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Chapter 4: Regrets

Gojyo was out of town now; he sits in a forested area. He was staring at the sky smoking his cigarette. He sighs as the rain comes down; he puts out his cigarette against the ground. "I'd bet Hakkai is worried out of his mind. But it's not his fault…I just need to stay away from him for a while."

The rain was coming down hard now; Gojyo closes his eyes and dreams once again.

Dream:

Gojyo was chained up against a wall, there stood Hakkai. The youkai was smiling, as he held something in his right hand. "Oh dear Gojyo…if only you were dead. Your dear mother could be alive living a beautiful life. Yet you live…the color of your hair…blood red of your birth's mother blood she shed. No one loves you…not even I."

The kappa tries to escape but the chain pull him back, "N-no! I will not die because of this!"

Hakkai laughs, "But you're already dead." A light came into the dream and showed the youkai holding Gojyo head. "You're dead inside Gojyo and nothing can save you! Not even I could give you the love you wanted! You're alone and dead Gojyo!"

Gojyo's name echoes through his own mind.

End

"Gojyo! Wake up!" The kappa wakes up instantly and sees Hakkai. The kappa sees the youkai and backs away, "Stay Away!"

Hakkai smirks, "Oh but why Gojyo? I should be here with you…you left me at home. I was crying for you…why did you leave?" The youkai kneels down and crawls over to Gojyo.

The kappa keeps backing away but he was on the ground so it was harder, he kept getting stuck to twigs, "Stop Hakkai!"

The youkai tilts his head slightly, "Gojyo…your lonely…please stay here with me. I'll get rid of the loneliness." The youkai smiles and continues to crawl towards the kappa.

Gojyo shakes his head, "No! I said stay away! I'm not lonely!" The kappa stops backing away and puts his hands around Hakkai's neck. "I'm not lonely! Leave me alone!" The kappa had snapped, he couldn't take the thoughts of his past anymore. He was at the final straw and if it meant killing Hakkai then so be it.

The kappa squeezes the youkai's neck, the youkai just smiles at the kappa, "Will killing me help your pain?"

The kappa answers by squeezing the youkai's neck harder, the youkai coughs up blood. The kappa couldn't control him self, finally Hakkai stopped breathing. Gojyo lets go of the youkai's neck and sits there looking at his hands. He was shaking; he couldn't believe he had killed Hakkai. The kappa starts to laugh, "Its over…he's gone…. I killed him."

Bam! A gun went off, the bullet was close to Gojyo's head. The kappa looks up to see Sanzo, he looked super pissed. "What's so funny kappa?"

Goku runs over to Hakkai and checks his pulse, "You killed Hakkai!"

Sanzo blinks and looks at the dead youkai, "But…I could have swore Hakkai was in his room." The monk points his gun at Gojyo. "Why'd you kill him bastard?"

Gojyo smiles, "I thought he could save me…save me from my past. But all he wanted was me to die. So I gave him his wish…by killing him! So I could live!"

Goku punches Gojyo, the monk shakes his head, "Goku…he's dead…. we lost him."

Goku had tears in his eyes, "Why! Why did it come to this?"

Suddenly they hear an evil laugh from the depths of the trees, "This is so entertaining!"

Sanzo points his gun in the direction of the voice, "Come out here! Who the hell are you!"

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Yea…this keeps blowing me away because I have no clue what's going to happen next…it likes my hands have a mind of there own. I think I'm losing it…heehaw

DarthRhi