The Journal of the Smartest and Loneliest Woman

Again I do not own any characters from Recess maybe only one character.

Author's Note: Read carefully this is a new technique I'm going to use.

Chapter 1

The end of summer was drawing closer and the first day of middle school would begin. It was the weekend before school would begin and I couldn't sleep. A thought kept me awake all Saturday night. I was toying with one of my experiments my glorp ball and a amused smile comes on my face when I thought about when we used this ball to try to get Vince's confidence back in playing kick ball. 'Is this going to be the end of us the six do gooders? Are we really going to drift apart?' "Oh don't be silly Gretchen we'll stay tough friends until the end." I asked myself "Why am I up at such an hour?"

I finally go to sleep as the hours drift by doubts began to cloud my mind. I tossed and turned as the endless questions plaque my mind as a scientist I'm obligated to ask questions about things like why the stars still burn being light years away? One certainty has carried me through the school year and that's T. J, Spinelli, Mikey, Vince, and Gus would always be my friends but somehow that security blanket is blowing away. No, it must be that social scientist I watched last night Dr. Rhine was talking about how friends often change and drift apart. No, we're different from others we've been there for each other till the end and even in schemes that involved our school as a secret base. T.J always taking actions and I helped with the technical part of the plans. Vince would often help out with organizing people and Spinelli often provide the brawn. Mikey and Gus often just played a supporting part but each of us had an equally important role. Plans were often successful because we all did it together played our parts. It didn't matter who did what we were a team and faced each problem together. Still questions swirled in my mind points that Dr. Rhine pointed out had some truth to them but I refuse to think a study could define us. T.J taught me not everything is determined through study alone but living it is the true test. I woke up more tired then usual I walk down stairs and my mom cleaning. I sigh and look at my healthy nitrous food with a sense of dread. Ever since dad had to leave early mom has been trying to talk to me more. I just sigh and she walked in and asked "Is my female Albert Einstein ok?"

I just put on a smile and said "Sure mom everything is perfectly fine." I eat up and avioded conversation about what is on my mind. My mom means well but it seems she is often on a different planet. I know logically that's impossible but we don't really have much in common mom always wants me to be challenged. Once she thought about moving me up a grade but dad defended me by saying I need to stay with my age group. I was very thankful for my dad's clear headed decisions but lately he hasn't been home much.

I noticed mom not being perky as usual moms blue eyes seemed cloudier then usual and she exhibited odd behavior when she hugs me without warning. I felt tears hit my sleeves this was unusual mom usually is always happy and wants me to hop or dance. She pulled away wiped her tears forcefully and said, "Sorry honey go on and have fun with your friends." I comply with that request but the odd behavior sticks in my mind. 'Mom crying and not wanting me to show her my experiments while dancing a little something is indeed a miss but she told me to go on and spend time with my friends.' I walked on into Kelso's and I see Gus full of tears the time with Gus grows smaller. I see Corn chip girl there hugging him with tears in her eyes. 'Please tell me Dr. Rhine is wrong that I won't loose everyone and end up alone. I believe in our friendship please let this feeling be just a feeling.' Gus smiles and said, "Oh Gretchen I was worried you wouldn't make it."

I smile at him and said, "I'm sorry I was late I haven't been able to sleep well."

He hugs me and said, "Well at least I get to spend a few hours with my friends."

We spent that hour reminiscing but I stayed quiet until it was my turn to speak. Thoughts had swirled around my head like the leaves in fall when the chlorophyll changes its color and blows off. T. J asked "Gretch are you ok?"

I snapped back for a moment and said "Oh I'm Fine Teej I just don't need to say much."

As we drink our last shake together as we laugh for the last time together. We became silent and wonder what is to become of each of us. My statistics became more and more true but this can't be the end can it? I believe in our friendship even if science tells me differently. 'Being smart isn't the easiest thing to be. I admire Vince, T.J, and even our Gus. Each has a specific trait other than just being brains. Mikey can move people with words and is a kind hearted person. Spinelli hangs tough in rough situations but she also has a tender side especially when it comes to T.J. Vince is an amazing athlete but also has a creative side like cooking. Last but not least Gus remains loyal even though he trips and gets the bad draw of things. He is nice to talk to and gives us a voice.' He sighed and we all hugged him bye as he goes to the moving van we gave him our numbers and addresses so we can talk or write to him whenever we can. As the evening is drawing near we all go home and I look toward the sun was setting and said, "I hope everything will work out for you Gus I really do." I walk inside as a chilling wind blows through my red hair and to my knees.

Well here is the first actual chapter to my story and I'm surprised I got two reviewers. I can't believe it I honestly expected nothing but hey I guess it works. Of course I will thank my two reviewers.

Wolfegurl006: Wow I didn't think you'd read this I didn't even know you liked recess and I'll try to update more on my G-gundam stories. Thanks for the support girl.

Alimoe: Yes it has been a long time I was wondering about you. Must be tough to be a senior I'm a junior and the work isn't that stressful but very tedious. I'm glad to see I caught your interest I hope my other story didn't cause you to go to sleep anyway great to hear from you again. Hope you update soon and one thing I'll tell you I don't like being predictable.