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Chapter 7

The day after I woke up in the early afternoon. The memories of the day before came flowing on me as I sat up. Watching my hands I could see them covered in blood.

I knew it wasn't reality, but it was painful. The blood Haku spilled, he was dangerous, more than dangerous.

For some reason I felt responsible, something inside me was telling me it was all my fault. But I couldn't explain that. I wasn't able to kill, I wasn't able to even think about killing, and I knew Haku was like that, too. If there were victims, no doubts there was a reason, serious reason and problems. Yubaba was the first suspect, but I still didn't know enough.

I stood up and prepared to go out, not really knowing where.

Haku was alone, somewhere.

I went out of the room and got downstairs, my first thought went to the garden, it was good for my health to walk in the open air.

I was about to go out the back door, when I saw to girls coming. Haku was behind them, looking the opposite way.

When they entered the hallway I was in, one of them collapsed on the floor crying.

I hid behind one of the corner and spied them.

joe, come on. It's nothing serious.- said the standing one, trying to console the other, but she was trembling, too.

I just… can't… stop…-

come on… stand up.- and she forced her up holding her arm.

sorry Lindsay.-

it's ok. But you have to get more brave. You know, we didn't do anything special.-

I know. But all the things they say about him… when he fix those cold eyes on you… I just can't take it.-

I can understand. But he works here, he's the responsible, so we have to talk to him sometimes.-

it's really hard… how many times did you go to talk to him?-

a couple.-

is he always like this?-

yes, or worse… it's actually calmer those days… it seems something is distracting him.-

so we've been lucky.-

yes.-

And they started going back to their work towards the hot baths.

has he always been like this?-

since I'm here, yes. But some of the old ones… they say he was a nice kid.-

but how is that possible?-

he came here really young and got under Yubaba's orders from the beginning… but… do you know the story about the river Goddess?-

the one Boh talks about…-

exactly.-

what about her?-

well, some says that he fell in love with her.-

what? He… fell… in love?-

yes, and she left him.-

that's why he's so cruel? It's seems quite a big reaction.-

yeah. But many things about that legend are strange.-

we should ask some of the old ones.-

I stopped listening. Haku was still out there, alone, looking at the sky.

I got into the garden, when the two girls were out of view range.

nice day.- I shouted running towards him.

He turned around surprised.

I see you're fine today.-

yeah, don't worry. I might be able to leave soon, as you wish.- I said sarcastically.

He laughed bitterly.

you really are not going to leave me alone, are you?-

sorry… but something… it seems to me, it is not what you want.-

well, you forget that I decide what I want.-

not really.-

He turned back to the sky.

it's your body and your feelings. It doesn't always match with what you say.- I completed my sentence.

aren't you scared of me? I told you, I did things…-

even if I'm scared, I still care too much. I want you to be ok.-

He was going to speak again but I started before him.

don't you dare say you'll be happy when I'll be gone, because I don't believe you.-

He looked at me sadly.

those girls, the one that came just a while ago. They were talking about you… they were scared… and they are because it's quite some time you're not kind to anyone, isn't it?-

kind?-

yes kind. You were a really kind boy when I met you.-

I wasn't.-

yes, you were.-

no! I wasn't. I was kind to you only.-

I took a step closer to him.

what is wrong about being nice to others too?-

I can't. It's my work.-

don't find excuses. You did it once, why can't you help others anymore?-

He looked nervously at me, but his eyes quickly turned away.

I sighed.

ok. I won't ask anymore.- I replied.

Surprisingly he shook his shoulders.

I'm sorry Chihiro. I'm not what you wanted to find coming back here.-

I step closer.

I just wanted to find you Haku. It doesn't matter if you changed.-

you say that because you don't really know, because you haven't been here all the time.-

If I had been here all the time, things would have been better.- I mumbled.

He shook his head.

you had your life to come back to.-

you had yours too. But you stayed here, and it's all my fault.-

He turned to me again. His eyes were beaming.

it's not your fault. I decided.-

well, I'm deciding now, if I want to trust you or not.-

it's not the same thing.-

I stepped closer to him and got his hand.

what are you doing?- he asked freezing.

just run.- I uttered and started to do it myself pulling him with me.

We ran hand in hand till we couldn't go on anymore.

When we stopped he was smiling. We were in a big meadow in the south part of Aburaya.

you know… I have work to do.- he protested lightly.

you're right… but I'm too tired to come back now.- I said sitting down. He did the same beside me.

you know Haku…-

yeah?-

I never felt okay in my world.-

He sighed.

why are you saying this?-

I want you to know… it's not just for you that I want to stay…-

it would be stupid on your part to stay for me.-

I just… don't want to be alone anymore.- I uttered.

He looked at me, but couldn't bring himself to say anything.

I experienced things nobody knows about… and it's sad to live in a world who won't accept anything of what I believe in.-

Silence fell between us.

After a while he stood up.

let's get back.-

I looked at him.

can we see each other sometimes from now on?-

He shrugged. But this time I knew he felt more comfortable with me.

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