Chapter 9

The hour went by in a flurry, they had been struggling with several deadly plants, Angel kept shrieking and running off to Neville, he was her partner in Herbology and she was as bad in this class as he was in Potions. Though she needed it to become a potions Mistress she desperately hated this lesson.

An hour later she walked back into the castle sighing, she was covered in cuts and bruises and though she should go see Poppy she was in no mood to get another lecture about her Herbology talents. Slowly she trotted deep down into the dungeons, this time around their Occulumency lesson would be held in the dungeons in a place they had never been. It was well beyond the potions class room and even further then Snape's private chambers. As the air grew darker and colder Angel held up her palm and muttered "Lumos" as a little sphere off light danced on her hand. Sighing she walked further down, she felt like she was freezing this place was dark and dreary. She did not exactly get a happy feeling as she walked through the darkness. When she finally saw a door she whooped and knocked on it.

"Come in" Snape's full voice boomed out to her and she entered the room smiling, it seemed to be lit by a thousand candles and the fire crackling merely made it warm and cosy in this room. She actually found it romantic as she walked up to him and kissed him passionately.

Harry and Cryssy were not around yet so he wrapped his arms around her and smiled into her kiss, she had away off sweeping him off his feet when ever she did this and he had no choice but to obey her every command.

"What is this place" Angel asked when she took a breath off air

"This room is deep down in the dungeons and lies under the lake" he smiled as he brushed a strand off hair out off her face "and what happened to you?"

"Herbology"

"Ah" he smiled as he took his wand out off his pocket and flicked it lightly "Accio wound potion and cloth"

A small bottle hurtled his way and he grabbed it out off the air, She flinched as he softly dabbed the potion on her cuts but he held her firmly against him and smiled.

Her breath caught in her throat he was so gently she thought she would melt on the spot, she did not hear the door swing open but merely looked at him entranced as he carefully attended her cuts and bruises.

"Wow, is this class cancelled" Harry asked grinning "you two seem to busy with each other."

"Cancelled" Snape asked surprised "I think not"

Angel smiled, she was still leaning against him afraid to let go. She did not want to let go, this was her favourite place.

"Potter, Cryssy I want you to pair up again. Cryssy will be the one doing Legilimens trying to read Potter's mind"

Angel quirked an eyebrow and poked him "His name is Harry"

Snape merely stared her down, his stare so intense that she lost herself and opened up to him completely for the first time.

Harry smiled at Cryssy and walked off to the end off the room so they could practise together without disturbing Angel and Snape who seemed lost in each others minds.

her mother hit her as she cowered into a ball, she buried her head in her pillow as her mother screamed at her. She cradled her sister in her arms as blood pored out off Candia's nose her father was laying next to her lifeless. Her sister muttered softly as the last breath she had left her, Angel screamed into the rain as she saw her mother walk away from the sight. Now older she walked onto a graveyard, holding a broom and a map a small backpack on her back. She crouched in front off a grave and rubbed away some off the dirt on the stone bearing the name. A tear rolled down her cheeks when she read the names out loud "Here lie Jack and Candia Dean, may they rest in piece" rubbing her eyes she stood up again laying some flowers on the grave and softly muttering her goodbye's to her father and sister. Some time later he saw her fall off her broom as it buckled under her, a man picked her up and brought her to kings cross station where she caught the Hogwarts express. Sadly she took a seat in a cabin with a weary looking man, he smiled at her and helped her on her way to Hogwarts telling her he would help her and speak to the Headmaster off the school. Hours later she sat in Dumbledore's office together with Lupin and Albus as he told her she was welcome at the school and that she should not fear Professor Snape, because he was always like that.

Angel lay quietly in his hands, Snape had lost his grip on the floor and had sunken to the ground cradling Angel in his arms.

her first day at Hogwarts she watched him, her heart beating faster and her mind racing on the prospect off wanting him. Fourth year, the first time he really saw her bare shoulders and arms her friends staring transfixed on her arm afraid she was a death eater. Fifth year, her friends had accepted who she was and made her feel like she was apart off their family. He saw her struggle through her owls and how her heart fluttered when ever she walked into Potions. Sixth year, how she could not keep her eyes off him and her heart ached for him. How she needed him to be closer to her and how she tried her best to get into detention just to spend another hour with him. How she knew exactly when he had a death eater meeting and walked around her room worried and afraid for him. How her heart had jumped when he came back and she rushed down to the infirmary just to make sure he was not in it.

Sweat drops were forming on Snape's face, he did not want to stop even though this was taking a lot out off him

She lay sprawled across her bed, sweat was glistening over the bare parts off her body. Her dreams were mingled; Voldemort was trying to brake in. He tried to force her, make her hate. But then it twisted, Snape's dark eyes focussed on her and made her calmer. She dreamt off kissing him and all thoughts off Voldemort vanished, she had awoken the next day clammy and insecure. How she had walked downstairs and bumped into him smiling, knowing he was alright-. How worried she had been when Snape was cursed in the beginning off this year, how many tears she had shed because off what they had done to him. How she had run to Draco in search for help and how Harry and Cryssy had cared for her when she was no longer able to work out the solution on her own. How happy she was when he finally opened his eyes and was no longer in danger.

A smile was playing his lips; he knew it was almost over. She was letting go off him gently, bringing him back to the real world

she awoken with a start, some one was sitting on her bed the moment she saw who it was his lips were against hers. She was surprised and pleased, happy and anxious. She kissed him back with the same fierce passion as he gave her. And how much she feared and cared for Cryssy.

Snape watched her for a few seconds more, she had shown a lot off herself while he knew she could have kept it all away. She did not, his eyes had comforted her when she was in need and he knew now that from the first day at Hogwarts her world had revolved around him. He pulled her up into a warm hug; her eyes were still a bit glassy as she tried to fight the natural unease after Occulumency.

She merely curled herself up in his arms as her mind came back to reality. She watched Harry and Cryssy perform from her embrace and wondered how they were doing.

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Harry was trying his best to fend Cryssy off but she was simply to strong. The memories flashed before his eyes as he saw himself look at Cryssy with want and need in his eyes.

Cryssy frowned slightly as she saw how much Harry cared for her and gasped when she saw his memories shift from her to his parents. She shivered when she saw the green sparks and heard her father laugh coldly, every one had been right. He was an awful man and she did not want to be like him, never in her life did she want to turn into that. Sighing she eased out off Harry's mind and looked at him sadly, "I am sorry Harry"

He had been watching her face whenever he could and saw horror and pain when she saw his parents, he did not know why but he had to kiss her. And moving as fast as he could he crushed is lips against her and kissed her passionately.

Taken aback Cryssy gasped but soon fell kissed him back, entwining her hands in his hair and leaning into his embrace.

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Angel gasped and clapped her hand in front off her mouth, Snape who saw it to, was about to say something when her other hand clapped in front off his. Angel was frowning and telling him with her mind to do nothing; this was what they both needed this was what made Cryssy see she could love. A bright smile was spreading across her face and Snape saw it too, he locked his eyes with her for a brief second and smiled as she looked back at Cryssy.

He was seeing her in a way he had never seen her, love was seeping from her tiny body and she seemed so helpless in his hands. So small compared to him. Tears had sprung into her eyes as she smiled at Cryssy and Harry, you could see she was truly happy for them. But he did not care; he only cared for the woman in his hands. Still so young and yet desperate for him, he did not understand it. Maybe it was the bond they shared, maybe it was because they had both been abused as children and maybe she saw something in him, he and no one else saw. He did not understand why she off all the people in the world got through to him, why he did everything she asked. Why he had so much fun with her, he had not known what fun was before he met her but now his days had brightened quite a bit and he did not care who knew.

Angel trembled slightly in his arms and giggled softly, they looked so perfect together. She felt Snape's breath on her cheek and looked up, into his eyes. His smile dazzling her slightly, he looked different somehow... HAPPY and she knew that everyone would notice.

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"I am sorry" Harry said when he finally let go off Cryssy to take a breath off air.

"Don't be, please don't be" Cryssy smiled "I have been hoping you would do that"

"Me to… Cryssy" Harry grinned as he cupped her chin in his hand and kissed her again.

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Angel heard Cryssy and Harry exhale air and confess to each other that they wanted this, she however was too lost to think, to focused to react. Severus had pulled her into his memories; he needed her to see who he was.

A young boy, with jet black hair was curled up against the stone floor. His father was beating up his mother badly. A teenage boy with the same hair and a said expression was taunted by four others. One she recognized at once, he looked so much like Harry the others were harder to recognize but she knew at once these were the marauders. A fierce redhead caught his attention and Angel felt his heart flutter when she walked up to him. She introduced herself as Lilly but he sneered and drove her away

Angel was shivering as she looked him in the eyes, her heart was beating so fast she thought it would pop out off her chest

James and Sirius taunted Snape badly, Lilly stood up for him and yet again he drove her off. His heart skipped a beat whenever he saw her and yet he could not get close to her. His school was over, in a rash action he joined Voldemort, his friend Lucius had made him do it and he stupidly said yes. She saw how he cried when Lilly and James died, how he begged Dumbledore to forgive him, which he did. She saw how he risked his life every time to spy for Dumbledore, how he had grown strong enough to block Voldemort form his mind.

Angel made an effort to say something to comfort him as she felt his tears fall onto her face, but she only made strange noises as she brushed a tear from his cheek. His eyes were glassy and black, he was not done yet.

Snape watched they raven haired boy enter the great hall and shivered, he knew at once he was Potter's son and hoped with all his heart the taunting and hurting would not start again. Then he saw Angel, her eyes misty and sad, her black hair tied in a tail on her back and her clothes drawn up high up her neck and tight around her. He knew at once she was much older then the rest, because he had heard this from his headmaster. But that she was so beautiful he never imagined, she kept her distance from her classmates and he notissed how much they were alike. When Potter started following him around he knew he was at a loss, this was going badly and yet he knew he had to protect the boy.
Her third year, she started bighting up and started annoying him; he liked it because she was never hurtful and yet she always played tricks on him just to get detention. She was always gentle and calm when they were alone and he could never bring himself to let her do the things he bestowed on others. Her fifth year, his heart fluttered when ever she walked by. He thought he'd faint when he saw her gentle hands work with potions and her tongue stick out in concentration. She was a true potions artist like himself and that made his obsession even worse. Her sixth year, he followed her everywhere, always the need to pull her into the shadows and crush himself against her, to feel her lips against his. Seventh year, how caring and worried she had been for him. How she off all people would not leave him when he was so badly cursed. How she had flung herself around him when he was cured. He had followed her again, this time into her room. His eyes had melted to her taste, her room so elegant and yet dark. How he could no longer hold back when he saw her sleep and kissed her with all the passion off the last few years

Angel was cradling his cheek when she bounced up and flung herself around him, she was never letting go, na-ah never. "Thank you" she whispered as she kissed him so sweetly they floated on a thousand clouds above the castle.

"100 Years

I'm 15 for a moment
Caught in between 10 and 20
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are

I'm 22 for a moment
And she feels better than ever
And we're on fire
Making our way back from Mars

15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to lose
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live

I'm 33 for a moment
Still the man, but you see I'm a they
A kid on the way babe
A family on my mind

I'm 45 for a moment
The sea is high
And I'm heading into a crisis
Chasing the years of my life

15 there's still time for you
Time to buy, Time to lose yourself
Within a morning star

15 I'm all right with you
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live

Half the time goes by
Suddenly you're wise
Another blink of an eye
67 is gone
The sun is getting high
We're moving on...

I'm 99 for a moment
Dying for just another moment
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are

15 there's still time for you
22 I feel her too
33 you're on your way
Every day's a new day...

15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to choose
Hey 15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live"

((Five for fighting: A hundred years to live))

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Harry and Cryssy who had watched Angel and Snape so lost in each other decided it might be smart to take their conversation some where else. And were walking towards the door when they heard Snape speak up.

"Ahum" Snape grumbled under Angel's pressure "were do you think you two are going, the lesson is not over yet... I apologize for my strange behaviour" he sighed "how ever I still need to hand out your homework" He flicked his wand casually and his crooked writing appeared on the board "that goes for you to Angel" he smiled as he brushed a hair out off her face, both were still very weak from the magic they preformed and were not able to stand up so he simply stayed were he was.

She nodded as she looked at the board and waved her hands gently in the air, her bag flew towards her and her Parchment and Quill started writing on its own.

For next lesson you will need to practice blocking your mind, tell exactly what spells and charms you use and how you made them work. It must be written down exactly to the last word and I will expect at least an two paper essay

Angel groaned "more writing" she quirked an eyebrow and smiled at Cryssy "mind helping us up, I cant do it alone to weak and neither can he"

"Wow" Harry muttered, "That never happened when I was trying to fight you"

Cryssy laughed "Harry they weren't fighting each other, but trying to keep themselves in each others minds. That takes a lot out off you"

"I would say blocking is easier" he said absent minded as he plucked Snape off the floor.

"Nah" Cryssy smiled.

Snape nodded "if all, willingly takes out more off you because you are trying to block the natural reaction off throwing the other out" He nodded curtly to Harry when he helped him up and looked at the board.

Angel had grabbed onto a desk, her legs were wobbly and she was shaking all over. But she smiled non the less and waved a hand causing the book bag to hit her in the face as it flew towards her. Tumbling back she giggled as she landed on the ground again "this is soooo weird, I have never felt this shaky before"

Snape nodded as he shuffled over to her, even he had to admit this had never happened to him. But then again he had never shared this much with anyone before.

And the same was said for Angel, she had never shown anyone what her mother had truly done to her. Not even Harry knew this much about her. Suddenly Harry's mother popped into her mind and she realized how much Snape had loved her. How he desperately wanted her to be close to him and yet could not let her do so. So what was different now, she knew he loved her to death but did this mean he loved her more then he did Lilly. She sighed as Snape helped her up and desperately clutched to his robes to keep upright. He seemed to have recovered more then her and he helped her to his desk.

"Here eat this" he smiled when he pulled a wrapper out off his pocket...

"You have sweets around" she said her eyes widening as she unwrapped the dark chocolate candy.

"One... one sweet" he said rolling his eyes "and I happen to like chocolate thank you very much"

Angel stared blankly at him and blinked a few times before he plucked the chocolate out off her hand and fed it too her. She giggled happily and licked her lips gently brushing her tongue against his fingers.

His eyes flew open and he stared at the wall trying to hide the upcoming blush... she was making him blush just by licking the chocolate off his fingers.

Angel smiled and looked at Cryssy "I will see you later okay, there is something I need to discuss with Professor Snape about the lesson" she was being honest she did want to discuss what he showed her, as much as he wanted to discuss what he had seen.

However his mind was to busy trying to control his feelings at the moment and he waved absent mindly keeping his eyes focussed on the wall opposite Angel.

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"Sure" Cryssy smiled as she pulled Harry along with her, she understood Angel and Snape had shared their pasts and that they had to talk about it.

Harry who followed her outside whirled her around as soon as the door closed, he wanted to talk to her about this but he could not stop tasting her lips. They were se sweet to him, he wrapped his hands in her hair and kissed her gently.

Cryssy smiled into his kiss and hugged him, "I think I am falling in love with you Harry"

"Me too Cryssy, I mean I am in love with you"

A blush spread across her face when he slipped his hand in hers and both walked back up to the world off the living.

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Angel walked up to Snape and wrapped her arms around him "So you loved Lilly" she asked shyly

He let his eyes fall to the ground and nodded "very much"

"Why did you push her away then, I mean what makes me so special?"

He turned around in her arms and looked at her "You never stopped trying to get through to me"

Angel smiled, "I understand now, why you did what you did. Thank you for showing me"

"You mean you don't mind I had feelings for her"

"Not at all Severus, it makes you who you are. And seeing I love you I am happy for what Lilly did"

Narrowing his eyes he looked at her not sure if she was being sincere. But everything she said was verified by the look in her eyes, a look off love and admiration. "So why did you never act before, I mean seeing as you liked me since your first year?"

"I was afraid, I mean what would you have done if I stayed behind class one day and told you I wanted you to kiss me and love me"

"I would have scolded you so badly you would have ran out off my class crying" he said in all earnestly

"Exactly, I wanted to but I had no idea if you felt the same and had not the courage to risk it"

He smiled brushing her hair out off her face, "and now that you have me?"

"I want nothing else"

"Good" he murmured before placing his hand under her chin and kissing her. "Oh and that chocolate thing, please don't do that again you will drive me insane"

"Ah but that is my plan"

Laughing he kissed her again wrapping her firmly against him.

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Harry and Cryssy had walked into transfiguration a few minutes later, she had asked Harry to keep it quiet until she was ready to tell and he had smiled, "sure Cryssy, it's up to you"

Now both off them were trying to transfigure their chair into a desk as McGonagall had instructed them to do.

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Angel smiled from ear to ear when she finally bounced into Transfiguration. As McGonagall looked up she gave her the note Snape had written and smiled

"Its okay Miss Dean, sit down. Mr Finnegan will explain what we are doing."

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Minerva smiled at the young girl, she had heard from Dumbledore about her and Severus and even before she wondered how he had changed so much. He was still cold and distant but often there played the smallest hint off a smile on his lips. He flushed during diner and looked away quickly, revealing that there must be some one out there he liked but she never saw who he looked at. His eyes were dreamy on certain days and he barely notissed the students around him. She had tried to pry it out off him but he would not budge saying that she was mad to think anyone could love him, and yet whenever he said it something about how he said it, made clear that he was loved. When she finally could not stand it anymore she had gone to the love off her own life and talked about it. Albus had simply smiled (a bright twinkle in his eyes) "why Minerva... look at Angel" Surprised she had done so and saw the same in her than she did in Snape... she even saw her stealing glances at him whenever he was near and realised he was doing the same. She had laughed all night about how it had stared her in the face, but she was happy for them. They were perfect for each other and he seemed so much happier even though it was only visible in the smallest way possible.

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"Hi Seamus" Angel smiled when she sat down "so what are we doing?"

"Well we are transfiguring these chairs into tables, when that is done try making them into dresser"

"Cool" Angel laughed "thanks"

Seamus smiled and returned to his own work "your welcome"

As Angel flicked her hands towards the chair it turned into a table and she giggled somewhat at the ease it was done with. With another flick it was a dresser but her smile faded when it trembled dangerously... frowning she looked at the dresser as a black shadow drifted out off it, her eyes widened but it seemed to target Neville who had let out a high pitched scream, the shadow changed into Snape towering over the boy. He screamed but pointed his wand at the man non the less and shouted "Riddikulus" thrashing his wand in Snape's direction. Immediately Snape's his clothes turned into a green dress and vulture top hat, she looked at it for a few moments and then started laughing so hard she had to clamp the table so not to topple over. Several minutes and several confused yet dangerous stares off the boggart later she sank to her knees, tears streaming down her cheeks and her ears red from laughing. She transfigured her quill into a camera and snatched it from the desk to take a picture… just in time too because the Boggart was retreating into the dresser. When she finally managed to get up and sit on her seat she gasped to get back her breath and looked at the camera laughing all over again, some part off her was happy that the Boggart had not focussed on her because her deepest fear at the moment was that something was going to happen to Cryssy and Severus.

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Cryssy who had walked out before her when the class ended sat at the window ledge sighing. She knew she was in much trouble with Voldemort and yet she could not care less. She loved Harry, had done so from the first day she had seen him and now that she had him she was not letting go. Angel and Remus had been right, she was cable off love. She no longer fought her feelings and gave over to them, she wanted to be at Angel's side and decided it was time to tell her sister who she really was and why she was here. It would probably not be easy but she wanted to do it non the less.

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She was still laughing when class was over and ran to the library, past Cryssy at the window ledge to find out how to make a wizard photo out off the one she shot. She stopped and shrieked when Snape pulled her into a shadowy corner behind the books, struggling he kissed her fiercely, when she finally saw it was him she started laughing again, he was still kissing her but she hang limply into his arms, shaking so hard he thought his knees would buckle. When he finally looked at her frowning she laughed even harder clutching his robes and burring her head in his chest.

"What is wrong with you" he whispered

This however did nothing to stop her and he felt her hot tears seep trough his clothes.

"Angel are you alright?"

She let out a wail and a giggle and muttered through hiccups "I am fine, I'm… I'm just amused"

"Angel" he asked again feeling her shaking and trembling with laughter… the point was she had such a catching laugh that he had a hard time not to smile even though he had no clue what was going on.

When she finally looked him over she snorted and looked at his eyes.

"Is something wrong with my clothes" he asked uncertain sending her over the top again.

She crashed back into his chest and started laughing so hard that she sank through her knees again and tried to clutch her side while still holding onto him.

He himself was laughing now because with all her movement she was tickling him and he had a hard time keeping upright from that and her weight, finally able to move he sat her down into a chair and asked what book she needed.

As she looked at him she giggled and sank down into her chair pointing to a bookshelf "wizard photo's"

"Wizard photo's" he asked half quirking an eyebrow "what ever do you need that for"

Angel smiled and stood up placing the tip off her finger on his lips "that I can not tell you, it is a secret"

He looked at her tilting his head slightly to the side and nodded "as you wish"

Angel felt her heart flutter and kissed him on the tip off his nose before taking the book from him "I need to go" She loved to see him, and most off al she loved him.

"I Love To...I love to watch you when you lay down next to me
Though I see you every day you're still the sight I need
To feel alive
To feel alright
To feel so high
To feel like good things are in my life
I can not lie you stun my eyes

You stun my eyesI love to hold you 'cause you feel good in my arms
If I could, I'd hold you from today until tomorrow
Because it's nice
Because it's nice it Feels so right
It's like your body was made for mine
I can't deny my arms won't tire
My arms won't tire

You don't know what you do to my senses
But you've touched each and every one
And you've broken through all my defences
With your beauty, baby
I'm feeling things like never beforeI love to smell your skin because it smells so good
I'd put it in a bottle and I'd wear it if I could
You smell divine
You smell divine like Calvin Klein's Eternity
'Cause it's sweet and light
Inhale and I am bound to sigh

You don't know what you do to my senses
But you've touched each and every one
And you've broken through all my defences
With your beauty, baby
I'm feeling things like never before

I Love to… I Love to… I Love to… I Love to… I Love to… I Love to… I Love to… I Love to… I Love to…"

((Sharyn Maceren: I love to))

He rubbed his nose and blinked a few times "me too"

"See you later Professor" She laughed as she waved and walked off to the common room, once outside she sprinted up almost knocking over Lupin "Remus" she smiled delighted, "what brings you here?"

"You" he laughed "and Cryssy, I wanted to see how you are doing and I have some great news"

"Oh" Angel said "Well common then, I have the most amazing photo ever and you can help me develop it"

"Sure" he smiled as he followed her upstairs to the Gryffindor common room.

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Cryssy had walked back into the common room hoping she would find Angel there, she had not notissed Angel whirl by her minutes earlier. As she walked into the common room she found Harry sitting by the fire. "Hey have you seen Angel?"

"Nope, I think she ran the library after class" he smiled

"Ahh" Cryssy laughed as she sat curled up next to him and kissed him soflty.

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As Angel said the password she walked in, stumbled as usual and was caught by Remus who was staring at the same thing she was, Cryssy and Harry kissing "Uhm guys" she muttered "I don't know whether you want anyone to know or not... if not... we just saw"

Remus smiled the brightest smile ever and hugged Cryssy and Harry together "This is great"

"Remus" Cryssy giggled "you know"

"Yep"

"Uh Professor Lupin" Harry stuttered "your choking us"

"Oh" he laughed as he let them go "sorry, Angel did you know about these two?"

Angel nodded as she sat down at the table and opened her book seeing that making wizard photo's was quite simple she muttered a spell that darkened the room slightly and took out the film. With another spell it glared bright red and little pictures emerged from it floating across the room so she could pick the ones she liked. After selecting two pictures she waved her hand and the rest disappeared, Remus who had walked up said a spell and the pictures became solid sliding into a basked off water he had brought with him. After several seconds a form appeared and a minute later Angel was holding the pictures checking them over before returning to a fit off giggles.

"Look" she giggled as she gave it to Cryssy, the man in the photo looked like Snape and in the first photo he turned from himself into Snape with a green dress and a vulture top hat, in the second picture you could see the horror on his face and the glares he had giving Angel who lay crumbled on the floor clutching her sides and trying to pose the camera.