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Guilty

„First you should take a seat", Michelle said and she began to get a little more uncertain. Her voice was shaking slightly, but enough for Jack to realise.

Jack did what she had said and sat down on the sofa. He glanced at her, waiting for an answer.

Michelle took the seat opposite Jack. She had decided that it would be better to sit while she told him because now she realised that it would be even harder than she had thought.

There was no optimism left in her voice and her eyes became a little dull.

She struggled with herself. Saying it out loud would make it feel so real.

It was just then when she realised that there were doubts again and she had sworn to herself to avoid doubts completely. So she took a deep breath and tried to look convinced again.

"Ok", she started. "This is not easy for me and it wasn't an easy decision", she started and Jack could hear that it wasn't easy. He could even see the fight she was fighting inside.

Although she had seemed so different just a few minutes ago, now she looked more like the old Michelle who attempted to play a role.

"Take your time", Jack said to make it easier for her.

"Ok, I've taken a major step today. After last night I decided that I can't go on like this. Not even a single day more. I've already gone too far and I can't stand this anymore. And believe me, if I had a choice, I wouldn't have done it, but it was all I could have done.

I don't want you to think that I'm cruel, or selfish or out of love. I'm not. I'm so in love I can't even tell you. But he's killing me with his behaviour. I've had to do something about it", Michelle said in an over-emotional voice and finally started to cry. It was only a few tears that ran down her face and she remained silent, but she was crying.

Jack reached out for her hands. He took one and tried to give her some strength.

Again she took a deep breath, tried to calm herself down and to continue.

"To make it short. I've visited my lawyer today", she said and paused to look straight into Jack's eyes as if she wanted to apologize, as if she wanted Jack's forgiveness and now he knew what she had done but nevertheless she said it out loud, "I've signed the divorce papers."

After she had finished this sentence she looked down, ashamed.

She felt so guilty, as if she abandoned Tony. More tears ran down her face and ended up on the floor.

Jack reached out his hand and lifted her head again. He looked into her eyes. She looked so sad, as she shivered and sobbed.

"Michelle", he said not able to say anything else. Although he had known it before she had finished her sentence he had to apprehend what had happened.

Somehow it was unbelievable because he hadn't ever imagined that she would go so far, although he didn't blame her.

"Jack", she started, still sobbing, "I still love him, do you hear me? Don't think I will ever stop, but I guess it's the only way I can change anything, my last way. I feel so guilty, but I didn't see a way out."

Jack could see how bad she felt, how guilty, as if she was a betrayer. But he could understand. He knew how difficult it was for her, but he understood her reasons.

"Michelle, Michelle…don't blame yourself. You're not guilty in anyway. And maybe what you did isn't right but it's the only thing you could do for yourself. I'll never think you're selfish or not in love, because I know that Tony will always be the most loved man. I saw you, how you were suffering, longing for him. You can never stop loving him, I know that!"

He took her into his arms to calm her down and to make her feel safe or convinced or just that she didn't feel alone.

"Maybe he'll never forgive and maybe I'll hate myself for doing this, but I have to take that risk.

The lawyer said it won't be a problem to make it fast, because of the circumstances. Tony will receive it per mail in the next days. And I'll see how he'll react. I hope he'll do the right thing."

First she had been so convinced, now she had realized what she could lose. She could lose her husband. But actually she already had, their marriage only existed on paper. She had to make it work again and she hoped that Tony would open his eyes before it would be too late.

If he wouldn't she'd probably feel guilty for the rest of her life for leaving the man who was in prison just because of her, the man she loved. The only one she had ever loved and always would love.