Chapter 7

Angel stirred in her sleep as Severus was softly calling her name "just a few more"

"Angel you need to get up, breakfast"

"What" she yelped jerking up banging her head against his chin "Auw" she yelped again

"Breakfast" he said rubbing his chin

"Oh" she squealed "and I am not dressed yet" dashing out off his room she made her way through the corridors and flung the portrait open. Several people looked up when they saw her storm through the common room and she blushed and said "sorry bout that" when she knocked some papers out off Hermione's hands. Running into her room she pulled open the closet and fiddled with some clothes pulling out a black top and skirt and a black pair off school robes. As she looked in the mirror she saw she looked like Snape and smiled to herself pulling on her knee high boots and fastening them. Combing her long black hair she let it fall over her shoulders and put a rubber band around her arm for potions later. As she took one last took she notissed she had a red streak in her eyes. They were still blue but now had red as well. Freaking out a little she closed her eyes and ran out off the room determined not too look in the mirror again. What was she going to say when somebody asked about it? Could she explain she was beginning to look like her father? She ran down to the Great hall stole a piece off toast out off Ron's hands and sat down sighing.

"Man I overslept"

"thanks" Ron muttered as he buttered another piece off toast

"Your welcome Mate" she giggled as she chewed on the piece she had stolen from him.

"Oh Hermione, sorry bout your papers"

"That's okay, were did you come from anyway"

"uhm" Angel muttered her face flushed

"She came from my office were she fell asleep last night" Dumbledore smiled from behind them. "Surely you must have seen Harry all upset about Voldemort"

"Yes" Hermione nodded she had seen him grab his head.

"As you know Angel is linked in the same way and she came to see me."

Angel gave him a thankful smile knowing that Severus must have talked to the Headmaster off Hogwarts. As the bell rang she got up and walked down to the Dungeons, seeing Cryssy and Harry talk she waved but said nothing. She had blabbered enough last night.

Sighing she walked into potions and smiled at Cryssy before taking her place, Neville was to be her partner today because they were making an extremely difficult potion. And seeing she was the best off her class Snape had found it better to place Neville with her. She smiled at him when he walked up and sat down "good morning"

"What happened to your eyes" Neville asked her without thinking and she could have slapped him.

Now every one was staring at her and she hoped no one would link one plus one "I" she sighed she had no answer other then she was the daughter off Voldemort and she was beginning to get his eyes. She stared at her desk lost for words; she did not know what to do anymore. Her mind had gone blank and she felt hopeless. Was there no one left in this world who could help her.

Cryssy laughed "She tried a potion on her self last night and look what happened, I am sure it will clear up soon though I gave her the antidote."

Angel looked up to see who was helping her out and saw it was Cryssy. As her eyes watered up she smiled and beamed a big Thank you at her.

"Yeah I don't know" Angel said smiling "I uhm must have added something wrongly. And yes I owe you Big time again" she tried to giggle. She did not want to get Cryssy involved but was thankful she helped out.

"Be silent" Snape rumbled as he walked in and he seemed in a bad mood today. He quirked an eyebrow when he looked her straight in the eyes and notissed they were turning into the eyes off the Dark lord. She needed help and quick, he was taking over because she was giving up. But he knew he could not do much now and looked at his desk pondering about what to do.

"Uhm Professor" Hermione's voice sounded through the silent room

"Yes Miss Granger"

"What is today's lesson"

"Sleeping potion on the board" he sneered. He could not loose Angel not now he finally had her.

Angel had focussed herself on the potion, she did not know what else to do and this was the only thing the kept her mind away from the obvious. She looked up to see Snape with his hands in his hair and a tear rolled down her face. She was hurting him she knew it.

His mind raged, how could she give up. How dared she, she was supposed to be strong. He sighed he knew exactly how the dark lord worked and knew that if he truly wanted her he would win. It hit him; she was supposed to know that Cryssy was her sister because it would make her weak and sick with worry. That was his approach, that was why he send her to Hogwarts. Then that must mean that Dumbledore knew to.

Angel filled her flask when the bell rang and walked out without a word said... Tears were still streaming down her face and her shoulders were slumped. She had decided giving up was easier...

Cryssy watched her sister go and sighed sadly, she had never expected to see Angel so defeated and yet that was how she felt herself. Voldemort had broken in and that meant nothing good, he was probably still in and her fears came to life when Angel crumbled to the floor.

Angel sank to her knees grabbing her arm, not again. Her head flew backwards as she stood up. Her eyes blood shot. She was looking for someone and soon she found her peering into the hall. "Crystella" her voice thundered heavily through out the halls "Why have you not reported to me yet." She advanced on the girl and somehow Cryssy seemed small compared to herself. She slapped her hard "Be glad this is the only punishment I can give you. My daughter seems to have not given up completely yet. Now what do you have to say as an excuse, I am loosing my trust in you Crystella"

"I… nothing… I am trying sir, why do you come here now? You are endangering yourself by coming here. You know I am trying the best I can"

"You are my daughter as is this one here" she said pointing to herself "And yet she is more willing to let me in than you have ever been. I wonder if you are truly doing your best Crystella. I have had several reports off you and Potter together"

Angel tried to struggle, tried to fight him out but she could not. If only some one would knock her out cold it would all be over but she could never betray Cryssy just for wanting it to be over.

"How then can I make you see I am trying as hard as I can" Cryssy said desperately, she needed him to think she truly was as her heart had decided she no longer wanted to be on his side.

"Give me proof Crystella, give me proof that you are doing your best"

She has gotten me hasn't she Angel tried to scream. She has gotten you your daughter back. She did not realize that somehow she had gotten her own voice back and that she was screaming out loud. At the moment she realised she had her voice back she lost it again.

"She has my dear" his voice rumbled through her

"Angel" came a distant call as Dumbledore approached them at high speed. "I am sorry but this needs to be done… Ifenda Contua" he said when he looked at her and waved his wand in her direction with a moment off grave pain and sadness on his face.

Angel's eyes flew closed and she sank into a huddle onto the floor hearing a loud scream fading away "Noooooooooo!"

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"I am sorry Cryssy" Dumbledore said sadly "Angel had only just found out that you were her sister. That is one off the reasons you are here. Because her mind was filled with worry about you and because she is giving up the fight Voldemort has gotten into her. This has never happened before"

"Angel" another voice yelled as a fury off black robes whisked by and sank to its knees "Angel no..." he softly whispered as he pulled her into his arms. "Why" he demanded from Dumbledore as he looked up

"I cannot explain now, Severus" he sighed as Harry, Draco, Ron and Hermione walked up to them.

Draco gasped and run towards Snape and Angel "What happened to her"

"She has so many loving her" Dumbledore smiled "And yet she has no clue off it. Cryssy follow me to my office, I think its time I explained a few things. Severus take Angel with you. The two off you need to be present."

"Yes headmaster" he muttered as he gathered her up in his arms and carried her to the eagle guarding the entrance to Dumbledore's office

"Sit my dear" he smiled at Cryssy when he guided Severus to a couch to lay Angel on.

"Again I am very sorry about this. I should have said something sooner. We need your help Cryssy. To help Angel, if not she will be lost for ever and the both together with one other are the only way to destroy Voldemort. I know Harry must be the one to end it all but she plays an important role. As Cryssy do you, you are the other one. Only your combined forces can do that." He sighed deeply as he sat down.

Cryssy gaped at Dumbledore, she had always known she would play a part in the last battle but never had she thought it would take her powers to end those off her father.

"I have known from the beginning you were sisters and I am sorry I never told you about this but Angel only found out when she connected with you."

Cryssy nodded, "yes she told me" she was shivering at the prospect off ending her father but something inside her stirred and she knew that it was the right thing to do.

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Both Dumbledore and Cryssy looked up when they saw Angel getting upright and look at them through tired eyes "Crys I am sorry" she managed in barely a whispered.

"Yes" Cryssy nodded sadly, she did not know what to say. She did not blame her sister and yet she found it hard not to be mad at her for letting their father in.

Angel shivered, that was not the reply she wanted. She cursed herself for letting Voldemort in. "Professor how..."

"Simple my dear, you gave up. Tell me you will start fighting this"

"I will" she nodded as Snape pulled her into a hug .

"Don't ever do that again" he whispered as she looked at Cryssy.

"Cryssy" she muttered "I know I should have told you sooner, I mean when I found out about us being" her voice trailed off and her eyes fell to the ground. How could she have been so stupid? She should have said something, maybe then this would have never happened.

"Its okay" Cryssy nodded "we both should have told each other who and what we were sooner, then this would have never happened"

Angel sighed and nodded as she stood up, she needed help and now. She looked at Severus and then at Dumbledore "I know Legilimens and Oclumency; I know white arts and Dark arts. What do I need to know more to block him out? I know I stopped fighting but this has let me see the reason I should be fighting and Cryssy I want to be your friend, I don't know why you are here exactly but it is partly because off me." she sighed and looked around the room, Voldemort in her brain was a bad move but it had done her good, she was sick off giving up, it was nothing like she really was.

A soft knock at the door was heard and Dumbledore started smiling "ahhh yes come in Remus, I have long awaited your presence"

"Professor Lupin" Angel said as her eyes widened "Oh, how have you been?"

"very good thank you, and you" he asked smiling at his former student.

"Uhm not that good" she honestly

"Ah" he nodded "but I see you found someone"

She looked from Cryssy to Snape and then smiled "Exactly who do you mean"

"Both" he laughed

Cryssy's eyes had widened as well and she flew into Remus arm's "oh Remus I missed you"

"Cryssy" he smiled "and how are you"

"Wiser" the girl said honestly, Remus Lupin had been the first to tell her she could love. The first to show her there was more in this world. He had saved her when a death eater raid had gone wrong and they had left her behind wounded and powerless to help herself. She was still so young then, he had gathered her in his arms and brought her to his home staying with her until she was strong enough to fend for her own again. He had been there for her when she needed it and that had been the first time wonder had crept into her mind, wonder whether she was on the right side.

Angel's heart had started to settle down and her mind was becoming clearer by the minute. She felt right again; happy even that everything was out on the table. Stepping up to Cryssy she gave her a hug and placed her hand softly on her cheek taking away the pain.

"Next time, slap me back okay" she said smiling

"Okay" Cryssy smiled "if you will never give up again and be strong"

Angel nodded "I will" her heart made a back flip, could she trust Cryssy. Of course you can her rational mind screamed at her, you have trusted her before and you know damn well that there is much more to this girl than meets the eye. She looked at Severus who was sitting on the couch; he had not said anything to the rest yet and seemed to just stare in front off him. Sighing she walked over to him and sat down on her knees, placing her head in his leap.

No words were needed and he almost burst in tears when she curled up against his legs. He never in his life felt so lost and knew this was a very dangerous thing. His mind had started to wonder, she was not safe with him. He could not protect her. What was he going to do?

"Remus, I hope you will stay with us some time and look after Angel and Cryssy"

"Yes I will Albus, how ever I think Severus can watch over Angel better then I can."

"Yes I think you are right" Dumbledore smiled

Angel looked up she was just about to say "Thank you" when Remus filled in her blanks and nodded at her. Smiling thankfully again she looked back at Severus.

He seemed so lost in thought he had not even heard Remus or Dumbledore, wiping a strand off hair out off his face she smiled at him, "Shall we go"

He looked at her, but the words did not get through to him, so he just nodded and followed her when she stood up.

"Good evening Professor's" she smiled as she left the room and walked to her own.

"Will you stay with me?" she asked when they had reached the fat lady and again he nodded saying nothing. Her eyes turned to the ground as she stepped in and stumbled as usual, crying she ran out off the common room. He had not caught her but let her fall.

Snape was staring transfixed to the wall; he had decided it was better for Angel if he acted like he no longer loved her, like she was no longer there. If it hadn't been for him she would have never given up so easily. A single tear rolled across his cheek, he loved her and yet he could not.

Angel crash-landed into her bedroom, she was crying so bad she thought she would die. He no longer loved her, she felt it. Or maybe he did she did not know, al she felt was him rejecting her. Sitting on the floor she rolled up into a ball and stared into the fire. Her eyes had gone black as tear spilled across her cheeks. She wisent giving up, she would never allow Voldemort back in but something else was happing. She was shutting herself off. Away from the pain, away from all emotions, she was becoming empty.

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In his home Voldemort tried to get back in, he needed his daughter. She was the only one strong enough to be his eyes and ears. Cryssy she was disposable but Angel so powerful, she was the only one able to defeat Dumbledore. He found when he tried that he could not get back in, infect he crumbled to the ground in pain wondering what the heck was going on.

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A soft knock was heard on her door, Cryssy who had seen Snape lifeless and defeated in the common room had hurried up to Angel. She knew something was terribly wrong when she heard the sobs from the other end off the door and hoped she could help her sister.

Angel did not respond, she did not want to it wasnt him anyway. She was lost, what was she going to do. Getting up she stumbled over and crashed to her desk. She could not walk, she was to weak cursing loudly to herself she crawled to her bed crying into her pillow when she grabbed it.

"I am so stupid" she screamed "So stupid" she wanted to hurt herself but she just couldn't.

Getting no answer and hearing Angel rage, Cryssy muttered the wards to the door and walked in throwing the door closed behind her. "Angel" she whispered as she sat next to her sister and caressed her hair.

Angel sobbed as Cryssy sat next to her "I can't protect you, I can't even protect me" she threw her pillow through the room and banged her head against her bed. "I wanna die, even Severus hates me" she wailed as she looked at Cryssy.

"I am sorry, how could I have done this. I am so stupid. Why on earth did I give up, I never do. God I am so stupid"

"Maybe you are stupid" Cryssy said smiling "why did you give up in the first place?"

Angel was looking at her dumbfounded, Cryssy was right of course she was and yet she felt like she was making Angel feel worse. Blinking she stood up muttered something to Cryssy and walked out

"I gave up because I can't help you..."

Cryssy sighed "Angel I did not mean it like that" but she was pretty sure she had not heard because the door closed before she could explain.

Letting the door fall closed behind her she sighed, Snape hated her, Cryssy hated her, what else could go wrong today. Walking down to the common room she saw Snape and started screaming at him. "Get the hell out off this common room" she did not care if she was going to be punished he hurt her and there was no forgiving that at the moment.

He looked at her, he had never seen her angry, not like this. She was raging at him, screaming that he should get out. But he did not want to, he was so lost he wanted her and yet he knew she would always be in danger when they were together. Snapping he looked at her, frowning dangerously. "You Miss Dean, should watch your words if you want to stay in this school any longer."

Angel was taken aback, was he really going to pull the cold bastard routine on her.

"Excuse me Professor Snape"

"What" he sneered "lost for words"

"Excuse me" she said again before turning purple with anger, "Get and get out now before I will seriously damage you, Professor" she stretched the word angrily and he knew at once he should leave.

He had hurt her and she was absolutely right to do this but he needed her to hate him, so it was easy for her to forget him.

"Fine" he sneered "that will be detention for the upcoming month"

"Big fricking Whoop" she yelled as pointed to the portrait off the fat lady "Out! This is not you common room" She let herself fall into the nearest couch and resolved in tears again as he stalked out off the room, his robe billowing behind him. She did not make a sound and yet she could not stop crying, she needed some one who would just hold her nothing more. Remembering a song she turned around and sobbed into the back off the chair.

"I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me"

((Simple Plan: Untitled))

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Harry had found Cryssy and when he saw the pain in her eyes he knew that something was wrong "Cryssy"

"Don't worry about me" she smiled "Go help Angel, she needs you more than I do. She had a fight with Severus, he is trying to protect her by pushing her away but that's not helping. And Angel does not understand yet what he is doing, she needs some one other then me to comfort her."

"Okay" Harry nodded "I'll see what I can do"

Cryssy smiled as she saw him walk down, he truly was a great guy.

Harry walked down hoping Angel would not blow, he could handle her crying and stuff but not if she got angry at him. She was always so pointless when she was angry, she made sense to others but not to herself.

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Angel looked up when she heard the soft shuffling off some ones feet "Harry" she stuttered "what are you doing here?" She was not mad at him, so there was no anger in her voice even though it still quivered with hurt and pain. Flinching she looked at her arm, not again... but it past and she looked back up seeing Harry looking at her "Oh god Harry, I gave up, I let him in"

"That's okay Angel, we all give up sometimes, you need to talk about it that helps"

"I... I... I am having a lot off troubles lately... and Harry... I mean don't run away but I just found out Voldemort is my dad... that is why I gave up... And then he took me over and I almost killed Cryssy and now Snape is avoiding me and pushing me away so I can't get close... I just don't get it" she sobbed

"Your father" Harry yelped when his eyes grew wider "but how can he be I mean your mother and father, you knew them."

"I know Harry I only found out the beginning off this term. My dad is my dad but my mother cheated on him causing Voldemorts blood to mingle with mine"

"Oh Angel" he said pulling her into a hug "I am sorry, but it will be alright its not your fault"

"I know it is not my mistake he is my father, and I love Severus, I know that he is doing this to protect me, but I need him to be here for me. I don't want to loose him because he thinks I will be in danger when I am with him… I am so stupid" she said after a pause "how could I have given up because he is my dad" There was one more reason she had given up but she would never betray Cryssy just because she had made a mistake.

"You're not stupid Angel; it's not easy fighting Voldemort off when you share his powers. I mean I know remember I share them too" He pulled Angel a little closer he understood now why Angel had always felt so close to him.

Angel looked at him as he hugged her and cuddled up against him, "I know Harry, and it won't happen again. I won't let it, I know Severus does it because" her voice trailed off as she rubbed her eyes, "I don't know Harry I don't want to loose him, I know it sounds stupid but he is one off the best things in my life. Along with you Cryssy and the rest off the gang"

Harry could not help but smile as he saw Angel drift from sadness to determination to get what she wanted.

She looked determined as she looked into the fire, "I am going to fight him, and I am going to win no matter how. This was the last time he is got to me, it's finished. I am done with crying over Voldemort and his business. Its no use crying. Thanks for being here Harry" she sighed as she leaned against him.

"Always" he muttered as he wrapped his hands around her back and rested his head in hers. "For you always. Promise me you wont let Snape slip through your fingers, he loves you I know it."

Angel smiled she needed to let Severus see, he did not have to reject her to protect her. He needed to see she was strong on her own, and even stronger with him by her side. She had no idea how to do that, but she realized there was no use in being mad at him. He did this because he loved her, her feelings and Harry told her she was right. And no matter how she was going to get him back.

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Severus had stalked into his rooms, tears flowing freely across his cheeks. He hated crying, he never did. He hated Angel... no! his head screamed... no you don't hate her, you love her. He sighed as he fell into his chair. If only some one would tell him he was doing the right thing it would not be so hard, and yet he knew no one would. He knew deep in his heart this was not the right thing to do. And yet now everything was messed up so badly he knew he would never get her back... How wrong he was.

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She had fallen asleep against Harry, she did not want to but she was so tired she had not been able to stop herself. Harry was such a great guy she thought, he was always there for her. Turning around her mind started to rage again, something was wrong. She felt Cryssy was no longer in the castle, shivering Angel looked up. Harry had fallen asleep to and was just as restless as she was...

"Harry wake up" Angel said pulling a stray strand off hair out off his face, he looked tired and beaten and she knew damn well that he had a right to know what was going on. But she did not have the heart to tell him, nor would she ever betray her sister.

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Cryssy had indeed left the castle when she heard Voldemort command her to come. She hoped she was strong enough to keep her mind closed to him, if he found out she was no longer at his side he would kill her for certain. When she walked up to him, he grinned darkly.

"Tell me my daughter why your sister is blocking me?"

"I don't know father, I have not spoken to her since you appeared in her mind"

"You lie" He yelled as he slapped her had against her face again.

Cryssy felt her yaw crack as tears sprung into her eyes, he had just broken her jaw but if that is all he did she would make it out safely.

"Get out and bring her to me" he roared

"As you wish father" Cryssy croaked and she held her yaw carefully, hoping she could get into the castle unnoticed.

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Severus had started drooping when the fire in front off him roared up, he jumped a little when Remus stepped out off it and cursed him for awakening him so rude.

"Severus" the young man smiled "how are you?"

"Fine, now get out..."

"I don't think you are fine, Severus. You are making a mistake for pushing her away, she loves you to madness and you being with her only make's her stronger. Not weaker like you seem to think."

"If she was stronger, he would never have been able to get into her mind."

"Yes he would Severus; he would never have gotten in if she had not found out about Cryssy. The girl is powerful and smart, but when she saw Cryssy she saw herself. All her pain came back because Cryssy is as the same as her. She is abused by her father even though she does not understand it, Voldemort only uses her to get what he wants and further more she is disposable. Cryssy might not be physically abused but mentally she is and Angel saw that right away."

"Still that does not explain why the moment she was with me it all went wrong" Severus sighed

"Cryssy came into her life the same time as you did, would it not have been for your love Angel would not have lasted so long. She would have been overcome by Voldemort the moment she found out."

Severus simply stared at Remus, here he was telling him he had made a fatal mistake and he was right to... But he knew he had no hope off redeeming it.

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Angel looked at Harry stir; she hoped so much Cryssy was alright. Muttering softly into the cold air she smiled "I am here for you Cryssy"

Harry finally looked up and saw Angel staring out off the window "everything aright?"

"hmmm, oh Harry yeah I am fine, I wanted to go to bed though"

"Yeah me too, this chair isn't doing it for me" he laughed, there was no sense in asking her about Cryssy now, she seemed too much out off it. Her mind was probably with Snape, flinching he stood up he would never get used to that.

Angel smiled too, her mind was with Cryssy and she hoped the girl was alright. She had gotten the vibe, Voldemort wasnt happy but there was nothing she could do at the moment. Standing up she kissed Harry on the cheek before thanking him and walking to her room.

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"Severus the only thing you need to do is explain to her"

"You make it sound so easy" he sneered

"It is that easy Severus" Remus smiled as he pulled his old school mate up and pushed him into the fire and yelled Angel's room.

He felt himself pulled into the fire and sighed she was never going to listen to him.

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Angel stretched as she pulled open her door and shrieked when her fire roared up. Her eyes widening when she saw the defeated man in her fire place. She stared dumbfounded at Snape, "what are you doing here" she asked softly when he looked at her.

"Remus send me"

"Lupin, what can I do for Lupin" she asked now frustrated, the little hope she had off them talking was blown away yet again and she was in no mood to fight with him.

"He told me to talk"

She watched Severus with interest, he was here to talk and yet he seemed too distant to do anything. Sighing she shut the door and leaned against it. "And what are you supposed to talk about Severus" she said gently.

Not looking up, he sneered "about us" he had no idea how to tell her. He was mad at himself, he was mad at her and mad at Remus for doing this to him. He was mad at Angel because she would not listen, because she hated him, because she loved him. It was all a blur to him.

Angel looked up and smiled "there still is an us?"

"Apparently not" he snapped

Angel smiled, if there was one thing she understood it was this man, and his sneering meant one thing. He had emotions he did not want, or knew how to show. To her he was just a short sprint away.

His eyes flew up when something collided against him, sending him tumbling into the fire place. Dazed and dusty he looked at the woman curled around his body and felt her hang on with her life. "Angel" he finally managed to tumble after a long silence.

"Hmmmm" she smiled into his chest

"Mind if we sit somewhere else, this is not exactly comfortable"

"Sure" she grinned getting up without letting him go. When he finally sat on her bed she curled up against him and buried her head in his chest. "So mind telling me why"

"Why" he asked her, his voice now soft and gentle. There was no avoiding she still loved him and he knew she had forgiven him or else she would never hold him like this. He was overpowered by it; no one had ever cared for him this deeply. To him it was simply impossible and yet here they were, lost in their embrace and gently looking for answers in each others souls.

"Why did you push me away" it came out in barely a whisper, she was afraid to hurt or offend him.

"Angel, don't whisper we need to be honest, I should have been honest in the first place. I just thought that you being with me made you weak made it simple for the dark lord to get to you. I thought it was my fault"

"You know" she laughed, shaking him up "the world does not revolve around you..."

"I know... but still" he sighed...

"It was not your fault Severus, if it had not been for you he would have been in sooner. And with you at my side he will never be in again. It's just that Cryssy is my sister and I realized there is nothing I can do to help her; she is so much like me. It scared me to think I would loose her like I lost my older sister. I saw her die and can't go through that again that is why I gave up. Because I have seen it happen."

"I know" he said ruffling his hand in her head "Remus told me I was being stupid"

"He was right" she smiled, "just promise when you get it on your hips again you will tell me, instead off keeping me in the dark."

"Perhaps" he smiled laying his head on hers. He loved her and wanted nothing more than her; he needed her into the ends off the world. She was the light when his world was so darkened he could not see, and with her at his side he knew Voldemort could never get to them. Finally he understood that the two off them could overcome it all...

"Perhaps Yes" Angel laughed as she looked up.

"I will" he said smiling, he knew he would never do something like that again, he could not bear to loose her.

"Good" she smiled crawling up along his body and kissing him passionately.

Hungry he kissed her back and entwined his hands in her hair. Smiling she curled her hands around his neck and hugged him, "I am sorry, for making you think that it was you Severus"

"Don't be" he smiled "it was not your fault"

"I don't know... I mean..."

"Stop you silly girl" he cut her off "stop apologizing and just kiss me"

"Yes Professor" she purred before crushing her lips against his.

"I don't know why
You wanna to follow me tonight
When the rest of the world
With whom I've crossed and I've quarrelled
Let's me down so
For a thousand reasons that I know
To share forever the unrest
With all the demons I possess
Beneath the silver moon

Maybe you were right
But baby I was lonely
I don't want to fight
I'm tired of being sorry

Chandler and Van Nuys
With all the vampires and their brides
We're all bloodless and blind
And longing for a life
Beyond the silver moon

Maybe you were right
But baby I was lonely
I don't want to fight
I'm tired of being sorry
I'm standing in the street yeah
Crying out for you
No one sees me
But the silver moon

So far away – so outer space
I've trashed myself – I've lost my way
I've got to get to you
I've got to get to you

Maybe you were right
But baby I was lonely
I don't want to fight
I'm tired of being sorry
I'm standing in the street yeah

I've trashed myself – I've lost my way
I've got to get to you
I've got to get to you

Crying out for you
No one sees me
But the silver moon"

((Ringside: Tired Of Being Sorry))