The Journal of the Smartest and Loneliest Woman

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Chapter 9

I had briefly said goodnight to Vince and went straight to bed. At first I had a hard time to go to sleep but I managed it.

"Gretchen my dear daughter please forgive your father but most of all forgive yourself."

"Mom is that you?"

"Yes, honey I know you're at your friend Vince's house please open up to them. Your heart has been hurt for so long please allow yourself to heal."

"I don't know if I can mom everything feel apart when you died."

"Hon it's time you accept your emotions and start over no matter what you'll always be the joy in my eyes Gretch."

"I'll try mom but you know once you go on a road you can't go back."

"I know it's hard but you need to allow yourself to heal and live with the fact that your father has chosen another lover. He's been worried about you believe it or not."

"I doubt that mom he has written me letters but I sense no emotion with them. I know my heart has turned cold but how can I start again?"

"Dear your father doesn't know how to show emotion and I think he lost love in me because I'm so high spirited. That you have to find in yourself hon I miss you."

"Thank you for appearing but what took you so long mom?"

"Your heart was too hard my sweetheart."

"I understand mom thank you."

I finally begin to sleep peacefully and I allow the cool darkness comfort my exhausted body. I begin to fill a small shade of light appear on my face for the first time I didn't dread the sun shining on my head. I could hear someone excising in the back ground and could hear someone say, "Is this really the brain of our group? Has she really come back?" I wake up and stretch trying to not let my muscles get sore on me. I walk downstairs and I get sold brown eye stare which makes me a little uncomfortable sure I've known Vince since elementary, but still I feel foreign. 'Start over again Gretch your mom knows what's she is talking about.'

I ask, "So Vince how's life been treating you?"

He sits down and smiles at me saying, "Well lets see I've played professional football for 2 years and basketball for 4. After a while I decided to be a chief at the latest of restaurant to tell you the truth I'm thinking I should've stayed with my cooking talent sure sports give you a lot of money but it gets lonely."

I smile and relax more as he averted his eyes from me. I notice a picture of a pretty woman fair skin, blonde hair, and green eyes. 'So he has a girl isn't too shocking to me.'

He sighs and notices my eyes looking at the picture. He says, "She and I aren't together anymore. We've been dating on and off but this time it's completely over."

I look in his coal black eyes and say, "Look Vince that part of your life is none of my business although I do admit it is intriguing to know but still you didn't have to confess it."

He smiles and says, "Good ol Gretch, smart and has heart."

'You wouldn't say that unless you know why I left all this behind.' Vince snaps me out of my thoughts when asks, "Where have you been all these years? Curing Diseases? Discovering the next ground breaking element to science?"

I look at him and answer, "I'm a Forensic Scientist I help with investigation."

He smiles and says, "Cool you get down and dirty like guys off of CSI. It must be gross but super interesting."

I just nod soberly and Vince notices that I haven't carried around my scientific stuff or Gallo. He says, "Gretch I've…we've missed you a lot. I still remember when you were the voice of reason then we got separated which was not cool. You just disappeared on us like that I have wondered for so long and I'm glad you decided to come back just for this week."

I look at Vince in utter confusion he has been wondering about me. 'If this is a trick it's a cruel one to play on a scientist. Is it possible they still care about me? No he's just being nice because he feels sorry for me. THAT'S IT I GOT IT!'

Vince sits down and looks directly in my eyes as if searching for something. I look up at him just because I knew he wants something from me. That smile never left his face since I came here last night which seems really illogical why, would he smile at a supposed friend who left without saying good-bye? He runs his fingers through my hair and I move in surprise that he would touch my hair. He asks "Is something wrong Gretch? Why haven't I seen you around here please answer?"

I sigh and say, "I'll tell you when I regain from shock of seeing you Vince." He sighs and nods knowing when Gretchen makes a decision she sticks with it. Suddenly Vince's doorbell rings and both get up to answer it.

"HEY VINCE! HOW'S MY BUDDY! GRETCH IS THAT YOU?"

Well this is a three paged chapter I'm proud of myself. It's been awhile since I've typed Chapters this long. Anyway thank you all for your reviews and being curious about this story. To be honest I wasn't really planning to get this far but now I've made it only 3 more chapters to go. Who knows maybe a sequel is in order.

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