A/N: Sorry for the wait. Being a Senior in high school is very demanding. I'm trying very hard to update as soon as possible. I find that trying to write a story between school and work is nearly impossible, but I will do my best. I will most likely update more on the weekends then during the week, but maybe I will surprise you. Anyway back to the story. Oh and read my A/N at the end I will try to answer some of your reviews, but remember I don't want to give to much away.

Our flying lessons unfortunately had to come to a stop when the first snow fall came, we had continued flying every night over the last month. December has come faster then I would have liked it to. This is the month I have been dreading and in two days I will be forced to meet my father at the Malfoy mansion. I really don't want to go. I don't want to become one of them. I haven't told Hermione, I couldn't bare it if she never looked at me again. But if I don't tell her will she hate me more? I hate this constant confusion. I don't know what to do any more. What I needed was a quick release, but Hermione was off with Brian tonight. Hermione and me have become closer, sometimes I wonder if I could talk to her about my problems, but I refuse to show her my weaknesses. I was thinking about going to Dumbledore to tell him what my father has in plan, but I am afraid he won't believe me. Besides it doesn't even matter, it's not like I have a choice. I leaned my head back on the cough and closed my eyes, I was tired but refused to go to bed before Hermione came back. I soon heard the portrait creek open and Hermione came in.

" What are you still doing up?" She asked sitting next to me.

I shrugged my shoulders, " Don't know." I wasn't about to tell her I was waiting for her. " How did it go with Brian?"

" It was ok." She said, starring straight into the fire. Oh crap, she had that face like she was hiding something. I hope she didn't screwed him.

" Screwed him didn't you." I said, what can I say I just can't keep my mouth shut. She looked mortified.

" No." She yelled. " Why do you always have to accuse me of that?" She stood up, went into her room and slammed the door. As if a door was going to stop me from going in. I walked over and opened it calmly, I walked in and stood there staring at her.

" So what did you do?" I just wanted to know what she was hiding.

" He asked if I wanted to go to his house for Christmas break." She told me.

" And." I urged her to go on.

She shrugged her shoulders, " I told him I would think about it." She paused and then started explaining why she might go and why she might not. " I like him a lot and it's time I started thinking about my future. Brian could be a suitable husband and father. He's nice, funny, smart . . . meeting his family might push our relationship along. Did you know that almost 55 of students that graduate start a family right a way? Amazing huh, I always thought everyone would find a career but . . . " I cut her off, she was talking way too much.

" And reasons for you staying?" She glared at me for interrupting her.

She turned away from me, " Well you're here and . . . " She trailed off. Why did I get the short explanation? " I don't know, maybe we . . . "

I cut her off again, " What maybe we would fall in lo . . . " I started laughing before I finished the sentence. I had never said that word and I didn't plan on it either. " You thought we . . . " I kept laughing at her. I could see her eyes filling with tears, but I couldn't stop myself, because that's what I did when it came to things like this. As much as I wanted to be closer, I could never allow myself to feel that way. " I told you. It's just sex." I shook my head at her as if she were some stupid girl.

" Fine. I will be going home with Brian." She walked quickly to her bathroom door, slammed it shut and this time I heard her mutter a spell to lock the door. I let out a heavy sigh. I always managed to mess things up. That night I tossed and turned in bed unable to sleep. I wanted her to come to me and tell me that she didn't want me to hate her, like she had done before, but she never came. So for the first time I went to her. I slowly opened her bedroom door and silently went over to her bed laying next to her. She either was a sleep or ignoring me, I would guess the second one. I watched her turn away from me. I stayed in her bed anyway and soon fell fast asleep.

I woke up the next morning to her yelling and screaming about something. I rolled around in her bed for a moment trying to find another comfortable position, thinking she was just yelling at me for sleeping in her bed. It wasn't until I heard her scream ' You death eater' that I sat straight up.

" What? I mumbled." Rubbing the sleep out of my eyes.

" This." She shoved a paper in my face. I sighed and fell back onto the bed. It was another letter from my father, reminding me for the hundredth time what was happening tomorrow night. " How could you?"

I cut her off before she went too far, " Don't you lecture me on something you don't understand." I said, climbing out of her bed.

" I understand just fine. You are becoming a death eater . . . a murderer." She yelled. " A person who kills people like me, like my parents. How could you do that to me?"

" I never did anything to you." I defended myself. " You think I want to be this." I said holding the paper in her face. " I am being forced into it. I don't have a choice Hermione." I leaned down so I was inches from her face, " I want nothing to do with this."

She grabbed her cloths and quickly put them on, " I thought that maybe I could trust you, that maybe, just maybe you could change. But you are nothing but a liar, and I want nothing to do with you. I am telling you for the last time, stay away from me." She yelled over her shoulder and with that she was gone out of the room. I think if I had a choice in the matter I wouldn't have gone through becoming a death eater, just for her. But I had nothing, my life was empty and I had nothing to lose. Tomorrow night I would give up what little soul I had left.

A/N: Wow I am so excited for you guys to read this. I just have to say something to those of you whose reviews stuck out a little bit . . .

HD Fan 1: I love you . . . enough said!

Lady Paine: I think Draco's point of view is going to end next chapter or the one after that. I am planning on them showing some more feelings about each other in the next couple of chapters.

And for the rest of you: Thank you so much for all the reviews, now I need some advise. I am pretty sure about whether Draco is going to get the Dark Mark or not ( of course I'm not going to tell you people.) Just give me some ideas about how you would like to see the story go. Another thing, I feel like I'm rushing it a little, tell me if I am or not! Also, is death eater one word or two? At the moment I can't find my books to look it up.