Thank you all for reviewing. It means so much to me. I'm so happy. I love writing this story because I have a lot of sad drama songs so i get into it. So if you have sad dramatic songs, preferably 'Broken' by Seether featuring Amy lee. The song is heard on the movie The Punisher. I came up with the idea of this story while hearing that song. It goes well, especially in the future chaps. Thanks for returning. Hopefully you enjoy it when done....REVIEW. Sorry for the yelling. See ya aftr the story.

Here it is people the DISCLAIMER: I OWN NOTHING WHAT SO EVER. JUST MY DREAMS.

A little push can't hurt, right?

My body ached as I ran to absolutely nowhere. I needed to get rid of feeling the all too well known emotion…pain. I was confused and my head was clouded. How did he get through the wall I built protecting myself? It was sturdy, no signs of collapsing. How did he manage to get to me? I was guarded and shielded; nothing could get me, I made sure of that. Yet, his voice…his words slithered past the shield and hit me. I broke out of my thoughts as I noticed I stopped and stood in the center of a park. The park that revealed my identity, my whole life, and my memories. They still remained in the cold night air, flying freely with the cherry blossoms. I shivered and realized I didn't have my sweater on. I stared at the playground my brother and I use to play on. The memories were still fresh on my mind that I saw us playing tag on the monkey bars. I could still feel him near me, his presence. I looked at me and I was happy. I was 5 years old and I wasn't alone. I heard myself laugh at my brother's clumsiness, a sight that I have forgotten. My mother and father appeared at the scene and they were smiling, they were full of life. If I didn't know any better, I would've thought the family I saw before me never belonged to me. My eyes dimly lit at the scene and as I started to walk closer, the image faded into the dark night. I once again felt alone in the world. I fell again into the same misery and I lost them once again.

"At least I can feel happiness. I bet you forgot that feeling, huh?"

I did. I lost the feeling of happiness. I ran out of the park as fast as I could and as I did, the cherry blossoms blew around me as if urging me to stop. I didn't turn back, I left my family, my life and all the thoughts that stranger buried in my head in the park. I ran and ran, not once noticing the pain in my side. I ran to my apartment and walked unsteadily into my room. I closed the door and locked it, leaving me to drown in my own misery. I shakily made my way to my bed and fell limply on it. I laid there, not moving and just simply stared at the ceiling; the white, blank, ceiling. I realized that we displayed the same emptiness, the same blankness. I numbed my body, my feelings and my thoughts. I began the process of elimination. The memories must be erased and never restored. As I erased each one, tears fell from my eyes but my face remained expressionless. I went into a trance again and found myself shut in. I couldn't wake up from it and I didn't want to. I stayed that way for quite awhile and eventually I covered myself and fell into a somewhat decent slumber. In my sleep, I was elsewhere and I didn't know where I was. It was like I was in a coma or something. All I know was that time was moving on without me.

"No, no. Don't worry about it, Kaede. I'm sure she's alright. I know she's been locked in her room for 3 days. Please, don't get hysterical. Can you tell me what happened? Did you tell her something? No, it's not your fault. What did you tell her? You didn't? Then what happened? Kaede? Ka…yes, I'm coming to work. Alright, I'll be there, bye." Sango slowly put the phone in the receiver, slowly interpreting Kaede's hysterics. She sighed as she walked towards Kagome's door and knocked gently. "Hey Kag, please come out. You haven't eaten in 3 days. Why won't you come out? I'm scared Kagome. Kaede is hysterical. Don't you care? Not even a little? At least talk or something so I'll know if you're alive." No movement or anything to indicate she was alive or dead. "FINE. I'm going to work already. I missed work just to see if you'd come out but I guess now it was a waste. Kagome?" Sango pressed her ear against the door trying to hear any movements once more. She turned the knob expecting the door to open but was mistaken, it was still locked. She knocked again as she didn't hear an answer. "Hey Kagome, open up." Still no answer or a sound escape from the room. "Ugh, fine. I'll call later to see if you at least pick up your phone. Bye." Sango walked away from the room and before walking out the door, she glanced at her room once more with concerned eyes, then left feeling defeated.

I grabbed my pillow and covered my ear, trying to mute Sango's saddened voice. I rolled over making my back face the door and closed my eyes, wishing to disappear. All the guilt and hate was almost catching up to me, no thanks to that idiot. "Has it really been 3 days? Poor Kaede. How can I face them? How can I face him?" Realization dawned on me and reality started to sink in. I began to thing about it and grunted as I blocked my emotions. "That idiot. Who does he think he is?" And Sango, she wants me to open the door. I snorted, "Yeah right. I'm not opening my door. No one is allowed to come in." I once again felt as if I was giving into my pain. I never gave in or gave it a second thought in 3 years. How could his words put me in such turmoil. Even if I did give in to my pain, wouldn't that drive me t suicide? It's at the point where I can't just face it or admit to it. It's way past that line. Even if I wanted to live again, I couldn't. I waited too long, there's no going back. I'm stuck here, in the middle of nowhere. I realized thinking about it was not helping at all so I decided to give in to my trance, it's much easier. I pulled myself into it and remained there. I laid on the bed motionless and had my eyes open. It looked as if I had a panic attack or something of that sort. It was as if my soul left my body, it was the most beautiful thing I ever felt.

The sun was blaring and yet the air was cool. The day would be a complicated one, Sango thought. She made her way into diner and found Miroku holding back Kaede as she yelled at the white haired guy who was named Inuyasha.

"INUYASHA!! I told you not to do anything irreparable and you still did it anyway. Why don't you listen? Don't you realize this could mess her up for good? We could really lose her entirely. She barely looked at me and now she won't even come out of her room. I can't make her come out." She stopped as she sobbed into Miroku's shoulder. Inuyasha was seated in a chair in front of Kaede, his hands covering his face as he took the blows Kaede threw at him.

"Woman, it's been three days. Enough with your screaming. She's taking it too serious. Go yell at her." Inuyasha fought back. Miroku smacked his head at his comment. "No, Inuyasha. Not a good time to protect your dignity."

"It's okay, Kaede. Come on sit down." Miroku said as he tried calming the shaken woman

Sano looked at the group confused, trying to figure what they were talking about.

"NO. No, it'll never be okay again. She's gone. She's gone." She yelled as she hysterically pulled away from Miroku's grasp.

"What's going on here?" Sango asked as she ran to Kaede.

"Sango. Is she okay? How is she?" She asked as she freed herself from Miroku's hands.

"She was in her bedroom. She hasn't come out yet. What happened? Kaede, what happened that has her locked up in her room?" Sango asked afraid as she gripped Kaede's shoulders.

"It was Inuyasha. He told her things and she ran away. She didn't stay for her shift because genius scared her away." She sobbed.

" I just told her what you two have been telling her." Inuyasha clarified as he stood.

"What did you do to her? What did you say?" Sango interrogated as she tried to jump on Inuyasha but Miroku held her back. "She won't come out. She's isolating herself…" Sango trailed off as she pictured the worst.

"Feh, that's enough. She's taking this way too seriously." With that said he stormed to the back of the diner, found what he wanted and stomped out of the eatery.

Miroku held on to Sango and Kaede as they continued to sob.

"Wait a minute. What did he say? What did he get?" Sango asked as they all tried to interpret what he did. "NO!" They all screamed and ran after him. "INUYASHA, NO." Miroku screamed as he ran as fast as he could. "Which way did he go?" He panted as he searched for any sign of his angered friend.

"My apartment is this way." Sango said as she led the way.

"The Shikon Mori apartments. Here it is." Inuyasha said as he read the address card. He looked up at the white brick luxurious apartments and snickered. "She can't hide from me." He climbed up the stairs.

"Inuyasha!!!" Sango screamed as she ran up the stairs, followed by Miroku. They ran into the elevator and zoomed up to the 3rd floor. "You're friend better not have done anything," she said through clenched teeth.

"Hey, I'm not responsible for his actions. Kill him if you must, milady." He said as he raised his hands, indicating peace. As the elevator doors opened, Sango ran out and found Inuyasha banging on their door. "OPEN UP, KAGOME." He yelled.

"Hey!! Stop." Sango demanded as she pushed him out of the way.

"Open the door or I'll break it down." H ordered.

"You better open the door, Sango. He will break it down." Miroku said as he sighed.

"He'll just have to go through me first." She said through clenched teeth as she fiercely stared at Inuyasha's fired eyes.

"Don't tease me." He shot back as he looked down on her.

"Okay, that's enough. We are adults and we can handle this maturely. Sango open the door, you can't win." Miroku clarified.

"HOW DARE YOU SIDE WITH HIM. YOU IDIOT." As they argued, Inuyasha picked the lock and swung the door open in success.

He walked in, leaving the two arguing and searched for Kagome.

"WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING AT? ANSWER ME." She demanded. Miroku stared past her and pointed. She turned following his finger. "Wha…" She said dumbfounded as she saw the door wide open and Inuyasha standing in front of Kagome's room.

"KAGOME. I'm asking nicely. Open the door." He knocked hard.

"NO!! GO AWAY." Sango shrieked as she ran to him, pulling Miroku along with her.

Inuyasha saw Sango running to him and kicked the door open, finding Kagome wrapped in her covers, her back towards the door. He walked up to her and noticed her state. He picked up the motionless body and carried her to the bathroom. He carefully placed her inside the tub. He closed the door and locked it as Sango ran to him, causing her to stopped otherwise she would have crashed into the door. He then went to Kagome and turned on the cold water, making it fall full blast on her limp body.

"AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH." I screamed as I felt the icy water fall on me. I looked for a way out but was blinded temporarily as my hair was plastered on my face.

The scream caused Sango to bang on the door harder. "OPEN UP OR I'LL BREAK DOWN THE DOOR." She yelled frantically.

Inuyasha kneeled on his knees so he could be eye leveled with the girl. He smiled at the sight that was played in front of him. He noticed that even though her face was covered with her tangled hair, she was still beautiful. He moved the hair away from her face and searched for her eyes.

My eyes opened wide as I saw the perpetrator. "You!!!" I spat out as I tried to stand up but slipped. I gasped as I fell, I fell so fast that it felt like someone pushed the fast forward button. I waited for the fall for a few minutes gave up on waiting. As I opened my eyes, I was 5 inches away from the marbled tub. The thing that stopped me from hitting my head was Inuyasha's hands on my shoulders. I looked at him, his eyes more likely. He stared into mine, captivating me by his golden orbs. We both finally blinked as Sango's bangs started again.

"Get up you klutz." He grunted as he put me on my feet.

"I would've never slipped if you hadn't put me here in the first place. Which leads me to a hundred more questions. What are you doing? What is your problem? How did you find me here? Why'd you put me in here? What's so funny?" I climbed out of the tub unsteadily but he pushed me back in. "HEY. Let me go." He gripped my wrist tighter indicating he wasn't going to let me out.

"No. You and I will get to know each other better."

"What? Didn't think you finished the job 3 days ago?" I spat venomously. He sneered as he turned on the cold water again.

"OKAY. OKAY. TURN IT OFF." I shrieked, causing my voice to break. He turned it off as he laughed. I glared at him, anger boiling inside me.

"That a girl. Go on, sit. We're going to be in here for awhile." I slowly sat, keeping my eyes on him. His hands moved to my arms, making sure I wouldn't slip. I slapped his hand away and sat as far away from him as I could, my eyes still fired.

He grinned as I stared from a distance, he crossed his arms and placed them on the edge of the tub. His smile faded as I made my eyes expressionless.

"No, no, don't you do that. Snap out of it. I'll turn it on." He threatened. I looked up at him and just bore my eyes into his.

"Why do you do this? Want to tell me what happened?" He asked gently.

"I can't remember." I whispered as I looked down.

"That's bull and you know it. Maybe if you just talk about it you'll feel better…"

"FEEL BETTER? Feel better by remembering? Remembering as I watched my father get slaughtered and my mother get shot in the head? Wanna hear that? HUH?" I yelled with all my might as I stood up, staring down at him. "Guess what? Wanna know the funny part? I don't even know what happened to my brother. He could be alive for all I know. Or maybe the worst thing, he was probably tortured until he finally died." I felt the tears sting my eyes and the pain flow in my body. I fought and fought hard to block it, finally succeeding. I hardened my heart and my cold exterior stepped in. "And wanna know the best part? I don't feel any sorrow what so ever. I feel no pain. Don't you feel stupid now? Thought you could save me from my pain. Guess again, because you just lost." I said as I stepped out of the tub and pushed him with every word. I smirked as I saw his eyes widened. "What? Didn't expect this? Thought I'd cry in your shoulder?" I laughed and opened the door. I walked past Sango and some other guy. Something wasn't right, I didn't feel right. I felt disconnected from my body and everything started to blur.

"Kagome? WHAT DID YOU DO?" Sango screamed. I continued to walk away from the group and headed to my room but I started to feel light headed. My barrier was caving down and caving down fast. The emotions were attacking me all at once. I experienced all sorts of sharp pains and it was too much to take. All the voices were muted and everything went black.

"Hey, I was close to breaking her." Inuyasha said.

"She needs help. You idiot. You're not he…" Sango was cut off as Inuyasha pushed her out the way.

"KAGOME." Inuyasha ran to Kagome as her body fell to the ground.

Well, hopefull you liked it. Tried to make it long enough. Actually, i didn't try i just write. Anyway don't forget to review. review. (fading) review.