Chapter 6

I don't own any Spirited Away's character.

I came back to my room after quite sometime, but even though I had such a walk I didn't feel satisfied with the day.

I didn't want to sleep nor rest, so I went to the balcony to see how it was the night outside.

It was dark of course, not a lot of lights were still on, and I could see the stars, many stars.

With a strange idea in mind, I ran back in the room and opened all the wardrobe in search of blankets, I found some and tied them together assembling a useful rope.

Gone back to the balcony, I fixed the rope to the railing so to be able to go downstairs to the garden.

On the last part of my descent, my hands couldn't keep me anymore, and I fell down. Fortunately enough, I wasn't that high anymore and the grass was soft and humid.

I laid down there and looked up thinking.

I realized then that it was some time that I hadn't sense the presence of Haku. He was not coming anymore. Well, that was the right behaviour if he really wanted me to go away. Still it hurt.

I felt some warm tears fall down my cheeks. It made me feel so stupid again.

Then I saw something. A beautiful bird flying in the sky. But it wasn't a bird.

The bright colours of the skin sparkled in the sky.

I kept my breath. Was it Kohaku?

Haku.- I whispered.

It was pitiful to want to see him anyway, after all, but that view suddenly made me happy.

I smiled standing up and starting to run.

Haku!- I shouted.

The spirit seemed to hear my voice and looked down.

I waved my hands.

For a while he stayed there, floating far away from me.

And I felt silly again. He won't come, I thought.

Then he moved towards me and gently landed a couple of meters from me.

what are you doing out here?- he asked turning back to human feature.

I pointed at my homemade rope.

just a walk.-

and you think you can climb back up?- he asked surprised.

of course.-

If I wanted something, I had to believe in it.

He looked at me strangely.

you're lying.- he said.

you think I cannot do it?- I dared.

He paused, then shrugged.

it's none of my business anyway.-

We stood there for some time.

I knew I had many question to ask and a lot of things to say, but at that moment my mind was blank. There was nothing in it, and I was wondering why a couple of minutes ago I felt so bad.

why don't we lay down for a while?- I asked. Well, of course I sounded stupid.

And he looked at me confused.

Just to make myself more ridiculous I laid down there as to explain my words. Then I pointed at the sky.

it's nice.- I said blushing.

you're going to catch a cold.- he whispered, but after a while, he laid down too, at security distance from me.

We stayed there for a half an hour.

you have a nice sky here.- I said.

isn't it the same sky everywhere?- he wondered. His voice was soft. Was he relaxed?

Finally something came to my mind.

you know Haku. I worry about you.-

He sat up laughing.

I didn't move.

And he suddenly stopped looking at my serious gaze.

sorry.- he said. But I didn't know what he was sorry about.

are you scared of me?- I asked sitting up.

His eyes widened.

what are you talking about?-

why don't you want to tell me the truth?-

you don't want to know.-

you should stop acting.-

I'm not acting.-

what's wrong?-

nothing is wrong. My life is great, everything is great.-

Unfortunately for him his face was not really believing in what he was saying.

I looked at him angrily.

do you think I don't know you?- I shouted.

He stopped.

He wanted to say I didn't know him, but something in his eyes sparkled, and I knew he couldn't do it.

did you come back for something Chihiro? Is there something that keeps you here?-

I came back because I thought something happened to you. I saw blood in my nightmare, and I was worried.-

well, it wasn't my blood as you can see.-

it doesn't have to be an external wound, I guess.-

He stood up, and I followed him.

Are you some kind of witch? That you can predict future?-

nothing like that. It's just a feeling I have.-

and why now? Why do you think I have a wound now?-

I don't know! How can I possibly know, if you're so stubborn! You don't want me here, you don't want to talk to me.-

Chihiro, you don't understand. There IS blood here, around me-

what?-

the blood that I spilled.-

Something froze inside me and I wasn't able to talk anymore.

the blood of my victims.-

His voice was dark now, cold, but he wasn't looking.

Haku.- I said coming closer. I was confused, but still I wasn't afraid of him.

He pronounced strange words and grabbed my wrist tight, hurting me.

just stop it.- he said, and a dark cloud was floating around him.

stop what?- I asked ignoring the pain.

stop doing everything. You have to recover and go away.-

what if I want to stay here?-

The dark cloud suddenly disappeared.

don't.-

if I can stay. Don't you want me here with you?-

He looked at me now. I could see he was confused.

Then he shook his head and transformed into a spirit again.

His big mouth tightened around the back of my clothes and he lifted me up.

He was bringing me back to the room and landing me on the futon.

it's time to sleep.- he said. His voice was cold, but a lot more calmer. He waited for me to lay in the futon then he flew away without any word.

come back tomorrow.- I shouted behind him, and the words sounded strange to me.

I laid my head on the pillow and I saw blood in the room, all around him. My heart skipped a beat, but I breathed slowly and closed my eyes. I had to sleep. There was no use in thinking about it now, no use in scaring myself, no use to fear Haku.

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