An: alright thanks again to Ethan and Lolita you guys are my driving force for this fic right now until I get new reviewers, I will cherish you like the amazingly awesome people you are! Hugz those reviews were very kind and sweet. Anyway sorry this chapter took a long while too. School…yet again…. AHHH it's eating my life away! Ethan I completely get where your coming…I had to read 4…yes that's 4 books for school. Also thanks to an anon. reviewer Cloud…your review has actually really brought me back to updating this bad boy of a fic. And thanks to JTurner, my good ole buddy  read SquareSoft City by him…it's AMAZING! Uh oh shameless plugging…. This chapter is song fic based so enjoy…. The song… Easier to Run by Linkin Park.

Disclaimer: as much as I wish I did, I don't own squat, Square enix and Disney own just about everything…. But I do own my oc's so HANDS OFF!

It's easier to run

Replacing this pain with something numb

It's so much easier to go

Than face all this pain here all alone

He couldn't remember a thing about his life before this rigorous training. It was all like a giant darkness that ate at his mind. Flashes of a girl, only her mismatched eyes present and visible. Whenever he tried to remember anything more, a searing pain would grasp his mind until he relinquished the very thought of searching for who she was. Concentrate on training, he would tell himself, if not to just take up time.

"How's my boy doing Yazoo?" Ansem asked as he entered the training room. The heavy iron doors slamming shut behind him. The tall white haired man turned his cat like gaze onto his master. Bowing low he stood up.

"He's getting stronger and stronger after each session. He'll be fit enough to destroy the keyblade master soon enough sire." Yazoo said a smile visible on his pale face.

"Excellent! Once he's done this training let him roam a bit and relax. He'll have plenty of time before we need to implement my plan." Ansem said. With one last pleased look towards Riku, he headed off to deal with other affairs of his plan.

Enchanted arrows and Heartless seemed to be endlessly attacking him. He dodged and killed whatever got in his way. He was like a machine, no fear, no loss, no self doubt. He had nothing to live for but this training, and to make Ansem happy. So what if he died? He couldn't remember a soul that would miss him. All except…except her.

"That's enough for today I think. Head back to your quarters and clean. Then you have the rest of the day free. Ansem is very proud of you Riku. Now off with you, I have my own training to do." With that Yazoo shooed the younger man away and entered the training room.

"Now what do you want her to do master? She's under our full control. Pretty little thing isn't she?" Axel asked as Ansem entered the room. He gave Sakura a once over and smirked.

"Indeed she is quite the number. Looks a lot like her older sister... well she did before we blew poor High Summoner Yuna up. The charms on that clip are too strong for even a summoner to break through. Why don't we use her as a serving girl during the day and at night she's yours. Like the idea Axel?" Ansem said as he pet Sakura's head.

"Quite Master, I quite like the idea. You heard him love, go to the kitchens and make yourself useful!" with a rough slap to the cheek she was off at a slow paced jog towards the kitchens. Axel had changed her clothes with quite the delight earlier. A tight fitting Chinese high collared silk dress, hardly covering her thighs was to be her only clothing there.

"My plan is falling in place Axel. Bit by bit they will crumble these small and pathetic worlds. They will crumble and see me as their ruler. My heartless will not fail me, nor will my Elite Assassins. I've made sure Yazoo has trained them all personally. The four of them will get the job done, that is if Riku fails me again."

"You cannot fail this time master. He is fueled as Tidus was, fueled by the darkness. He can't remember a life before it, therefore it's like he has nothing to lose, and everything to gain. He can't run anymore master. You've won." Axel said confidently.

It was gone, all of it. The trees, the oceans, the people. Everything was now just rubble floating about in space. No more blitzball with Wakka, no more jump rope with Selphie, no more summers at the beach, no more secret place. It was all gone. Now all that was left of Destiny Islands was their memories of it.

"I'll kill him! I swear it!" Sora screamed again as he slammed his fist into the hull of the ship. Ansem had to pay. Someone had to pay.

"You'll get him Sora, we'll all get him. That lowly son of a bitch!" Goofy shouted out. All stopped and looked at him. His usual dumbfoundedness was gone, replaced with a cloud of anger and sadness.

"Ya we will get him. For Yuna and Rikku and Sakura, we have to." Paine said solemnly. Her face was so stoic, that Kairi couldn't even read her eyes. She just knew that Paine was being eaten away inside with guilt for the loss of her friends. They were all feeling it.

"Why don't we rest here for the night, we could all use some rest." Kairi suggested. A nod of agreement from all parties sent them all to their respective beds. It had been a long day, a very long day.

Who was that girl? Why did she seem to mean the world to him, and at the same time mean nothing? He was lost in a cloud of confusion. Every time he saw her face in his dreams he felt an emotion so strong that it made his head hurt to simply contemplate what she could possibly mean to him.

He walked towards his room as he pondered these thoughts. Perhaps a good night's sleep would cleanse him of her face? Or perhaps, like every other night, it would simply increase his confusion about who she was. He let out an exasperated sigh and opened his door. What had his life been like before Ansem? Who did he know? Was he with his dream girl then? Or had she always been simply a figment of his imagination?

"All this thinking has made my head hurt. I need to sleep." Riku thought harshly as he slammed his door shut. Sleep would make it al better, sleep…

Once Sakura had finished her serving rounds Axel decided to make his move. He grabbed her roughly by the throat and launched her onto the bed. Still sporting the pentagram clip, Sakura made no motions of protest. He tossed off her silk dress and began to grope her harshly. Still no emotions showed through the mind control. Axel grew frustrated. What fun was rape if the little bitch didn't even scream?

"I'll set you free now, kitten. But once I'm through fucking your brains out, you go back on your leash. And if you get too feisty with me and try to escape…I'll kill everything you've ever loved. Your sister for example. And maybe even lover boy. Understood?" Axel asked. He fondled the clip and took it out slowly. Sakura felt herself ease back into control of her body.

"BASTARD!" she screamed using her legs to try and kick Axel hard in the stomach. He caught her legs with one hand and held a knife to her throat with the other.

"Come now kitten, did you really think I'd be that dumb? You're a warrior I knew you'd put up a bit of fight. If you scream for me I'll save you and not kill you right away. And maybe I'll even spare your sister on that damned Destiny Islands. But only if you scream…" He said as he removed his clothing keeping his knife pressing lightly against her throat. Sakura felt so trapped she felt the sting of fresh tears burn her eyes.

"Fuck you Axel. When I get the hell out of here I'll fucking kill you." She said harshly. Axel smirked and began to grope her body. She tried not to think about what he was doing to her and what he was about to do, but it seemed hopeless.

"Scream Kitten, you're mine now." Axel whispered harshly into Sakura's ear as he pushed his erection deep into her. She felt the screams of pain threatening to escape her lips. She refused to let him have that satisfaction. She bit down hard onto her tongue and tasted the sharp iron tang of blood. She squinted her eyes tightly shut as he pushed himself in and pulled himself out picking up a fast yet steady rhythm.

"Now Sakura, if you want to be a great summoner you have to be able to act the part and you can't ever lose your virginity." Yuna said as she and Lulu began Sakura's summoner training.

"What's Virginia's tea Yuna?" a small 9 year old Sakura asked quizzically. Her older sister couldn't help but smile as Lulu stifled a giggle at the small child's naiveté.

"Uhh Lulu maybe you should take this one." Yuna laughed out. The older woman nodded and bent down to face the small child eye to eye and explain.

It seemed to go on for hours to Sakura. The rhythm picked up speed and then slowed. She began to feel light headed soon and she could hear the blood pounding in her ears. She was praying to every faith she knew that it would be over soon. He was growing more aggressive thrusting harder now she could feel things in her tearing and shredding with the shear force he was using.

Yet still she bit her tongue and the tang of blood refused to slow. Satisfaction would not be his. She swore at him with every inhaled breath and continued to pray. Finally he was reaching his climax and his final thrust was so excruciatingly painful Sakura couldn't help but let out a deep painful exhausted scream and he was done.

He rolled off her, panting heavily and covered in a thick glistening layer of sweat. His eyes only half open his breathing still horribly fast. Sakura looked at him with the utmost disgust and hatred. She had not wanted her first time to be like that. She had not wanted anything like this to EVER happen! She tried not to think about what had just transcended but she could not help feeling dirty and sick.

It was all quiet now, Axel's breathing had slowed and regulated. Sakura, grudgingly, looked over to see if he were still awake. He had not placed her control clip back on and he had indeed fallen asleep. She snuck cautiously out of the bed and slipped on her silk dress. She walked slowly and quietly out of the room trying desperately to avoid a fight at all costs. After what had just occurred she felt she had not the strength to summon even the tiniest of flames.

A large metal door caught her attention immediately. She sensed within it a familiar presence. She decided to go in for a closer look. Was it Riku? She could not tell but she knew that this was someone familiar. There was a small bottom slot on the door. She opened it and peered into the darkness it offered.

"Riku?" she whispered softly. A pair of blue irises met her mismatched ones. She jumped back and let out a surprised scream. "TIDUS!" she clapped her hands over her mouth and looked up and down the halls to see if anyone had heard her. Seeing none she turned back to the slot.

Her sister's long lost lover was still alive! Yuna would be so happy to know this! Sakura tried desperately to open the overly large metal door, but she could not find the strength to do so in her weakened state. She moved back down to the grate to see what Tidus knew.

"Tidus? How long have you been trapped here for? Do you know a way out? They didn't hurt you did they?" she had a thousand more questions to ask him.

His clear blue eyes simply stared back into her own eyes blankly. Her eyes…they looked so much like Yuna's…

"You look just like her. My Yuna… but….she's dead now. I killed her and Rikku with these hands… with these… their all dead now, everyone. With these hands… with these…you look so much like her little one. So much." And he went on and on like that, but Sakura had tuned him out. She felt her breath catch.

DEAD! How could they possibly be dead? It had to be a lie. Yet in her heart she had known it would happen. She knew when she was captured Ansem had some kind of plan. Tidus was insane, blabbing on about killing Yuna and Rikku himself… but how could that be true? He loved her sister and Rikku with all of his heart!

"I…I don't believe you! They're alive! I know they are!" Sakura said harshly. She jumped up from her safe vigil by the door and ran down the hall.

"Run little one. I couldn't save then, but I'll be dammed if I let anything happen to you." Tidus whispered softly as he watched the young summoner run off. His eyes looked a bit less blank then before.

Something has been taken from deep inside of me
The secret I've kept locked away no one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show they never go away
Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played

Riku could not sleep. The same face had been haunting his dreams yet again. He decided to head towards the kitchens and fetch a late night snack to cool his nerves. As he neared them he heard a soft sob. He decided to follow the sob. He cautiously took out his sword and turned the corner. There she sat, tears covering her face, her green and blue eyes swollen from crying. His dream girl wasn't so much a dream after all.

"It's not true! It can't be true!" the sobs grew louder; she was growing careless sobbing so loudly! As he moved closer he saw a knife drenched in blood, her blood. Her right wrist covered in oozing blood. She was in shock from blood loss, her face now white as porcelain. He tried to get in closer and knocked a soup can over. Sakura turned her head to him and grew even paler, "Ri…ku?" and as she spoke his name he felt his heart skip a beat.

"I know you're face…" he began softly. He moved himself down to the floor next to her and examined her wrist. She could tell something was wrong with him. The blood flow was heavy, but thankfully, slow. He ripped off his shirt and made a make shift bandage for it. "That should stop the blood flow. I've seen you before, in my dreams." He said off handedly. His hands seemed to linger in hers. Why couldn't he let go?

"Riku… why can't you remember me? What did they do to you here?" she begged pushing herself to him. Her face rested between his neck and shoulder. Her body molded perfectly to his. His hand stroked her hair absently and he pushed her up slightly to take a better look at her. She was his dream girl. Down to the different colored eyes. A small spider choker had caught his attention however. His hand moved from her hair to the choker and a bright white light erupted from it causing both parties to close their eyes tightly.

The light slowly cleared away and Riku opened his eyes. Sakura had shifted back towards the ground. He moved his arms around her to pick her up and she shied away from him shuddering at his touch. She looked up him with her mismatched eyes and the flood of memories rushed back to him in an instant. He looked at her and smiled lightly. He remembered everything now.

"Sakura…" he said softly. Her eyes widened and a small smile appeared on her face. He remembered now…he remembered! A commotion at the kitchen entrance cut their moment into a fear fest.

"Where did that little skank get to? Here kitten; time to put your leash back on!" Axel shouted harshly as he stood stark naked holding nothing but his sword and the clip. Sakura's face upon hearing his voice flushed even whiter. Riku could tell that he needed to get her out of here. He growled harshly and began reaching for his sword. Sakura put her shaking hand onto the hilt to stop him.

"No. let's just get out of here and find Sora and the other's. They must be worried." She said softly. Her voice alerting him to her fear. He nodded and began to lead her towards a back exit. As the passed by Tidus' cell they both failed to notice it open and empty.

"Here's the dock. Let's get a fast ship and get the hell out of here." Riku said. Sakura nodded and they ran towards the nearest ship. As Riku reached for the door open button a blade whizzed by his head, just missing his ear and embedding itself instead, into the ship.

"Not so fast Kitten. We aren't done playing yet!" Axel growled viciously at Sakura. She dropped to her knees in fear of the man who had defiled her. Riku stood poised for battle as Sakura looked on from her position on the ground. Before Riku had a chance to even begin his strike a loud battle cry erupted from the Gummi ship Riku and Sakura had been about to steal.

"Take care of her! She holds the fate of all worlds! She is the last and you need to guard her as I guarded her sister!" Tidus shouted as he lifted 'Brotherhood' into a deathblow position. Axel dashed towards Tidus slicing at the air around him.

"TIDUS!" Sakura shouted as Riku dashed to her and lifted her into his arms. She kicked him and clawed him trying to aide her sister's beloved.

"What are you waiting for Riku? Save the girl and get the hell out of here!" and with that said, Tidus whizzed past the two and headed towards Axel at full speed. Riku had managed to get a kicking and screaming Sakura into the ship and began the launch sequence. As they headed out of the dock, they watched in horror as Axel beheaded Tidus with one quick blow.

"NOOOOO!"(See Star Wars Episode III for the sound bite lol)Sakura screamed before she completely broke down.

(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(If I could take all the shame to the grave I would)
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)

"Ahh so I see you're awake. Sleep well?" the chocolate haired girl Kagome asked. Squall opened his eyes and nodded he felt much better. His body was fully healed…minus his arm that was.

"I need a few things to fix my ship. Can you find them for me Kagome?" he asked kindly. She nodded and he wrote her out the list of part. She read it over and smiled.

"Give me one day to find these things from my own time and I'll bring them back here from the well. There's some structural damage that you can fix while I'm gone. Inuyasha will help you out there." She said with a smile as she headed off towards the magical well.

"Inuyasha huh? Kaede." He asked the old priestess sitting next to him. She smiled. "Who's Inuyasha?" Squall asked Kaede smirked.

"He won't like helping you but he will do it. He's a half demon that resides here and helps Kagome search for the sacred jewel shards. That'd be him over there." She said pointing to a lone figure sitting up in a tree. A red outfit stood out against the brown out crop and white hair wisped in the wind.

"OY! Inuyasha! Think you can help me out a bit?" Squall yelled up to the half demon. Inuyasha simply feh'd and looked in the opposite direction. "Whatever man, I didn't think you looked strong enough to help me out." Squall said with a smirk. He loved to pester people, like Yuffie. No he couldn't think about her, she was gone now…

"ME! Not strong enough to help YOU? I'll show you!" he said angrily and began to bang out all the dents in the Gummi ship. Squall smiled. This was going to be a piece of cake after all. He only prayed he wouldn't be too late to help Sora and the others out.

Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don't feel misplaced
It's so much simpler than change

Ok sorry it took so long guys! I've been quite the little late update bugger! Lost my train of thought and I had SOOO much trouble with the rape scene, I must have rewritten it 6 times and I still don't like it too much. But read and review and I hope this update was worth the wait!)