Chapter 5

I don't own any Spirited Away's character

The day after, when I woke up, I felt different, my mind was clearer than the day before, the bad mood was gone, but at the same time my head was full of so many different things that I needed some time to understand what was going on.

But was it helpful enough to just think about it? If Haku wanted to push me away, why was he trying to conceal what he did? And Rin was so confusing, trying to bring me away from him but at the same time trying to keep the good memory I have.

Haku changed, ok, but I didn't expect him to be the same always, I didn't expect him to become a great man, I just wanted him, Haku.

All day I stayed there, sleeping and waking up and thinking and sleeping again. Too nervous to do anything seriously.

I shook my head and decided I wasn't going to stay in that room that night.

I tried to stand on my feet then and my leg could keep me up, even though they were trembling for some time. Too much rest, was the diagnosis I made on myself.

As soon as I got used to walking, I adventured outside.

Doing something was good to help me clear my mind.

In the hot bath station there was nobody, the silence of the night was coming. I didn't remember the place that well, but I tried to go to the boiler room, actually just taking any road that I thought could bring me in the right direction. And it took time, but I got there.

Kamaji was there, already sleeping. I stopped on the entrance. What was I doing? Why was I here?

But I didn't have the time to turn back, he had waken up and he was looking at me in daze.

so it is true, Chihiro, you're back.-

I smiled.

seems so.-

my God! You really grew up!-

well, it's been a lot of time.-

it is true indeed.-

I looked at him, I could see he was older. Not that he changed in any way, it was just a feeling.

come inside Chihiro.-

I don't want to bother you, it's time to sleep, I can come back another time.-

oh, it's okay. Come in for a while.-

I nodded kneeling on the cushion he put out for me.

so… how is life? Are your parents ok?-

yeah, they are doing fine. I'm not leaving with them anymore.-

what? Why?-

well, I got to college early and they needed to move once more, so I decided I wasn't moving. I'm leaving in a campus now.-

what's college?-

it's a school.-

oh.-

and a campus is where some students live when they are at college.-

do you miss them?-

not much. They come to visit sometimes.-

I guess it was kinda weird back then.-

why do you say that?-

well, you saved your own parents… it's not normal.-

I knew that. Things changed a lot after coming back from the spirited world. Things were easier for me, I grew up faster, but for some time I felt alone. Nobody knew about what I did, not even my parents, who were still treating me like a child.

One part of me was telling me I was crazy believing such things had happened, but at the same time, I could never forget.

For my parents it was the same as before, but I was different.

Nothing so shocking, I got used to live an easy life again… but still, I could tell the relationship was not the same anymore, I was not depending on them as much as before. I felt different.

Maybe it was bad. But I always thought it was a good thing for me.

I never cried again, and I haven't suffered that much.

Maybe I had just become insensitive, that's why the emotions Haku suggested in me were giving me such confusion.

you know, those time were so thrilling. You really gave a turn to this place.-

I laughed lightly.

I had to do it. I needed my parents back!-

He burst in a big laugh, too.

you really were such a thunder. You know, I remember the day you came here. You were so afraid… and then you saved everyone. Such an unbelievable story.-

it wasn't that much.-

it was it was. Some spirits here, they call you the river goddess.-

what?- I shouted.

well, rumours spread… and you know how it goes… the legend says you were a splendid spirit that was trapped by Yubaba, but you won the hearts of many people and found the way to escape.-

that is crazy.- I shook my head: - I wonder what they would say getting to know that it was just a little ugly human girl, and that if it wasn't for Haku I would have not be able to do anything.-

On the second I pronounced the name of the river spirit, something happened inside Kamaji, he stopped laughing, he stopped talking. He was so serious.

they don't talk about him.-

I looked at him, it was obvious, they were scared of Haku, everybody was.

we really don't want to hear that name anymore.- he whispered, and those words were so cold.

Kamaji, you, too.-

I don't want to hear that name anymore!- he shouted.

All the years that had passed seemed to fall on him now, he was old, and suffering.

I couldn't feel scared. Sorry, was the only thing he could read in my eyes.

I didn't want to shout.- he apologized.

it's okay.-

I stood up and got a blanket from the shelves near there.

but you really need to sleep now, tomorrow you have to work.-

And I put the piece of cloth on him.

Are you treating me like a crazy old spider?- he said, but I couldn't feel any angst in his voice.

I'm not, you know I'm not.-

He turned around and put himself in a sleeping position.

I stared at him for some time, till I could see his chest going regularly up and down. Asleep.

Then I silently left the room.

Well, it's already two chapters that Haku and Chihiro didn't meet… I wonder what he's doing… ehm… yeah, I should know…;;

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