Move on easy?

It was dark outside and cold. The rain was crackling
hard against the windows. There had been a lightning.

The bad weather made her feel uncomfortable, but not
scared. She already had enough other reasons to be
scared. But it wasn't the fact that she was alone in
that house which was far too big for one person alone.
And it wasn't the fact that the weather was so bad and
she didn't know when she would be able to leave this
house again.

The only fact that really scared her was that she
didn't know how she should go on.

Everything seemed so senseless to her. No hope was
left since this morning.

She was sitting in one corner of the huge black
leather couch, her knees drawed up, her eyes sad and
dull.

She had made it her priority to stop crying. But
sometimes a few tears managed to leave her eyes and
run down her cheek. But she didn't even notice
anymore.

She had cried too many tears since he had to go to
prison.

But today was different. Different than all the other
days and all the other tears.

Although it had been 6 months by now she could still
remember the day as if it had been just yesterday.

Tony had put her well being above the country's and
was thrown into prison as a traitor. But all he had
done was saving her life.

That was when a hard time began for the two of them.

She tried so visit him as often as possible. Tried to
be there for him because she knew it wasn't easy for
him in prison.

Of course it wasn't easy for her either but she didn't
show it in front of Tony.

She pretended to be the strong wife, tried to make him
believe that he didn't need to care about her, that
she was alright.She played that role good, kept her emotions always
under control when she was visiting him. She would've
needed help too. But she always thought she owed him
this being strong. He needed her now more than ever.
Needed her to be the strong part of their
relationship. Anything she wanted was just to be there
for him and not caring about how she was feeling.

It continued this way for six other months. The trial
began during this time. Michelle didn't miss a day of
it. She was always at Tony's side. Motivated him when
he had the feeling that everything would fail.

She ignored it when he was rude with her because she
knew how hard it was for him, considering what he
could lose.

She missed him so much, especially when she was alone
at home. At home - where everything reminded her of
him. It was hard to sleep at night in the bed they had
always slept together - with one difference: the other
side of it was empty. And than there were those
thoughts every night that kept her from sleeping. She
blamed herself. It was her fault that Tony was in
prison now. That was what she always told herself.

Of course she never told Tony about that. That
wouldn't fit into her role as the tough wife. And Tony
wouldn't understand. He would tell her that she was
wrong, but nothing he could ever say could change her
mind.

All she hoped for was that the trial would end in a
good way and Tony would be able to come home again.

The days in front of the judge were exhausting.
Michelle just wished that this time of trials ended
soon. It was so hard to live like this, without
knowing what was going to happen next.

And then finally the day came. The day of the
judgement.

Michelle hadn't slept the whole night. She had been
too nervous.

Her legs had been shaking when she had entered the
courthouse and she was glad when she found her seat.

She knew that she would leave the courtroom today with
the certainty of how Tony's life would go on.

It scared her in a way. She was afraid.

What would she just do if he was sent to prison?

She didn't want to think about it. She blocked this
thought out as much as she could. But it came back to
haunt her.

From this moment on the time past real slow but
finally the judge raised his voice and announced the
judgement.

As Michelle heard it, her eyes filled with tears. She
couldn't believe it.

She fell back into her seat.

Then started to cry without stopping to face Tony.

Tony was led out of the courtroom looking back at her
while she was losing the control of her emotions for
the first time in six months in front of him.

It took half an hour for the others to calm her at
least a bit.

Everything had been in vain. She had gone through this
hard time to suffer now more than ever before? This
couldn't be true. Must be a nightmare.

She was shivering. Couldn't control her feet. Was
trembling with every step she took.

It was too much, she couldn't realize the situation.

"Come on, let's go" Jack said about 40 minutes after
the judgement. She was still sitting in that cold room
where, 40 minutes ago, Tony's life, her life - it was
their life together that had been ruined.

Without knowing where he would lead her she followed
him with shaking feet. Looking down to the floor
unable to stop her tears from falling.

Jack brought her into a room with just a desk, a lamp
and 2 chairs. Tony was sitting on one. His hands
cuffed, watched by a guard.

"You have 5 minutes", Jack said and gave the guard a
sign that he should leave the room. Jack followed him.

Michelle understood immediately that this was just an
arrangement Jack had made with someone who owed him a
favour.

She took the seat opposite Tony and reached out for
his hand but he didn't let her in.

"Tony," she started and tears flowed down her face. Her
emotions took control of her now.

She wanted to say something, but just couldn't. She
wanted to hold him so bad, but couldn't.

Tony just remained silent which didn't make it easier
for her.

She tried to calm down and started to speak again
although it was hard: "I can't believe this. They can't
tear us apart for such a long time. I don't want to
lose you" she was crying even harder now.

But Tony didn't react, he didn't even look at her.
Michelle felt like she was sitting in front of a
sculpture made of ice.

"I will always be there for you. Are you listening to
me? You should never forget that you're the man I love
and always will love and although it will be so hard
for me without you, everything I need is to know that
you're alive!"

She looked at Tony just waiting for any reaction.

But he didn't move and was just looking at his tied
hands.

Then, suddenly, he shook his head and looked right
into her face.

"Stop it Michelle!" he said with a rough voice, "It's
over. You don't need to keep standing beside me. Start
a new life with somebody else than the traitor that I
am. You're good at your job, you do it and forget me!"

He was yelling now.

"You know what? Maybe it's better for you, not having
to live with someone who was so weak to give up his
job just to save the woman he loves. Forget about our
life, Michelle! Just move on, do what you like!"

He was looking directly into her face, but avoided her
eyes, the sad look they gave him.

Michelle needed a few seconds just to realize what he
had just said.

Tony got up and knocked at the door. The guard opened
it immediately and led Tony away.

"No", Michelle cried. „Tony, wait. I need to talk to you.
I love you honey, I love you so much. Don't do this to
me!"

She screamed so loud that it could be heard through
the whole hall.

She wanted to follow Tony and the guard. But Jack and
another guard had to keep her back. She collapsed onto
the floor just crying.

"How could I move on? Tell me! You owe me at least THIS
explanation!" , she shouted, crying even harder.
Kneeing on the floor, not noticing what was going on
around her.

And now here she was sitting on the couch waiting for
answers. Why had he done this to her? How could she
ever forget about the man that saved her life, gave
himself and his career up to make sure that she's
safe. How could she ever move on easy?

By HelloKitty
Beta-Read: Jimmi24