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Her last letter

The last time Tony had wanted to read Michelle's letters he had refused. He wanted to read them so badly but he wasn't sure if he could deal with the emotions they would cause.

He knew that if he were to read what she had written he couldn't stand being apart from her anymore. But there was no way he could get to her. No way he could smell her lovely skin or touch her silky curls.

He was daydreaming again. Thinking of her and how they had lived together. The only thought that kept him alive. And although he kept this distance between himself and Michelle she was the only one that made him go through this.

Again he had her letters in his hands. His hands were shivering, his eyes watery. Oh God, how much he missed her.

Slowly he sank down onto his bed, his back against the wall, his eyes closed.

He knew it, he had to do it. He couldn't keep himself anymore from reading what she had written to him. At least one letter, her last one. He had to know what she wanted to tell the last time she wrote him. He couldn't even understand anymore, how he had managed to keep himself from doing it for such a long time.

Carefully he opened the letter. He didn't want to damage it in anyway. It was everything he had from her.

He took the letter out of the envelope and unfolded it.

Immediately he recognized her handwriting. Clearly and properly. His heart skipped a beat as he felt like it brought him a little nearer to her.

He took a deep breath and began to read:

Dear Tony,

This will be the last letter I send to you. Not because I don't think of you anymore. I never could stop thinking of you in anyway. But because it breaks my heart to never get anything in response.

I don't know anymore how many letters I sent to you, I just know that always I hopped that this time you would send anything back. In the end I always got disappointed.

I know why you are avoiding me, and although I don't know if you will read this at all, I can tell you that none of your intentions work.

I'll never forget you, stop loving you or will even think of starting over with someone else.

If you'd just let me I'd be happy to go through all of this together with you but the distance you build up between us is harder than just the fact that you're in prison.

I just hope that you'll change your mind and let me get to you again. I miss you so much sweetheart. Even if you will keep your distance you have to know that I will always keep you in my heart.

I will always be there for you and love you.

Forever yours,

Michelle

Tears were streaming down Tony's face. Prison had made him hard, even harder than he used to be. But now he couldn't sit without showing emotions. He hadn't even tried to force the tears back. He had just let them out.

Every word had caused a pain inside his heart. The worst pain he had ever felt. He could see that she had cried while she had written the letter. You could see a few tears that had fallen onto the paper, dabbing the ink.

It broke his heart to know that he had caused her crying.

Of course he had never pretended that she was doing well without him, but he knew that she had cried the very moment when she had written this letter.

She had cried because she missed him. And because he never sent anything back. It broke her inside that he avoided her and finally it was so clear to him.

He knew now that he had been fool. That he should have read all this much earlier. That he shouldn't have avoided her.

Finally he knew all that.

He wiped away his tears and took a deep breath again.

For a moment he played with the thought of reading all the other letters as well but he feared he couldn't bear reading much more like this.

His heart hurt enough already.

But he had made a decision. It couldn't go on like this. Not one more day.

Tomorrow he would send her a letter.

He would apologise for all the pain he had put her trough. He would beg her to be on his side again.

And the best was, he would probably see her again.

He couldn't believe why he had been so damn stupid. How had he survived like this?

Why had he wasted the time he could have spent with her?

He wouldn't waste anymore time. He wanted her back in his life completely.

If she still wanted it too.