Chapter 17
SymplyCharmed: just thought you'd like to know this is a Paige coming to terms with losing Kyle chapter
Italics: song (sometimes you can't make it on your own by U2)
Underlined: memory
Paige sat in the bathroom she'd locked the door and so far had been sat in silence for one hour and 12 minutes she blinked away fresh tears and thought about her life
No husband her daughter and nephews where missing her sisters hadn't even attempted to talk about Kyle and Leo was human and now on top of all that she had just discovered something else how was she supposed to do this alone well she had her sisters but sisters where a lot different from boyfriends and husbands she rubbed her eyes again angrily trying to rid the tears she was sick of feeling helpless she was Paige Matthews she'd come so far in life and this shouldn't stop her the feeling of confidence lasted all of five minutes before she re-surrendered to the tears she heard a light knocking on the door
"Paige?" it was Leo
"Mm hmm?" she asked
"It's Leo," he said
"I know" she replied smiling at his docile ness
"Are you ok?" he asked
"Yeah"
"No your not" he told her
"How'd you know?" she asked
"Your locked in a bathroom for an hour and seventeen minutes" he told her
"You counted?" she asked
"Yeah" he replied
"Why?" she exclaimed
"I gotta pee," he hissed
Paige laughed she opened the door an inch
"Hold on" she grabbed a little chemist bag and strolled out
"Thanks!" he gushed and ran in shutting the door behind him somehow Leo had just made her feel better she grinned at the door and made her way to her room she paused just before entering Kyle's stuff was all still strewn across the room she turned and went into Piper's room who was folding clothes
"Hey" she smiled
"Hi Paige" Piper said reproachfully
"I'm fine before you ask um I just gotta tell you something" she said
"Sure what's up?" she sat down and patted the bed for Paige to
Paige took a deep breath
"You know Leo" she asked Piper nodded
"Well when he became an elder and you were raising Wyatt was it very hard?" she asked Piper cocked her head to the side and frowned
"It was sometimes why?" she asked she thought maybe her sister was just trying to see what life was going to be like but something about the worry and shock in her little sister's face worried Piper!
Paige took another deep breath
"I'm-"
"BANG!" the door was flung open and there stood Luke Paige blinked before she realised he was no longer in shim form he looked evil
"Where's Phoebe?" he asked Paige hid behind her sister
"Why?" Piper asked but the way her voice shivered she knew he knew she was afraid
"I'm here!" Phoebe shouted stepping into the room from Piper's bathroom she stood in front of Luke completely unafraid
"Phoebe" Paige warned
"It's ok Paige I can handle this," she told them
"But we got super speedy sparkly whoosh things" she told her Paige looked at her sister
"You've gone insane" she told her Piper pinched her hand
"Oh I get it!" Paige realised Super speedy Pipers powers whoosh was Phoebe's premonition and sparkly was Paige's orbing!
"I know piper" Phoebe said obviously she'd worked it out before hand
"Luke we can't help you!" Phoebe told him softly
All the evil melted from his face he wasn't really evil he was masking the fact that he was afraid
"We lost our powers" she said he shook his head
"I really wanted you guys to kill me it's better than being killed by your own parents anyway" Luke said sadly
"What do you mean?" Piper asked
"Well my Mum was a shim too she got bitten when she was pregnant with me so I got too now cause I'm a second generation whitelighter and half demon I'm a chosen one you see when it's witch and whitelighter it's a girl only and there's never been a boy until now the only one to kill the chosen one is either a half and half demon or a half and half witch That's how come I tried to find Paige I don't want my mum to kill me I mean what kind of mother would even do that!" he said bitterly Piper found she was clinging to Paige's hand tightly especially after his last sentence Phoebe looked at her little sister's face it was paler than normal her lips where set in a thin straight line and she looked about to throw up for some reason the hand that wasn't clung to Pipers was covering her stomach
"Paige are you ok?" Phoebe asked
Paige shook her head and burst into tears running out of the room Leo came out of the bathroom as she ran past
"It's ok Paige I'm done now you can go back in!" he called trying to make her laugh she just carried on running until she was out of the house and down the road she didn't stop until she was at the golden gate bridge she thought about what Luke had just said
Tough… you think you've got the stuff your telling me and anyone you're hard enough
Her eyes welled with tearsYou don't have to put up a fight
You don't have to always be right
Let me take some of the punches
For you tonight
Poppy had been so determined to change the future and Paige that day when her future daughter had come running into the room she'd told her to go hide in her cupboard and she did then Paige chose the baby over her she let her daughter be taken!
Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone
Kyle paced the room slowly his heart ached he needed to see Paige to warn her what Poppy was about to do he tried to orb but found once again that he couldn't he knew he'd promised Poppy he'd keep it a secret but how couldn't he allow her to be take away when they now knew they'd saved her anyway he thought about Paige wondering what she was doing now and found to his amaze meant he could see her he watched as she stood on the bridge she was sobbing and clearly deep in thought
And it's you when I look in the mirror and it's you when I pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it o your own
"Just open them and look" Paige told them Phoebe nodded and they all flicked through they were all exactly the same inside each one started with a picture of Piper Phoebe and Prue then Leo and Piper on their wedding day they Andy and Prue then Phoebe and Cole and then Phoebe Piper and Paige then Phoebe and Jason then Wyatt Piper and Leo again and then Chris and then Paige and Kyle then finally Phoebe Paige Piper Leo Kyle Wyatt Chris and Poppy together
"I figured we all need something that's got everything that's happened with us" she smiled softly
"Are you ok?" Piper asked Paige shook her head
"I don't really feel like celebrating to day so I'll be upstairs ok?" she asked biting her lip they all nodded
"I'll save you some dinner" Piper told her she nodded "Thanks" and walked upstairs when she got to her window she looked out across the city the sun only just rising and she ran her finger along the cut on her hand from the night before
"Happy Christmas sweetie" she whispered and she almost swore she heard Poppy whisper back
"Thanks Mom"We fight
All the time
You and IThat's all right
Were the same souls
I don't need
I don't need to hear you say
That if we weren't so alike
You'd like me a whole lot more
Wyatt and Chris stood facing each other
"Hey listen Bro I'm sorry about all the stuff growing up and all the time I was making fun at you ok," Wyatt said scuffing his shoes
"It's ok Shrimp" Chris smiled softly Wyatt punched him lightly and then hugged him Poppy stepped in
"Are you guys ready?" she asked the both nodded
"I wonder what's in store for us then reckon we'll get another life?" Wyatt asked Poppy shook her head
"I don't think we'll ever see each other again so if we don't it's been nice knowing you two" she smiled sadly
"We should have said goodbye to our parents and aunts they won't understand" Chris said bitterly
"Maybe not but I'm sure Kyle will find a way to tell them one day" Wyatt told him Poppy held up the spell
Chris and Wyatt nodded and the all hugged and held hands ready to say the spell
Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone Piper dialled Paige's cell phone again"No answer" she told Phoebe
"Where would she go Piper"?
"I think what we should be asking is why" Piper replied
"What do you mean?" Phoebe asked
"Well before Luke was here and what he said she was asking me all stuff about what happened after Leo left and how was raising Wyatt but Poppy's 14 now she doesn't have to worry about anything like that" Piper said something clicked in Phoebe's mind
"The bridge!" she continued "That's where she likes to go to think!"
"Phoebe I just thought" Piper said Phoebe looked at her sensing her sister was onto something big "What if" Phoebe motioned for her to continue
"What if Paige is pregnant again?" she asked Phoebe took a deep breath
"Let's just hope she's not gonna do anything stupid" Phoebe sighed
"Like what?"
"Like try and get Kyle back the elder's will recycle her she's not any use to them now" Phoebe warned Piper grabbed her coat
"Let's go," she told her sister who nodded
And it's you when I look in the mirror and it's you when I pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it o your own
Paige was sobbing now she watched the cars whizzing past below her and hated them she hated them all they didn't know anything about magic it wasn't messing up their lives they didn't need to worry about weather or not their husband and child where about to go missing with elders or orbing around the world so she sat down and sobbed cause it was the only thing that made an attempt to stop her hurting
I know that we don't talk
I'm sick of it all can-you-hear-me-when-I
Sing, you're the only reason I sing
You're the only reason why the opera is in me…
"Paige!" Kyle shouted his heart was breaking even more watching his wife breakdown like this he needed to tell her Poppy was ok and to forget him suddenly Jennie was in the room
"It's time Kyle"
"No please" he begged
"You had your chance to come with the elders and you refused its o late" she said, "I'm sorry," she added but she didn't look a bit sorry
"Then just let me talk to Paige for a minute I can't leave her I told her I'd find a way back please Jennie" he begged she shook her head and snapped
"Come on!"
As she lowered the guards, which allowed him to leave as soon as he was out, he orbed away down to Paige
Where are we now?
I've got to let you know
A house still doesn't make a home
Don't leave me here all alone
Where Piper and Phoebe had just pulled up they where running towards them but Phoebe stopped when she saw Kyle
"Wait" she told Piper
And it's you when I look in the mirror
"Paige" he breathed she looked up and smiled weakly she wanted to hate him too now for leaving her but she couldn't
"I gotta be quick the elders are gonna recycle me" he said softly Phoebe and Piper had stepped up behind them
And its you that makes it hard to let go
"Why?" Paige asked
"It's to complicated now but you have to forget me you have to move on with your lives don't let them taking me away ruin your life"
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
I don't want to forget you" Paige sobbed Kyle bent down to her level
"You have to and Poppy Wyatt and Chris are doing the right thing just don't let anyone say otherwise" he said the last part to all three Jennie orbed down as did another called Justin Tilbury it was evident that Jennie didn't know he was there and that he wasn't there to back her up either
"Kyle" Jennie barked
Sometimes you can't make it
"Please don't take him" Paige begged it had begun to rain hard
The best you can do is to fake it
Paige found her self screaming at Jennie she didn't know what she was saying but when she stopped she knew it wouldn't make a difference Jennie looked at Paige
"Your pitiful" she said coldly the last thing Paige heard was Kyle arguing with Jennie then she blacked out
Sometimes you can't make it on your ownSymplycharmed: Please please please R&R! I've worked so hard on this and I think there's only one person reading it :'(