The Journal of the Smartest and Loneliest Woman

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Chapter 7

I finally actually get up with the worries of the plans to go see T.J and the others oh so many years I've turned cold. Books, factors, math equations and sometimes dealing with people I don't associate with often. I didn't know my own grief and anger could do this. I sigh mentally scolding myself as I look at all the paper work that lies ahead. I'm trying to get everything done in advance my boss has often wondered if I'll ever take any vacations. 'TEEJ WHY DID YOU APPEAR BACK IN MY LIFE AS A GUST OF WIND NOT TO MENTION ASKING ME TO COME TO A REUNION! I'm thinking about declining but then again they are my friends' right? OH I DON'T KNOW ANYMORE I DON'T FEEL AS MUCH AS I USE TO?' I keep working and one of my coworkers walks in with a cherry smile on his face asking, "Gretch why such a confused face?"

I sigh and answer, "Dan it has been years since I've allowed myself near any of my friends and family for that matter I don't know if they'd still like me the same way."

He laughs and says, "So miss ice queen is finally allowing herself to feel something. Gretch if you don't go then you'll never know what could've been. I know how much you hate looking back but sometimes we have to in order to move on."

I take his words in and smile, leave it to good ol Dan to help me get a perspective on things. He reminds me a bit of Vincent too he usually participates in minor sports but he chooses this profession because of the good money. I ask, "Dan can you do me a super big favor?" He does his trade mark smile and nods at my question.

"Can you not tell the rest of the guys I have a heart? Diane knows because I've told her most of my drama's both past and present. I still like to put fear in their eyes if you don't mind." He lets out a heartily laugh and nods to it as if loving the idea of it.

I give Dan a friendly hug and he has his smile wider then usual. He walks out the door and I relax back in my chair as I keep writing more reports with detail. Diane walks in giggling instantly knowing I told Dan about my fears and asking him not to tell his buddies. She asks, "Almost done there Gretch?"

I nod and say "I don't have all the details of the recent case though but all the others are done." Diane nods and goes to sit down in the window chair. I hand her the incomplete documents and she smiles at me.

She says, "Don't worry about it Gretch you weren't on this one I'll take care of it. When you go back home will you stay or come back?"

I notice the twinge of fear in Diane's voice she has been the only one I've confided in since I started this job. I answer, "I'll most likely come back I can't just give up what I've build. It's only a reunion and you've been my friend throughout all these strange cases. I wouldn't turn my back on you and Dan." She hugs me and I was a little surprised by it, but it was a good surprise.

She says, "But if you change your mind let me know ok." I nod and have a small flash back of when I first came to this job.

Flashback

I had just graduated college with a bachelors and masters honor student too. I have typed up my resume and was preparing for my interview with the team. I clean myself up good and go to the interview with my head held up high. That's when I first met Diane and Dan both with serious expressions I was a bit intimidated by the two of them but kept my cool.

Diane asks, "Have you ever work with dead bodies before?"

I answer, "Yes as an intern for a doctor."

Dan asks, "Have you ever worked for a mob?"

I answer "No."

Diane starts to smile and asks "Tell us about yourself?"

I hesitate a little but I answer "I am loyal, hardworking, can be bossy and I know how to write a lot of papers dealing with facts."

Dan has this amused smile and asks, "How's your relationship with males?"

Diane gives him a glare and smacks his arm at that crazy question. I begin to feel better and starting feeling like I could be friends with these two.

I answer, "Well I'm a good friend but I'm afraid science has consumed most of my time to think about such things seems a little six-grade-ish."

Diane laughs and so does Dan for once in a long time I laugh too. Of course afterwards I felt like I had lost the job and sigh to myself as I walk home. Just moments when I get in the door I hear my phone ring and it was Diane.

She asks, "Ms. Grundler?"

I answer, "Yes."

She says, "You got the job congratulations."

After that day Diane helps me get use to the rickety office I had to start out in. She kept me informed of almost everything on and off the clock. We often went places together to talk about old times. My first day wasn't so lonely which left a small flame of hope in my heart.

End of flashback

I go to my apartment and cook me a small yet nutritious meal. I pack a few things in a small suitcase and make reservations at a hotel near by my sleepy town. 'Well I'm all set physically but I'm still nervous emotionally.' I set my clock for seven and I go to sleep wondering what the next day will bring.

I am so sorry I've kept you waitingso longand thank you for the sweets Duck-rules-world. I guess you're the only one reviewing for now but I still thank Alimoe and Wolfegurl.