Chapter 5 – I'm Destroying Myself
"More people died today. There was a fight at Diagon Alley. I found... Neville." Hermione closed her eyes and took a breath as she leaned her head back against Ron's grave as she spoke. She supposed she should probably look on the bright side. At least Neville's spirit wasn't deaf, dumb, and blind right?
But Merlin, the site of him. She shuddered. Even when she'd found Ron, it hadn't been enough to make her black out. There wasn't anything to make it recognizable as human, let alone her husband. But Neville's body was enough. His face was so twisted into a look of agony. Frozen forever in pain. It was a sight she'd dream about for years to come she was sure.
Hermione rolled up her sleeve. Her arm was a mess of cuts. She pulled her wand out of her pocket and pointed it at her arm.
"Interscindere ." She whispered.
Shallow cuts tore through her arm and blood spilled out onto the grass. It kept going, as if an invisible blade was slowly ripping through her skin. She sighed in pleasure, then in disgust quickly muttered:
"Desinere."
The cutting stopped but she kept bleeding. She watched as the blood lazily poured out of the cuts, ran down her arm and dripped onto the grass. It felt good but she couldn't stand who she was becoming. She was a horrible masochistic person. Her husband was dead, her best friend couldn't stand her, and yet instead of doing something, she sat here tearing up her arm, and enjoying it.
"I'm destroying myself and I can't stop." She took a breath, cast a quick spell to stop the bleeding and stood up.
Crunch.
Hermione started to turn around, but she quickly felt strong arms wrap around her. One snaked around her waist and holding her in place, the other pressed a cold, slightly wet, cloth over her nose and mouth. She breathed in through the rag and smelled...
Oh no, chloroform.
Then everything quickly went dark.
Audrey's notes -- Heres the thing I'm up to like chapter 7 on another site and I always forget to post here so I'm just going to stop. If you can't get the site for whatever reason I'll email the chapters to you. It won't let me post a link in here so if you want to keep reading it email me at and I'll send you the link okay?
Audrey