Third chapter of Unknown Feelings!
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Thanks to OutofAzkaban for your review and to Rabid Bumblebee - you are right about the exlamation marks, I seem to be addicted to them. Well, I hope that I could cut back the use of them in this chapter? And here it is:
The next day, just before breakfast, Marc Hopkins – like predicted – was waiting for Lena in front of the Great Hall.
He was tall, had blonde hair, bronzy skin, green eyes – he really looked like a surfer.
Marc asked Lena for about the 1000th time if she wanted to be his date for the next Hogsmeade visit on Saturday.
The boy was already laughed at by his friends because of his perseverance regarding Lena.
So, he now expected another "no" from the girl of his dreams, but she surprisingly agreed to his proposal – Marc felt like the happiest boy in Hogwarts.
Lena, on the other hand, felt a huge guilt in her stomach when she saw the happy expression on Marc's face, but she tried to ignore it as well as she could.
Her own feelings were much more important to her now than anything else.
On the Gryffindor table, the long-haired girl sat down next to her best friend Sirius and everything seemed to be as always. But inside, she felt even more guilt: she had given hope to another guy just to find out if her friend felt more than friendship for her or not. That was really unfair towards Marc, but she swallowed these feelings and thoughts together with her breakfast.
Between the rolls with jam and her muesli with milk, she remarked that she would like to talk to Sirius about everything that has happened or almost happened in their hideout.
"Can't wait to be alone in one room with me, can you, Sawyer?" Sirius chuckled, but agreed.
Lena felt slightly hurt because she had thought that it was a serious affair, but her friend obviously didn't share this opinion.
In reality, Sirius was really looking forward to telling Lena everything about his feelings for her and felt a bit nervous, too- but only a bit. After all, he was Sirius Black – the every girl's darling in Hogwarts and he would get his will!
Right after school, the two went to the Room of Requirement and sat down on two opposing chairs near the only window.
At first, they were merely staring at each other with the strange feeling in their stomachs again.
Then, Sirius wanted to start talking about his feelings, but Lena interrupted him immediately (well, she had to realize her plan): "Si, about our almost-kiss:" The handsome guy looked at her expectantly. "I think it would have been a stupid mistake!"
It had been easier to say that than she had expected. But on the other hand, she had looked to the floor and not into her friend's eyes.
Lena took a deep breath and forced herself to raise her eyes from the floor and look at Sirius.
"We are still friends, right?" she asked and waited for this reaction.
The black-haired boy had lost his smile. He had expected to have his first real girlfriend after this conversation, but everything had gone totally wrong.
Just friends? Sirius wanted to be more for her! The one who held her in his arms and kissed her.
He wondered if he could still tell her everything, but he decided to react Sirius-like: "Oh Sawyer, did you think anything else? You know that I'm a busy man- everywhere girls that need my help!"
His grin was back. It was a forced grin, but Lena didn't realize that.
For her it seemed as if Sirius didn't really care, that her words didn't matter to him, which made her think that he couldn't be in love with her.
Inside the young man, there was a storm of feelings, which he forced down into his feet, far away from his heart. He didn't want to feel the pain that her words had provoked, so he tried to ignore it.
The girl unpacked her last trump: "Ok, now that this is clear I have good news: Marc Hopkins from Ravenclaw will be my date in Hogsmeade! That's great, isn't it?"
The last words had been really difficult for Lena and she showed a fake smile, but Sirius didn't notice it – he was too shocked.
He couldn't understand how these last few words could have spoiled his plans so much, but they had!
His forced grin faded a bit, but just for a second, then it was back.
"Yeah, that's- that's really great, Sawyer! But please, don't force him to merry you after this first date!"
This joke was also forced, not naturally, but as the beautiful girl felt really bad now, but the young man was glad that he was able to answer – no matter what.
Everything that could be said had been said and so, the two friends went back to their Common Room very silently, both lost in their own thoughts.
That night (and also the following), there were two students, who were not able to sleep because they had to think of each other…
The next day, Lena told Haley that she had made her plan come true, but that she didn't really feel as good as she had thought that she would.
Her friend convinced her that everything would end fine and that she just had to be patient.
Of course, "fine" meant another thing in Haley's mind: getting rid of Sirius!
But in spite of that, Haley tried to forget her own thoughts and feel sympathy for Lena.
Sirius also had to talk about everything – of course – to Remus.
The brown-haired boy didn't have to say many things again, but he suggested that Sirius should also find another date for Saturday to see how Lena would react to that and (if this reaction would not please him at all) to distract himself a bit from his feelings for his friend.
Sirius agreed, thanked his friend and left him alone again.
Remus didn't really care because an idea had formed in his mind while listening to his friend: he had just seen what could happen if you didn't speak about your feelings and he promised himself that he would not make the same mistake and talk to Haley as soon as possible!
No matter if she felt the same or not, he would talk to her because he knew that the feelings you keep inside yourself are lost forever, but that nobody can take those away from you about which you speak and which you show!
And at least, this one plan was realized correctly and with success: Remus and Haley would go to Hogsmeade on Saturday – together.
Sirius did what his friend had suggested to him: he asked Chloe Jones (a beautiful, long-legged, red-haired girl with bright green eyes; not particularly clever, but ok for this date) to come to Hogsmeade with him and she said yes – almost fainting doing so (the best kisser in Hogwarts had asked HER for a date).
Then, they all had to wait until Saturday – three days and four nights, which seemed to be like an eternity.
Finally, the long-desired day arrived and our three friends (and their dates) were quite nervous.
Remus was looking forward to his first date with Haley, but Lena and Sirius had an unpleasant feeling in their stomachs. They both wanted their plans to come true and maybe, that's why they clothed better that day than they would otherwise without intending it.
At about 3 o'clock, the black-haired boy met his date from Hufflepuff in the Great Hall and they slowly walked over the grounds of Hogwarts and over to the little village of Hogsmeade.
Chloe was really no great talker, her answers only consisted of "no", "yes" and "mmmh".
Sirius already regretted that he had asked her out because she was absolutely not like Lena.
Well, she looked pretty with her short, black skirt, her yellow tank top and black high-heels, but for the first time in his life, that was not enough for the young man.
Usually, they would already kiss each other somewhere hidden behind a shop, but this time, Sirius didn't want to kiss. He just wanted his friend at his side and have one of their great and funny rows – and then, maybe, also to kiss her, as her boyfriend and not because somebody had told her that he was a good kisser.
Then, the long-legged Chloe suggested going to Madame Puddifoot's, a small teashop in a side road of Hogsmeade, which was always decorated gaily and THE PLACE for couples.
Sirius felt like vomiting!
He hated this tea shop very much.
Now, his desire to have Lena here instead of this brainless girl with the empty smile, who was only there because she had heard of Sirius's qualities as a kisser, became even more urgently.
The heart-throb felt disgusted because of his former behaviour. How could be ever have wanted to kiss girls like Chloe?
But even though he felt an inner barrier against this tea shop and his date, they entered the shop – and the date became even worse: the red-haired girl stared at Sirius with her empty eyes and he himself created air holes with his bored gaze.
And to make things worse, Lena and Marc entered the tea shop – laughing and talking vividly – after the longest half of an hour in Sirius's life.
At about 3.30, Lena and Marc had also met in the Great Hall and headed to Hogsmeade.
At first, they hadn't really known what to talk about, so they had started a conversation about Quidditch. But as Marc supported another team than the girl did, it had been quite difficult not to argue.
Afterwards, Lena had thought that this row would last throughout the whole date, when they had come past the shop called Honeydukes with sweets of all kinds. Then, they had talked about their favourite food and found out that they both liked Chocolate Frogs more than anything else. They had left this topic after agreeing that Bertie Bott's Every Flavour Beans were just disgusting and then had gone on with other topics like their favourite colour.
Actually, she hadn't wanted to go to Madame Puddifoot's because she really hated this tea shop, but as Marc was a really cool guy, Lena hadn't wanted to insult him. Well, he wasn't Sirius, but really nice.
When they entered the little tea shop (oh, how she hated these doilies on the tables), they were talking about music and discovered that they both liked the Rocking Pumpkins very much. They sat down opposite each other on a little table in one corner of the room and ordered two cups of coffee.
Sirius's heart forgot to beat for a moment. The worst thing for the 17-year-old boy was that Lena looked even more gorgeous than she usually did (if that was possible): she wore a short black, neck holder dress with a huge neck, and black high-heels – something she usually didn't wear.
Of course, she had skirts and dresses, but not that short and tight like this one and she didn't really like make-up and high-heels very much because she was rather the natural type of girl.
Her smooth dark hair looked wonderful – she looked wonderful!
She looked around in the small room and saw – Sirius!
The feeling of butterflies and indisposition was buzzing through her stomach.
Well, Lena had wanted Sirius to see her having FUN with Marc, but she had not known that she would really have fun with Marc!
And what did her friend do in this tea shop? He hated it as much as she did!
Then she looked at his date – Chloe – and understood: she had suggested this tea shop and he had agreed just as she herself had.
Besides, Sirius had really clothed special for this date: he wore black, tight jeans and a dark, also tight t-shirt.
She couldn't help thinking that he looked handsome – well, he always did.
When he looked at her, she perceived a bored and unhappy expression in his eyes and in a way, she felt a bit guilty because she really enjoyed her date with Marc while he seemed to have a bad day.
The beautiful girl waved slowly at her friend, trying to ignore the fact that she found him handsome, the butterflies in her stomach, the guilt, the indisposition.
Sirius waved back at Lena, desiring to take her into his arms and kiss her. He wanted to hit Marc Hopkins for making his friend laugh and having a good time with her, but he did nothing. He just sat there and stared at Lena.
At first, the girl also threw looks over to Sirius and his date from time to time, but they were soon forgotten because Lena and her blonde date talked about their favourite films, books, etc.
They had many things in common, e.g. that they both came from Muggle families and therefore had to listen to many mean things from the "Purebloods".
Lena and Marc only stopped talking when they noticed the setting sun outside the shop. They had not realized that time had been running past them that fast.
Before leaving the tea shop, Lena looked over to Sirius's table one last time, but he and his date were not there. They had left many hours before.
To be continued...
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