I need a mother

Author: Leta McGotor

Disclaimer: I owe nothing but Cassy. The other belongs to JKR and the song to Within Temptation. The title is: 'It's the Fear'

Chapter 7

Voldemort nodded to some of the Death Eaters who grabbed Severus and pulled him out of the room back into the corridor. When he looked up he saw that it wasn't deserted like half an hour ago. There was an uncountable number of Death Eaters standing and waiting for an order of their master. But Severus didn't have the time to look in all of the sneering faces because only seconds later he was dragged into another room with a spiral staircase which led downwards. The Death Eaters behind Severus pushed him hard in the back and he nearly fell over the banisters. They showed him to go downstairs and so he made his way down until he was swallowed by the darkness around him.

'Let me go! LEAVE ME ALONE! YOU STUPID COW!'

'Stop scratching me, you are like a mangy cat. OUHHH!' Cassy tried to defend herself with all methods coming to her mind. Scratching was only one of the harmless things. Since she had the chance to move her arms, legs and her mouth again she kicked, beat, scratched, bit, screamed and did all what she was able to do to make the life of Bellatrix Lestrange as uneasy as possible.

'You silly Girl. Once the Dak Lord has finished with your beloved daddy and with that slut he will look for you. Then we will see who of us is the laughing one.'

'I, of course.' And with these words she buried her teeth deeply in the arm of her attacker. Sure that the girl had calmed down Bellatrix Lestrange wasn't prepared and let go of Cassy, who used her chance. With a last kick against the shin of the Death Eater she turned around and started running. She didn't know in which direction was the exit but one she knew for sure she had to run. She had often played Hide and Seek with her aunt or her father. Thus she was untraceable she had to be really quiet and over the years she had learned how. Therefore it was easy for her to hide.

Cassy ran down several staircases. She knew she was in the upper part of the house and that she had to go down to escape. Arriving at the ground floor she heard voices coming nearer and nearer. She ran around the next corner and found herself in a dead end. Panic rose in her. What should she do now?

In the meantime Severus had reached the end of the staircase only to see absolutly nothing but darkness. Where was he? Someone pushed him from behind, he had to go on. He heard that some of the Death Eaters behind him whispered some things to each other but he couldn't understand what it was.

'Go on', said an unknown voice in his ear. 'What are you waiting for, Christmas?' The others laughed.

'No, I can't see where I have to go. It's too dark.' Behind him several wand-tips started glowing so that he could see the outlines of a narrow but long corridor with stone walls. Here and there were little puddles from the water running down the walls.

'Go on', roard a voice and with one more push in the back Severus started going, further and further down in the darkness and uncertainty about what lay in front of him, where his daughter Cassy was and what the Dark Lord would do with Minerva. He shuddered at the thought of them.

Cassy stared at the wall as if she tried to move it with her eyes. The voices came nearer and nearer and she didn't know what to do. She looked around but there were no doors through wich she could escape and no ways but the way back. Therefore she did the only possible, turned around and started running in the direction of the voices. Turning around the corner she found two Death Eaters standing in front of her gazing at the little girl as if they had never seen a girl before. Cassy didn't wait until the two recovered from their shock she ran and ran looking for a way to escape.

And then in front of her she saw that there was another dead end. She stopped, looked around and to her relief there was a door. Fast she opened it a bit only that she could go through and closed it behind her carefully not to be too loud.

She stood at the door and listened but there was no sound in the corridor. Cassy sighed and turned around to look where she was and found herself in a hall which was used as a boxroom. Of course she didn't know that Severus and Minerva were in this room before and that the Death Eaters thought that nobody could open the door because of all the things lying in front of it.

Cassy tried to make her way through the things. There was broken furniture as well as books which were nearly disintegrated to dust. She looked around maybe she would find something which could help her to escape and fetch some help wherever she would find it. After climbing up and down some broken ladders or huge chairs with the spring visible she arrived the back of the room and the window through which Severus and Minerva had entered the house.

At another place. Voldemort seemed really bored sitting in his chair and watching his Death Eaters tie up Minerva McGonagall in the other chair. He wasn't bored because he wasn't interested in it but he was a little bit disappointed that she didn't even tried to defend herself or to escape. She only stood or sat there and let the Death Eaters do what they did. Did she really accept her situation? In Voldemort's eyes it was too easy but looking at her he didn't need legilimens to see that she hadn't planned something. He smirked. He would beat two flies with one fly-swat. First he would get the several centuries old power of that family and second Dumbledore would lose his beloved friend and with her an important member of that order. But he still wondered about her and why she didn't do anything.

Minerva's thoughts went in another direction than Voldemort guessed. Since she had been a little child she had done all to learn about the history of her family and now she knew all about it and all about the power and it's use. She also knew that Voldemort would think it was easy but she had to stop herself from smiling intensely. It would be all but easy. He wanted the power then he had to work for it.

She had always tried to turn it down when she felt it. There were times in her past when it wanted to come out of her, times when it had tried to force it's way out of her. But she had stayed calm, always. It was easy to suppress it when you know how and with her study about it she learned what to do, learned to read the signs. But now she and the rest of the world had arrived a time when you didn't want, when you simply can't suppress it because it forces it's way out, no matter whatsoever.

Minerva took a deep breath. She knew what to do and she knew now was the time to do it. She closed her eyes concentrating. In her head she saw Voldemort's face and thought about all what he had done, all the murder, all the tortures, all the broken families, friends.

It waits for the day I will let it out.
To give it a reason, to give it's might.

She could feel it, feel the unknown power in her rise eating her own soul and body from the inside. Part of her body tried to defend itself but Minerva didn't let it happen. She knew she would never have the life she had before after this was over. But better her than Cassy. The girl had her whole life lying in front of her, she was too young. Minerva knew in a few moments she would use a power not better than the personified darkness itself. There was one point she wasn't allowed to forget: She had to control it.

I fear who I am becoming,
I feel that I am losing the struggle within.
I can no longer restrain it,
My strength it is fading,
I have to give in.

She felt her strength fading, felt that she had no longer control about her own body about her own mind. But she still concentrated not to lose it over the thing still rising horribly fast in her. Then there was the point, the point of no return. Until now she was able to suppress it but going over this invisible line would force her to go on and not back. But she had no choice.

It's the fear
Fear of the dark
It's growing inside of me,
That one day will come to life.
Have to save
To save my beloved,
There is no escape,
Because my faith is horror and doom.

She heard the cold laugh of Voldemort or was it only one of his Death Eaters? She didn't know and she couldn't distinguish wheather it was him or all of his supporters. It didn't matter. She noticed a sharp pain in her knees or her legs? It didn't matter to her but to the darkness inside of her. With great steps it rose in her and with it the pain blocking her thoughts, blocking her whole body eating her from within. I have to control it. One of her last thoughts.

Hold down your head now,
Just let me pass by.
Don't feed my fear,
If you don't want it out.
I fear who I am becoming,
I feel that I am losing all beauty within.
I can no longer restrain it,
My strength it is fading,
I have to give in.

Minerva lost all her feelings, all strength and all her thoughts. But she saw clearly a little girl fighting against a nearly unbeatable power, saw the eagle helping and the wizard supporting her.

Long ago it came to me
And ever since that day,
Infected with its rage
But it ends today.

It's the fear
Fear of the dark
It's growing inside of me,
That one day will come to life.
Have to save
To save my beloved,
There is no escape,
Because my faith is horror and doom.

The Death Eaters looked frightened at their master and then back to the lifeless body of Minerva McGongall. Nobody knew what happened that she began to shake uncontrollable, began to speak words they didn't understand before she broke down, motionless.

'She doesn't breathe. I can't take the puls.', said a Death Eater in a panic-stricken voice, unsure what they had done wrong and how the Dark Lord would punish them. Voldemort opened his mouth and all Death Eaters retreated, scared. But before he could say only a single word Bellatrix Lestrange opened the door, bowed hastily before she started speaking breathlessly.

'My Lord, the girl… she escaped. We have looked… everywhere for her but she wasn't nowhere… We can't find her.'

'Fools', screamed Voldemort before aiming with his wand at Bellatrix and did the Cruciatus Curse on her. Bellatrix started screaming out of pain. 'Her pain should be a warning. But when I see your faces I know that you are not able to do anything right. Without her (he pointed at Minerva) I have to wait until the girl has the right age. It lasts too long, idiots.'

He turned around facing Bellatrix and gave her his orders to find Cassy before she could inform sombody, before she could inform Dumbledore. Nobody saw that Minerva McGonagll had opened her eyes again and nobody saw the black energy ball forming in her hands and the horrid expression on her face. Slowly she straightened up and turned around sending the energy ball to the four Death Eaters standing behind her.

Like a gigantic wave it lifted the Death Eaters from their feet and let them crash against the next wall.

'Crucio' Voldemort bellowed. The curse hit her straight in the chest but it didn't show any effect. Slowly Minerva turned her head and looked at him. There was nothing left but the horrid smile on her face and a cold blackness in her once green eyes. She did nothing but stared at him. Then without any movement of her the furniture in the room began to move, to spin. Bellatrix Lestrange retreated which was a great mistake. The invisible power lifted her from her feet and she began to spin as well as the furniture. The smile on Minerva McGonagall's face broadened.

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