I'm just going to go in a different direction for a couple of chapters. Bear with me. I'm going to explore some unknown emotions between Ashley and Bosco just for now, I think, I don't know. Also, I feel like a goof, I put Bosco telling Ashley about his wanting Cruz to meet his Ma twice, I feel like such a ditz. Sorry about that.
P.S. I am soo happy that I finally get to use my all time favourite song Behind Those Eyes by 3 Doors Down. I recommend getting the song. It's AWESOME!
He knew he should have stopped her the moment he saw her leave with David but a voice in his head told him that she was a big girl and could decide things on her own. But his gut was telling him that he should do something but what? If he went to her, she would think he was a jealous idiot and to mind his own business, which he should be doing, but he felt like he needed to protect her.
Pangs of guilt nagged him if only he hadn't believed her when she said she would be alright, he should have made her talk to him, but no he let her go, only to leave with her ex-husband. The consequences would be world altering.
She awoke to the rays of the sun shining on her face warming her, she rolled over trying to get away from the bright lights, she dug her head deeper into the pillow. Her eyes shot open, she didn't recognize this scent, it was foreign and it wasn't Hayden's. Next it was her body that shot up, her eyes trying to find something familiar, the sheet fell to her waist, the cool air puckering her nipples giving her the hint that she was naked. Oh god what did I do. She looked around for her clothes, finding everything on the floor she quickly dressed not knowing where she was, the faster she could get out of here the better.
She walked out of the bedroom just as David opened the door, for a second she had thought about grabbing a weapon to protect herself. Upon seeing him, she still wanted to find a weapon, anger boiling inside of her.
"What the hell happened?" her head aching, her mind spinning. A hangover, she didn't remember drinking.
"Don't you remember my love?" what the fuck?
Her cell phone rang breaking the silence, she looked at the caller ID, Hayden, oh shit. How was she going to explain this? If she didn't even know what happened?
She ignored it, she needed time to figure things out.
"Answer Me!" she was just short of panicking
"Well, we slept together for one"
"What else?" she racked her brain trying to find any bit of detail from that night and found nothing.
"Nothin we talked, we drank, we had sex"
Her stomach started churning, she didn't know if she could make it to the bathroom or not
"Where's the bathroom?" she could feel it rising
"Over there" he pointed over her shoulder.
She made it with seconds to spare as her stomach contents filled the toilet
The first thing she did was go to the hospital to get a drug test, because she knew she wouldn't sleep with him again willingly. She wanted to wait until she got the test results back to tell Hayden, she couldn't let it go, he deserved to know. This was going to hurt him big time.
All day she thought about what she was going to tell him, and kept drawing up blanks, finally she decided to just tell him the truth that had to count for something right? At least she hoped it did. Bosco noticed she wasn't her usual self that day, one she allowed him to drive, and didn't mind it when he yelled at the other drivers and two she didn't speak. He figured something went on between David and her but didn't know how to ask it without being nosey. If he told her he'd seen the two, she would bite his head off as to why he didn't stop her. And that was a question he didn't have an answer to.
"Cat got your tongue?" he silently cursed as the vehicle ahead of him slammed on his brakes suddenly.
"No" at least it was something
"Have fun with Hayden last night?"
"No" getting information out of her wasn't going to be easy
"Is No the only word you know?"
"Fuck off Bosco" eww she was pissed now
"No thank you"
"Will you shut up?"
"Nope not until you tell me why your so quiet"
"Promise?"
"Absolutely"
"I slept with David last night" he half expected that, but it still was a shocker
"Willingly?"
"Just waiting on test results" as if knowing what they were talking about her cell rang, he wished she put it on speaker so he could hear to but it was really none of his business. As she was talking he thought about to the conversation they had, where she had told him she only slept with him because she was emotionally distraught, was it the case this time too? It had to be, he knew she would never willingly sleep with David, not after the pain he put her through. She ended the call and remained silent, something told him it wasn't the answer she had hoped for.
"Was that the hospital?"
"Ya" it had been fine when he gave one-worded answers but now, he hated them
"And?"
"No drugs were in my system" she looked out the window, signaling that the conversation was over but he was ready to end it.
"That doesn't mean that he didn't drug you, some are out of your system in hours" she didn't answer him, he knew she wasn't going to talk to him anymore so he remained silent, and he was going to remain silent until the end of shift, knowing that she needed some alone time, even if it killed him.
He was ready to scream at the top of his lungs by the end of shift, keeping quiet was something he didn't like. Being quiet allowed thoughts you didn't want to think about to creep into your mind. And most of the time that wasn't a good thing. Not with him anyways, they walked into together she still didn't say anything, and Bosco couldn't understand why t bothered him so much to know that she slept with David, she wasn't his girl. She was Hayden's, at least for now. The least he could do was be there when she broke, picking up the pieces, if she would let him.
"Ashley we need to talk" she would rather have dealt with the devil at this point, in a way he was the Devil.
"No we don't David" she tried to walk on but he grabbed her arm preventing her from moving
"Yes we do" he still had a hold of her arm, his fingers painfully digging into her flesh. She spun around to face him, causing his fingers to dig in even more
"Let go of me" she looked at him silently telling him she meat business
"We need to talk"
"It was a mistake, I don't know why I did but I did, it will never happen again. Let GO" the change in her voice made a few people look their way.
"I believe she said let her go twice now" thank god for Bosco
"This doesn't concern you" David spoke grimly. He dug his fingers in even deeper, making her wince from the pain
Bosco put his hand on David's wrist and squeezed pulling his hand of Ashley
"Leave her alone"
"Why are you always protecting her? You in love with her or something?"
"Or Something" his anger vibrating from him, and into his words
"Don't come near her again" she had enough and walked away she couldn't handle it. She was with Hayden but why did she feel something when Bosco stood up for her? Something that she had never felt before.
This wasn't going to be easy, she had done nothing but pace since she got home, her mind not staying on one thought for more than seconds. She knew Hayden would never forgive her, not this time. It was fun while it lasted though. She tried to keep her cool when he called earlier and told him he needed to come over. She didn't tell him why.
She opened her door after she heard the knock, seeing his face light up when he saw her made her want to cry. She never meant for this to happen, but there was no turning back it did happen. And now she had to suffer the consequences.
"I've got something to say and it would help if you didn't interrupt me until I was done"
"oook" he wasn't exactly sure what she needed to tell him, but he knew it wasn't good the last time she said they needed to talk, she broke up with him. He didn't think he could handle it if she did it this time.
"There's something that you should know" tears spilled over and down her cheeks this becoming harder every second she dragged it on.
"Hey what's wrong?" he stepped closer wiping the tears away from her
"I did something that I shouldn't have done and I don't know why I did it but I do know that I will never do it again"
You said I got something to say
Then you got that look in your eye
There is something that you gotta know
You said as you started to cry
I've been done the wrong road tonight
And I swear Ill never go there again
I've seen this face once before
And I don't think I can go there again
"Ok can you tell me what it is?" he saw it in her eyes, something that he swore he wouldn't go through again, not after Sherry, not after she cheated.
There's something I cant see
Something different in the way you smile
Behind those eyes you lie
And there's nothing I can say
Cause I'm never gonna change your mind
Behind those eyes you hide
"I really don't know why I did it, I'm not blaming anything except my judgment, my poor judgment. I don't know all the details but I slept with David" she walked away from him knowing that he wouldn't want to touch her.
As you turned to walk away
I saw another look in your eye
And even though it hurt like it did
I couldn't let this be a goodbye
"Can I ask what made you go to David in the first place? Wasn't I good enough?"
"I'm sorry, he was just there and I don't know I was upset and I just went with him"
You say that you're sorry
And you say that it hurts you the same
Is there something here to believe?
Or is it just another part of the game?
"What made you so upset?" she looked at him and for the first time she allowed for him to see something other than anger in her eyes, hurt, regret and embarrassment. But as soon as he saw them they were gone
There's something I cant see
Something different in the way you smile
Behind those eyes you lie
And there's nothing I can say
Cause I'm never gonna change your mind
Behind those eyes you hide
"My mother called to tell me she gotten married over the week-end, she explained it was last minute and she let it slip, meaning she meant to let it slip that my sister gave her away. I know I shouldn't feel left out, but I did, I wanted to be a part of it even though I wanted nothing to do with them"
Why couldn't she have just stayed alone? It would have been better. A lot less heartache and pain. The silence always scared her that meant her father had beaten one of them unconscious if no more screams could be heard.
"Please say something" she could understand if he never wanted to see her again or talk to her, she didn't want to let things go sour between them, not like this. Her tears were slowly drenching her shirt but she didn't bother to wipe them away. She let them fall.
"What do you want me to say? That it's alright, I forgive you? I cant do that"
"I know and I know that you probably never want to see me again, I can accept that but not before you know that I was starting to fall in love with you" she speed walked to her bedroom quickly shutting the door before she did something stupid. She fell against the door, never before feeling like her heart had been ripped out seeing him like this. She never came back out until morning; relieved he was gone by morning when she made the phone call to work saying she wouldn't be in today, a first for her.
She didn't bother doing any of her morning rituals she just sat down on her couch.
Something was bothering Cruz he was sure of it, he just couldn't place what it was, it could have been about Saturday but he sensed it wasn't that. She hadn't said two words to him since he'd woken up, and that was unusual, she would be biting his ear off, or licking it for that matter. But she did neither today. He actually got up the balls to ask her and she said she had things on her mind. Something big if she was ignoring him. Oh well.
He walked in by himself, Cruz saying she needed to be here earlier for something, he couldn't remember.
Ryans' called in sick today" the desk Sgt told him as he walked past him, great just great, he needed to talk to her and of all days to take a sick day, which she'd never done before so he was a little curious as to why she would call in sick. That was going to have to wait.
He was coming down the stairs when he knew why she called in sick, Hayden came in looking like shit, he'd only seen him one other time like that and well, they'd gotten into a fight over that. Ashley what the hell did you do? She told him. Hayden saw him but didn't say anything and went upstairs to Anti-Crime, something that shouldn't have worried him but it did.