DISCLAIMER: I do not own 7th Heaven or anything related to 7th Heaven. All medical information on this story is either half-truth or completely made up. I am not a doctor. Also, if you are a fan of the happy relationships in 7th Heaven, don't read. Thos story contains a "rebel" who doesn't agree with her family and not so nice language and themes are sometimes used. Thank you. Enjoy! PS: this part contains some characters from another story called D4 from PaUlKaRiYaSgUrL9. She (the author) let me use them. Therefore I don't own them or the characters from the Mighty Ducks. Don't worry, they are just minor players, they will have no impact on the story aside from that they are friends.

"Yeah, I'm pregnant" Kay said, the tears buried for the moment. "I hurt so bad. I just wanted to get away. I wanted to feel something, anything. And there was this guy. And I told him that I was older. And then… and now I'm pregnant and he doesn't know and he never will." She looked up angrily, before they could begin their accusations. "BUT I do not feel ANY regret about what I did. I HAD to do it. I would have died if I didn't, even more than I already have. And now there is this new precious life growing inside of me…and I feel nothing." Her tone was very cold and uncaring and downright scary to her family who never knew that she was as dark as she is.

"Wow." Fran said, finishing her notes. In her many years of being a therapist, she had encountered some weird and horrifying things. People who made her think twice. There was worse than the pretty girl on the floor, but honestly, not many.

Chapter 12: Be Careful What You Wish For

They rode home is silence. What were they to say after that emotional breakdown? Savannah and Jake sat in the middle row of the family mini-van, staring aimlessly out their respective windows, while Kay looked at her hands in the back row. Kevin had decided that he didn't want to think about it and for the first time in the twenty odd years since he had gotten his drivers license, he completely focused on driving. Lucy, on the other hand, was not still. She fidgeted in the passenger seat several times during the ride home and coughed a few more. The silence was killing her, but what Kay had said was killing her more. How could one of her children, one of the Camden children, be so cold?

The headlights hit the garage as they pulled into their driveway. Lucy looked around. Here they were, in a nice neighborhood filled with big houses and beautiful yards, with nice, new cars parked in the neat driveways; they were in Perfect. But, as Lucy had come to find out just a few hours earlier, Perfect wasn't all that perfect after all.

FLASHBACK:

"You wanna know the truth, Dad? Fine, Here's the truth. I'm failing chemistry, there is a boy in my school that I really like, and I have a lead in the play, which is the reason that I was late."

END OF FLASHBACK

"Luce?" Kevin called without emotion. She looked up. The kids, her kids, were already unlocking the door to their large house. Kevin stood at his door of the mini van, waiting for her to get out so he could lock it..

"Oh," she said and got out of the car. Once they were inside, the kids went straight for their rooms and Kevin went upstairs to the master bathroom. Lucy was left alone in the kitchen, trying to sort out the passed hours through her mind, but all she got was jumbled bits of yelling. She was getting a headache. Slowly, she regained her composure and went for the medicine cabinet. After she swallowed three aspirin (she usually only had one but after the night she just had, she could take extra), she made herself a pot of coffee.

She sat at the kitchen table, staring at the coffee pot, as the drip lulled her into a trance where the passed never happened. Before she knew it, she had fallen asleep.

DREAM:

The smell of lilacs was everywhere. It didn't seem to be coming from any particular place, but there it was. Lucy looked around. To her left was a swing set, empty but filled with life somehow. To her right, a grill with smoke puffing from under the lid. "You're burning 'em, Daddy!" She heard a young girl shout as suddenly a beautiful blonde haired girl in all pink ran from out of nowhere and towards the grill. Suddenly, a handsome man appeared in front of the grill in jeans and a light shirt covered be a light blue apron that she vaguely remembered giving him the first summer in their new home. "Kevin? Savannah?" She whispered, unbelievingly to herself. "Don't worry, Savannah, they are fine. Now, why don't you go play with Jake?" Kevin said and Savannah ran to the swing set, that Jake was now playing near. But, "Kay?" Lucy questioned no one in particular. "Lucy?" a voice called and before she knew it, her mother was walking towards her. "Lucy, you really shouldn't be up. You just lost the baby, sweetie, you should be in bed." Lucy's eyes widened. What did her mother mean, "lose the baby"? "Kay? What?" She stammered, searching for her youngest child. "Oh, honey. You are just in shock. To lose your baby and then find out that you can't have any more children… Oh sweetie, come here." Annie grabbed her daughter and held her in a tight hug. While Lucy stood there embracing her mother, a strange feeling crept over her. A feeling that made her shake herself awake.

END DREAM

Lucy shot awake, straightening her head out so abruptly that her neck hurt. She rubbed it as she caught her breath. She vaguely remembered the dream that she just had. Something about a swing set and losing something. She couldn't remember. Looking around, she gathered her thoughts and remembered the events that happened that previous night. The clock on the microwave read 3:23am.

"Ugh…" Lucy said as she got out of the chair she fell asleep in and took a few groggy steps in the direction of the coffee pot. She put her hand to the side of the pot; it was cold. She waited a few moments to regain her balance and then went to the closet to get the coffee mix. She opened the door, walked inside the closet, got the mix and turned around.

She let in a deep breath of air. "Oh my Lord," she said as she suddenly remembered her dream. The coffee jar fell from her hands and cludded on the floor, making a noise only loud enough to echo in the closet. Slowly, Lucy walked from the object that made her remember the dream, subconsciously hating it for making her remember. She made her way to the chair once again and sat down, finally letting herself take it in. She dreamt that she had never had Kay, that she had never had any kids after her first two. And worse than that, she distinctly remembered being happy about it. Once the shock had settled, she had thought it for the best and been pleased.

The tears rolled down her cheeks like waterfalls. Lucy put her head down into folded arms on the table. What kind of mother am I to think it better that my own daughter be not born? She thought and the emotion took over and shook her small body for almost an hour.

I thought that it would be nice to see what Lucy thought. Next time… what about Kevin? Teehee. Thanks for your support. A special shout out to a few people: rockprincess209, Alexa, JackSue4ever, krazypirategurl, Babs567, Alyssa, and LucyKevinfan. But a BIG shout out to animechick for all the support!