Here is the 6th chapter. Kind of...not my favorite. Hopefully, you find it to your liking because that counts and if you don't go ahead and tell me. Just be nice about it, please. Anywho, I just hope you like it. Please review.
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Stay Alive! Or why not just give up?
Sango placed the phone down and let out a sigh. "What's wrong?" Miroku asked worried as he entered the kitchen and placed a harmless hand on her shoulder. Sango prepared for the lecher to try something but was surprised as he did nothing.
"It's Kaede, she's pre-occupied. She needs me to take over tonight, she can't think straight. I have to go help her." She explained as she grabbed her coat. Miroku grabbed her wrist and grinned. "I'll help you." He grabbed his coat as well and opened the door for her. Sango narrowed her eyes at him suspiciously, waiting for the expected but was welcomed by the unexpected: he kept his hands to himself. A smile made it's way across her face, reaching her brown eyes. "Thanks. I'll need your help." She walked out of the door and Miroku followed. Silence made it's way to the empty apartment but was soon disturbed by loud noises.
SLAP "YOU LECHER. KEEP YOUR GROPING HANDS TO YOURSELF."
"Yep, she wants me." He grinned as he caressed the now swollen cheek.
Inuyasha stared after the girl that captured his heart. Why did he feel this way? He just meet her; but for some reason, he felt like he needed to help this girl, to protect her. What just happened? One moment, they were shouting, the next he kissed her and then stared at her retreating form in the dark. "Kagome, why won't you let me help you?" Maybe she didn't believe him when he said he cared for her. Anyway, it's too late. I've done everything I could think of. I even let my guard down and fell for her and for what? She wouldn't even let hers down, not even for a second. "Feh, see if I care. Who cares what that wench does? I sure don't." He put his hands in his pockets and made his mind. "I'm leaving. I've done what I was supposed to do. Kaede can't get made at me. Feh, who cares if she does. I'll just tell Miroku I'm gone." he walked to the direction of the apartment. 'She might be there. I'll say goodbye and wish her good luck.' He sighed as his heart didn't quite agree with his decision. "I can't stay with her knowing how I feel and for her not to feel the same way. This is the only way. I'll go talk to Kaede first and tell her about my departure." He turned the other direction towards the diner.
"Hey old hag, I'm outta here." He said gruffly as he walked to the backroom. Kaede quickly walked out of the dark room with wide, teary eyes. "Inuyasha, what? I don't understand."
"I'm leaving. I lost. I couldn't change her and I'm sorry."
"Don't go. We can work together. It'll work this time, I assure you…You don't have to go."
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry I failed and I'm sorry I can't stay, but you have to understand that I have to go." He walked towards the door but was stopped by Kaede's last words.
"You fell for the child, didn't you?" He closed his eyes and turned around, but didn't look at her in the eyes.
"That gives us a better chance to wake her up. Don't you see how this can make her change?" She said hopeful, but sounded too good to be true, pathetic even.
"I can't do that." He said as he shook his head.
"Yes, you can. Yes you can."
"You can't just play with my emotions like that Kaede, I can't do that." He said cuttingly.
"I know. I know and I'm sorry for suggesting it." She said sadly as she sat down on the booth. Inuyasha kneeled down and smiled a little while grabbing her hand. "I know how much you care for her and you know how much I care, but I can't stay here and eat myself waiting for her…" Kaede snatched her hand and got out of the booth. "You care nothing for Kagome, how dare you think about your feelings. Why can't you sacrifice yourself for her like we all did?" She yelled, eyes filled with angry tears.
"Lot good that did you. She's still running around lost and look, you sacrificed everything for her and nothing." He yelled as he banged on the table and stood up. "You don't think it hurts me seeing her like this? Well, it does. It hurts for me to say that I'm giving up on her, it's killing me slowly; but I can't do anything about it. I love her and she won't let me in. Like you said before, I can't force her to do anything and for that I'm leaving. I've tried everything and it all brought more pain. Tell me what to do and I'll stay. TELL ME WHAT TO DO DAMMIT. I need to know what else I can do." He shouted but it ended in a whispering sob. Kaede looked down and didn't meet his gaze which meant that she didn't have the answer to his problem. If she did, Kagome would be the happiest person right now. He turned around and walked out the door, leaving Kaede stare sadly after him.
"I can't deal with this anymore. Miroku better not be there when I get my clothes. I can't bear to face anyone right now. 'It's time for me to go. They can handle the rest.' He walked to his destination and looked up at the apartment, looked at Kagome's apartment. The room was dark meaning no one was home, not even Kagome. He sighed, then walked through the marble doors, leading to his last visit there.
"Hey Miroku, you here?" He said as he closed the door behind him. He let out a breath of relief and searched for the light switch. He was about to turn on the light but stopped suddenly as he heard noises coming from one of the rooms. He walked slowly and listened carefully as he made his way to the sound. As he got closer, the noise stopped and it was coming from Kagome's room. He walked in and the thing he saw made his heart stop beating. Kagome was sitting on her bed, caressing the gun as if it was her savior. Her eyes looked at it longingly; the sight was terrifying and sad. Her hair was a mess and her eyes were puffy from all the tears she shed, her cheeks were stained from it. She didn't look like Kagome, she looked…like a broken angel. She looked so lost and…insane even. The scene crushed Inuyasha's heart to even glance at his broken Kagome. She needed help, she needed help fast.
"Kagome, what are you doing?" He said eyes wide open, fear filled within. 'What is she doing? Why is she doing this? Kagome, please don't do what I think you're going to do?'
"Oh Inuyasha, what does it look like I'm doing?" She answered coldly and smirked. She rubbed the gun on her cheek and her eyes laughed at him as he held his breath. As he looked into her eyes, he saw that she was gone, her eyes were filled with emptiness…for the time being hopefully.
"Kagome, don't. Please listen to me. Don't do this." He begged as tears filled his eyes. 'Don't do it.'
"What for? You don't care for me. It was all too much, I can't stand it anymore and I shouldn't have to." She answered indifferently as she spun the gun carelessly around her finger. He closed his eyes and wished this wasn't happening. How can she be like this? How is she being like this? Did she really lose herself? Was Kagome Higurashi no more? He felt his temper rising at her cowardly escape. She wasn't supposed to be like this. She wasn't the type to commit suicide. He said so.
"What the hell? I didn't think you would do this. You're being weak. Quit running from your problems. I thought you were different." He roared, his eyes fired with mixed emotions. She narrowed her eyes at him and something flickered in the depths of darkness. Is she snapping out of it?
"I got an idea. Let's play Russian Roulette." She said as she spun the bullet holder and pushed it back in. Inuyasha's eyes widened as he remembered the way the game was played. 'She wouldn't.'
"I go first." She smiled as she put the gun to her head. She looked straight at him as if daring him to stop her. Her eyes laughed at the pain he was feeling. It was killing him inside and she knew it.
"1..." She said. Inuyasha couldn't believe what was happening. 'She wouldn't.' But his thoughts were stopped as she grinned daringly. 'Yes, yes she would.'
"Kagome, don't do this." He begged.
"2..." She said as she let out a giggle. 'She really lost it.'
"Put the gun down. I'm begging you."
"3."
"NOOO!!!" He yelled as he closed his eyes with his hands. He let out a sob as he heard the click. He took a deep breath when he heard her panting with excitement; he removed his hands from his face and placed it on his chest to just at least try to slow his heart down from beating 100 miles per hour.
"Dear god! You're not…not…Kagome. DAMMIT KAGOME." He yelled as he took deep breaths and leaned against the wall, still facing her. She opened her eyes and laughed.
"WOW!!!! Intense. Very intense." He stared at her disbelievingly. 'She's just there laughing like a child. Does she even know what she's doing? Does she know that one false move and she's dead?' He has to stop this and now before she kills herself.
"Enough is enough! Give me the damn gun Kagome." He growled at her.
"No I don't want to and that's not how you play." She pouted and stared angrily at him.
"Kagome please, give me the gun." He asked nicely, trying to win her over. 'She needs to snap out of it.' He began to walk towards her, hoping beyond hope she'll give him the gun.
"Now it's your turn." She said as she pointed the gun at him. He took a step back and his eyes widened. 'She's not serious. She can't be. She's really playing the game.'
"1..." She said as she arched an eyebrow at him. He took a step forward and reached out for her, tears began to fall from his face. 'God Kagome, do you really find this entertaining? Seeing me hurt for you? You actually pointed the gun to the stranger who gave you his heart. I don't care, I'll help her out of this…even if she kills me.'
"Kagome, I'll help you. Please let me help you. I know this isn't you. I'll get to the bottom of this, I promise you."
"You don't know me, and you can't help me. He said so. 2..." She said as she aimed straight at my head. 'I better tell her before she kills me, that way she'll know someone did care.'
"I don't care if you shoot me; I want you to know…"
"Sorry, your time is up. 3."
"I love you." He closed his eyes and stood in place, welcoming his fate. He squeezed his eyes shut as he heard the click.
"Inuyasha!" He snapped his eyes open and looked at the shaken girl. 'She snapped out of it.'
As the gum clicked, it felt as if I came back from a dream, from a nightmare. I looked at the gun I held in my hand. I whimpered as I quickly dropped it as if it was hot burning coal. I looked up at the person in front of me, his eyes were closed with tears still escaping from them. 'What am I doing? Was I trying to kill him?'
"Inuyasha!" I said in a sob as I tried to reach for him, but as I began to lift myself from the bed, I couldn't. My body went numb from the realization. He ran to me as I struggled to move.
"I can't stand up. I CAN'T MOVE." I yelled.
"Calm down, you're having an anxiety attack."
"Inuyasha, I could've killed you."
"Forget it, just calm down. Kagome, KAGOME." My head started to spin and I could see Inuyasha's mouth moving but nothing was coming out, not one sound. I tried to keep my eyes open but I was overcome by darkness.
I began to hear distant voices and I felt like I was gliding or something. Was I in a car? Why are we moving so fast? I slowly opened my eyes and was briefly blinded by bright lights. I tried to focus and noticed 3 unfamiliar people moving my bed…bed? Where was I? I was laying down on a bed, a bed on wheels. Where are they taking me? I tried to pick up my head to try to see where I was but was soon lowered by a hand. "It's okay Kagome, calm down." He grabbed my hand and gently smiled. "We'll find out what's wrong, I promise. Just relax." I nodded and closed my eyes. As we passed by some office, I heard the receptionist say "Tokyo Medical Hospital, how may I help you?" I was at a hospital, maybe they can fix me. As hope started to form, I fell into a deep slumber. 'Maybe they can fix me.'
Inuyasha paced around the empty waiting room impatiently. He growled out of frustration as he cursed out the nurses who didn't let him stay with Kagome.
"I'm sorry sir, but you are not a family member. You cannot come in, those are the rules." The nurse said as she began to walk away.
"But I love her, doesn't that count? Hey, HEY!!!! DAMMIT!!!" He roared at the retreating form of the apathetic nurse.
He sat down on a chair and moved more than 5 different angles in less than 2 minutes. He quickly stood up as he saw his friends approaching.
"Sorry, we came as fast as we could. How is she? Is she okay? What's wrong with her? Inuyasha ANSWER ME!!" Sango yelled as she grabbed Inuyasha's collar.
"Would you give me a chance to talk? Jeez." He released himself from her grip and sat down. "I don't know. They won't tell me and they won't let me see her either. All this waiting is driving me insane." He said through clenched teeth as he looked down at his hands.
"We must wait. They will tell us when they find the problem. We have to be patient. Remember, patience is a virtue." Miroku said calmly.
"You know what Miroku, right now I just don't give a damn." Inuyasha said exasperatedly. "What do you mean they won't let you in? Maybe they'll let me in. I'll go ask." Sango said as she walked to the front desk. Miroku placed a hand on his aggravated friend and smiled gently. "She'll be fine, you'll see. Everything will be fine. Calm down."
"How can I calm down when I know she's in the emergency room? What if we lose her?"
"It won't be your fault and that is not an option. Kagome is too stubborn, there is no way she will surrender to death's welcoming arms." He said as assured.
"That's what I'm worried about. Right now, she's capable of giving up and I can't be there to snap some sense into her." Inuyasha said as he gave a defeated sigh. Miroku looked at him confusedly and was about to ask him what gave him that conclusion but was interrupted by Sango's outrage.
"They won't let me in either. I can't believe this. We're practically family."
"Why didn't Kaede come? She'll be able to get in." Inuyasha said hopeful. Sango shook her head.
"I didn't tell her. That woman has been through too much and she might finally die worrying about this. I can't do that to her. She can't know."
"But what if she dies? What are you going to tell her then, huh? Hey Kaede, Kag finally moved on to a better life." Inuyasha spat angrily at her.
"What do you want me to do? I can't put Kaede through more trouble and you know it. If she finds out, her heart might just fail."
"Uh guys…" Miroku said.
"Keep out." "NOT NOW MIROKU." They both shouted and continued yelling at each other.
"Guys, the doctor is heading our way." Miroku said as he pointed to the middle-aged man. Inuyasha and Sango ran up to him.
"What's wrong? Is she okay?" They both managed to ask at the same time. The doctor smiled gently and looked at his clipboard.
"Well, she's recovering magnificently, very impressive for her condition…"
"What do you mean 'her condition'?" Sango interrupted as she bit her bottom lip out of worry.
"What's wrong?" Inuyasha practically yelled at the doctor.
"Exactly how bad is she? What's wrong with her?" Miroku asked calmly.
"Well, we did some tests on her and her system was filled with a type of drug…"
"WHAT?" Inuyasha yelled.
"She doesn't do drugs, she doesn't even take anti-depressants." Sango explained.
"What kind of drug?"
"A delusion drug. The drug serves a purpose, it takes a recent traumatic memory and plays over again in the mind. In Kagome's case, it got to the point where she couldn't tell if it was really happening or not. Would she stay in bed for numerous days?"
"Yes, she locked herself in her room once for the longest time when she was 16. She stayed in there for a 2 weeks." Sango whispered.
"Why did she faint?" Inuyasha spoke shakily.
"She fainted because her brain was controlling many things at once and also because it lost control of more important things. What I'm trying to say is that the time before she fainted, she was given a heavier dosage that made her memories attack her mind all at once. I've noticed that she puts herself through trances to escape it so while it was attacking her mind she tried to get into one of her trances. She ordered her brain to do complicated things at once. The drug was so powerful that it also managed to make her think it was happening again. She was under a lot of stress and experienced brief insanity. It caused her nerves to numb and the dosage was too much for her, she couldn't take it."
"Oh god, she could have died. Is that what your saying? She could have died?" Inuyasha said fearfully. Sango buried her face in her hands and cried. Miroku hugged her and told her to calm down.
"Yes. Kagome would have died if she didn't come out of her insanity state. All the things happening could have caused her heart to race…then to stop." Sango sobbed more into Miroku's chest as she heard the words she never wanted to hear: her friend on the edge of death. Inuyasha sat down and tried to get all the information he just heard. He couldn't believe it. He was right. She was going to die. If he left right then and there, Kagome would be dead right now.
"Don't worry, she is in good hands. We've done what we needed to do, now it's up to her to recover." He said as he excused his leave.
'Will she want to recover?' Inuyasha thought as he fell onto the couch.
Where am I? It's that dream again. There I am. What am I running from…or who?
A heavy panting and whimpering me ran through the fog.
"No, he…he can't…catch me. H…help….SOMBODY HELP ME!" She yelled as she ran to nowhere, called for no one.
"Kaaaaggggoooommmeee. No one can hear you, no one can help you." A devilish laugh was heard.
That voice, that horrible slithering voice. Who is that and what does it what from me? "Stop! Leave me alone." She yelled as she fell to her knees and cried out hysterically.
Then all of a sudden, everything started to spin and the scenery changed. I was myself this time. I was running again, this time through woods and from archers. They were coming closer , I could hear them.
"FIND THE GIRL. You can't run girlie. I can hear you breath, I can smell your fear." He whispered in a deadly laugh.
"No, why do you want me?" I cried as I tried to run faster.
"What are you running from Kagome? Aren't you tired of running? Stop running, it's time." Was that Sango? Sango's voice echoed through my ears and her voice soon changed from good to evil.
"You are so pathetic. You are such a child." She laughed. Sango? What is going on? Why is she being like this?
"Yeah Kagome, no one cares for you so why don't you just stop struggling?" Miroku said in a irritated tone. I don't understand. They said they were going to help me. How could they say that?
"Kagome, I love you…" Inuyasha! He'll help me, I know he will.
"Inuyasha, help me. They're trying to kill me."
"You didn't let me finish. I love making and seeing you suffer. You are worthless, do everyone a favor and die already. We're all tired of your 'Oh I can't feel anything, I'm broken.' Stop running, the arrows are coming." He laughed menacingly. 'Inuyasha? Why? I thought…they're right. Why am I still struggling? So they can be laughing in the shadows as I drown in misery? I should just give up. It's over, I should have surrendered a long time ago. It would have saved me and Kaede pain. Game over.'
"THERE SHE IS." The archers yelled.
"AIM…FIRE!!!" I stopped running and turned around just in time to see more that a thousands arrows coming straight at me. (I got this from Hero. I don't own it.) I closed my teary eyes and stood in place; I gasped as I felt it.
Inuyasha, Sango, Miroku sat in complete stiff silence; they all stared at the checkered floor, all in deep thought. The thing that caught their attention was a panting nurse who said the words no one expected.
"Quick, page the doctor! Higurashi stopped breathing!"
Well? How was it? This chapter may suck but don't worry, it's just an intro to where the most of the main plot starts to unravel. Things will be explained in the next chapters, it will all be sorted in different chaps. I don't want to out the whole main idea in one chappie. Believe me, you're gonna want to know what happened at the Higurashi shrine. Please review.