Disclaimer: Same as before, i refuse to say it a second time. --

Props: Same as before, same song and everything XD

A/N: There will be no more chapters after this, it would be stupid to continue after this, sorry if that bothers you but it is what it is. :shruggs:

"Look at me still in your mind
Our memories so intertwined
Well you broke through and found your way
And so did I, no need to stay
The same old picture, tried and true
Been through there, let's look for something new"

Bittersweet II

/Sasuke.../

Naruto raced from the room trying to erase the feeling of Sasukes hands on his body, his skin tingled where the light caresses had been making him recall every time the other boy had embraced him. He stopped as he reached the double doors and pushed them open quickly exiting the hospital, the open air hit him cooling his heated skin some but it did nothing to erase the unclean feeling in his mind. He shook his head walking toward his house, he didn't know what to do, this repayment plan with Sasuke...what would the raven haired boy say if he knew...

/It makes me so happy to have you embrace me, Sasuke./

Naruto was being selfish, not a side of him he was very used to, Sasuke had probably just asked to have something to relieve sexual frustrations on. Naruto knew Sasuke would sooner die than give hope to any of his fan girls, naturally a horny teenager in need would turn to guys if girls were out. Naruto hadn't fought it, he had given in and was continuing to play the reluctant part...but he wanted it. More than anything he wanted Sasuke's attention, his thoughts to always be centered on him...yeah Naruto was being selfish...

/Acknowledge me.../

It was getting worse every time they had sex, it was getting harder and harder to forget how good Sasuke felt. He knew Sasuke didn't see him like that, the best Naruto could do, the closest he could get, was letting Sasuke hold him. He would pretend to hate it, for the shame to his face, avert his eyes and refuse to let in. But he wanted to, Sasuke was the only person he'd ever had that made him feel complete, like a human. Sasuke made him feel wanted, Naruto needed that, he needed it like a drug. Already Sasuke had become so much to him, Sasuke was his everything, sometimes he could almost make himself believe Sasuke thought the same. He wanted it so badly.

/Think of me Sasuke...please.../

Naruto walked in his home barely able to stand the solitude of it, but he needed to get clean, washing himself of the boys touches, praying to rinse away at least some of the hurt those hands left behind. He had tried before, but this attraction...no this addiction, it was burned into his bones, he wanted it away, willed it with all his heart. Feeling that much love, it was painful, beyond any other Naruto had known in his life full of pain. There was no trace of Sasuke in the small apartment, Naruto didn't like it, it was almost like the boy was gone, the thought sent shafts of pain piercing his heart. Naruto pulled on some clothes, pajamas most likely though he didn't notice, Sasukes imprints were dimming, becoming nothing more than another memory. One Naruto knew would haunt him, his dreams, his future...he didn't want to cradle this hurt anymore. But he couldn't push it away, it was the only thing keeping Naruto and Sasuke tied to one another. They couldn't be friends anymore, not after all that has happened, they couldn't be rivals, Naruto could force more hate than he already was.

/I don't hate you Sasuke...I couldn't hate you.../

Naruto didn't know when he had left his house, all he knew was he was walking again through the night. His feet were carrying him on a memorized path not letting his mind interfere with its troublesome questions of where and why. Still no shock registered when he found himself outside the Uchiha home. The feel of Sasuke poured from the building, Naruto almost raced to it, he wished he could open the door and see Sasuke greet him, like a lover coming home to the one they loved. Pushing the thought away with no more than a mental whimper to show the way it tore at him, Naruto found the spare key Sasuke had hidden. Naruto knew where it was, Naruto knew more of the boy than he wanted to admit, the raven haired youths favorite food, the way he got his silky hair in those just right spikes...the face he made when feeling the pleasure accompanied by orgasm, the way his surprisingly soft lips parted inhaling the air in desperate pants as he tried to obtain that pleasure. Naruto wondered if Sasuke remembered those things about him, probably not, Sasuke didn't need to remember. Pushing open the door Naruto entered, he had been in Sasukes house before, and just like then he could feel the boy around every corner, Sasuke had told him what happened here. His family, what his brother had done.

Maybe that was why they were so close, being alone, with no one who cared, it was like dying a little every day. He wished Sasuke didn't have to know that pain. Moving quietly he took off his shoes walking down the halls, taking in the feeling of Sasuke, inhaling it like the sweetest scent in the world. Entering a room that looked more lived in than the others the blonde looked around, he could almost see Sasuke moving around the room, it had to be his, Naruto felt the strength leave his legs and fell more than sat on the floor. He closed his eyes, he wanted to be selfish again, he wanted Sasuke here, even if it was just so the boy could command sex from him as before. He would do it, gladly, though keeping his mask of hatred. Sasuke would hate him, stop holding him, leave him. He clutched at his heart willing the pain to ebb, it would be so easy for them if they were different people. He could love Sasuke if he wasn't Uzumaki Naruto, Sasuke could accept his love if he were Uchiha Sasuke. Kami why couldn't he be someone Sasuke could love, when he imagined the boys love, he knew just a small amount of it, just a little, could ease the pain. Love him like a friend, love him like a rival...

/Sasuke...do you know, how it hurts.../

IT wasn't a loud sound, but it wasn't one Naruto, even in his increasingly common throws of pain, could ignore. The soft click, from a floor up Naruto knew Sasuke was home, he could feel the intense presence of the boy. He didn't move, not from fear, he wanted found.

/Find me. Tell me to let you hold me, let me be selfish./

The footsteps were matched to Narutos heartbeat as his mind cast around for the barriers he put up, don't let Sasuke know.

/He'll hate me./

Naruto pushed up from the floor, standing as the steps stopped outside the again closed door, Sasuke knew he was there, Naruto almost pleaded with him to come in the room. The door seemed too solid, one more thing standing between him and Sasuke. It pushed open screaming with unoiled hinges as the raven haired boy stood expectantly at the door.

"What are you doing in my house?"

The same cold icy tone he took with the girls who always flocked to him, Naruto used to be above that tone, the only one Sasuke wouldn't use it with. Sasuke was close, Naruto could reach out and touch the pale cheek if he wished, but he dared not, Sasuke would turn away, he didn't want to be forgotten by Sasuke, not by Sasuke.

/I wanted to be near you./

"...I don't want to do it anymore."

Naruto didn't mean it, he still had his mouth open, prepared to take it back. It was the only way he could remain with Sasuke.

/Don't take it away./

Sasukes eyes hardened and he shrugged, it was like a funeral bell, he was going to lose the only person who had wanted him, for whatever reason. Sasuke walked passed him pausing when they were side by side, he turned and spoke.

"No."

For once in a long time Narutos mind refused to connect the words, it was like he had never heard it before.

"No?"

"I won't stop, I'm not above forcing you into it."

Naruto simply stood, he felt the hand on his waist, Sasukes hands, he would know them even there were 100 pairing touching him at the same time. Just this once, he wanted to fall into the embrace, just this once he wanted to make love with Sasuke. Sasuke had refused, and Naruto wouldn't bring it up again, he never wanted to lose even this little strange relationship they had.

"I think you owe me for that remark, dobe."

Naruto wanted to cry, the pet name Sasuke had stopped using a while ago, it made the yearning in him increase ten fold. Sasuke pulled him around and into the taller ninjas body, Naruto knew how to act, he could play it out like a pro. Frown when his lips touched here, look away when his gaze locked on the coal one in front of him, tell him no when his hands moved there. Naruto knew how to act it all out, Sasuke played his part perfectly, he growled at the right times, cursed and ignored the boy when he should. Naruto was going to be selfish again, he looked away and let a small smile come to his lips as Sasukes traveled passed his navel. He wanted to give the boy his heart, his soul, really they were already his.

/But all I can do is let you hold me.../

"Too much of the same stories in our lives
I think it's time for change, don't you?
Too much of the same stories in our lives
I think it's time for us to walk away from here."

-Owari-

A/N: I don't know if I like this chapter as much as I liked the other, honestly I was torn between giving a happy ending or not, but I decided to do so would contradict my fic's whole mood, so I decided on a compromise, I let you know they feel the same for each other, its up to you to decide if anything come of it in the future. I hope this chapter is okay by you (though I am not overly fond of it)

An no more chapters after this, if your looking for a Sasuke is a tormented soul, Naruto is a tormented soul, they get together happily ever after then go read 'This is the Way I Love You' or something. This fic is finished. (It was just supposed to be one to make sure I hadn't lost my touch in the month or so of non-writing time.)