I'll Find You

Authors Note: Warning this IS mostly fem slash. Also if you are offended by religions other than your own (in this case Wicca) you might not want to read this. Rating for violence, sexual content, language, and suicide. Before you read I would like you to know this is a true story of what happened to me and my ex-girlfriend.

Chapter Eight: I'll Find You Again

Finally the end of another school year, but this summer was going to prove to be a little different. Not only would I not be able to spend as much time with Sango as I did last summer, but Amaya now had a different lover. Her and Rin had broken up when they realized their relationship was putting their friendship on the line. Now she was going out with a rather handsome man named Sesshomaru. Sesshomaru was Inuyasha's half brother and they looked quite a bit alike. Not only did they have the same eyes, but the same long silver hair. He was only a few inches taller than Inuyasha, but much more handsome.

Amaya, Sesshomaru, Inuyasha, Yaone and I would all go out almost every single night. We would stop at Sango's for awhile after her parents had gone to bed, play with Rowan for awhile, visit for a bit and leave. One night when Miroku had Rowan we decided to take Sango out for a good time. She told her parents she would be at Miroku's and then we went and picked her up over there. It was only nine thirty, and the sun was setting tonight we were going to go out ghost hunting. As soon as we picked her up we ran back over to Sesshomaru's apartment and grabbed several flashlights. And started out for Holcomb Road.

Holcomb road was said to be haunted and we had heard that once you are out there there are several things that you might see. Once you get on the road it is said you will see blue colored lights at the very end of the street (the street is in the country and very long), a pair of what is said to be eyes that changed from red to white, a bus driving very fast down the road, and Sesshomaru who had been there before had told Amaya and I only that he had seen a jet black creature in the forest too big to be a cat but too small to be something like a deer.

By the time we got out to the road it was pitch black. The first time we drove very slowly down the road as we were told at the end of the road we blue lights, so we drove down, but when we got to the end the lights had vanished. We turned around to go back down the road and saw something very large the size of a bus drive really fast across the road and into the forest. And Inuyasha saw two flashing red and white 'eyes' by that time all of us, but Sesshomaru seemed to be frightened. We were driving slowly down the road (I had my eyes closed and was clinging onto Inuyasha by now) that's when Sango said something. "Look over there on the right side of the road there is something there. Its black…but I can't tell what it is its too big to be a cat." That was it I started whining, Amaya screamed, and Sesshomaru floured it. I looked back, "Sesshomaru, someone is following us." He turned around and sure enough there were a pair of very bright headlight behind us again he stepped on the gas and we were driving past a cornfield when the lights just disappeared. All of us were very frightened now, even Sesshomaru seemed a bit paler than normal, and until we got out of the city limits every time one of us mentioned the name Holcomb Road a mist would appear on the road ahead of us.

The story that Sesshomaru told us behind the road was that, some time many years ago a bus full of catholic school girls had crashed on that road. The bodies were never found and all the girls and the driver were presumed dead. That is when all the strange happenings started, so everyone assumed it was now haunted by the dead girls and the driver.

Thankful to be out of Pemberry city we decided tonight would be the perfect night for a bonfire at some of Sesshomaru's friends house in Waterville. It took us awhile to get out there and by the time we arrived, with some food for roasting over the fire of course, it was passed midnight.

We were introduced to Sesshomaru's friends who happened to also have a band together and had just got back from a gig. They started a huge bonfire and the pyro's of the group (me, Amaya, and Sango) kept adding more and more lighter fluid making it go higher and higher. We roasted marshmallows, of course we didn't really eat them, more like through them at people and things. Everyone tried to tell a ghost story each of course some of us not being very good just said things like, "One day their was a ghost. It scared people. The end." Most of the stories just ended up making us laugh more then frighten us, but it was still fun.

Finally at about four in the morning after throwing our food more then actually eating it, we decided to go to Waffle House which was open twenty four hours a day. After an enjoyable breakfast we dropped Sango back off at Miroku's house at about five thirty. Then back to Sesshomaru's where the rest of us stayed the night.

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Now that Sango had experienced the thrill and fun of being out for hours on end late at night without any parental supervision, she wanted to do it again. So now she joined us on our outings at least once a week leaving Rowan behind with Miroku. All in all Sango seemed to be much happier than she had been before. She had a beautiful daughter and a man willing and able to marry her as soon as she graduated from high school.

On our night excursions we would do all sorts of things, most of us being underage you would think it would be difficult to find things to do. But Sesshomaru would drive pretty far to find places for us to go to amuse ourselves. We went to stores that were open twenty-fours hours and reeked havoc and chaos, we had picnics in cemeteries, we drove around aimlessly, we went to parks, rented movies, and even occasionally stopped in a laundry mat just down the street from where I lived which was open twenty-four hours and had long conversations with people washing clothes at three in the morning. It may have sounded very boring, but by all means it amused us all very much. But that could just be because of how very boring the city we live in and the cities around us were very boring.

On several occasions while taking walks down the streets of the city we were stopped by police asking us where we were going. We all thought this very foolish that the police suspected us of attempting to cause vandalism as we were all empty handed. But then again the police around the parts where we live had a tendency to judge people. And they believed we were going to vandalize because we with the exception of my sister were all wearing black. This made us very angry and we even went down to the police station to complain. At the times of our walks it was only eleven at night and there is no curfew in the city in which I live, even if there was we wouldn't have been breaking it. We tried explaining to the police chief that his men were pulling us aside when they had no right to just, because we looked different, but he wouldn't listen to us and just made us leave. So, we ended our walks very sadly unless it was through a park we weren't supposed to be at or a cemetery which we also weren't supposed to be at. Surprisingly never once did a policeman stop us when we were treading through a place we weren't even supposed to be at.

The months of summer passed by with us enjoying each other's company by going out late at night, to some people we would be called vampire, except we didn't drink blood. We slept all day and woke during the night, Sango's parents were beginning to suspect that she wasn't really at Miroku's, so she had to stop coming with us for awhile, but we still stopped and visited with her and Rowan.

It was the last week of summer vacation again, I was sixteen now and had my own car so I drove over to Sango's. She had told me that today, Friday August twentieth 2004, would be good because neither her parents or little brother would be home. I approached her house and like she said no one appeared to be home, but even so it was abnormally quiet.

I knocked on the door, she didn't answer, I ran around back to see if she was there, she wasn't, so I knocked again on the back door, again she didn't answer. Back around to the front I knocked one last time on the door again, she didn't answer, so I twisted the handle, thankfully it was unlocked. The house was quiet and dark very dark I couldn't see a thing all the blinds had been drawn and it wasn't a bright day to begin with. There were storms in the area making this even more eerie. Slowly I made my way through the house finding no one, I screamed as loud as I could for Sango. I screamed louder and louder until I heard a baby begin to cry. It was coming from Sango's bedroom. The door was locked, and I knocked. No one was coming to the door. I heard the sound of someone attempting to get up only to fall back down, and feared it was Sango.

I ran over to my grandfathers as quickly as I could getting a screw driver to take the handle off the door. I had tried kicking the door down, breaking the door with a lamp, but only the lamp had broken. So I kneeled on the floor trying as fast as I could to get the door handle off, finally it fell off and the door swung open. I couldn't see very well it was dark and the baby was crying, I saw something dark pooling around a Sango's form. The smell washed over me and I let out and ear splitting scream, it was blood.

I ran into the back of the house and called the police screaming and crying telling them to get an ambulance over here as fast as possible. My second instinct told me to run to get my grandfather, but I couldn't bring myself to move much farther then back to Sango's bedroom.

I flipped on the lights and saw laying across the room a bloody knife. Sango was laying in a pool of blood that was slowly getting larger and larger. I grabbed Sango and saw that both of her wrists had been cut, although Rowan was now screaming more than crying I knew I couldn't go to her. I had to do everything I could for Sango until I knew it was too late. I held tightly onto her wrists putting as much pressure as I could on them although I knew she would not make it. She had already lost too much blood. She opened her eyes slowly they were glazed over and had little life in them, and she was getting paler by the second. I didn't want to believe that Sango had done this, she knew I was coming over today, and it wouldn't have been like her to do this especially now that she had a child. She would never just leave her child alone and totally defenseless. Even worse just the last time I had talked to her she seemed to be happier then ever, I was beginning to think she had been murdered. But she opened her mouth to say something and all these thoughts were driven from my head, "Kagome, I…I…I'm s…s…sorry. I c…couldn't d…do it. For…forgive me." I nodded tears streaming down my face, she tried to reach a hand up as if to wipe my tears away, but I was holding her wrists too tightly, so she continued "Don't…cr…cry…Ka…Kagome, I'll f…f…find you this t…time. I…lo…love you. Tell…Miroku…I love h…h…him too. " she turned her head a little to look at her daughter and continued on, "I wrote….a…a…no…note to Rowan…g…give it to h…her when s…she is older. Its on…the…a…alter. Take…care…of…her Kagome. Don't…l…let…them…h…have…her." she finished.

"Don't worry. I won't let them. I'll take good care of her. I promise." I managed to choke out through my tears.

She looked up at me a tear running down her check, "I…I…it was…ne…never…supposed t…to…be this w…way."

I sat there holding her in my arms as her blood seeped through my fingers, by the time the ambulance had arrived she had been dead for fifteen minutes already. I never believed it was suicide, I had believed she had been killed by Naraku, but the police said other wise. That day after they had managed to get me to let go of Sango's limp form I took a screaming Rowan to Miroku telling him all that had happened. The note Sango had written stuffed into my pocket a splattered with blood, but thankfully still readable.

The actually funeral was small, since Sango hadn't had many friends and very little family. So I decided to gather her friends and mine to have a Wiccan funeral, and that is where we left off with me walking away from Sango's funeral. Now I pulled out the note from Sango to Rowan and began to read.

My lovely daughter,

Rowan, I'm sorry I had to leave you early in life. I'm sure if you are reading this your father has already spoken to you about my death. I hope that one day you will find it in your heart to forgive me for what I have done. I know it must be hard growing up without your mother, but I do love you my precious little girl. I was so happy when I found out I was pregnant with you, as frightened as I was because of my father. I was truly happy that I was going to have a baby. I knew I was going to have a little girl, I don't know how, but I did. My suicide had nothing to do with you my Rowan, and everything to do with the rest of my family and the people at my school.

I love you with all my heart and beg that you do not fall into the same trap of depression I did. If you do, tell someone, don't be foolish like I was and take your life. I died and I want my girl to be as happy as she can be. I do want you to find out more of what made me come to the conclusion of suicide. I'm sure by now, your godmother, Kagome has realized why I have done this. Ask her and your father, and they will tell you my story. I would put it in this note, so you can see it from my point of view, but I am running out of time and I'm sure that Kagome especially having grown up with me will be able to tell it well to you.

Taped to the inside of this envelope is a necklace, Kagome had given to me a long time ago, and I would like you to have it. I want you to consider that necklace and this note a little piece of me.

Please forgive my beautiful Rowan, hopefully soon you will understand. I love you so much. I will be watching over you.

With all the love in my heart,

Mom

I have yet to realize why she did this, but then again I have spent so long trying to push it to the back of my mind. I too know that someday it will come to me. Until then I shall be waiting for Sango to emerge again to life and find me.

A/N: Well the final chapter. I hope you liked it. Sorry this story was so short but it was hard to write and thought the sooner I finished this story the sooner I could move on to more cheerful things. Thank you all for the wonderful reviews.