyuki. Another note is that Maho, and Ruesake do speak English, but they are JAPANESE, and only lived in the US for five years, so they have strong accents. Also, for those who have parents who like to see what you're doing. Be careful they through the f word around A LOT, and IN ENGLISH. So yes, be warned, some drunken Americans in the first episode flip it out a lot when they see their car is trashed:)
http : www . tv – Tokyo . co . jp / b – bansen / anime / anime item 121 . html
Put a dash between TV and Tokyo, a slash between jp and b, a dash between b and bansen, a slash between anime and another one after anime, an underscore between the second anime and item. That should be all for stuff that isn't showing up.